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FAKE

Don't Know What
You've Got Till It's Gone

by Lady
Dragonphire

Summary: When Dee suffers amnesia after sacrificing
himself to save Ryo from a terrible accident, can Ryo overcome his shyness and
win back the love of his life before it's too late for their love?

Disclaimer:
FAKE and its characters are the property of Sanami Matoh.

WARNING:
The character's reactions might be slightly out of character when faced with
traumatic events, but then again one never really knows how one will act when
confronted by inescapable tragedy.

WARNING:
Angst/Drama

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Chapter 5. Here
I Go Again On My Own

(Whitesnake)

Dr. Black
knocked softly on Ryo's door before subtly pushing it open. At seeing that Ryo
was still asleep, she walked quietly over to the bedside and observed the huge
bouquet of flowers sitting on his nightstand. `Wow. Dee was not the only one who had
admirers,' she thought as she moved the large vase over and placed a steaming
cup of tea within Ryo's reach.

Hearing a noise
by his bedside, Ryo opened his midnight eyes fearfully. He had had the
most disturbing dream last night. He had dreamt that Dee did not love him anymore and that
he had only wanted to use Ryo for sex. At first the kisses in the dream had
started out sweet, but then they had gotten more insistent, demanding that Ryo
surrender himself to unfamiliar love when he was not yet ready. When Ryo had
resisted, the persistent invasion of his mouth had gotten rougher until it had
stopped entirely. Even so, he did not want Dee to leave him. Was the Dee as Ryo knew him gone forever, or
had Ryo simply forgotten how Dee used to kiss him? No, he would never forget how Dee used to kiss him, Ryo thought with
a vengeance - he couldn't, even if he would never again feel the sweet euphoria
of Dee's tender kisses upon his lips.
However, Ryo was powerless to explain the reason for the dream starting out
wonderful and then warping into his deepest fear. Perhaps it was a combination
of his fight with Bikky (who always made it known that he thought Dee was playing Ryo) and the fact that
he desperately missed Dee's loving caresses. Placing his hand on his forehead and
brushing a stray wisp of honey-blond hair out of his sleep-laden eyes,
attempting to clear his mind from the endless torrent of unsettling thoughts
that plagued his every waking moment, he sighed and met the worried gaze of Dr.
Black.

"Randy, are
you sure you're feeling up to going home today?" she asked with concern as
she placed a hand on his forehead, checking to see that he did not have a
fever. One of the nurses had said that he had been murmuring in his sleep last
night despite taking the sleeping medication, although she had been unable to decipher
what he had been talking about from the quick 9:00 bed check.

"Yeah,
fine," Ryo said, giving her a reassuring smile and glancing at the bedside
table to see� "Rose!" he exclaimed, his eyes widening in shock. He
tentatively put a hand up to his lips, remembering the dream from last night.
That would definitely explain the lust emanating from the lips that had
consumed his last night. No, it couldn't have been, could it? But yet it had
all seemed so real�

"Yes,
someone left you roses. Aren't they beautiful?" Dr. Black asked, trying to
offer a topic of neutral conversation in order to soothe Ryo's panicked
expression. She looked through them, but could find no indication of a card of
any kind. "You must have a secret admirer, Randy," she joked,
attempting to ease his pensive mood.

Meanwhile, Ryo
had taken a few sips of his tea and had calmed down somewhat. He looked up at
her from behind dark lashes and gave her a small smile. "Yeah,
maybe," he said doubtfully. He was sure that whoever left the roses had
done so intentionally to penetrate his subconscious mind. Well, it was not
going to work. He had chosen Dee to be his lover, and he was not about to change his
decision.

Waiting until
she was done reading over the chart at the foot of his bed, Ryo hesitantly
ventured a request that had been on his mind ever since the other day.
"Dr. Black, do you think that it would be okay if I went to visit Dee today before I go home?" he
asked hopefully.

"Sure, I
don't see why not, although I have to take him for a few blood tests first. Why
don't you go see him after your Aunt Elena comes to pick you up? He should be
back in his room by then," she said, glad to see that the mention of Dee no longer brought a flood of tears
to Ryo's handsome face. "You know, I bet he would love to see you. He's
been asking about you," she said, watching Ryo's face intently in order to
gauge his reaction to her information.

"He-he was
asking about me?" Ryo asked, averting his eyes and blushing, although he
was secretly pleased that Dee had remembered him, brief encounter though it was.

"Yes, you
seem to have made a lasting impression on him. Maybe if you went and talked to
him you both would feel better about what happened. To tell you the truth, I'm
a little worried about him. Like you, he has been bottling up his emotions.
However, when the full extent of never being able to recover his memory fully
hits him, he's going to be an emotional wreck. He's going to need all the love
and support of those around him, even if he only vaguely knows who they are.
You need to ask yourself if you're strong enough to be there for him. Promise
me you'll think about this. You need to be ready for anything at this
point," she finished, letting the full extent of her information sink in
before looking back at Ryo.

Ryo took a deep
breath and nodded. Yes, he could do it - he had to do it. Whatever it took to
get Dee back, he was willing to do, no
matter what the sacrifice. But did the demure blond have the strength to
conquer his own fears and overcome all the odds already in opposition against
them?

There was a
knock on the door and Ryo's face brightened as he saw his Aunt Elena and Bikky
standing there. Dr. Black politely excused herself and walked out of the room,
pager beeping almost the moment she walked out the door.

"Hi
Ryo," Elena said, smiling and wrapping her arms around the honey-blond.

"Hello
Elena," Ryo responded, giving her shoulders a loving squeeze. Noticing
Bikky's reluctance to approach the bedside, Ryo brought his dark eyes up to
lock onto bright blue ones and opened his arms further, extending the invite
for Bikky to join in the hug.

"Oh, Ryo,
I'm so sorry," Bikky murmured as he let himself be drawn into the embrace.
"I didn't mean to upset you the other day."

"Shhh, it's
okay, Bikky. I understand why you acted as you did. Don't worry - we'll have a
long talk when we go home and then we can talk about how you and I feel about
this whole thing and how it affects our lives in the future," Ryo promised
as he held onto Bikky tighter.

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A raven-haired
figure sitting in a wheelchair out in the hallway observed the loving scene
with piercing green eyes that narrowed in frustration and disappointment. `Of
course Randy would have a family to go home to,' Dee mused as he witnessed Ryo
hugging a woman and a small boy. Although he could only see the backs of them,
he knew that Ryo's wife and child were taking him back where he belonged. He
ruefully surveyed the suitcase that they had brought with them to pack up his
clothes and the large bouquet of flowers that the woman was now acknowledging
with a knowing gesture. This would probably be the last time he would be able
to see or talk to Ryo for awhile, and he had missed his chance.

With a sigh, he
reluctantly turned his wheelchair around to go back down the hall towards his
room. He would not interrupt their happy reunion. He was regretful that he did
not get to visit with Ryo at least one more time before the other man went home
from the hospital. However, he was glad that Ryo looked to be in happy spirits
and apparently was well-rested and doing better, or else he would not have been
able to leave.

The three people
in the room did not notice the presence of the solitary figure or that he was
wiping away a single tear as he retreated to his room, the feelings of
loneliness running rampant in his broken heart.

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"Oh, these
must be from Dee. How lovely," Elena said, indicating the flowers by Ryo's
bedside.

"Well, I'm
not exactly sure who they're from, but I do have my guesses," Ryo said
bitterly. Sensing that he did not want to talk about it, Elena did not press
the matter further.

"All
done," said Bikky triumphantly. He had packed up all of Ryo's belongings
in the suitcase that he and Elena had brought with them. "Can we go now,
Ryo? Elena said that we could rent movies and order pizza tonight to celebrate
your homecoming. She even said that I could invite Carol over," he added
with a slight blush tinting his dark cheeks.

"Sure, I'm
almost ready to go," Ryo agreed. "That sounds like fun," he
added, smiling at observing Bikky's uncharacteristic shyness and glad to see
that the boy had found someone to make him happy. "You guys go on ahead.
There's one more thing I need to do before I go," Ryo said. Elena just
gave him a knowing glance before ushering Bikky down the hall, the boy chatting
animatedly and talking about what else they were going to do for Ryo's
homecoming all the way out to the waiting room, where they sat to wait for Ryo.
Ryo walked down the hall towards Dee's room, determined to see him one last
time before he left and resolute to find out how Dee felt about him.

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"DEE!"
Dee looked up, startled, as he wheeled himself into his room and saw that he
had two visitors in his room waiting for him. Well, one visitor and one very
large, almost life-sized, teddy bear. "DEE!" the voice yelled again
before JJ launched himself at Dee, showering him with kisses. Once again, Dee
had to practically pry him off just so that he could breathe.

"JJ! Could
you please give me a little space?" Dee asked, exasperated, as he climbed
into the bed next to the huge teddy bear. Seeing the hurt look on the other
man's face, he flashed an apologetic smile. "Sorry; I've just had a long
day," he said.

At the gorgeous
smile that crossed Dee's handsome face, JJ's countenance lit up with joy once
more. "Oh Dee, it's okay. I forgive you," he said, kissing Dee
affectionately on the cheek.

Dee patted JJ's
back and JJ, sensing that Dee was a bit tired, went to go sit down in the chair
next to the bed. `Wow,' Dee thought. This man's boundless energy was a bit much
to handle, although he was extremely fond of Dee. As Dee wondered just what he
had done to attract such a devoted lover, a brilliant smile spread across JJ's
face as he observed the intent way that Dee was staring at him.

"JJ, do you
mind if I ask you a few questions about our relationship? It's just that I'm
not comfortable being intimate with someone if I don't know anything about
them. Can you bear with me?" Dee asked carefully, not wanting to hurt the
other man's feelings.

"Oh of
course - anything you want to know, just ask," JJ gushed happily.

"Okay, how
did we meet?" Dee started, thinking that the question was innocent enough.

"We went to
the Academy and graduated together. We spent every moment we could together. It
was love at first sight for me," JJ reminisced, his eyes getting a dreamy,
faraway look in them.

"Okay,"
Dee said, feeling that that was the most specific answer that JJ could give at
the moment without spurting love poems to him right then and there of his
undying love for Dee. "Well then, if we've known each other for awhile,
and have been working together too, then can you tell me a little bit about my
partner Randy? What's he like? How well do we know each other?" Dee
queried expectantly.

"Oh,
there's not really much to know about him. He's just your partner. He's quiet
and shy and just kinda blends in with everybody at the precinct, although he is
a really good sharpshooter. Yeah, you guys get along and stuff, but you're just
friends - nothing more," JJ said quickly, frowning in disappointment at
the abrupt change of subject and seeing a golden opportunity to win Dee's
heart, wanting Dee to finally be his at last.

Dee's face fell.
`Just friends?' he thought. No, there had to be more to it than that. His heart
would never lie to him. He knew now that he would have to have a talk with Ryo,
and soon. He could not stand feeling so lost and alone. There was just something
about Ryo that was so soothing. He had never felt like this before with anyone
like he did with Ryo.

Seeing a look of
puzzlement cross Dee's expressive features, JJ walked over to the bedside and
said, "I am the one you love. Let me refresh your memory," before he
claimed Dee's soft lips with an insistent kiss. JJ wrapped his arms around Dee,
holding him close and executing the kiss with a burning passion. Dee hesitantly
responded to the kiss, parting his lips for JJ's probing tongue. JJ sighed and
moaned into the kiss, ravishing Dee's mouth with everything he had as Dee
pulled JJ closer to his body. In his depressed state, Dee was willing to accept
any form of affection right now, even if it wasn't from the one he wanted.

Suddenly, Dee
heard a barely audible gasp coming from the doorway of his room, and emerald
green eyes flew open to see a very shocked and very hurt Ryo standing in the
doorway. Ryo stood there speechless, but his dark expressive eyes spoke
volumes. They spoke of hurt and betrayal as dizzying thoughts swept through his
mind. Dee - his Dee - in the arms of another? And it was JJ, nonetheless.
`NOOOOO!' his heart screamed as it seemed to shatter within his broken body.
Suddenly finding it hard to breathe, Ryo took one final look into the eyes of
the man that he had lost forever, before collapsing as his reeling mind succumbed
to a numbing world of black.

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