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HEY! Sorry this took so long
everyone, but I have finals you know! ^o^

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Funny,
how the moment that Serena stepped onto the roof, warm air engulfed her. It was
from the fumes of the heater venting out into the cloudy night sky. Snow was
falling, surrounded her, and pilling up on the roof.

Serena
walked on, past the warmth of the heater and into the cold furious winter
winds. They swept over her so quickly, she whimpered. She considered running
back into the building, but something wouldn�t let her. It fact, that something
was drawing her to move forward. So with a deep breath, Serena took many more
steps, until the toes of her shoes pressed roughly into the rail of the roof.
Her red frost-bitten fingers gripped the edge tightly as she bent over to see.

She
couldn�t remember what she had seen last night when she had looked over Darien�s
balcony rail, and she was glad for that. From where she stood, large trunks and
cars were no bigger than a dot. Serena gulped nervously, but that feeling drew
her in. She bent over, staring down on the city as snow bit her skin. The cold
purpled her lips and made her eyes fill with tears. She was bending over; so
far she would slip at any given moment.

�Invigorating�
Serena managed to murmur, though her teeth were tightly clamped together. Did
she want to fall? A vision began to play in her mind. It wasn�t that she felt
she wanted to, but she felt she had to. She had to so she could rid herself of
all this torment. Who cared about exams, or cleaning the house or saving the
world? She didn�t. Why should she? She obviously wasn�t responsible enough for
those kinds of things if she couldn�t even manage to keep her legs together.

Darien, who
was sprawled out on the ice, rubbing his bottom and trying to stand. Quite a
sight, but Serena didn�t have time to enjoy it.

She
tried to turn, but it would take too much effort. Besides, if she looked down
now, she might get cold feet � no pun intended.

To
a tower of souls

If
it takes another thousand years, a thousand wars,

The
towers rise to numberless floors in space

I
could shed another million tears, a million breaths,

A
million names but only one truth to face

She
bit down on her tongue, and closed her eyes. Oh how she wanted this. Something
then struck her. She�d get to see her mother. �Mom!� Her mind screamed,
and she let go, letting her feet slid, her cold hands practically ripping off
the metal pole.

Air
rushed up to meet her, through her shoes and clothes, over her face and to her
sore finger tips, which were suddenly gripped so hard the friction caused her
to yelp. She looked up just as Darien�s other hand reached down to grip her wrist and he
pulled her into a better hold. She stared at him. How had he gotten up so
quickly? Or more importantly, why was he bothering?

Darien
grit his teeth together, pulling her up with both arms, then reaching out to
grip higher up her arm.

�Serena,
help me out.� He said, �Give me you�re other hand.� She didn�t, she didn�t even
move. Air and blood were rushing through her head so fast, her vision became
blurry. Just the air up here made her distraught. �Damn it Serena!� Darien yelled,
glaring down at her, �Listen, to me, I can�t do this forever! Please, your
hand!� �Why?� Her mind screamed. She didn�t want to. Why would she? What
for? The one person she still held dear to her heart was waiting for her on the
other side.

�And
what about the Senshi?� Serena
wondered how that had come to her mind. What about them? They�d miss her; they
were her best friends after all. And Molly and Melvin, she couldn�t forget
them. Andrew would always be there, he would over look the rumors; he had such
a good heart. Even despite her father�s disposition, how could she leave Sammy
behind?

A
good argument, Serena suddenly realized. She could have sworn thhosehose words
seemed like something her mother would say whenever Serena needed soothing
after a hard day; listing off the good.

�So
what caused the need to jump off my hotel roof?� he asked, a hint of humor in
his voice.

�I
fell,� Serena said in a flat tone, eyes never moving for her cup,

�Bull,�
Darien
spat. Serena gritted her teeth together, standing up and dropping her cup.

�How
would you know?� She demanded, �You don�t know anything about me or what goes
on in my life!� She screamed, forcing back to tears as he stood as well, though
the fact that he towered over her didn�t intimidate her one bit.

�I
would if you�d just tell me!� he said, then his voice softened as he reached
down, taking a soft hold of her shoulders, �And nothing could possibly be bad
enough to want to do that.� He insisted. For a moment, Serena thought about his
words, but only for a moment,

�You
don�t know what you�re talking about!� she screamed, her hand reflectively
reaching up to strike his face. Darien�s hands dropped to his sides. His face was shadowed,
for the lights of the fire only played on his chest. This made Serena nervous.
�Darien, I didn�t�� she trailed, chewing softly on the inside of her mouth, as
her eyes darted around until the finally went back on him.

�You
know.� Darien said, advancing a step forward. The light shown on
his face now, revealing his reddened cheek. �I�ve wanted to do this for a long
time.� Serena blinked, eyes rising to meet his just as his hand held gently to
the back of her neck, thumb soft against her cheek.

�What
do you mean?� She asked, stepping back to move away, but he advanced forward
even more until his body touched hers,

�This
Serena� He said, his dark eyes closing as his lips met with hers. Serena
inhaled sharply, but this only made him push further. He held her soft against
him, both hands soft on her neck and cheeks. He searched for a response, yet
there was none. Serena�s hands were pinned between hers and Darien�s
bodies, and she gripped his shirt nervously. Darien then gave up, she
wn�t n�t respond � she didn�t feel the same way he did.

A
million roads, a million fears

A
million suns, ten million years of uncertainty

I
could speak a million lies, a million songs,

A
million rights, a million wrongs in this balance of time

He
drew back, licking his lips as he savored the taste of her. He was only inches
away though, when Serena flung herself back into his arms. This took Darien aback,
but he wouldn�t deny her. She stepped on tip-toe, reuniting their lips once
again. Darien let out a soft, ragged breath as Serena pressed
against him, forcing him to back up until he fell onto the couch. She stood
over him, allowing the blanket to fall from her shoulders. She was still
adorned in the outfit from the previous night.

Darien looked up at her astonished. What had gotten into
her? She blushed deeply as she ran her fingers through his hair, her other hand
resting softly on his chest as she kissed him deeper. His hands unconsciously
reached up to hold her waist gently; but Serena obviously wasn�t going for
gentle. She dropped on the couch, straddling him tightly. She lifted his head
up, the kiss a distraction as she slid her hands down to remove his shirt,
though her breasts were still pressed firmly against his chest. A
single thought, a singular touch of grace

Then
following this single point, this single flame,

The
single haunted memory of your face

That
was when it struck him. He�d waited for this and now that it was here,
it was all happening so fast. Did he really want to do this without her knowing
how he really feels?

Darien bolted up, ignoring his growing needs. �We have to
stop.� He said. Serena stared at him with wide eyes; feeling exposed all of a
sudden. Darien�s eyes darted around nervously as he searched for
anything to ease his arousal. �I�m sorry,� he blurted, he pulled on his boxers,
and quickly handed Serena her panties.

When
she didn�t put them on, he spoke, �Put them back on!� he said, though it wasn�t
rough. Serena, nervous, and hurt, did as told. Darien snatched a loose dress
shirt off the table, and returned to sit in front of Serena as he wrapped it
around her shoulders to cover her. �Listen to me please.� He said, on his knees
in front of her as she sat on the sofa. He looked away for a moment, and then
took her hands into his. �I�m not Todd Serena.� He said. The comment obviously
angered her, but he quickly pressed on, �I don�t want to ask something like
that of you. Just because you�ve done it already doesn�t mthatthat�s it�s not
special.� He said. How else could he say this? It was a tender subject.

He
drew back slightly, and her hands fell to her sides as she cast her stare to
the floor.

stared
at her curiously,

�What?�
he managed. Se huf huffed, a small laugh escaping her lips, though she didn�t
smile.

�You
really thought I�d just give myself to you, that I just wanted to jig.� She
snapped, and before he could respond, she flung herself from the couch, �Well
as much as you�d like to believe it I�m not like that!� she screeched, and made
a break for the door. Darien�s hand caught her wrist though, and held firmly.

Serena�s
mind was screaming. Darien thought Serena was just giving herself to him because
she wanted sex. He had no idea how she felt about him. Of course, she didn�t
want him to know. Sex was what he wanted, nothing more. After knowing what went
on with Todd, Darien must have just figured it was alright to do; because
everyone thought she was that kind of girl now. �Let go of me!� she screamed,
reaching back in attempt to pry his hand away, but to no avail.

�Stop
it Serena!� Darien yelled, and boldly spun her around so she collided
roughly against him. Darien let her fall backwontoonto the couch where he bent
over, looming over her eye to eye. �You honestly think I�d ask that of you?� he
said. When she didn�t answer, he grew even more upset, �Damn it Serena!� he
shouted, kicking the ground as he picked up a glass ornament, ready to throw
it, but he stopped himself. It would only scare her more, he concluded. He
brought his arm down, pingping it onto the carpet floor. �Serena,� He said,
leaning down again, �Todd didn�t love you.� He said. Serena�s head shot up as
she glared at him

�You
think I don�t know that?� She asked, gripping the overly-large shirt tightly.
�You just have to rub it in my face don�t you?� She screamed.

�Then
why would you have sex with him Serena, did you love him?� Darien knew it
was not his place to question such things, but something just hadn�t been
right. The look in Todd�s eyes still haunted him.

�I
didn�t want to!� Serena snapped, �I told him no!� She paused as a few tears ran
down her cheeks, and she struggled to move around him, but he held her firmly,

�You
said no?� he repeated, eyes searching her frantically,

�Yes,�
Serena spit out nonchalantly, still struggling in his grip.

�Serena,�
Darien
said, trying to hold her still, �Serena,� he repeated, and she finally looked
at him eye to eye. �Did he rape you?� he asked. Serena�s eyes twisted with
question and shock as she pushed some tears away,

�No!�
She yelped, �No� she glanced at the ground, a hand reached up to move his away,
but he refused to let go.

�Serena,
if you didn�t want to and said no,� He began, �And he did it anyways, that�s
rape.� He managed. Serena stopped struggling, looking up slowly. They were
silent as Serena stared at him blankly. His expression wasn�t readable, but he
was firm about his words. Serena gulped, and her lip trembled.

�You
don�t know what you�re talking about-� she said shortly, again trying to move,
but Darien pinned her roughly against the back of the couch,

�That�s
what happened wasn�t it?� He snapped, �He forced you didn�t he?� He inched
closer to her, eyes blazing with rage. It scared Serena, �Didn�t he!� He
demanded again. Serena yelped softly,

�I
was scared,� she managed, and finally gave up her struggle, falling softly into
his arms, �I was so afraid. I didn�t know what was going on.� She gaped at the
ground, trying to find her breath. Darien embraced her, holding her against him.

I
still love you

I
still want you

A
thousand times the mysteries unfold themselves

Like
galaxies in my head

�I�m
so sorry Serena.� He said, �I wish I could have-.� Serena wasn�t crying, which Darien found
strange. Such a serious experience, yet this one time, she wasn�t crying. Darien held
shoushoulders softly, lifting her glance up. �Serena?� he whispered. Her face
was blank, and she looked up at him, eyes completely empty.

�I
just wanted attention.� She said her voice chillingly flat, �Todd was so sweet,
and everyone was treating me so nice. Like I was special-� She said. Darien sig hea heavily, shaking his head as he brushed some loose strands of hair from her
face,

�Serena,
don�t you see though, you are special.� he insisted, �What you mean to
everyone, and what you mean to me, it�s so-�

�Darien,�
Serent hit him off. She took a deep breath, now on her knees on the floor next
to him. She looked up, eyes a little distraught, �Stop
being scared, and be true to your heart� many of life's failures are people who
did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up. You need to
tell someone what she means to you. Because when you decide that it is the
right time it might be too late. If you don't risk anything, you risk even
more. Darien, life is what happens while you are
making other plans.�

Darien stared
at her blankly, unsure if she was finished, but her words reeling through his
head.

�I don�t understand Serena.� He said. Serena shook her head, then
smiled, though it had no heart to it,

�My mother asked me to tell you that.� She began, �right before
she died.� Darien�s eyes went wide. He had once met Ilene
while at the store. It was an embarrassing situation, for he had been
discussing Serena with Andrew. Andrew had been curious about an argument they�d
had earlier in the day, when Ilene overheard, and questioned if it was her
daughter they were most obviously speaking off. She had introduced herself, and
Darien let Ilene know his appreciation for her
daughter, and let her in on his little game of picking on her.

Ilene had spent awhile chatting with them, and truly insisted Darien and Serena would make a darling couple. Darien, though he had blushed, insisted that they would forever
and always be just friends. He has always greeted her many times after that. He
loved speaking to her really, if not for the interesting things she always had
to say, for the little stands of hope that would light his day when she told
him about all the things Serena had said about him. He just loved the idea that
Serena talked about him so much; even if it was complaining.

�Died?� he repeated, and she nodded.

�She was hit by a car.� Serena said, �And I was there.� Serena
went on to explain that it would be in the paper any day now. Her emotions
poured as she repeated word for word what her mother had said. She also
explained why she hadn�t kept her promise to tell her father all the things her
mom asked her ay. ay. She told him the way her father was behaving, and how
hard it was to just sleep at home. She feared for her little brother, which was
one of the things that made her reach for Darien�s hand
after she had jumped.

Serena then went into detail about the previous night. She was
graphic, and explained everything in detail, because she didn�t want to leave
one thing out. She needed it out of her system. When she was finished, she had
done her crying, and was simply left with a red nose and sniffles.

I may be numberless, I may be innocent

I may know many things, I may be ignorant

Or I could ride with kings and conquer many lands

Or win this world at cards and let it slip my hands

They had grown very quite after her outburst of the past week or
so. Darien leaned against the pillows rested on the
coffee table, Serena comfortable in his arms. The blanket was warm, and the
fire kept them at a comfortable temperature. In Serena�s mind, she left as if
it was almost wrong to be so content.

The words Serena, or better yet Ilene, had left him to ponder with
were still playing in his mind. You need to tell someone what she means to you.
Because when you decide that it is the right time it might be too late. They
played over and over until Darien couldn�t bare it any longer. She was
right. He had to do this, and he had to do it now, or else he might never have
such a chance again. �Serena.� He said, gaining the blonde�s attention. She sat
up, looking over her shoulder at him. He couldn�t help but smile.

�God you�re beautiful.� He blurted. Serena instantly blushed at
his words, but when Darien realized what he�d said, he blushed even
more. He gulped, stammering nervously, �I�m sorry, I-� he trailed for a moment,
temporarily loosing his voice, �Serena, I have to tell you something.� He said.
Serena glanced back at the fire, then up at him. Her eyes were wide with wonder
and hope. It made him anxious.

I could be cannon food, destroyed a thousand times

Reborn as fortune's child to judge another's crimes

Or wear this pilgrim's cloak, or be a common thief

I've kept this single faith, I have but one belief

�You need to tell someone what she means to you. Because when you
decide that it is the right time it might be too late�. Those words played over
and over. He had to do this now. He felt a little sweat as her brow and his
eyes darted around. Blood rushed to his head. He would feel the heat on his
ears and cheeks. How would he say this? How could he say this? It was three
easy words, yet they were strangled in his throat. It was almost like he was
going to vomit, but he didn�t. Instead, he let the words spill,

�I love you.� He blurted. Serena�s eyes went even wider-if it were
possible. He choked a bit, releasing a breath he hadn�t realize he�d been
holding. �I love you. I�ve loved you since the day you hit me in the head with
your test paper.� He said a hint of laughter in his voice. �I�m not like Todd.�
He repeated his earlier words, �Because I as much as I want you.� He said,
glancing down a little as he turned even redder, �Waiting makes it much more
worth the while.� He said. With that, he shifted, turning to sit across from her
in front of the fire place. �And I love you.� He said, �I�ve never felt like
this for anyone, and I�ve never felt anything so strong,� he stopped after
that, realizie wae was sounding like a soap-opera pretty boy.

He looked at the ground, face beat red. �Serena, I�d be honored if
you�d let me take you out on a .� H.� He said. He was almost afraid to look in
her eyes, the idea of rejection was something he wasn�t willing to take right
now; but he had to. He looked up at Serena, her already puffy eyes filling with
tears once more.

�You�re such a loser,� she said, leaping up from the floor to lace
her arms around his neck in one of her famous hugs. Darien returned her powerful hold, laughing softly,

�Only for you.� He said softly.

�What?� Serena asked, pulling away. Darien
eyes darted around again. He�d said it once; did he really have to repeat it?
Serena smiled widely, �What did you say?� She inquired. Darien ran a hand through his hair,ugh ugh his other hand was
still laced withs,�Only for you.� He repeated in a slightly mumbled. Serena giggled,
taking his other hand as she leaned up, kissing him softly. Darien sighed into her lips as he returned the kiss. Something
inside him was lit, and set on fire; this adrenaline and excitement. Darien lifted her up, swinging her around in powerful arms. He
held her in the air at the waist, and brought her down slowly for another kiss.
One they parted, she murmured softly,

�I love you too.� She said. Darien�s eyes
popped open, and he smiled as he set her down, holding her in a loving embrace.

Just outside, lurking in the shadows of the balcony, and vengeful
Zoecite snarled.

�Damn brat.� She snapped. �You�ll pay.� She said, looking out to
her monster with a satisfied smile, �You�ll die tonight dear princess.�

I still love you

I still want you

A thousand times the mysteries unfold themselves

Like galaxies in my head

On and on the mysteries unwind themselves

Eternities still unsaid

'Til you love me

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