Beaten

You lay awake the entire night, just staring at the top of the canopy.
The next day the woman stayed, but you still couldn't get out of your thoughts. Every time you went to get out and start to interact, you were tortured by another thought, memory, or idea. That went on for two days, you couldn't do anything. You didn't eat, you didn't drink. You just sat and stared. You didn't sleep either, and you were exhausted. In your strange catatonic state there was a part of you that was fearful, that ou would never come out of it, and that you would die, but you were happy in your silnt state, you didn’t feel anything.
You woke in the morning, and the woman dressed you. You couldn’t think or speak. She had you sitting on the bed, and you looked as she pressed something into your hands. It was a small design, carved onto wood. You never looked at it, but she knelt before you, and closed your hand around it.
“This child, was made by your father, given to you at your birth.” She said. You were unable to move,and you gave no reaction to her words, your eyes completely unseeing..
She pulled you forward, and it took a moment for you to, walk, but you were blind to your movement.s
You were sitting at a table. The woman with the green eyes had some objects spread out before you. You were starring off, unable to stop your thoughts. Your gaze swept over the things on the table. There was a folded blanket. It was pink, and silky. There was also two stuffed animals. They were bunnies, the legs and arms were a matching pink silk, and they had a soft cloth that was the faces and ears. Your thoughs suddenly came to a halt as you saw the tree objects before you.
You reached out with a trembeling hand and toutched the blanket. It was cool and soft to the touch. The silky materials running over your skin like water. The woman gasped, and leaned forward.
"Do you remember?" she asked breathlessly. You looked up at her and looked into her eyes for a moment. You then looked away, searching for an answer.
Suddenly the door burst open. Two men came in followed by the woman with the almond eyes. You couldn't tear your eyes away from the blanket. It was soo familiar.
Suddenly you felt them grab your arms. You stared at the blanket, you remembered something, it seemed familiar. You could barely notice what was happening.
The green eyes woman screamed at the men. But they said something in their language. The woman sank into her chair heavily. You blinked your eyes, but didn't know what was happening. The men placed a bag over your head, and you were taken by your arms,
You were led away, but you still couldn't bring yourself out of your trance. You thought about the blanket, and suddenly you started to wonder why you were being taken away form the nice woman. You felt yourself being thrown to the ground. You looked up, and you realized you were back in a cell. You looked around. You felt a hand wrap around your neck, you were picked up and thrown against a wall. You felt a person grab yoru face and turn it to look right at them.
"You will be executed tomorrow. You have been charged with the deaths of five of our own, the guards of the southern post, you are a liar, you are an agent for the empire! How dare you put arya Svit-Kona through so much pain? She has lost her only child, and you come and act as an imposter!" He said, then he kicked you hard in the stomach. You went flying back against the wall. You gasped in pain, trying to breathe.
You looked up, what was he saying? You didn't kill anyone! You watched as he went. You tried to call out to him, to tell him he made a mistake, but you still couldn't speak.
"why?" you asked. You couldn't understand. You hadn't done anything. You did nothing to deserve this, you were a good girl, you did as you were told, but everyone hurt you for things you didn’t do.
"Why?" you asked again, louder, you started to shake in fear.
"WHY!?!?" you screamed as loud as you could. You laied still then, waiting for an answer. You were going to die, and still no one had ever held you, no one had ever loved you, no one had ever believed you. Your own mother didn't even Everythign was moving so fast. You just couldn't remember what in the world was happening to you the entire thing was a blur.
You fell into an exhausted slumber. You woke as you felt warmth above you. You wereon your back on the cold dirt ground, a sillhouete was outlined in the moon, but suddenly your breathing was cut off as a hand was placed over your mouth, and nose. You jerked unable to breath. As the seconds passed you felt your lungs burn You scratched at the hands, tears leaking from your eyes.
“I brought a monster into this world, I should be the one to take it out.” Came a voice. Tears leaked from your eyes as you wet yourself. You felt pain in your heart and you kicked and shook frantically, light headed. Your toes curled, and pain was spread across your face. You screamed against the hand, and you drug your nails in the dirt, your limbs on fire, your nails bled from the force you exerted. Suddenly you felt the pressure from your face gone, and you gasped for air, your body limp on the ground. You felt a slap to the face, and you were picked up by the front of your tunic and slammed to the wall.
“What did you do?!?” she demanded, the woman with green eyes, her face was wet with tears. You gasped, weezing your breaths in, your body completely limp from the lack of oxygen. your eyes closed, your body trembled, as you felt her slap you again. She dropped you. The woman, was your mother? was beating you, going to kill you. You were crying soo hard that you vomited, the minute contents of your stomach coming up. Your lip was bleeding, but your body continued to convulse. You finally collapsed at her feet. She stared down at you harshly as you gasped loudly for breath, your lungs wheezing, your body trembling.
You turned on your side, breathing heavily, letting your body rest. You heard the sound of metal scraping on metal. You looked up as she stepped over you, and you saw a knife in her hand. You She knelt down and pressed it to your neck. You looked at the woman, you knew who she was, but you didn’t. You looked into her eyes, pure fear in them, you terror filled eyes leaked tears down your cheeks. There was a moment, that you felt a spark, or some sort of recognition. You squeezed your eyes shut, tears leaking through as you whimpered in fear. Suddenly you felt the pressure was gone, and you heard a sob. You opened your eyes, and saw the woman was leaning against the wall and had sunk to the ground. She held the knife in her hand, but then held her face in her hands. You laid on the ground, limp, and gasping for breath, you curled your body into a ball and cried more like a child did. No matter the fact his was way trying to kill you beat you, she was your mother. You didn’t feel like a drifting being when you were around her, you felt like a hild. Suddenly you felt her pull you into her hap, you tensed and whimpered in fear, you were blank, just gasping for breath.
“What have you done? You can’t live, you’re a monster!.” She said to herself, as she rocked you in her lap. Your head rested aginst her shoulder, as she brushed your hair and kissed your head. Your mouth was open in shock, you didn’t know what was going on, but you were trying to push away the pain that was making your body burn. Were you her child? Were you a monster? You cried violently, trembling and holding your arms tightly, you couldn’t speak, you just did know how to communicate anmore it seemed like.
Your hand clutched some of her tunic, and you began to suck your thumb. For some reason it was instinct that made you do it. She pulled you close and held you rocking you gently.