LoveStoned

LoveStoned
Chapter 5
Misunderstanding & Denial

Lavi didn't even break stride as he came bursting in through his front door and hurried up the stairs to his room. Only when he was confronted with the wall of his bedroom did he stop and finally breathe.

Warm…soft…oh god stop it!
He grabbed fistfuls of his crimson hair and yanked as if causing himself harm would blot out the memory of what Kanda's mouth had felt like.
Why? Why? WHYWHY? How did I even- and- it had too have been the situation- I would never…oh god. I can't go to school tomorrow. I can't sit and feel him staring at me all day.
He imagined Kanda's eyes, dark and unforgiving as they bore holes into his shoulders in silent accusation.
Oh god. Oh fuck…

Lavi threw himself down on his bed and gave a shudder. He was still really hot from the dance and the run and it didn't help that his mind refused to forget how Kanda's chest had felt pressed against his own and how it screamed out in defiance for being torn away so quickly from something it had found…
Lavi shuddered once more,
Enjoyable.

It was just a one time thing. An accident, a fluke at best. I'm not gay and I certainly don't like Kanda. I only invited the jerk because I felt SORRY for him!
The redhead groaned and forced his eyes closed. There had been absolutely no foundation for what had occurred. Nothing, zip. He couldn't explain it and quite frankly it was making his head hurt to try. Another groan rattled from his chest as he remembered his deadline for the damn Kendo article was coming up and he still had to finish the interview!

The image of Kanda once again flooded into his brain and he bit hard on his lip to get rid of it. To try and forget the feeling of the other boy's skin and heat so close to him…his face only inches away, his breath hot and rapid…close enough to.
Lavi's good eye flew open as he let out a yelp of utter horror.
"Holy shit!"
The redhead felt his face burn with shame he had given himself a hard on thinking about that stupid Japanese asshole.
A low groan escaped his lips as he pressed closed fists against his eyes and tried to think of something else, anything else.
Probably just the heat and the damn friction…nothing else.
Lavi turned onto his side bringing his knees up against his chest and squeezing his legs tightly together gritting through the pain it caused. His head was practically exploding as he tried to some how force himself into sleep.
Lavi hadn't even noticed he had fallen asleep until he woke up the next morning still fully clothed. His legs throbbed in protest as he threw them over the side of his bed the muscles aching and sore from his mad sprint almost half way across town from the club to his home. There was a faint knock on the door and a familiar pair of black ringed eyes peered in,
"Lavi? Are you not feeling well?"
The redhead's eye widened in surprise and he flicked a glance over to his clock.
Fuck…
"Well I…I had a rough night."
"Mmhm. I can imagine Lenalee called late last night almost in hysterics. She said you guys all went out and you just randomly disappeared and left that-what's his name-Yanda?"
"-Kanda." Lavi attempted to put in.
"Well anyway she was worried sick. I bet that kid really wants to hang around you guys now." Panda-san murmured sarcastically. Lavi chuckled, You have no idea.
"If you're not sick then I suggest you hurry and get ready, you can still make it if you get up now."
Lavi gave a puzzled look, "Get ready? For what?"
The short old man scowled, "Don't you and Allen religiously go hang out at the arcade around this time?"
Lavi swore under his breath which earned him a scolding look from his guardian.
"Yeah, okay. Do me and favor and call him and tell him I'll be there soon."
Lavi pulled his shirt over his head as the door clicked shut.
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"Lavi! Where did you go last night?"
Allen's dark eyes were wide with worry and curiosity as he ran over to the older boy.
"We were freaked out; one second you and Kanda are right there and the next-"
"Kanda…where did he go after I left?"
Allen's white eyebrows furrowed, "He hung out with us…he was actually really nice I think he must have been just as shocked as us. When the lights came back on he was really pale…did something happen between you to?"
Lavi rubbed his chin and sighed, "I-uh-I guess we-"
His mind raced desperately trying to find an excuse when there was a very simple answer he could give. All I have to do is say we had a fight! That's it! Ready set Go!
Before Lavi could speak again Allen patted his arm, "That bad huh? Did he say something about your parents again? I was surprised you didn't rip him a new one for saying what he did before…"
The redhead gave out a breath of relief and looked up at Allen faking hurt, "Yeah. We had a misunderstanding nothing to bad…I just wonder if he'll ever talk to me again."
Lavi's eye widened as he realized what he had said and Allen's eyebrows rose higher in shock as his lips parted, "Wait what?"
Why did I say that…I don't care if I ever see that guy again after what I did. But-at the same time…
"Er well…I have to finish that interview remember!? It will be a hassle if I have to force him into it."
"Oh I see!" Allen laughed, "But Lavi, if you really like him now it's cool. He's an okay guy I think- you know deep down?"
The redhead nodded simply and walked through the automatic doors to the arcade.
"C'mon! Let's go play some Tekken, I'll deal with Kanda~chan later." He chuckled darkly.

The weekend concluded simply the most excitement coming from when Lavi phoned Lenalee later on to apologize for leaving so abruptly the night before. She was very kind about the whole situation in fact she had acted so calmly about it the redhead had been half tempted to tell her what had happened on the dance floor with Kanda but at the last moment decided against it.
Boy or girl, Lenalee didn't need to know about his odd feelings when she herself lived every day in the vague hope that one day he would feel that way about her. Lavi sighed heavily as he turned off the shower head and ran a hand through his wet hair.

He would have to face Kanda today at school.
Okay…"Hey Kanda sorry about last weekend no hard feelings?" Fuck what am I going to do?

Each class felt surprisingly shorter then normal, even his boring history class felt like a breeze as his math hour drew closer and closer. Lavi had avoided the long haired boy in the halls by merely changing his normal walking schedule so not to go near the advanced placement hallway. One major problem Lavi had come across was of course the senior locker hall where both of their lockers were.

But nothing could prevent their inevitable meeting in Senior Math. Lavi walked into the classroom, eyes fixed firmly on the floor. He was almost there, a few more steps and he would be safely seated in his desk with his back turned to Kanda who sat one row across from him and one desk down, but a small flicker of curiosity forced him to lift his one good eye only to have the wind sucked out of him when it met directly into piercing dark orbs.
Kanda was staring at him. Kanda was staring at him intently.
Lavi swallowed and took his seat.
The redhead instantly found he could not possibly concentrate on the lesson the teacher was writing down on the board. Casually he cast a glance over his shoulder to find the other boy was still watching him. Realizing he had been caught Kanda's face flushed red and he instantly gave a flustered frown as he scribbled on his notebook rapidly ignoring Lavi.

A small smile tugged at the corner of Lavi's mouth, He's all embarrassed how cute…it's odd. I'm the one who kissed him and yet he's acting twice as nervous and freaked as me.
The redhead rubbed his eyes and suppressed a groan, But I guess I would be flustered too if some guy planted one on me while we were being forced to grind hips.
This though wiped the smile off of the redhead's face and he forced his attention on class and tried to ignore the dark gaze that was once again burning into his back.

The bell rang. A mercy on what seemed to be on both boys part as Kanda rushed out through the back classroom door and Lavi pushed his way through the front. Wary looks were exchanged between Lenalee and Allen during homeroom and all through the lunch hour it seemed their friend was constantly looking over his shoulder for the Japanese boy.

"Lavi?"
Lavi didn't even turn to face Allen as he spoke to him as he cast a quick glance around the lunch tables again. The kendo team was sitting in their normal spot but there was an empty seat between them where Kanda usually sat.
Did he skip out because of me? I really must have scared the fuck outta him but I guess I can't blame him. I practically assaulted him.
"What's up Allen?" for a moment he thought he saw the familiar dark hair but it was a false alarm.
"…are you gonna eat that?"
"huh?"
Lavi finally turned to see Allen pointing timidly to the little container of vanilla pudding on his tray.
"Yeah whatever." He quickly mumbled tossing the pudding cup to his white haired friend and turning his back on them again.
Lenalee gave a strained smile as she attempted to start conversation, "So it's 'Cockroach' hour this weekend at the club, you know, they close down the place for a couple of days to nuke the roaches but if you squash one you get a free drink! Doesn't that sound fun?"
The redhead gave an absentminded nod that was cut short as he finally saw Kanda enter the cafeteria. His breath caught as he watched the other boy scan through the tables just as he had been doing and stop when his dark eyes caught Lavi's pale one.

Kanda jumped as if startled and scowled before hurrying back out the way he came.
"Lavi? Did you hear Lenalee?" Allen asked opening the pudding cup without much enthusiasm anymore.
"Yeah-Um I'll catch up with you guys later" Lenalee's lips pursed into a tight line as Lavi picked up his tray, dumped it in the nearest trash can and half jogged out the door.
Allen gave Lenalee a sad look, "Are you okay?"
The short haired girl swallowed as if she was suppressing tears, "…I don't think so."

The hall was empty it seemed causing Lavi to sweat under his breath. He turned just in time to catch a glimpse of long black bluish hair disappearing behind a corner.
Yes.
Lavi grinned triumphantly and ran to catch up. Kanda was halfway down the long hall of lockers now, half jogging as Lavi was without looking behind him. A rush of adrenaline pumped through the redhead's veins and he couldn't help but smile as he chased after Kanda. It was becoming a lot harder then Lavi had thought though as Kanda, not panicking, attempted to loose his pursuer by turning randomly down the halls. The redhead took a moment to catch his breath as he turned past another corner. The hall was empty yet again.
Shit where did he go?

"What do you want?!"

Lavi whipped around and there was his Japanese boy, out of breath and face flushed he was giving him a smoldering glare as he too attempted to catch his breath.
"I-I uh-"
It was then in horror Lavi realized he had spent so much time thinking about having to talk to Kanda he hadn't really though of anything to say.
He looked at the other boy sheepishly but there was no mercy in those cold dark eyes.
"I know what this is about and-"
"Look I just thought I should talk to you abou-" Lavi spoke over Kanda.
"-and believe me if I was in your situation I would be just as-"
"-freaked you out but I just wanted to-"
"Apologize."
They said in unison leaving both of them suddenly silent. Lavi's pale eye opened in shock as he stared, "What?"
Kanda's face flushed, "I said I was sorry. I guess someone must have bumped me and I…I didn't mean to do it okay?"
Lavi raised one crimson colored eyebrow as his brain digested what Kanda had said. A small chuckle escaped him followed by a severe bout of laughter. Oh thank god…thank god damn god. He thinks…haha he thinks he kissed me. Oh this is too good to be true.
All the anxiety seemed to fall away from Lavi as Kanda furiously blushed and flustered up, "I don't see what's so funny! Do you have any idea how mortified I was when you ran away like that?" the dark haired boy mumbled keeping his eyes averted.

The redhead had seized laughing now and his eyebrows came together in a frown. There was something in Kanda's tone…guilt? Or maybe rejection? All Lavi knew was seeing him, eyes down and his face red with embarrassment made the pang in his chest return and suddenly he wanted to kiss him just as he had done before.
"Look…don't worry about it. I though-well I wasn't angry or anything it's just I thought maybe someone had bumped me into you and you would kill me."
He laughed lightly lying easily as he rubbed the hair at the back of his neck.
Kanda shook his head, "Accidents happen, it's not like a kis-" he stopped mid sentence and rephrased, "-like that actually hurts anyone."
There was an awkward silence as Lavi stuffed his hands down into his faded jean pockets and Kanda kept his arms tightly to his sides.

"Well…at least it's all settled now. I'll see you in class, I'm going to lunch."
Lavi smiled tightly and nodded as Kanda turned and hurried once again back down the hall towards the cafeteria.

It's all over…everything worked out to my advantage but-
Groaning he slammed a fist against the lockers
Why do I feel so...unsatisfied? Wait that's not the right word.
Lavi sighed heavily and shook his now sore hand as the bell rang. He had English with Lenalee next and he was suddenly very much aware of how he had ignored them all day.
Great, I'm in for it.

He was right of course. Lenalee offered no smile to Lavi as she greeted him indifferently.
After class she pulled him off to the side and crossed her arms a sure sign of the lecture to come.
"Lavi, Allen and I are worried. You and Kanda seem to not be getting along to well and…the way you acted during lunch makes me think there is something else going on. Is there something you're not telling us? Are you guys-fighting?"
She punched the air lightly and Lavi chuckled, "No, it's not that. I was just trying to apologize to him about what happened last weekend no biggie. It was just hard to get a hold of him."
Lenalee gave a confused look, "You have the same Math class."
"I missed him."
"You're locker-"
"I missed him."
The short haired girl sighed irritably, "Whatever. So are you coming?"
"Coming where?"
Lenalee sighed again and half threw her books into a blue bag, "The Roach night at the club? Or will Kanda be busy that night?" she laughed with a hint of bitterness and Lavi frowned, hurt by her sudden coldness.
"What's wrong with you today? You've been on my case since homeroom."
Her dark eyes flickered angrily, "I was just thinking if you had spent this much time trying to get my attention as you did Kanda I would think you had a crush on me! I mean you invite the guy to party with us, and then bail! Then you constantly talked about him with Allen, he told me so don't deny it, and now you spend all day looking around for him like some kind of love struck-"
"You don't want to finish that sentence."
Lavi's knuckles were turning white as he clenched his fists staring at his female friend with hurt and anger, "Is this because I turned you down? God damn Lenalee he's a guy this is ridiculous."
Tears flooded into her eyes, "I'm glad to know you think my feelings are so ridiculous!" without another word Lenalee grabbed her bag and rushed out the door.
Lavi groaned pressing a fist to his forehead, Real nice Lavi, way to diffuse the situation. Hell I had no right really…I'm pretty sure Lenalee might actually have this whole thing nailed. What if I do like him?

The next morning Lenalee seemed to still not be speaking to him. Allen had apologized first thing during homeroom swearing he had only mentioned the fact Lavi had talked about Kanda and had no idea where she was getting all these ideas.
"I mean talk about far fetched. She seems to think the reason you won't go out with her is because you like Kanda Yuu? Don't worry about it Lavi, she just had her feelings hurt she'll be okay after awhile. She's just still holding onto the idea that maybe you'll change your mind about her."
The redhead smiled at his friend and ruffled his hair Isn't it bad enough I felt like shit for rejecting her? Well then I ran into Kanda..., "Yeah! She'll be fallen for you in no time beanie so I don't need to worry!"
Allen flushed and pushed his hand away grumbling something inaudible under his breath. Lavi smiled letting Allen get to his locker he leaned against the wall and looked around lazily until something caught his eye. A large group of girls were standing around a set of posters hanging from the student billboard and a few guys. "I'll be right back."
Allen nodded in acknowledgment and Lavi walked slowly over to the large group with mild interest.
"What's goin on?" he asked a short pretty girl with curly blonde hair.
She smiled ecstatically, "Kanda Yuu is throwing a party at his mansion can you believe it!" a girl next to her agreed, "I know right! I thought he was such a stuck up jerk but now that I think about it he is kind of a hottie."
Lavi grimaced at her choice of words but smiled again as he caught sight of Allen wading his way comically through the girls.
"Wh-hats going on?" he stammered flustered by the large amount of girls crowding around.
"Looks like Kanda-chan is havin a party this weekend. Seems like everyone is invited…you wanna check it out? I think it says there is a pool and free food."
Allen frowned, "Lavi…aren’t you forgetting what else is this weekend? The Roach night, Lenalee wanted us to go with her."
"I don't really think I'm on speaking terms with her still." He shrugged, "I guess this is a good alternative. You want to come?"
"Nah, I'll go hang with Lenalee." There was almost a happy note to his tone so Lavi put on his best pout, "Now you're making me feel bad. I guess it will be nice, yeah I'll go to Kanda's party and get hammered and you and Lenalee can go on a d~ate."
"W-what?!"
Lavi grinned as he pushed forward and ripped down one of the extra posters and stuffed it into his pocket.