And Dare Not Speak Love's Name

And Dare Not Speak Love's Name


A Fanfiction By SailorLight22


Chapter Four - An Unfortunate Circumstance


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Chapter Four already! Isn't that just wonderful..


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Komui smirked at his young companion's expression, resting his back easily against the side of the bath. "Well?" He asked, his eyebrow cocked expectantly.

Lavi eyed the innocently smiling man skeptically. "Why'd you offer me wall side if you were gonna sit there yourself?" He asked, shaking his head. Komui smiled brilliantly, ignoring the boy's exasperated tone.

"Well, it's not like you couldn't sit here.." He motioned to his parted knees, trailing a finger on the surface of the water. "I could wash your back!" Lavi rubbed his temples, resisting the urge to laugh.

"All right, have it your way," He said, stepping carefully into the tub. Flinching at the heat, he sat down gingerly. "Well, it's warm anyway.." He muttered, settling down comfortably. He smiled when he felt the older man's arms wrap tightly around his middle. Leaning back, he sighed contentedly. "At least you make a good bath pillow," He laughed, "I think I could fall asleep, baths always make me tired."

Komui nodded. "It's very relaxing. I can't remember sharing a bath with anyone since I came here, though." He snorted quietly. "Actually, I can't remember sharing much of anything. I guess I was afraid to get involved with the people here, since I only stayed to be with Linali."

Lavi smiled. "Well, I can understand wanting to be with your only family, but after a while it would have been good to be with other people too. We're supposed to be like a family here, aren't we?" He sighed quietly. "I'm not supposed to see it like that, but there's still something between all of us here. It's more than just work, isn't it?"

Komui nodded, laughing. "It is," He admitted, reaching for a nearby washcloth. "I don't think I can honestly deny that some of the people here are more than just acquaintances." He soaked the cloth carefully, retrieving a bar of lightly scented soap from the tub's edge. Working up a satisfactory lather, he shifted slightly to reach around his lover's shoulders.

"May I?" He asked, smiling at the boy's tired nod. "Good. Now, just relax hm?" He drew the soapy cloth over the firm skin, taking his time as the redhead sighed in pleasure. "Feeling a little better, Lavi?"

The younger boy hummed appreciatively, nodding. "Feels good.. Need me to move?" He asked, making to sit up. The scientist let him adjust his position, fighting a shiver as the Exorcist's sudden movements brought his rear into almost-contact with his groin. Laughing quietly at his thoughts, he lathered the boy's shoulders, his hand moving firmly enough to avoid tickling the sensitive nape of his lover's neck.

Lavi sighed, reaching carelessly up to remove his bandanna. Dropping it to the floor, he lifted his hands to his hair, his fingers working through the loosened strands, mussing it into a more relaxed style. Komui nuzzled against the thick softness, slightly surprised at it's texture.

"Do you want to wash it?" He asked, taking in the strangely exciting scent. Lavi wrinkled his brow in momentary thought, finally nodding.

"I guess I might as well.. Mind if I use your shampoo?" The older man huffed quietly.

"Oh, yes. My bed, fine. My bathtub, certainly. My shampoo? Now that's completely off limits." He finished washing the boy's smooth back, dipping the washcloth into the water to rinse it. Wringing the liquid over his lover's skin, he carefully removed all traces of soap before nudging the younger male forward. "Don't be ridiculous, of course I don't mind."

Relathering the cloth, he quickly washed himself, laughing at his companion's slightly indignant expression. "Actually," He murmured, resting his head lightly on the boy's shoulder, "I rather like the idea of you smelling like me." He caught a stray drop of water from the other's neck with his tongue, his mouth lingering on the wet skin teasingly. "Is that foolish?"

Lavi shuddered, shaking his head jerkily. "N..no, I don't think so.." He gasped quietly as the older man found a particularly sensitive place, biting his lip to stifle a moan. "I don't think I mind having your scent on me, I love how you smell.." He winced, aware of the inherent sappiness of his words. "How are we going to do this?" He asked, desperate to change the subject.

Komui snickered quietly, fighting back a lecherous response with immense difficulty. Feeling the man shake, Lavi glanced warily over his shoulder. "What are you thinking about? And don't you dare say 'nothing', 'Mui. I know you better than you think."

The scientist shook his head, laughing. "Oh, it wasn't quite 'nothing', but it wasn't that bad.." Nudging gently against the other's backside, he smiled at his sudden jerk. "You're the one who pointed out that I'm a dirty old man, after all." He slid back slightly, still grinning. "Besides my obvious perversity, you can do whatever you like." He gestured toward the nearby cabinet. "There's a cup in there, if you'd rather not lie back."

The younger boy shook his head. "I don't mind it, if you don't." He didn't wait for a reply, sliding forward until there was ample room for his intended method. Leaning back, he trusted his companion to steady him if need be as he tipped his head back. Working his fingers through his hair, he soaked it thoroughly before sitting up.

Watching the rivulets of water trail down his lover's back, Komui wordlessly offered him a small bottle, smiling brightly when the boy shook his head. "Tip your head a bit," He said, pouring a generous amount of the slick liquid into his hand and closing the lid. Lavi complied readily, closing his eye with a pleased sigh at the feeling of his partner's long fingers against his scalp.

"Mm, that feels so good," He mumbled, smiling. "You're wonderful with your hands, 'Mui.." The man blinked at his seemingly innocent words, raising a suspicious eyebrow at the timbre of the younger male's voice.

Tugging gently, he urged the redhead to lean back, rinsing his hair well before helping him rise. "I don't think I need to wash mine, I got it last night.." He said, trailing off when the Exorcist snickered. "Don't you start," He said warningly. "The offer to bite you still stands, you know." Lavi glanced back at him in mock horror.

"You mean, you'd put your awful, scary mouth on little old me? Oh, whatever will I do?"

Komui scowled, suppressing the obvious reply in favor of an arched eyebrow. "You'll make this absolutely delicious sound, and then I'll have to replace the fixtures on my bathtub."

Lavi stared at him in astonished disbelief, then curiosity. "Why would you have to.." He trailed off, his eye narrowing. "Quit sniggering and explain that to me, please? I know you didn't mean it like I think you did."

The older man waved his hand weakly, clearing his throat. "That depends on what you thought I meant, doesn't it Lavi?"

The boy flushed hotly, averting his face. "Hmph. Don't be coy, you know exactly what I thought you meant." He shook his head in completely false dismay. "And here I was, actually hoping that you wouldn't be as much of a tease after a decent lay."

Komui smiled, dragging his unresisting body flush against himself. "Whoever said I was teasing? You should know better than anyone that I don't say things like that if I don't really mean it." He nibbled gently on the side of his lover's exposed throat, relishing the sharp whimper that his ministrations produced.

"What did you think, Lavi? You're awfully hot all of a sudden.." He continued his slow progress, his mouth leaving a trail of light red marks in their wake as he moved down the line of his shivering companion's neck to his shoulder. Sucking briefly at the edge of the boy's collarbone, he hummed contentedly at the beginnings of what seemed to be a rusty purr of arousal from his lover's arched throat.

The Exorcist's breath became increasingly ragged as he leaned into the man's hold, his hands clenched tightly to prevent himself from grabbing the cold edge of the tub. "That's..Still teasing," He whispered, closing his eye with a quiet moan. "Are you going to actually do something, or are you just going to keep fucking with me?"

Komui laughed softly, his hands moving lower in time with his husky reply. "Why, yes. To both." He stroked the inside of his lover's thigh, his fingers inscribing small circles on the slick skin. "I would have thought that the answer was obvious, Lavi." His free hand splayed on the boy's abdomen, holding him tightly as he lowered the other still further. "I was planning on doing something in the not-too-distant future, actually. If by 'something' you meant you."

Lavi nodded rapidly, leaning his head on the older man's shoulder. "Yes. What do you mean, not-too-distant? Now is looking pretty damn good to me." He sat up, tucking his legs beneath him carefully as he reached for the drain plug. Hearing his lover's sharp breath, he looked back, taking in the wide-eyed expression of open lust on the man's face. "Oh, would you look at that.. I'm so sorry."

Komui swallowed heavily. "I am looking, believe me."

Lavi smirked challengingly. "Oh, were you? I hadn't noticed. Besides that," He shifted his weight, holding the tub's slippery edge carefully. "Was there anything else you wanted? I'd hate to leave you sitting here by yourself while I go out there and get nice and comfy in your bed."

The older man gaped at him stupidly for a moment, then nodded. "There was something, but it can wait until later.. " He watched the boy's expression carefully, noticing his slight wince as he rose from the cooling water. Lavi reached for a towel, turning to look at the scientist as he also rose to leave the tub.

"Can I borrow a shirt too, 'Mui? It's chilly in here and I don't exactly carry an extra.." He smiled winningly, his face taking on a mischievous expression. "Or you could maybe.." The man took in his appearance, from his damp hair and flushed cheeks to the towel now slung carelessly low on his hips.

"Of course you can, Lavi." He replied, his voice steady despite his sudden jolt of aroused longing. "Is there anything else you need?" The redhead's eye widened appreciatively as the taller man stepped toward him to retrieve a towel for himself.

"You have no idea," He said, grinning. "But I really wouldn't mind explaining it."

He cast one final glance at the older man's face, raising an eyebrow meaningfully as he exited the room. Trusting that his lover would accompany him, he walked to stand by the bedside, his smile widening as he heard the sound of the older man's voice as he riffled through his closet for a shirt.

"I hope you don't mind if it's a little old? It's pretty comfortable though.." He emerged holding a well-worn pullover, it's original deep emerald color faded slightly with time. "Is this good? It's shortsleeved, so it should fit.." He paused, seeing the younger boy's expression. "Lavi? What's wrong?"

The redhead looked from the proffered shirt to his lover's anxious confusion, his eye wide. "How.." He swallowed hard, continuing. "How long have you had that?" He asked, his voice oddly strained. The older man frowned thoughtfully, still mildly alarmed at the younger male's reaction.

"Ah, close to ten years, I think. I'm sorry, I'll find something else.." He smiled sheepishly, turning back to his still open closet. Lavi stepped forward quickly, grabbing his arm and halting his retreat.

"No! It.. It's fine, I'm sorry!" He took the garment, tugging it carefully over his head. "See? It's great, don't worry about it. So, what was the thing you wanted?" Changing the subject abruptly, he smiled. "Does it have anything to do with needing another bath?"

Komui eyed him warily. "Lavi."

The younger boy shook his head firmly. "It's nothing, just drop it, please?"

He looked away, his gaze settling on a neatly framed picture hung above the bed. "Is that you?" He asked curiously, climbing onto the bed for a closer look. "It is! I'd recognize Linali anywhere.. How old was she, five, six?"

He glanced back at the older man playfully, his eye roving over the still damp expanse of his skin. "I didn't know that you used to keep your hair long.. Why'd you cut it?" Komui laughed quietly, shaking his head.

"I got tired of it. Besides that, I think Linali-chan was almost six there, if memory serves we were coming back from a party for one of her friends." He smiled ruefully, lost for a moment in recollection. "It wasn't too long after that, when the Order brought her here. Our parent's were the only family we had, so when they died I had to take care of her.." He sighed, shaking his head. "It was a long time ago, you've already heard about that, surely."

Lavi nodded, biting his lip. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to bring it up." Komui waved his hand quickly, frowning at his sudden nervousness.

"It's fine, I don't mind you asking. After all," He smiled crookedly, amused. "Aren't we supposed to learn about each other? I'm sure there are things about you that I don't know. Maybe some deep, dark secrets?"

Lavi nodded, relieved. "Well, maybe one or two.." He grinned suggestively. "Like how I tend to prefer crazy older men, or the fact that I really don't mind it when you grab my.." Komui laughed loudly, cutting him off.

"Now, now.. It won't be a secret if you just tell me! I'm supposed to figure it out on my own, right?" He eyed the younger boy's pose lecherously. "Actually, I don't mind trying a little interrogation.. You do realize that you're still mostly naked, don't you?"

Lavi glanced down at himself in mock-astonishment. "Well, what do you know.. I think you're right! Wow, nothing gets past you!" He looked up slowly, still smiling. "But other than your incredible powers of observation, what are you going to do about it?"

Komui blinked at him, his surprise genuine. "If I didn't know better.. But you wouldn't be teasing, would you?" He crossed the space separating them quickly, his eyes never leaving the younger boy's expectant face. "Because teasing when you're like that is a very bad idea, Lavi."

The other's eye widened innocently. "A bad idea? What definition of 'bad' are you going by, 'Mui? I was just asking.. Besides, you were the one that started it!"

The older man moved closer, joining his smaller lover on the bed. "Oh, I did, did I? Well, if that's how you see it, fine." He pressed his lips briefly to the side of the Exorcist's smirking mouth. "Since I started it, I suppose it's up to me to finish it, hm?"

He took advantage of the other's indignant huff, cutting off any retort the boy may have made by crushing their lips together, his hands roaming over the redhead's barely-clothed body as he molded himself against the younger boy's back. Pulling away, he nipped the other's shoulder. "I know you aren't teasing, though."

He allowed his breath to fan gently over the boy's ear, deliberately lowering his voice. "I know, because you're far too intelligent to do something so foolish, aren't you? You wouldn't be here, like this," He jerked the Exorcist's hips back against his own, drawing a startled whine from his throat. "..without knowing what could happen.. What I might do to you."

Lavi made to speak, his hands gripping the solid form of the headboard for support, but the older man silenced him with a growl. "Do you know, Lavi? Do you have the slightest idea what I thought, seeing you like this?"

He ignored the boy's indrawn breath, continuing his line of questioning undeterred. "Didn't you say that you were sore, Lavi? Because you don't act like it concerns you.. Maybe I should let you think about it a little more, before I forget that this is new to you.."

His lover's breathing sped up considerably, his racing heart clearly noticeable through his borrowed shirt. "If I weren't so nice, I might just do you anyway," He said, tightening his grip slightly. "But I don't want to do that to you, because I really doubt that you'd like me very much in the morning."

Komui gasped as Lavi ground against him impatiently. "Stop telling me what you might do and do it!" He growled, looking over his shoulder. His hands clenched tightly against the wood of the headboard. "I'm not going to break, Komui! Stop treating me like I don't know what you want!"

He leaned his head down, welcoming the cool feeling against his face. "I told you, I want this! Please, why won't you...!" He cried out, surprised at the firmness of his lover's grip.

Komui leaned forward, pressing his chest to the boy's arched back. "I remember.." He whispered, biting down on his lover's skin gently. "You told me that you'd be just like this, if I asked." He smiled at the Exorcist's ragged moan. "When you said that.. You wouldn't believe how much I wanted it, even though I said I didn't."

Lavi struggled for breath, straightening his arms to support himself. "Did you? I wondered if you really thought about it, when you left that night.." He panted quietly, lifting his head. "I did.. You were shaking when I asked, like you couldn't stand it." He pushed back, spreading his knees even further. "Please..Don't make me wait anymore! We've already done it once, why is it different now?" He demanded, his voice catching in his throat.

"Do I have to beg for it every time, 'Mui?" He whispered, shaking his head. "After all this time, I have to convince you?" His voice dropped sharply. "Was.. the first time not good enough?"

The scientist gasped at the soft pain in his words. "No, Lavi!" He wrapped his arms around the other's waist. "It's not that, not at all!" Yanking the Exorcist back, he broke the boy's hold on the headboard. Lifting him, he shook his head. "Don't ever think that! I loved how you felt.." He closed his eyes, remembering the feeling. "So hot, and.. God, Lavi.. You really can't tell..?" He pressed forward, shuddering. "You don't know how much I want you right now.. Having you on your knees, screaming for me...Begging me to fuck you harder.." He tapered off, biting his lip. "I loved that," He whispered, nestling against his lover's nape in shame. "Just hearing you say it was enough to drive me crazy.."

Lavi moaned, leaning into the older man's embrace. "It was even better after that," He said, stroking his lover's thigh. "You were so good.. I want to feel like that again.." He whispered, searching for the scientist's hand. Locating it, he guided it to his lips, licking the tip of one finger. "Please, 'Mui? I'll do anything you want.."

He nipped the other's finger gently. "Do you want me to suck you? It felt so good when you did it to me.." He turned, pulling away to meet his lover's heated gaze. "I'd love to see how you taste.." Komui choked, images of the boy kneeling between his thighs swamping his mind.

"N..No, you don't have to do that." He mumbled, shaking away the thought. "I wanted to make you feel as much as I could, to show you how much I needed you.. That's why I did that, Lavi, Not because I expected you to do it to me." The younger boy laughed quietly.

"What about me? Maybe I want to make you feel the same way.." He sighed, nudging against his lover slowly. "I promise not to bite you.." He urged, pushing the man back. "I'll do whatever you like, just tell me how?" He whimpered, closing his eye in embarrassment. "I want to, because I need you too, 'Mui...So much.." Biting his lip, he leaned over his now supine lover.

"Please?" He murmured, moving back to the man's waist. "I want to make you feel like I did, help me?"

Komui moaned, nodding. "Anything you want Lavi.. Just having you here is good enough for me.." He paused, his heart pounding relentlessly as Lavi bent down, drawing his tongue wetly over the warm skin before him. "La..vi..!" He arched helplessly into the contact, gripping the blankets firmly. "Oh God, you.. Aah!" Words failed him as the boy hummed contentedly, his hands joining his mouth in exploration.

"Is this right?" He murmured, glancing upward briefly. Seeing his lover's furrowed brow and tightly closed eyes, he paused. "Am I doing something wrong?" The older man shook his head, taking a breath.

"No.. It's perfect, Lavi." He laughed quietly, his voice strained. "I think it may be a little too good, if anything.." Opening his eyes, he met the younger boy's anxious gaze. "You don't have to do this now, there's plenty..of..." His words trailed into silence at the Exorcist's intent stare.

Lavi held his look, his expression serious. "I know there's time, 'Mui," He said, leaning down without breaking eye contact. "But right now, I want to do something for you. Can't I do that?" He averted his face suddenly, sighing. "I've wanted to do things like this for a long time, but you wouldn't let me.. Don't you want it, even just a little?"

The scientist leaned up, catching the boy's face in one hand. Urging him to turn back, he frowned at the tense set of his lover's jaw. "More than just 'a little', Lavi.." He pushed himself upright with his free hand, only stilling when their eyes were a scant inch apart. "I've wanted you for so long that I can't remember what it was like not to." He shook his head silently when the Exorcist made to speak.

"Let me finish, please?" He said, waiting for the other's grudging nod. "I didn't want to admit it, even to myself, so I hid it under anything that I could. After a while, I had to face it.. But even then I tried to tell myself that it couldn't be right." He laughed humorlessly, sighing as he continued. "I hated it, because I was afraid that one day, I wouldn't be able to tell you no. You always tried so hard, but I couldn't stop feeling like you were trying to prove something to me."

Again, he waited for a nod of confirmation before proceeding. "Did you think that I doubted your feelings? I knew that you wanted to show me how serious you were, but it always made me feel like you were afraid." He shifted his hand to cradle his lover's head, pulling him forward for the briefest of kisses. "I didn't want to say no, Lavi. From that very first night, I craved you. I wanted you so much that I couldn't stand it, but I couldn't take what you offered because it meant so much to you. I wanted to love you the same way, enough to give you everything."

He smiled suddenly, closing his eyes. "I should have told you that, because even then I knew that I could love you. It didn't really make sense to me, but I could almost see it being real." He looked up, catching the boy's wide-eyed stare. "I shouldn't have been afraid, Lavi. I don't know why I didn't see it for what it was, unless it's just the way I think."

The younger boy blinked at him, his voice shaky as he tried to respond. "How you.. What do you mean, see it for what it was? What..?" Komui smiled at his confusion.

"I mean that I work in facts, Lavi. Proof and certainty, that's all. When I thought about things like 'destiny' or 'fate', I needed to have something to back it up." He moved closer, feeling the boy's rushed breath on his cheek as he inclined his head slightly. His lips brushed teasingly against his lover's as he spoke, finishing his impulsive speech with the only thing that made sense. "I should have seen that you were all the proof I needed."

The younger boy gasped at the lancet of emotion that followed the man's words, but the sound was muffled against his lover's mouth as he proceeded to kiss him thoroughly, his hands stroking the suddenly damp skin of the Exorcist's face. Pulling back, Komui sighed quietly. "You'll never have to convince me to do anything, Lavi. I don't think I could tell you no if I tried, not anymore."

He wiped gently at the wet trails on the boy's flushed cheeks, noticing that his breath hitched enticingly when the older man's thumb caught the edge of his lip. "If there's anything that you need from me, tell me. Everything I have is as much yours as it is mine, if you want it."

Lavi stared at him mutely, shaking his head without breaking the man's light hold on his face. "I..I don't want anything but you," He managed, blinking rapidly. "But I'm the same! You've never asked me for anything, not once!" He looked away, embarrassed by his outburst. "I don't want you to feel like I'm doing this because I'm afraid! I know you won't leave me if we don't have sex, 'Mui. I've always known that."

He clenched his hands, twisting his fingers into the hem of his borrowed shirt. "When you stopped letting me touch you, I thought you were trying to tell me that you didn't want me anymore!" He looked up, catching the scientist's eyes. "That was the only reason I had to be afraid. Even now, I don't know if you understand me.. I'm always thinking about you, not just about this," He gestured vaguely at his semi-clothed body.

"But about you. I couldn't believe how much I missed you, even when I thought you might.." He faltered, taking in the older man's surprised concern. Shaking off his nerves, he forced himself to continue. "Even when I thought you might leave. It was pathetic." He laughed mockingly. "It made me wonder if you started this thing because you didn't know how you felt. I hated it, but I wondered if maybe you'd had time to think it through and just didn't know how to tell me that you couldn't.."

Komui seized his hands, hauling him forward. "I didn't know, but I wouldn't have been with you if I hadn't thought we could make this work, Lavi." He spread his hands, interlacing their fingers tightly. "When I started thinking that I had to stay away, it wasn't that I doubted this. I was afraid that you'd have let me.. I thought you might not tell me no, because I knew you could see how much I wanted you."

He bit his lip, ashamed at the memory of his desperation. "You told me that you knew. Almost every time we ended up in bed, you told me that you could feel it, that you wanted it too.. I knew that one day, I wouldn't be able to stop myself. I felt like I was using you to make myself give in."

He shook his head, breaking eye contact. "It disgusted me. I wanted to love you, but at the same time.. I wanted something to force my hand. After the last time, I knew that I couldn't trust myself. If you had come straight out and demanded that I take you or let you go, I.." He glanced back guiltily. "I would have done anything you asked, to keep you from leaving me."

Lavi met his gaze calmly, ignoring the quiet hiss that accompanied the room's sudden darkness. "I wouldn't have done that to you, 'Mui. Even if it had meant waiting longer, I wouldn't have tried to force you like that." He leaned close, locating the older man's face by the sound of his quiet breaths. "I wish you'd told me that you felt like that, it might have stopped you from thinking that you had to avoid me to keep me safe."

He sighed deeply, tugging on their joined hands until the older man leaned in to meet him. "I want you, not just a quick lay here and there.. I've just spent all this time telling you, and now that I can do something besides talk.." He smiled, the expression evident to his companion even in the darkness. "I want to do just as much of this as I used to do of that."

He felt the scientist's pulse through his slightly damp palms, it's steady beat spiking at his soft words as the man nodded.

"All right," Komui whispered, tightening his grip. "If you know that you don't have to do this, then do whatever you like. I won't stop you if it's what you really want, Lavi." He allowed himself to be moved forward, following his lover's unspoken request. "What do you want, if not to talk?"

Lavi freed one of his hands, cupping the older man's neck to guide him closer. "You." He pressed their lips together, sliding carefully into his lover's lap as he pulled back to speak. "I want you to do all of the things that you stopped yourself from doing before, 'Mui. All of the things that you kept from me when you were so sure that you were doing something wrong by wanting me."

He moved his face into the crook of the man's neck and shoulder, his mouth lingering on the skin as he tugged the other's arm around himself. "I want to know that you aren't afraid anymore, please?"

Komui nodded faintly, his breath catching at the boy's gentle nips and open mouthed kisses. "I..I'm not afraid, I swear, Lavi.." He pushed lightly on the Exorcist's chest, moving him back until he could feel the soft brushes of his lover's breath on his face. "I just don't want to do anything that's going to hurt you, later."

Lavi laughed quietly, shaking his head. "I think I'll be okay, 'Mui." Resting his forehead against the older man's, he stroked his back and shoulders reassuringly. "Believe me, as long as I've been waiting, I doubt having you will hurt nearly as much as not having you."

The scientist nodded in understanding. "I know exactly what you mean.. Sometimes it was so bad that I couldn't even think." He dropped his hands to the boy's naked hips, pulling him as close as possible. "If you don't mind being a little more sore tomorrow, then neither do I."

He caught the redhead's mouth with his own, moaning quietly when the other's lips parted hungrily. Lavi met his eager tongue with his own, urging the older man to deepen the contact with a low growl and a slight rocking of his hips.

Komui obliged him, moving against the other's body with definite interest. "How?" He murmured, breaking away only for as long as it took to utter the word. Lavi panted quietly, his pulse pounding in his ears as he tried desperately to think with the man's lips at his throat.

"Like...We were before you stopped," He said, gasping at the slight press of teeth. "It felt so good, with you moving like that.." He leaned into the man's touches, willing his voice to obey him. "You said you wanted it too, so why not see if it's as good as you thought it would be?"

Komui nodded jerkily, his eyes closed tightly as he fought to suppress a shiver. "Yes," He whispered, loosening is hold to allow his lover to move. Lavi slid back, his knees shaking slightly as he turned away.

Groping blindly for a moment, he located the edge of the mattress, reaching carefully toward the side table. Feeling the cool glass of the object he sought, he offered it to his waiting companion with a quiet mumble. "Here, I guess you'll be needing this.."

He felt the older man take hold of the bottle, and turned again in search of the solid shape of the headboard. Gripping it tightly, he gasped softly at the feeling of slick fingers on his skin, relaxing as best he could despite his eagerness.

Komui worked as gently as he could, alert for the slightest sign of pain as he stretched the boy's still-tight opening with shaking hands. Feeling the Exorcist press back against him, he bit his lip with a quiet moan. "I won't tell you to stop me, because I know you won't," He said, leaning close enough to nibble at the boy's shoulderblade. "But please tell me if I'm hurting you, so I can make it better.."

Lavi whimpered, nodding. "I promise," He gasped quietly as he felt his lover's fingers curl against that place, his breathing becoming more labored with need. "God.. Please, 'Mui!"

The scientist chuckled softly, withdrawing his hand. "I know, Tatao.. I want it too."

He coated himself with a generous amount of oil, wiping his hand before steadying himself with a light hold on his lover's trembling hip. "I love you," He said, pushing forward carefully. Lavi moaned pleadingly, moving to meet the man's hesitant thrusts.

"Don't..be so nervous," He said, closing his eye tightly. "You're not hurting me at all.." He arched his back, urging his lover to continue with both word and action. "I love this.. 'Mui!." He broke off with a cry as he felt the man's hands tighten. "Oh my fucking God, yes!"

The scientist nodded, adjusting his angle imperceptibly. "It's good, isn't it?" He pressed close, kissing his lover's sharply arched spine as he increased his tempo. "You wouldn't believe how incredible you feel, Lavi.."

The redhead's only response was a broken moan, his fingers clenched with white-knuckled pressure on the wood beneath them. Komui drew a line up the center of his younger lover's back with his tongue, pausing to bury his face against the sweat-dampened hair at his nape.

"Do you like this, Lavi? It sounds like you do.." He moved more forcefully, one hand resting on the boy's chest to steady him as he rocked forward. "I wonder if it's enough though. Do you need more?"

Lavi locked his arms, jerking his hips back with a desperate cry. "Yes! Please don't stop, I want..!"

Komui growled quietly, nodding into his lover's skin. "I wasn't planning on it. Hold on tight, Tatao, because I still haven't made you scream for me."

He thrust forward sharply, wringing a gasping yelp from the smaller boy's throat. Taking note of his increased shudders, he repeated his movements steadily, driving into his partner's body with relentless insistence. "I can feel how close you are, Lavi.. Are you ready?"

The younger boy's cries rose in frequency and volume, his legs shaking as he bucked desperately against his lover's hips. "YES! Now..please!"

Feeling the Exorcist's muscles begin to clench harshly around him, Komui jerked him upright with a ragged cry of release, crushing his sweat-slickened back to his chest as the boy's voice rose in a broken wail of pleasure.

For several dizzy seconds, neither one moved save to gasp for breath. Once the older man could trust his voice, he sank his head carefully onto his still-trembling lover's shoulder with a sigh. "Jesus, Lavi.." He laughed quietly, his mind still recovering from it's intense high. "Are you all right?"

The boy shifted cautiously, hissing softly as he felt his muscles protest the movement. "I'm just fine, 'Mui. You.. Holy shit," He mumbled, shaking his head. "I can't make sense of anything right now.. Would you be terribly upset if I just said 'Holy shit' a few more times?"

Komui snorted, pulling away gently. "I understand, and I second the statement." He said, urging the boy to turn. Nuzzling his damp cheek fondly, he pressed their lips together as he groped for his discarded towel. Locating it, he broke away with a final nibble on his lover's lower lip. "Let me get that for you.." He whispered, cleaning the signs of their lovemaking from the redheads stomach before making a valiant effort to swab the headboard.

"Oops," Lavi chuckled, moving to the side and lying on one side. Feeling the older man drop the towel to the floor, he tugged gently on his arm to draw him down beside him. Curling against his lover's warmth, he sighed in contented relief. "Could I stay..?" He whispered, biting his lip at the man's sharp breath.

"Of course you can, why would you even ask?" Komui said, draping his arms possessively around the smaller body. "I'm not letting you move one inch until there's a need for you to. You must be out of your mind with exhaustion, Lavi."

Lavi hummed appreciatively, tugging the rumpled blankets back up to cover them. "Thank you."

The scientist nodded sleepily, stroking his lover's back in a soothing motion. "Anytime, Lavi. Are you tired?" He laughed softly at the boy's dozing affirmative. "Sleep well, Tatao," He murmured, pressing a kiss to the top of his head. "I know I will, with you here.." His voice dropped to a whisper as he allowed himself to join his lover in repose, the steady sounds of his breathing evoking a relaxation so total that the man could only call it rightness.

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Back in Lavi's empty room...

A pair of shining black eyes surveyed the dim bedroom, the silence broken as a tiny form struggled over the edge of a shallow wooden box to flop ungracefully onto the carpet. Nose twitching, the small animal searched for any sign of her owner, a muffled squeak of disappointment sounding as she found nothing save a discarded shirt.

Nuzzling it briefly, the young hedgehog made her way around the room, sniffling the walls until she came upon a narrow crack in one corner. Afire with curiosity, she slipped through the crevice, following it until it opened into another room, this one dark and not so silent as her own. Nosing at a pair of boots, the small creature sneezed quietly, the negligible sound going unnoticed as the pair in the bed slept on.

Heaving a soft sigh, the prickly rodent crept deep into the overturned boot, balling herself tightly into the toe with a purr of contentment. Closing her eyes, she slept, comforted by the presence of people who smelt faintly of her owner.

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Hm, I guess not too many people are interested after all.. Ah well, if no one really wants to bother with this fic, I'll continue it on my website and LJ.. As always, feel free to review by replying here, in pm, or email, thanks for reading!