Are there such things as Happy Endings?

Ok, this site is screwing up today so i put the authors note at the bottom before the reviews. Please take a look at it once your finished reading this chapter.

[1] – I’m not sure if its possible to be allergic to air, but I have read in a newspaper a long time ago that there was such a case. Does anyone know if it is possible to be allergic to air?
[2] – Nano is a robot shaped like a ball and basically goes around the hospital, checking up on the patients. It looks like Haru from Gundam Seed.
[3] – lover
[4] – Not sure that’s what there called in English. If it’s not correct please let me know.

Disclaimer: No I don’t own Gravitation, I’m only just borrowing their characters for my story xD

I heard voices chattering around me. I would have opened my eyes to see what the big fuss was about, but my body wasn’t listening to me. I tried to open my eyes, but it was impossible, I was just too tired. So I just laid where I was, listening in on conversations. There were about five different conversations going on so I just decided to listen in on the conversation that I heard more clearly from where I was.

“What happened?” The first voiced asked, evidently angry.

“I don’t know…I got home and found sleeping on our bed. So I joined him to find that he was bleeding underneath the sheets.” Another voiced said, softer then the previous one before. I know that voice anywhere. It was Yuki’s. Why did he sound so sad? Who was yelling at him?

“Why would Shu do that?! He never had suicidal thoughts before….” The voices in the room all faded, and I was lost in darkness. I found myself in a sea of blackness where I was floating… or maybe I was sinking…I could feel nothing, hear nothing, see nothing and think of nothingness. It was quite a creepy experience. Maybe I am dead and this is hell? I always thought hell would be a lot worse, nothing like what I was experiencing right now. I found something pestering me, telling me to return and so I did.

“…..were you having an affair behind his back?” It was the same angry voice from before.

“No! I mean yes…it wasn’t my fault! I didn’t want to cheat on him, honest!” said Yuki.

“What the hell is that suppose to mean? Did you or did you not have an affair behind Shu’s back?” Another voice screamed.

That’s when I noticed that there was silence around me except for the argument about Yuki having an affair; there was no other conversations going on. I wondered how many people were in the room, but still couldn’t summon enough energy to even open my eyes. I drifted back into the sea of blackness again. This is really getting tiring drifting back and forth. Can’t I just stay in one place?

I awoke to find someone holding my hand. Silence surrounded me, so I guess everyone must have left except for the person holding my hand. I wonder who the person was, and found myself hoping it was Yuki. I still can’t believe I yearned for Yuki even after he made me try to kill myself and the aka-chan.

“Shu-chan please wake up. You have to stay here. Everybody was here today you know; both of our families were here. Were all hoping you would wake up soon because we miss you so much, but baby I miss you the most. Is being with me that hard to stand? If you wake up, I would gladly go through a divorce, so you can find the person you would be most happy with,” said Yuki.

What? I don’t want a divorce! How could he think of such a horrible thing? Is he saying that because he wants to be with Tohma? That maybe Tohma was the one for him? No! I won’t allow it, I just wont. Being without Yuki is like being allergic to air [1]. Please don’t take Yuki away from him. Please!

I squeezed his hand lightly. I opened my eyes to see Yuki staring down at me---tears streaming down his beautiful face. Such a beautiful face shouldn’t have tears running down.

“Why… why are you crying?” I croaked. Ugh, my throat is dry; it feels like I have been screaming for hour’s non-stop.

“Shu-chan?” He lifts his other hand to touch my face gently—rubbing the side of my face. He lets a small smile form on his face as he continues to rub my cheek. I leaned in to his touch; wanting more and more. “You’re awake. I was so scared that you won’t wake up because they said you lost too much blood. I never been so scared in my life,” said Yuki while he helped me sit up. He gave me a kiss on the forehead after he was done filling me in on what happened after I had fainted in the lobby of our apartment. I wasn’t informed on my current situation though, or how long I have been in coma.

I know what he is going to ask. Why? Why did I try to suicide? That’s when it hits me. What happened to our aka-chan? Did it….

I felt tears welling up my eyes again, and I tried desperately to blink them away. I closed my eye; knowing full well that I won’t be able to stop myself from crying if I started. Yuki must have read my mind because I found myself pulled into his embrace---me clinging tightly on his shirt. I wanted to know if I had succeeded on getting rid of the baby or if I had failed. I tried to speak again, but no words came out of my mouth. I was like a fish out of water—opening and closing my mouth. I wanted to know the truth, but couldn’t bring myself to ask him. So I just tightened my grip on his shirt and let my tears fall.

“Shu…Please don’t cry. It’s not what you think, but before I tell you I need to know why you tried to commit suicide.” Yuki whispered as he rubbed my back and nuzzling the side of my head.

I didn’t know what to say back. Tell the truth, or a lie? “I...don’t know….Please Yuki don’t ask me….not now…” I croaked. To be honest I didn’t know if it was attempt suicide or accidental suicide. I might have been caught up in the moment, and just decided that taking away the child’s life was the right thing to do. If I had time to think it through I know that I wouldn’t have done what I done. I need time to sort things out. “I’m sorry. I shouldn’t be pushing you, especially since you just woke up from a coma. I won’t ask anymore. We can talk about it when you’re ready to have this conversation,” Yuki said as he got up to fetch me a glass of water.

I took the glass from Yuki’s hands, and drank it greedily. My throat felt a lot better after consuming the liquid. At least now I could talk normally instead of croaking. “Shu you must be tired, why don’t you lie down and rest while I got a doctor to come and check up on you?”

I nodded and did exactly what Yuki told me to do. I thought I wouldn’t be able to sleep anymore since I was in coma for who knows how long, but I proved myself wrong. I fell asleep as soon as I closed my eyes.

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I felt so relieved when I saw his eyes open. I wanted to just squeeze him into a tight hug but in his current condition I think I would do more damage then good. I let out a sigh of relief as I watched my precious Shu-chan fall asleep. I stepped out of the room, went down the hallway, took a left turn at a corner, continued to walk straight and finally arrived in front of an orange door. I gave a quick knock and waited for him to answer. I came face to face with a man around him thirties.

“Yuki-san, what’s wrong?”

“Dr. Ichigo, Shuichi is awake now.”

“Really?! Why haven’t you informed me earlier?” he exclaimed.

“Sorry but I was too caught up. He is asleep now.”

“Ok I will send a nano[2] to check up on him, and later in the evening I will personally go have a look at him.”

“Thank you, for everything.” I bowed and left to go back to Shuichi.

I grabbed a cup of coffee – knowing full well that I would need it later. I stepped into the white room, taking a seat right next to my sleeping koibito[3]. He looked so innocent, so pure. I don’t understand what went through his head when he thought of self mutilation. I gently held onto his right hand, being careful not to wake him up from his slumber. I kissed each of his fingers, promising to myself that I would gain your trust back and everything will be like it’s supposed to be. A happy ending. Sitting here holding his hand made me think of our past…

---Flashback---
The station was so crowded—Of course I have seen so many people in line for a transfer, but when I caught a glimpse at Shuichi’s reaction I tried to suppress the laughter inside of me. The reaction on Shuichi’s face was priceless. We held hands while we waited, but it was too noisy to talk, and we didn’t want to have to shout to hear each other.

When our number at last came up, we hopped into our port and the door closed. The barbeam started to light up, when I suddenly grabbed him and pressed his mouth firmly to mine. I don’t know what came over me. Maybe it was his pink lips taunting me, or the expression on his face, either way I couldn’t resist.

I have never done anything like this before. Transferring is a strange experience every time, but try kissing while your particles are displaced, zipped to another location and thrown back together. It was truly the best sensation, and I kept a note of it for future uses.
---End of Flashback---

I let out a chuckle, remembering our first kiss on the transfer. We still do it, but not as much as before because our apartment is only a five minute walk away from the giant super mall. We only go on transfer stations to go visit my family or my family-in-law [4]. I tucked his hair behind his ears, and then slowly started to caress his cheek. My eyes caught that faint scar on his lips. I still regret today that I let him go on his own. I could still remember like it was yesterday when Shuichi came back from going to his parent’s house…

---Flashback---
I had just finished changing Shuichi into some loose, cotton pajamas; the shirt was completely unbuttoned. I had a chair pulled up to the bedside, and was lightly running my fingers over his bruised ribs. I looked down at him with a frowning face.

“…Yuki…”

“Does it hurt badly?”

He grabbed his hand with mine, the one I wrote my ring on. I squeezed his fingers to my heart. With my free hand I touched his side again. “Who…who did this?” I needed to know who would dare hurt my precious koibito.

“Suguru.”

I touched his temple. My voice was probably shaking with anger, I asked, “And this?”

“…My father.”

“Yuki…why won’t you kiss me?”

My lips curled into my usual smile. “I don’t want to hurt you. Your lip’s are swollen badly. Did Suguru?”

“No; that was my father, too.”
---End of Flashback---

I wasn’t smiling now instead I was frowning. I still believe it’s my fault even though Shuichi has reassured me that it wasn’t. I felt completely useless at that time. I wasn’t able to protect him even though I had promised to. My thoughts somehow drifted back to how he had gotten me hard just from one simple kiss after the whole why-won’t-you-kiss-me thing.

---Flashback---
Soon my own clothes were lost in the pile of clothes. I found myself pinning Shuichi under me as I assaulted him with lustful kisses. My hands roamed up to shoulder and down to his belly. I leave marks on his neck, showing the world who he belonged to. All mine, and no one else’s. He was arching his back the next second as I pinched his nipples, turning them into hard stubs. His fingers dug into my soft flesh, as he moaned my name over and over again, begging me to stop torturing him. I wanted to continue to making him suffer, I wanted to hear him beg for me to take him. One of my hands let go of his nipple, but only to be quickly replaced by my skillful tongue. I felt his grip tighten around me, giving me squeezed in between, urging me to continue. My free hand slowly led down to his harden member. His eyes flew open and let out gasp as I wrapped my hand around his member, giving him shallow pumps. My head was over top of his all of a sudden, giving him aggressive and shameless kisses. My hand left his manhood, and slowly went to his entrance, tracing the outline of it.

“…nnhh…Yuki don't tease…..please” He whimpered.

I let a smirk run across my face as he whimpered to me. I finally slipped one of my fingers into his tight pucker. After he had gotten use to my finger, I thrusted my second finger into him, making him meow in pleasure. Another couple of minutes went by, and now three fingers were already inside of him. He bucked his hips, matching with my speed as I continued to finger-fucked him. I felt that he was ready and removed my fingers from him. To be honest my own member was twitching to be inside his stretched entrance. He let out a small protest, but quickly remained quiet knowing what was yet to come.

“Yuki…..give it to me now….please” He whispered. I shivered has he called my name with that seductive voice of his.

“I don't know Shuichi. Maybe I should make you wait. After all, you are hurt.” I teased.

“Yuki!!! Don't do this to me. I want you now!!”

“Well then, tell me what you want me to do.”

“Yuki….”

“No Shuichi, tell me what you want right now.”

“I…want you…..you to….fuck me….right now.”

“Good boy. What Shuichi wants Shuichi gets.” I pushed my member into his entrance, making his back arch into a beautiful bow. I wanted to moan out, but my lips were caught on his. I let out a possessive growl as I began to pump into him, harder and deeper by the second. Being surrounded in heat was quickly bringing me to the edge. My hand was already on his member, jerking him off according to my thrusts. He came hard, letting out a scream of pure ecstasy. I gave out growl as I came inside of him. He moaned at the feeling of me shooting inside of him..

We felt into a heap on the bed. Both of us panting, trying to regain out normal breathing. I gave him kisses my neck, chin, eyes, forehead, and finally his lips. We shared a sweet simple kiss before falling asleep in each others arms.
---End of Flashback---

I must have fallen asleep because the next thing I know I awoke to see the sunlight streaming down into the room. I must have been sleeping on the side of Shuichi’s bed when I was watching over him. I was about to put my head back on the side of the bed to continue sleeping when I suddenly perked up seeing Shuichi not in bed. I began to panic. Where did he go? How could I have not waked up from the shift in bed? Fuck, where is he now? That’s when I heard something. I whipped into the direction of where the sound was coming from. The conjoined bathroom. Why did I over react? What a stupid idiot I am.

I walked over to the bathroom door and gave a quick knock. After waiting a few seconds I checked to see if it was. What surprised me was that the door was luckily not locked. I announced that I was going in and swung open the door. Let’s just say that I wasn’t prepared for what I saw. I was expecting to see Shuichi on the toilet or brushing his teeth. There Shuichi was, sitting in the corner, clutching his bandaged wrist. I took a step closer to him and noticed that the bandaged was now tainted with red blotches. I knelt right in front of him asking to see his wrists but he refused. He just clutched it closer to his chest and continues to weep. All I could do for now was hug him, and whisper sweet nothings into his ear. I didn’t know how long we sat there hugging but I do know that it was the doctor that came into the room that made me snapped out of my daze. I carried the now sleeping Shuichi back onto the bed and informed the doctor what had happened. He just looked at Shuichi and shook his head. I didn’t know if that shook was a good or bad sign, but all I can do now is hope that it was a good sign. Even though deep inside me I know it wasn’t a good sign, just let me believe in it a little bit longer.

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Minna-san Merry Christmas~! Keke a little xmas treat for you guys ^^ Ok I got some bad news for you guys and I know that you guys are gonna start yelling right after. But I want you to hear me out ok? First thing, I’m thinking of abandoning this story *ducks under table* Why? Mostly because I’m losing my creativity juices in my brain. Another thing is I have been receiving flaming emails in my inbox everyday. My poor email is being abused. Most of the emails are from different users. Now, I don’t know if it’s the same person creating different emails or there actually from different people. But after getting all those flaming emails I’m starting to question myself. Here’s a little sample on what the emails are mostly about (hopefully the flamer wont mind ^^”):

"Fuck you, you lazy whore; a team of snails can write faster than you. So please refrain from making pathetic excuses about having "real lives" and such about your “family” and not being able to update with a new chapter. Another thing, your English sucks ass. Go learn English again or just don’t even bother trying to write in English. I mean I don’t understand anything your writing sometimes. I think your just taking words and making them into a sentence. For God’s sake go learn English again. Also update your damn story. Waiting for a month is fine but if it takes longer then it just proves that you suck at writing.”

I will try my best to complete this story, but please be patient. I honestly don’t even know when I’m going to start on the next chapter. Could be next week, or next month. I don’t know. Or until the damn flamers just stop flaming lol. Second thing, is my daddy got out of the surgery OK ^^” and I am out of the hospital as well xD. Third thing, I gave this update a rough edit because I finally booked a plane ticket back to Canada and I won’t be able to access the internet on the plane. I thought I should leave you guys a update gift ^^ Going to be spending Christmas day and boxing day in a plane =___= Anyway enjoy your chappie and Happy Holidays <333

Reviews:
Mediaminer:

Law916: Haha, yes someone does need to kick Tohma’s ass. I hope you will continue to support me in the future ^^

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AdultFanfiction:

Rayvenfire2000: I wont let Shu die…not yet anyway xD Joking…right?

Frost: Ahhh Zombie~!!! Yeah my dad hates Shuichi. He says he just is too girly and dependant on people.

Yuki’s Twin: Thank you for the review~!

Ashcat: yeah I didn’t like that last chapter either. Ah thank you for making it clear about the paramedic thingy. I wasn’t quite sure. I’m better now all thanks to the medicine they gave me but it tasted soo bitter >.<

KayPor: I don’t know…maybe Yuki and Shu will have a happy ending….or maybe the wont xP

Xunxin: Yup my father’s surgery is done and he is feeling better. I feel better as well. Thanks for caring.

Vinny the Vampire: The last chapter was a cliffie O.O I didn’t even no that lol ^^” thanks for reviewing.

Evildchild: There’s nothing to be jealous about xD well maybe there is xP Joking. Yeah sorry about the scrolling up thingy but I just wanted to be different because I always see them at the bottom. Thought I should spice up mine xD

Tsuki: Don’t cry *hands tissue* don’t worry I wont make him die in this chapter maybe in others lol…maybe…