Awake at last

Chapter 11: progress pro’s and cons

(rape such a beautiful way to express your need for someone’s children as seen in Blood + )

In Saya’s room Haji sat on her bed his hand caressing her cheek, moving the stray strands out of her face. Julia had come earlier to discuss the events prior.

“So your saying she only was active for a few minuets, less violent, and more controllable?” “Yes, however she was more aware and much more strait forward.” “Haji,” she placed a hand on his shoulder. He looked in to her confused eyes. “I can’t even begin to imagine the torment you have been going through for so long. She loves you Haji she always has and she needs you just as much as you need her. the only advise I have now is to set a wedding date maybe right after Christmas it’s up to you just make it soon have your honeymoon somewhere where you can’t be interrupted and love her Haji love her like you wanted to all of these years love her like only you can love her Haji.” His eyes returned to Saya. he smiled as he watched her tiny figure move slightly as she breathed. “I’ll continue working on that enzyme.” “Arigatou” She waved as she walked out of the room leaving them to rest. “Saya.. not until your ready.” He bent down and whispered to her sleeping form. Her silky hair felt cool against his face. “Haji..” he was startled. “hold me Haji.” She turned over to face him. he slipped his shoes off and joined her under the warm covers. “Haji?” she touched the smooth skin of his cheek. “I’m sorry.” He gave her a questioned look. “I’m sorry I attacked you again. “It’s all my fault all of this is my fault. All of these years you have needed me and all of these years I have needed you though time has been longer for you with no sleep while I sleep so much and for so long.” He bolted up in bed holding her tightly in his embrace. “Saya I never want you to think or say that ever again. Time has been cruel to both of us but now we can move onwards remembering the good and learning from the bad not dwelling on it.” “But Haji..” he held her away from “Saya listen to me even if it is just this once listen to me. ‘never grow to hate yourself’ Riku, and.. your Father would not want you to live like this let his death help us to grow to love who we are who others are and will become. Nankurunaisa.. Saya.” “Haji..” she ran her hand down his face stopping briefly at his lips then continuing down his neck. She pulled back his collar and pressing her mouth to his shoulder sunk her teeth in to his flesh. “Saya..” he whispered as he pulled her tightly against his body. “ahh Saya you always make it more enjoyable than the last.” Her mouth relinquished its grasp. “you make it so tempting.” She un buttoned his shirt folded it and set it on his chair. “Saya..?” “I want to be closer to your heart while I sleep.” he nodded as he laid back down pulling the covers around them. “Oyasumi.. Saya.” “Oyasumi.. Haji” “Aishiteru itsumo Saya.” “Aishi…” sleep finally took her. Haji could feel her warm breath on his bare chest. Pulling her even closer to her he kissed her smooth cheek. “sleep well my dear Saya. Sleep well.”

The morning broke. Haji rested next to Saya he had removed his shirt to save it from another rage that would hopefully not come. Contemplating the conversation he had with Julia. “dose Saya want me or dose she want my children? How dose she see me, as a Chevalier, family, or more? She agreed to be my wife yet I see little change in our relationship. It seems as a mixture of her happiness from her last awakening and knowing who she is remembering our past. Is she sad because I can not give her children or is it only her subconscious telling her that she needs me because she trusts me because I have always been with her? I love her, I always have. I have only wanted her happiness though I want her happiness to be with me. To give her children and to stay with her for all eternity. Am I being selfish? Am I only this way because of Joel? Or is it just me? Have I been as controlling as amshel? Maybe not as creepy but I kept her from Solomon. Did I take away her one chance at happiness to fill my own needs? She said that she didn’t want him but what if that was only because of me maybe she did not want to hurt me or even she may have felt guilty or threatened.” “Haji?” he was torn from his thoughts by her soft loving voice. “Haji gomen nasai.” “there’s no need for that Saya it’s a new day.” “Ai Shiteru Itsumo Haji.” “Ai Shiteru Itsumo Saya.” He replied caressing her cheek. A hint of sadness still filled his eyes. “Haji I love you no matter what I will always love you for you.” “as I will you.” His eyes flashed sadness replaced by her joy. “Haji..” she tracing the outlines of his muscular torso. “Gomen nasai I will dress.” He turned to leave but she held his arm tightly. “Saya?” “Haji I don’t mind stay for a while won’t you?” “As you wish.” She held him in a tight embrace. “Haji I didn’t hurt you did I?” “only a few scratches I have already healed.” “but what about this?” concern in her voice as she found a deeper cut on his lower abdomen. “my dagger slipped when I removed my shirt.” she knew his statement was untruthful however she also knew that he must have been holding this back for a reason. She did not peruse the answer. A sharp rasp came from the other side of the door. “Okaasan Otoosan! Let’s go outside it’s snowing again.!” “Just a minute Ayaka.” Haji pulled on his shirt as Saya opened the door. They dashed to the bed as soon as the door was open enough for them to get through. “Okaasan your room is cold. How can you stand it?” she turned to Haji who was busy buttoning his shirt. “Haji keeps me warm.” She sat next to him and helped him with the last few buttons. “Otoosan..?” Ayaka practically glomped him. “Wow Otoosan you are warm come here Neesan. Otoosan will you sleep with me tonight? Hana hogs all of the covers.” “Sorry girls I have first dibs on him.” she retorted saving him from a long explanation. “I have been sleeping with him for so long I just can bear to even take a nap with out him.” “Maybe she thinks of me as a portable space heater…” a smile crossed his face. “Otoosan Okaasan can we go outside?” “After breakfast.” Haji sat on the edge of the bed to put on his shoes. Rising he offered his hand to Saya. He buttoned her powder blue blouse with the twins their eyes fixed almost obsessively on the scene. “Okaasan when can I have a chevalier?” Ayaka asked as they descended the stairs to the kitchen. “I want one just like Otoosan because he’s so helpful and nice to everyone.” Haji brought them the food that he had prepared. “you know not all chevalier are like Haji. Whatever kind of person they are before the transform they will be the same afterwards of course everyone can change somewhat.” Haji only sipped his tea while the others engulfed their nourishment. “there are people who have threatened Saya and I despise them. Even Kai when we first met seemed to be yet another burden on our mission yet Saya taught me to understand that many people even though not chiropteran are able to help and are worthy of protecting.” “Otoosan do all chevalier cook this well?” “This is better than that guy on tv!” “And Haji is more handsome too.” “Saya.. don’t tease.” “oh Haji you have to learn to take a complement I guess that’s my fault too.” She sighed “Saya.. gomen.” He placed a hand on her shoulder. “Haji it’s ok allot has changed. Come on let’s have some fun in the snow.” she smiled mischievously. His cheeks took a slightly pinkish tint. “ah ha got you!” “Yay we can make a snow man.” “and an igloo.” They put on their coats, gloves ect.. and headed outside. The twins progressed to pile snow in to various shapes Haji watched as Saya bent to help them after a chunk fell off the largest pile. “She is happy finally happy. Will it last? Maybe Solomon was right.. but even if we can’t will she be happy with Riku’s or will she be overcome with grief. No, I see it in her eyes I feel her throughout my every being, she is genually happy. Her eyes her lips I can see it I can feel it. She is the most beautiful being her presence fills me. The way her hair flows around her as she plays with them. When I am around her I feel complete.” “Haji head’s up.” Saya yelled as she threw a snowball at him. “Saya!” he yelled as he caught it yet the power of still splashed some on to his face. She threw another attempting to chase him though he did not move. “Come on Haji you’re supposed to run think of it as training only with snowballs for weapons. “Saya I could never attack you.” “Haji I told you were not fighting we’re sparing.” she threw another. Finally he decided to play along for he did not want to sadden her. He ducked around trees and bushes as she chased him pummeling snow at him. She lured him in to a clearing while circling with great speed. He continued to run in any direction where she wasn’t She pounced knocking him to the snow covered ground as he ran. “Got you.” She smiled her warm body pressing in to his. His arms wrapped around her thin waist when her lips took his. a glow appeared in her eyes as she pulled his collar back. “Saya..” closing his eyes when her fangs penetrated his skin. A deep yet almost unnoticeable moan escaped his lips his chest vibrated slightly. She released him kissing his lips again. “Saya I am glad that you have always chosen me to receive the pleasures of a Chevalier.” “Haji you really enjoy this that much?” “The sensation of your deep need for my essence. I sense the craving that completes me.” She brushed one of his charcoal locks off of his face to gaze more intently in to his deep slate eyes. “it is though every time he looks at me it is though he can see my very being the deepest abyss of my soul. Though his eyes usually show no expression I can feel just by looking in to them every emotion he has ever gone through. I can’t explain why fully I just sense him as though we were one always we are one I may not be able to pinpoint his location but flashes of his own emotion are shown before my eyes no mater how far apart we are. I always feel him with me in me though when he is by my side he fills me completes.” “Ai shiteru itsumo Haji.” The vibration of her voice seemed to echo around the snow filled yard. “Ai shiteru itsumo Saya..” a sudden moving image appeared before her eyes.

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Saya chased him over the grassy meadow. He caught her spinning then collapsing in the cool lawn. She startled his torso leaning down to kiss him briefly before raising trapping him under her. “Haji you make it too easy! How are we supposed to play chase?” “Maybe I want you to catch me. I may allow my self to be caught more often if we wind up like this.” “Haji you fiend.” She scolded bending down to kiss her once more. “ahh” his breath escaped him as she untucked his shirt opening the buttons smoothing her hands over his rippling muscles. “Look who’s talking.” He went on. “What will Joel say if he finds out that I have spoiled his precious daughter before we are wed?” “ah now keep on talking like that and you may find yourself in a bit of a predicament.” She reached behind her untying the cords making it almost impossible to inhale. “Saya?” he watched her curiously. “Haji you know I hate this dress I can’t even breathe. Come on help me.” he did as he was told for he had no out she was still pressing down on him though the difference may have been almost un noticeable to her the sensation was nearly impossible to miss on his side. “Saya please.” “oh all right cry baby.” She shifted to the side. “I have to take this blasted thing off any way.” “Arigatou.” He sighed. “why is it that you always end up landing there?” “mm” was her only response as she dropped the restricting garment. “Haji?” she bent over him only her thin undergarments shielding him from her untainted bosoms. “Hmm” “Aishiteru Itsumo.” “Aishi..” but he was cut off by her deep embracing kiss.

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“Saya?” he touched her cheek. “Saya dozo.” “Oh gomen.” She shifted her weight higher. “Arigatou.” He exhaled slowly. “old habits die hard I guess.” “Saya? did you?” he was interrupted by the twins ran up to them breaking them out of their trance. “Okaasan, Otoosan I’m cold.” “Can we go inside now?” “Sure.” She moved off of him giving him her hand to help him rise. Smiling he took her arm carrying Hanna in his other while Saya held Ayaka. “I’ll make hot chocolate.” “Yay” the twins chorused. “you are a wonderful father Haji.” Saya kissed him once more as they walked in to the warm indoors.



Chapter 12: presents past future.

(Haji Buy me something! Or continue staring at my naked form I can go both ways.)

Christmas eve was upon them. The pub was noisy and crowded. The number of customers had increases dramatically ever since Haji began to play to sooth Saya as she ran around the pub taking orders, cooking, and various other jobs. Saya was leaving the last few gifts under the Christmas tree. The twins pestering her Haji sitting back admiring the scene. “Okaasan, when can we open our presents?” the young girl pulled on Saya’s pants leg. “Ayaka Hana you may not open your presents until Christmas morning but if your good we can all open one present after we get back from church tonight.” They cried with delight as they ran around the tree deciding which one to open first. “I want to open the big one!” told Hana “Well I want the small one they usually put better gifts in small boxes.” “Ayaka your no fun you open the biggest box first because you save the best for last.” “oh ya I forgot.” “do you think they know?” Haji whispered as Saya walked over to hug him. “Yours are the most neatly wrapped gifts I think they can figure that out almost immediately you are very skill full with your hands you know. You probably know your hands better than you know me!” “Saya.. that’s not true. I train my hands so that I may be able to play the Cello for you.” “I know I know it was a joke I’m sorry.” She brushed her lips against his cheek. “I’m not going to open any gifts tonight I want to save them all for tomorrow.” “Like always Haji.” They were broken out of their spell by the twins yelling Kai’s home!” a few seconds later Kai walked in carrying a mound of food. Haji rushed to the door to help him with it. After all of the food was in it’s proper place Kai collapsed in one of the near by booths. “Kai I told the twins that if they are good they can open one present each tonight.” “that’s fine. Did you have a good day?” “yes. We finished putting the gifts under the tree and Haji practiced his solo for the Christmas eve service at church.” “great. I spent pretty much all day being pestered by Mao. And the rest shopping for food.” “what did Mao want?” “ahh I don’t even know anymore. First she was talking about how I missed my chance with her and then she was going back and forth between you and me, you and Haji, you and Solomon, who knows who else. She drives me insane.” “Kai?..” “ahh what ever Saya I love you but I know you love Haji and always have. It’s not meant to be after all you are my sister and that would be kinda weird. ‘how did you meet your beautiful wife?’ ‘well my dad just brought her home one day and told me she was my new sister’.” “Kai?..” “you know I’ve never told you this but Diva wanted me to be her chevalier.. she said an incentive was that we could have a family. I still don’t know how to feel about that. I mean to say it would put all of us at risk. But I think that I would kill myself right then and there if she had forced it on me.” “Kai why are you saying all of this?” “I just thought it was better for me to tell you then to find out some other way. I’m sorry if it bothers you.” Saya embraced him tears falling from her eyes. “Kai don’t let it bother you. I’m not mad really I’m not. You have taken good care of our nieces. You have waited for me. You protected me. You have taught me another reason to live and have taught Haji to stand up for his beliefs even if they contradict mine. Arigatou Kai” she looked at Haji and then back at Kai. “thank you for telling me.” She whispered to him. “Saya it is time to dress for church.” She released Kai took Haji’s arm and diapered up the stairs.

Haji handed Saya the long forest green dress she had picked out earlier that day. “Haji you should have your hair down tonight.” Her request brought a small smirk to Haji’s lips as Saya played with his sable locks. “Saya my wish is yours.” She turned around so that he could zip up the back. His hand brushed lightly against her skin which made her shiver slightly. “How would you like me to play tonight?” “Slowly, softly, lengthily, and let the vibrations linger.” He kissed her slightly. “Remember tonight you are playing for Yeshua.” (AN: I’m not Jewish I just like speaking in Hebrew’s the coffee.) he kneeled taking her hand and kissing it replied. “you will always be in my heart whoever I play for.” “Haji come on your going to make me cry.” “I only speak the truth.” She pulled him up and pressed her lips against his. “Let’s go we don’t want to be late.” They headed down stairs slightly catching Kai’s eyes before the twins bombarded her with questions about her past Christmas’. They left for church closely banded together for warmth. “Otoosan have you ever driven a car?” “I am capable but I prefer to sit with Saya incase of an attack.” “what kind of car have you driven?” “1925 Studebaker, 1927 dodge, 1975 mustang, 1992 cirrus 2007 crossfire, 2008 town and country, 2008 Sebring.” “wow that’s allot of cars.” “I only drove them a few times. And only in desperate situations.” “which one did you like the most?” “Studebaker.” “I prefer to travel by train or by horse.” “wow Otoosan can you teach us to ride?” “when it is warmer” he replied. “We’re here” Kai called. They entered the Church that was in a warm festive spirit. Haji set up his Cello as people began to fill the seats. After a while the pastor began his sermon and talked for what seemed like forever before it was Haji’s turn. Beautiful music filled the air playing from memory never missing a note or making a false move lingering far after he finished. The church was emptied unwillingly of attentive listeners. “you played absolutely wonderful Haji.” “I’m glad you liked it.” “Sir.. Haji is it?” an elderly man asked him. “Yes.” “is that what I think it is?” “Antonio Stradivari yes it is.” “in such great working condition?” “I take good care of my Saya.” “Saya is that her name?” “after my Fiancé.” A smile came upon his face as he turned to her. “Haji?.. I thought her name was jone-tsuteki na momoiro bara.” “Hai, but I like to call her Saya.” “come on Ted it’s time to go. My whole family is coming in the morning and I need my beauty sleep.” “sorry the wife calls. I hope you will play here sometime soon.” “Okaasan can we go home now?” “sure come on Haji.”

After they returned home the twins opened their promised gifts as Kai Saya and Haji sat watching them. “Yay a new plushy neko!” “mine’s a inu!” they ran around playing with them until Kai finally told them it was bed time. After Kai convinced them to sleep so that Christmas would come sooner. He also collapsed on his bed. “Haji? Will you open my present?” “Only if you open mine first.” “all right.” Haji handed her a small box neatly wrapped in crimson paper. “what is it?” “open it.” She unwrapped the small package taking care not to tear the paper. “Ohhh Haji it can’t be!” “it is the same comb that I gave you so many years ago.” “but I thought it was broken lost in the fire!” “I retrieved it the. I was afraid that it could not be mended being whale bone after all but I met a very talented craftsman in Paris who was able to mend them.” “Haji thank you thank you so much.” She embraced him then handed him a medium size box.” “he skillfully took the paper off and lifted the top off. “Saya?” “there’s a tea kettle and two cups to go with it because I know tea is the only human nourishment you’ll take and you enjoy it so much. And this …” he took the kettle out to examine it carefully. Then his eyes falling on the other contence of the box. “Saya?” “it’s a cotton robe you can use it for after a bath or just laying around the house. Especially when it’s cold.” She answered but he did not seem to be satisfied with the answer. “Haji I love your cloths don’t get me wrong but you need to relax a bit. Have some fun. lay on the couch watch tv whatever just relax.” “thank you Saya for thinking of me. For caring for loving. Arigatou.” He kissed her then carried her and their gifts up stairs to her room.

He laid her on the bed then put their gifts on the chair then removed his shoes. He unzipped her dress then placed it In the hamper. “Haji?” she asked fumbling with his necktie. “hmm” “how long ago was our last Christmas together just us?” “just before your 7th sleep Greece I believe.” She freed it from it’s tight knot. And began working on the buttons. “oh yes I remember all of the cat’s on the islands. Haji? truthfully have we ever made love?” “Saya?” “I don’t mean to be cruel it’s just that I remembered something new today that startled me a bit.” “Startled you?” “Haji I never knew you could be such a hentai.” “Hentai?” “at the zoo playing chase” “Saya, that was a long time ago I was only fifteen. We had our own way of communicating when we were running around the zoo out of earshot.” “But Haji I need to know have we ever made love?” he stared at her for a long time sensing she truly could not remember. “no we have never, no romantic contact has gone further than a kiss.” “but you have held me when I was bear. Are you telling me that you have never?” “Saya I have held you for protection against the elements. I have never even fondled your breasts.” “Are you sure?” she asked. Placing his hands on her tender flesh. “Saya?” “All of these years and never? Well I can’t have my fiancé being too sheltered. What will people say?” she kissed him but as soon as she dropped her hands he did the same. “Haji?” “hmm” “why did you Name our Cello Saya?” she finished the buttons putting his shirt in the hamper along with her dress and returning to him. “because I love you.” “but really why?” “Because I want to play you Saya.” “Nani?” “I want you to sing just as the Cello running my hands across your beautiful frame until you sing.” “Haji?” “I love you Saya I want you to sing for me. I want you to be happy. To sing how you once did. You sing so beautifully.” “Haji ..I want to sing for you.. tonight.” “Saya is that your wish?” “Yes Haji it is our wish.” She replied pulling him on the bed with her pressing her lips against his. “but you can’t be a stoic tonight Haji.” He smiled touching her cheek. “that’s the smile I love.” she reached down to unfasson his charcoal pants. He seemed a bit resistant at first but he went with it seeing that he just needed some time to get use to this movement. Laying his pants at the foot of the bed she returned nipping at his bottom lip. She entered his mouth teasing him a bit before he traced her jaw line down to her neck. “Haji are you..” his slate eyes turned to her pleading in a way. “It’s ok go on.” She coxed. He sank his fangs in to her sweet flesh. Her essence flowed in to his mouth as she moaned. He took only a small amount before letting the wound close and moving farther towards her breasts. Kissing her smooth skin sent shivers through her body. “Haji now I know what you mean by the pleasures of being a Chevalier.” He glanced at her before returning to his travels. He unclasped the pink silk lace that was constricting his efforts. moving his mouth nipping and suckling her dark centers his other hand massaging her other. He released her moving to her other treating if not equally then greater before continuing his travels south. “ohhh Haji” he nipped her as he moved. He pulled off her panties and threw them to the hamper as well. He breathed in her stimulating aroma that filled His every being. His eyes flashed as his tongue entered her tasting her powerful flavor. She contracted around him as his tongue ran against her walls. “Hajii..” moving his tongue on her clit. sucking slightly then holding her more tightly as she began to convulse. He engulfed her other essence before rising to meet her gaze. She gasped for breath as he laid beside her. she pulled his head to her chest and head him tightly. He felt her vibrations as she spoke. “Haji.. ahh Haji” was all that she could muster. Releasing him he pressed his lips against hers and whispered “were just getting started.” “ohh Haji” she moaned as she removed his boxers. “Saya..” “It’s time Haji it’s finally time.” His smile filled her every being with his presence. Gracefully he positioned himself above her. With caution he entered her tight crevice locking his mouth over hers so as to prevent waking the other sleeping body’s. before closing rapidly blood poured out of her wound. Feeling fait she laid her head on the pillow. “Haji..i’m weak.” “Saya you need blood.” He bent so that she could have better access as she sank her fangs in to his high shoulder. “ahh thank you Haji..” “it’s my fault if I had not taken your blood earlier..” “no Haji don’t blame yourself. I loved it I really did.” She brushed one of his sable locks to the side as she pressed her lips against his. He soon relinquished her grasp taking her earlobe in to his control. his tongue caressed the tender skin behind. Onward he came to her supple breasts suckling nipping and massaging them as he pushed himself deeper and deeper in to her as if trying to find a new cavern in the constricting crevice of their passion. Deeper and deeper faster and faster until he locked his mouth over hers yet again. Her pulsing constrictions drove him over the edge taking a moment to savor any leftover blood before he collapsed beside her. “Aishiteru itsumo Haji.” “Aishiteru itsumo Saya Merry Christmas Saya. Oyasumi” “Merry Christmas Haji Oyasu..” she drifted off to sleep wrapped in his strong arms the ever vigilant by her side and for the first time in almost two hundred years content with her happiness.