Day and Night, Black and White

Chapter 6


“Kyo–kun! Are you okay?” Tohru asked in alarm as he staggered through the door.


Kyo slumped down at the table, putting his head in his hands.


“Ahhh! Kyo?! Are you sick? Do you need me to get you anything? Are you feeling okay?” Tohru flapped her arms about nervously. “Is that a bump on your head?”


“Don’t worry about me. It’s nothing serious.” Kyo managed to say. “Bring me the milk, please.”


Tohru hurried off and came back almost straight away with the milk carton. Kyo drank the entire thing, and then telling Tohru he just needed more sleep, he climbed the stairs to his room.


Once there, Kyo picked up the broken pieces of the key chain, for a moment trying to fit them back together. *Why am I even bothering?* He thought angrily, and shoved them away in a draw. He climbed into his bed and pulled the covers up right over his head. *I just want to sleep…sleep for years and years until I can’t even remember…until I’m over him…*


He was almost asleep when he realised he was still wearing Haru’s jacket. For some reason he couldn’t bring himself to take it off. “Damn you Haru,” he whispered.

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“Where’s Kyo?” Haru asked Yuki the next day. Yuki gave him a slightly funny look.


“Kyo-kun stayed home.” Tohru answered for him, her blue eyes wide. “He hardly left his room yesterday, and today he said he felt ill. I hope he feels better soon!”


Haru’s brow furrowed. *Is he sick from spending too much time in the rain…or is it something more?* He got up, mumbling something about needing to be alone and walked out to the balcony. Resting his arms on it, he leaned forward looking over, but too deep in thought to really see anything.
*I’m really worried about Kyo,* he realised. *It’s not just attraction that I feel about him…now it’s become much more…I actually care about him a lot.* Haru clenched his fist, feeling a wave of self-loathing. *If only I could control myself! Now I’ve ruined any chance of a relationship between us, Kyo probably wont even want to be in the same room with me anymore…*


*Why can’t I get over you Kyo? Why can’t I forget you and leave things be? *
Haru remembered the feeling of holding Kyo close when he was still recovering from being hit by that car. *I wanted to protect him… when I’m the one he needs protection from! *


It didn’t quite make sense…Haru frowned. He knew that even when he was black Kyo was slightly stronger than him, or at least better at fighting. Why, he wondered, why was it that when he found himself in Kyo’s room, in his bed like he had, why hadn’t Kyo been fighting him? *Wouldn’t that mean he wanted it? Just a little bit at least? Because he wasn’t resisting me…? But then why did I see tears in his eyes?* It was all so confusing.


Haru closed his eyes, wondering if he dug deep enough perhaps he could conjure up the masked memories his black side had experienced. He had never tried something like this before…but then, nothing like this had ever really happened.


Haru tried to still his mind, to think back to the other night, and every night before when he had thought he had been sleeping… but no images or memories came. Just one thought kept floating through his mind *I hope Kyo doesn’t hate me for this…*


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*I don’t care if I never go to school again. Why should I bother? There’s nothing there for me. There’s nothing here for me either. Maybe I should just return to the mountains by myself and spend the rest of my life…alone…* Kyo was once again sitting on his roof. He had decided he would sleep there now as well; too many memories in his bedroom.


He had hardly eaten anything, and when Yuki had called him a baka neko for dropping the milk as he was getting it out of the fridge earlier on, he couldn’t even get angry enough to challenge the rat to a fight. *What’s happened to me? It’s like I can’t feel anything except misery right now…* There was nothing to do except sit around and avoid everyone until this feeling passed.


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“When do you think he will come down from there?” Tohru asked as she ate dinner with Shigure and Yuki.


“Hmm… Kyo-kun has been rather depressed lately hasn’t he,” Shigure commented cheerfully. “There’s only one thing that can make a person that depressed! Do you know what that is Tohru?”


“huh?”


“Our Kyo is heart broken! A lost love! I wonder who it could be?” Shigure threw an arm over his forehead dramatically. “Oh its so tragically beautiful!”


“Oh no! Poor Kyo-kun!” Tohru gasped, getting up to go to him.


Yuki snorted in disbelief but continued to eat, hardly interested.


“Stop Tohru, you must let this thing run its course.” Shigure told her. “Things will work out in the end.”


“They will?”


“Of course. Just like every good romance novel has a happy ending!”


“Shigure, stop feeding Honda – san that garbage. Just because you live in an alternate word, doesn’t mean the rest of us do.” Yuki snapped.


Shigure shrugged and went away to write notes for his next novel, murmuring about how great young love is.


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“Momiji can you do me a favour?” Haru asked.


“Sure Haru!” the blond boy smiled brightly.


“Can you lock this door and keep the key with you till the morning?”


“Sure!” Momiji repeated, not even asking why.


Haru smiled, ruffling the shorter boy’s hair. “Thanks.”


He went into his room and heard Momiji lock the door. He sighed hoping he would be able to sleep but having a feeling he wouldn’t with all the thoughts that were still racing around in his head.


Haru was mistaken though, because no sooner than he lay down and closed his eyes, he fell asleep, flashes of memories passing before his eyes. He tossed and turned, troubled, even in sleep unsure of what was a dream, and what was a memory. Then, a scene, much clearer than any of the others, too clear to simply be a dream, played itself in his mind.

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It was dark, but he could feel someone near, hands clutching his body, lips pressed to his…


“Haru…”


Kyo?


“Haru… please,” Kyo looked up at him, his eyes full of desire and…something else. “Please don’t tie my hands up this time…let me touch you…”
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Haru jolted awake. *He wasn’t resisting me…he actually liked what we were doing! That must mean something right?* Haru felt a slight wave of relief. He sat there thinking for a while, and by the time morning arrived he had made a decision. He decided that he would go and tell Kyo how he felt, and then see what happened…if Kyo didn’t want anything to do with him…well then he would stay away. But at least he would have tried.


Sucking in a deep breath and trying not to get too nervous, Haru found Hatori and asked him if he could drive him over to Shigure’s house because he had something urgent to do. He didn’t want to waste time getting lost, he wasn’t sure what he would do or say once he got to Kyo, but somehow he just needed to know for sure…if there was even the tiniest chance…


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Kyo sat up from where he had been lying on the roof and peered over the edge when he heard the sound of a car in the driveway. He almost fell off when he saw who was getting out.


“Haru!” he exclaimed, and then cursed when Haru turned and saw him. Kyo scrambled back out of sight. *Why did I say that out loud? He’s probably here to see Yuki…*


“Kyo.”


*Did he just say my name? No he couldn’t have. *


“Kyo!” Haru called out to him, a little louder.


Kyo remained crouched on the roof, breathing hard. *Why do I feel so nervous? Why do I feel so scared?*


“What?” he asked quietly. The sound of Haru shuffling his feet against the ground anxiously for a moment could be heard, and then he shouted out the last thing Kyo would ever have expected.


“KYO…I REALLY LIKE YOU!”


Kyo froze. Then slowly, he crept back over to the edge of the roof. Haru was standing on the ground, looking up at him. His eyes met those grey ones and he felt his heart do a flip-flop. “What…what did you say?”

“I really like you Kyo.” Haru repeated simply.


Kyo remained still and there was a long silence, broken only by the faint sound of birds calling to each other in the distance.


Kyo felt himself becoming angry.


“That’s really funny, Haru.” he spat. “Haven’t you played enough games with me by now? Just because you can’t get Yuki, is that why you do it? Is that why you use me? Like some kind of temporary replacement? I’m sick of you playing with my feelings like this and then just leaving me…” Kyo’s voice rose louder and louder.

“I’m. Not. Like. You!” each word came out choked. “I can’t just hold someone so close one minute and then push them away the next! I can’t be more intimate with another person than I ever have with anyone else and then pretend it never happened! I can’t just forget about things that easily! I know that you were in your black form, but now that you know…and now that you are white….WHY ARE YOU STILL TORMENTING ME?!”


Haru stared back at Kyo, his face a mixture of heartbreak and anger, his eyes shinning with emotion. “IS THAT WHAT YOU THINK?” He shouted back at Kyo, and for a second Kyo wondered if he had brought out Black Haru, but it seemed the boy was still white.


“I can’t stop thinking about you Kyo! I’m fond of Yuki…I always have been since that time I realised he wasn’t who I thought he was…but Kyo, Yuki doesn’t make me react the way you do. Its you, not Yuki who I want to be with so much that you invade all my thoughts…when I close my eyes your there, when I try to fall asleep at night I lie awake because I want you so bad…so bad that I didn’t even realise it! I didn’t even realise that I was holding my feelings back, until my black side began to take over without warning… there’s never been anyone who could bring that side of me out as fast as you can Kyo….and it’s not just a physical thing…you mean more to me than that….Kyo…I….”


Haru closed his eyes. *Just say it! You’ve never been afraid to reveal your feelings,* he told himself. But he knew at the same time, he had never been so afraid of rejection either. *I don’t know if I could handle it…just say it!*

“Kyo….I think I love you.”


This time Kyo did fall off the roof.


He landed on the ground on all fours with cat-like grace, staring at Haru in wonder.* He is totally serious…* Kyo realised, seeing it in his eyes. *Ba-dump. Ba-dump.* His heartbeat thundered in his ears.


Haru said nothing, trying to keep his face blank as he waited for Kyo to say something…anything….


Kyo looked around. Then he looked back at Haru. Suddenly he shot to his feet. “HOW DARE YOU!” He yelled.


“What?”


“How dare you” Kyo repeated, advancing on Haru like a cat stalking his prey, “WHY DID YOU HAVE TO EMBARESS ME BY SAYING THAT HERE AND NOW AND IN FRONT OF THEM!” Kyo spun around and pointed a finger at the audience, which consisted of Yuki, Tohru and Shigure standing in the doorway, and Hatori leaning against his car, all having seen the entire show.


“Ahh….” Haru began, “I kinda forgot they were there…”


Kyo shoved him roughly. “Damn you, Haru.”
Haru shoved him back but in a playful manner.
Somehow their shoving turned into an embrace as Kyo grabbed Haru and buried his face into the boy’s neck. Surprised, Haru hugged him back tightly. He felt wetness against his skin, was Kyo crying?

“Oh isn’t this wonderful!” Shigure cried. “Doesn’t it just remind you so much of us when we were young lads Tori?”


Hatori stared blankly at Shigure. “No.”


Kyo pulled back from Haru, blinking rapidly, trying to pretend he hadn’t got a little teary eyed. “Thank you.” he said to Haru, not sure exactly why he was saying it, but feeling that he needed to. “Thank you so much.”

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Thank you for reading =D There will probably be about 2 more chapters after this =)