To Be Loved by Darkness

To Be Loved By Darkness

Chapter 6

The Cast:

Sebastian Michaelis: Rhinoa Lunar

Ciel Phantomhive: Jezebelle Anne Harris

William T. Spears: Rhinoa Lunar

Grell Sutcliff: Jezebelle Anne Harris

Lizzie: Rhinoa Lunar

Undertaker: Jezebelle Anne Harris

Lord Frederick: Rhinoa Lunar

Yuki 3: Jezebelle Anne Harris

Lady Josephine: Rhinoa Lunar

More are sure to come. We’ll keep you posted.



***beta-d by Jezz***



Also a reminder bo-chan means young master while bouchan is slang for erection.



Chapter Six

Grell\'s Confession and Renewed Trust



In the first class dining hall of the mighty ship, Grell and William were enjoying a fine meal together. William seemed calm now that the main course had been served and Grell had avoided disaster. Not only that, but the creature and child had not made an appearance. Grell had successfully fooled everyone they had met so far. “You look lovely tonight. I do hope you will walk under the stars with me after dinner, darling.”

Grell sipped at his wine and dabbed his lips perfectly. His table manners had quite improved since his transformation into Mistress Red. Unfortunately dinner wasn\'t quite as pleasant for Grell as it could have been. He had wanted to show of his fancy new dress with Sebastian there, and present company was not entirely appreciated.

“It isn\'t hard to look lovely sitting so close to that Brown woman...How could they let such a nutcase into first class? I could care less how much money they\'ve made, she sticks out like a sore thumb,” Grell said under his breath. A passenger named Molly Brown was sitting at the next table, chatting with two women and their husbands. To Grell\'s dismay the woman\'s rooms were quite close to theirs, and he suspected she knew he was a man. Not to mention she was unladylike to the utmost in his opinion. “Please tell me we can add her to the death list after dinner William darling..?”

“She is not on it for this mission I\'m afraid.” William took a small bite of steak and savored the taste. He too thought the Brown woman was out of place, but to each his own. “But let\'s not discuss work here. How are you liking the trip so far?”

Grell changed his tone, his eyes becoming seductively half-lidded as he lowered his voice to a gentle caress much different from his usual screaming voice. “I love it very much William darling...I wish we could stay aboard forever...It feels lie such a fantasy.”

William reached across the table and placed his hand on Grell\'s. He stroked it lovingly and met Grell\'s eyes. His voice scarcely above a whisper now. “And what, pray tell, is your fantasy for this trip? A lovely lady like yourself might be indulged if a gentleman like me were to see fit.”

Grell blushed, making an attempt to look flustered and batting his eyelashes coyly.

“Oh no, William...I couldn\'t say such things aloud at the dinner table!” Yet he lowered his eyes and his voice and did just that. “I want your body every night beneath the stars...I want you to hold me and kiss me in public so that everybody thinks I\'m the luckiest woman in the world...And when the ship goes down I want to make love in a bed stained red with the blood of the dead.”

William tried to hide his displeasure at that last thought. True he guided souls who had died, but he didn\'t exactly enjoy death. Instead he focused on Grell\'s more reasonable request.

“My dear, you shall have me and the stars for as long as you wish.”

It was not long before the waiter brought the dessert course. William had ordered the raspberry tart for both of them knowing his lover adored the crimson color. Lovingly he offered Grell the first bite on his fork.

Grell happily accepted the offer, taking a bite and licking the fork in a rather suggestive manner, though only facing in a way Will could see. He didn\'t want to be too scandalous after all. Following the others\' lead he offered a forkful to Will as well, sighing with delight as he watched those tender lips close around the morsel. “I truly am the luckiest woman in the world.”

Will knew Grell was watching him and made quite a show in as discreet a manner as possible with his bite. He seemed to do the same with every agonizing morsel until they were both done. After wiping his mouth with the fine linen napkin, William stood and offered his hand to Grell. “Would you care to join me for some fresh night air, my lady?”

Grell took his boyfriend\'s hand, getting up and smoothing his dress to look absolutely perfect. That part was crucial. “Surely, William. I couldn\'t think of a better way to spend the evening...Or perhaps I could...” He smiled seductively and winked. Will was so good at playing the gentleman...It was so much fun to break that exterior.

William shifted his arm so that he cradled Grell\'s and walked to the staircase leading to the decks. Passing the grand clock and its brass and glass electric lit dome he sighed softly. It was not long before they had reached the first class decks and were mostly alone under the stars. William led them to a quiet spot and reached out to caress Grell\'s cheek. He smiled sweetly and leaned in for a kiss.

“Mmmh...” Grell caught his lips, meeting them halfway, impatient for the taste of his lover. He allowed his pointed teeth to nip at Will\'s lips, not breaking skin, just teasing. His gloved hands moved beneath the coat of Will\'s tuxedo, wrapping around him and pulling his body closer. Surely no one else aboard would mind this slight indecency.

“We should take to our private promenade for this.” William stiffened slightly but as Grell pulled him closer it was clear that William had other motives for suggesting the privacy of their own deck.

“You\'re hard for me already, hmm?” Ignoring decency Grell allowed his hand to find the front of Will\'s pants, rubbing his stiffening cock through the fabric, loving the thrill of doing this in public...The possibility of being caught. His pointy smile widened and he kissed Will again before removing his hand after a quick pinch to the head. “You\'re a truly stand-up man, William.” Grell giggled a bit. “Take me anywhere you want to go, my Romeo.”

Will gasped in protest but then had Grell\'s lips pressed on his and was lost in the moment. He clenched his teeth trying not to moan as Grell squeezed his cock so brazenly in the open. “Shall we then?” William backed away and offered his arm to Grell once more. They had barely closed the door to their staterooms when Grell was pulled in for a passionate kiss. No longer restricted by the thought of prying eyes, William allowed his quiet moans to melt into each kiss.

Grell quickly kicked off his shoes, letting down his hair even as he returned his lover\'s kisses. No matter how lovely his woman\'s attire was, Grell felt at his sexiest with his blood red hair flowing free. His next mission was to undo Will\'s pants, and his skilled fingers quickly had his lover\'s fly open. Grell\'s hand was already inside, stroking Will\'s cock and moaning passionately into their kisses at the thought of having that perfect length inside him shortly.

William almost gave in to Grell\'s swift advances but pulled himself together enough to turn his lover around and begin to loosen the many buttons holding the dress on. He wanted to take in the splendid sight of Grell in lingerie. Once the buttons were undone, William spun Grell to face him and claimed his lips as he moaned out his name.

Grell allowed Will his pleasure, letting his tongue explore rows of sharp teeth, do battle with his tongue. But then he pulled back, sliding off the dress slowly, showing inch after tantalizing inch of frilly corsetry and finally the lace panties Will had gotten a feel of earlier. Grell made sure to fold the dress as well as he could and set it on a chair before doing a quick pirouette for Will, who looked shocked, stunned, and aroused all at once by the frivolous underthings.

“You\'re beautiful. I can\'t tell you that enough.” Grell really was the essence of pure beauty in Will\'s eyes. And all this effort to please him... Some of the effort had undoubtedly been for Grell\'s own femininity, but surely the extravagance and attention to detail had been for William. William removed his coat and stood before Grell, pants undone, in his shirt and vest. He pulled Grell in for yet another kiss.

“I\'m the luckiest man on this ship.”

“But we\'re not men, William darling...We\'re living death...The two of us are luckier than any man alive here I\'d say!” Grell was slowly working on undoing Will\'s shirt, button after button. He kissed every new inch of exposed skin as he went, pulling the shirt open to bite at perked nipples and moaning contentedly.

William became too caught up in the pleasure Grell was bringing him. William moaned out Grell\'s name and took in a sharp breath when teeth found first his left nipple and then his right. William slid his arms around Grell\'s waist and caressed across the boning of the tight corset. He found the bindings and set about undoing them. Ladies\' underwear was so much more complicated than mens\', but he did not seem to mind since Grell was making sure he had a difficult time

“Don\'t bother with that, William darling~ Fuck me in the corset...I love the curves it gives me, don\'t you?” Grell bit down particularly hard on Will\'s right nipple, drawing blood and sucking hungrily at the red liquid. Licking his lips he straightened and kissed his lover deeply, sharing the faintly metallic taste on his lips. “You\'re too much of a romantic, dear...I want you to be hot and naughty with me...”

“Naughty?” William slid his left hand up into Grell\'s hair and pulled him in for another kiss, this one demanding and forceful. When Will broke the kiss he spun Grell around by his hair and pulled him to a bending position. Will cupped his lover\'s ass with his right hand while holding him down with the left. He traced soft circles over the tight flesh buried in lace several times before pulling down the offending panties and slapping Grell\'s ass solidly twice. “Have you been naughty, dearest?”

“Ah! Oh yes Sir I have been a very bad girl!” Grell bit his lip, trying to avoid an annoying nosebleed at the thought of what Will would do to him now. It was what Grell had been waiting for since their first night, the hidden kinks he knew his lover and employer possessed. He had already supposed Undertaker had mentioned something to Will that had caused this change into a hopeless romantic, but this was what he really wanted, regardless of his past. He\'d always enjoyed a little abuse. It was why he\'d so long crushed on Sebastian. He struggled against Will, loving the feeling of that hand tightening in his hair to hold him still, his ass already burning from the surprisingly hard spank.

“Don\'t be too rough with me~ I\'m only your lowly slave~”

“Yes. Yes you are mine.” Will gave another particularly hard slap to Grell\'s ass. “Your flesh is so pale compared to your lovely hair. Let\'s see if I can make your tight, supple ass as red as that, hmm?” William slapped again as he pulled a bit more on Grell\'s hair. Suddenly he released Grell\'s hair and stood upright. “Finish undressing your master then and remove my belt from the loops.”

Grell practically purred in obedience as he began undressing William again, not making any attempt to cover up his now bare ass. He removed Will\'s vest and shirt, but wrapped Will\'s tie around his own neck, they could use that later. Finally he got down on his knees, looking up at his lover submissively as he kissed and licked his stomach, lowering his pants and underwear both at once. He allowed the other to step out of the clothes before removing the belt and offering it up to his master, making sure to accentuate his corset cleavage in the process. “Will you let me please you Master?”

“I think I might allow that. You were quick to obey, after all, my pet.” William reached out and caressed Grell\'s face gently before tugging on his own tie placed there. Will then readied his belt and reaching over Grell slid the leather across his exposed ass. “Now then. I do believe you were going to put those lips to good use.”

Grell couldn\'t help a manic smile from gracing his features, but quickly regained a semblance of composure as he wrapped his lips around Will\'s cock. He moaned at the feeling of his lover\'s leather belt rubbing his ass even as he let William\'s cock slide all the way down his throat effortlessly. Pulling back a bit, he teased the sensitive head with his tongue, allowing his pointed teeth to graze skin ever so slightly, just enough incentive for Will to spank him again before forcing that thick cock back into his throat. Grell couldn\'t help another low moan, the vibrations surely driving William wild.

William let the leather crack against Grell\'s ass when he felt too much in the way of teeth, and then his lover took him all in. William moaned out his lover\'s name again and cracked skin in protest. Grell was quite gifted with his mouth and William knew it. William also knew that Grell was teasing him. Grell didn\'t want to do all the work in this. William clutched his belt in his right hand and wrapped his left into Grell\'s hair. Using the hair as a grip William held Grell\'s head in place as he began to thrust in and out of the shinigami\'s tender mouth. “You like it better this way, don\'t you? You like me fucking your mouth?”

When all he got was a moan in response William cracked the belt against Grell\'s ass again this time harder than before. “My pet. My beautiful Grell. You DO like it better this way, don\'t you?”

Grell allowed an even louder moan as Will urged him to answer. He nodded his head, tilting it for a different angle. He had no gag reflex to speak of, all he wanted was to make Will come any way he could. Grell\'s own cock was growing painfully hard though, threatening to rip its way out of the lace panties of its own accord. But Grell ignored that, continuing his loud moans, groans of pain mixed in when Will\'s belt smacked against his skin time and time again. His hand reached around Will to dig nails into his lover\'s lower back, loving every rough and angry thrust.

“Much better. But there is more to come dear.” William pulled his cock from Grell\'s mouth. He knew those panties must be painful on his lover\'s own manhood. It gave William a brilliant idea. He reached out to a still kneeling Grell and tugged sharply on the lace, bunching it and applying more pressure to the bulge it contained. William swatted the leather belt against Grell\'s ass when he whimpered at the pain of it. “Stand now.”

Grell stood quickly in an attempt to alleviate some of the pressure. His cock throbbed painfully, the lace he\'d been so proud to wear at dinner now scratchy and tight against his full erection.

“Ah Will it hurts...” He shifted his hips, the panties refusing to loosen while Will still held them in his fist. He received another merciless smack of the belt for his trouble and gasped loudly at the pain. Will\'s hits were just getting harder, and his ass was much more tender after all the punishment it had already gotten.

William tugged a little on the lace in his fingertips but was sure to end it with a long caress of Grell\'s cock. “Spread your legs.”

“Ahh~ William you\'re cruel,” Grell moaned, a half pained half pleasured sound. He opened his legs a bit, but winced as it only made the panties tighter against his package.

William kissed Grell\'s face and ran the belt along his inner thigh as he did so. He traced kisses down Grell\'s jaw line and came to rest at his neck. As Will bit down hard he let the leather whip into Grell\'s thigh swiftly. Grell\'s protests were only met with his jaw clamping tighter and another tug at the lace.

“You are so beautiful like this. So delicate.” William hit Grell\'s thighs again. “So mine. Tell me again, my pet. Tell me that you\'re all mine.” William swung the belt across Grell’s thighs once more. The leather stinging his tender flesh there.

Each hard smack against his sensitive thighs made Grell shiver, which in turn made the lace tighten, and made Will bite him harder. He whimpered as his knees began to shake a bit from the erotic pain. “All yours, I\'m your slave...I\'m your dog...Oh William~”

“Mmmn, that\'s right. You\'re mine. Everyone out there tonight saw how lovely and perfect you are. They all oohed and ahhed when you entered the room. And then they saw me.” William claimed Grell\'s mouth again. Losing all boundaries he dropped his belt, pulling Grell closer. His tongue was being scraped raw by Grell\'s teeth but William didn\'t seem to care. He scrambled to remove the panties binding his lover completely and in the process they tumbled to the floor causing Grell to bite his tongue a little. Blood and saliva mixing, Will urged Grell\'s legs apart. His cock was still wet from Grell\'s mouth and he hoped it would be enough to ease entry. William entered Grell\'s tight heat with a hard thrust and gave him a moment to adjust to the pressure before slamming into him again.

Grell practically screamed with pleasure as Will finally entered him. With the pressure of the panties gone, his cock twitched with the need to be touched, for any sort of friction, but Grell was too busy meeting Will\'s thrusts, grinding his hips hard against his lover, wanting to be filled completely.

“Oh yess! Will- Oh fuck me! Harder! AaAaahhn~” Grell couldn\'t control a word that escaped his mouth, not that he would have wanted to. He arched his back like a gymnast, grinding his cock against Will\'s stomach and dragging his nails down the others\' back, leaving behind long red trails on his perfect flesh.

“Ahhh!” Will pounded into Grell harder as nails sliced him open. “You vixen. Just for that...” William licked his lips and continued to mercilessly fuck Grell. “I want you to play with yourself. Jerk on that cock while I fuck you.”

Grell almost protested, not entirely comfortable with touching himself...ever. But the pleasure Will was inflicting was just too great. In the heat of the moment Grell didn\'t even care that his body was anatomically incorrect.

“Nnn fuck...Yes...Whatever you say” Grell reached between their bodies, wrapping a hand around himself as if it were a foreign concept. He hadn\'t done this very often, all things considered, but if it made Will happy... “A-Ahh!” Grell moaned wantonly as he started to stroke himself gently at first, then faster, in time with Will\'s powerful thrusts. He tightened around his lover\'s cock, and with his free hand yanked Will down for a kiss by the hair, forgetting their role play.

Will allowed the slip in their play but swiftly took over the kiss and dominated Grell\'s mouth. He broke free of the kiss to pull down on Grell\'s hips. The noises his lover was making were pushing him over the edge. When he found Grell\'s favorite angle and slammed into his pleasure spot that tight heat wrapped like a vice around William\'s cock. “Nnnnn. Grell, you\'re so tight. And you are my dirty little vixen.” Will pounded harder with each word.

“O-oh! Will...I\'m going to come! A-all over you like the filthy whore I am.” He had hardly finished his sentence when he felt his orgasm wash over him, bursting from his cock onto both their stomachs and his hand. He saw a brief white light and screamed William\'s name in pure bliss, his loud moans only quieted when Will\'s lips met his. He felt his lover finish inside him, his tensing muscles milking Will\'s cock as Grell wrapped his arms tight around his lover\'s neck, not wanting to let go just yet. And then in the heat of the moment he heard himself whisper those three words without really meaning to.

“Mm...Will I love you...”

Will felt his orgasm take over and the only thing stopping him from screaming Grell\'s name was the kiss he had used to quiet his lover. As the world became somewhat real again he heard Grell\'s whispered confession. William\'s eyes grew wide. Could Grell really mean it? All these years of watching and hoping to catch the redhead\'s attention made this moment seem too good to be true. Grell was an actress after all. “Do you mean that? Really mean that, my Goddess?”

Grell nodded, tired from their lovemaking and quite out of breath. His eyes were closed as he enjoyed the last few waves of orgasmic peace, but he smiled at Will. “You know...I think I do. You\'re the closest I\'ve come to it anyway...Nobody\'s ever treated me this well...I think I do love you.”

William smiled and pulled Grell close. Lips almost touching he drank in Grell\'s face. “I\'m glad. I\'ve loved you for some time. I just never thought you\'d come to me. This feels like a dream. And you know I treat you this way because you deserve nothing less.”

“There\'s so much you should know about me...You might not even love me at all after...” Grell sighed, finally opening his lovely green eyes to meet Will\'s, long eyelashes tickling the others\' cheeks in their proximity. “You should have said something sooner...I always thought you were a beautiful man...”

William kissed Grell with everything he\'d kept bottled inside for years. Even before the Jack the Ripper fiasco. When he finally pulled away he made eye contact with his lover. “Nothing you could say would make my feelings change. Nothing you have done would change that. It would only make me want to prove how much better you deserve. Grell, I...You have such an unapproachable beauty. How can I compare or dream of catching your interest? I\'ll just count my luck and be happy with it since it brought you to me at last.”

Grell couldn\'t think of what to say when faced with such a heartfelt confession. Will\'s emotion-filled kiss had left his head spinning. For years he\'d thought Will was mildly interested in his existence at best, and here he was hiding all of this under that stoic facade.

“I used to sell myself before I worked for you...My beauty\'s far from unapproachable...” Grell had to turn away, ashamed of what Will would think of him. Lord knew he hated himself enough for it, even to the point of killing whores for pleasure as it were. It was strange to let his own impulsive facade slip, to let his true emotions show, but he didn\'t think Will would mind that, it was a night for confessions.

Instead of pushing him away in revulsion, William held Grell closer to him. “I hope you never think you need to do so again. You deserve so much more. I hope I can show you.” Will appeared confused though and paused. “If I was your first, did you mean your first by choice or your first who did not...” He dreaded that final word and could barely manage to whisper it out. “Pay?”

The word stung Grell somewhere deep, but it was reasonable for Will to question that. He himself was surprised by the fact. “No, you were the first. I only sold my...Oral skills. Sometimes kinkier things...But never that. I didn\'t lie.” He knew he was being a little defensive, but his face had gone a pale shade of pink and his hands were fidgeting uncontrollably from the nerves.

William placed his hand under Grell\'s chin and kissed him deep once more. He held nothing back and seemed to melt into the redhead, taking in all of him. Grell filled his senses and he moaned softly. “Really? To think I got something so special from one whom I know so many would want. You truly are amazing, Grell.”

Grell was surprised to find a tear roll down his cheek, and less surprised by the sudden nosebleed. Such things always seemed to happen to him when he got overly emotional. He covered his nose quickly, trying to stop the bleeding before it grossed Will out, though he was more confidant now that nothing would scare Will away. “Maybe...But you can see why I didn\'t put it on my resume,” he joked, trying to distract Will from the nosebleed and his tears.

William smiled and brushed Grell\'s hands away from his face. “Don\'t hide.” Will reached to the bedside table and picked up his handkerchief. He tended to Grell\'s embarrassment and chuckled a bit. Taking his right thumb he pressed the tear away from Grell\'s face. He looked like he might say something but became too taken in by the beauty before him and instead wrapped his arms about his lover in another kiss. “You are too perfect for words.”

Grell didn\'t feel perfect, a handkerchief stuffed up his nose and his eyes watering like that, but if Will thought so he wouldn\'t complain. Instead he kissed Will back, a soft peck on the lips at first, and then a deeper more meaningful affair. It was filled with his doubts about himself, his fears he wasn\'t good enough, but also the hope he\'d finally found a man he could be happy with, at the very least he could be honest with. He smiled. “You\'re like something straight out of a romance novel...”

“I\'m nothing special. Look how long it took for me to even ask you out. I just hope I make you see how amazing you really are.”



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A soft knock at the door signaled Sebastian to answer. Josephine was finally here. She entered the room, dropping her feminine walk and taking on a larger stride despite her corset and how it appeared to painfully object to her movements. “Good evening, Louis, Sebastian.”

Ciel seemed to regain some of his confidence now that someone else was in the room. He liked the girl, perhaps in a more-than-friends way. Not that he would act on it, it was merely a curiosity he\'d never felt around Elizabeth before. “Welcome, Josephine, or perhaps you prefer Joseph? It seems you\'ve done this before.”

“Just Jo is fine.” Josephine smiled at Ciel. “Mother salvaged some of her old fiancées clothing and keeps it tucked away in the attic. She doesn\'t know it but I\'ve borrowed some of them before. It’s just...They\'re a little out of fashion now and I can\'t seem respectable looking like a porcelain doll of a boy. Besides, I\'m getting too tall for some of them now.” Josephine studied the clothes and grinned widely. She even ran up and hugged Ciel who was blushing fiercely. He wasn’t sure how to feel about Jo borrowing his old clothes too. Or the fact she considered him to have been a porcelain doll of a boy.

“Thank you, Louis! Where can I change?”

Sebastian cleared his throat and motioned for \'his\' room. “You will find most of what you need in there. When you are dressed I will help to hide your hair.” Sebastian bowed and Josephine smiled before closing the door behind her.

“A porcelain doll...Was I really? Surely she knows the style of clothing then was different...” Ciel knew Sebastian was smirking wickedly without even looking up and he glared at his lover. “I haven\'t gotten taller...The clothes may still be too small for her.”

“She is about your height, bo-chan. As it were she did say they were out of fashion. Her phrasing was a bit harsh, but the wealthy did seek to dress up their children then as though they were dolls of a sort. I think her words hold at least a hint of truth. Though, I never viewed you as a doll.”

“Do you now?” Ciel grinned a bit, it was fun teasing his lover, it was always fun watching Sebastian struggle for words. He cut him off though with a new request. Suddenly he felt particularly exhibitionistic, and he knew how Sebastian had loved the fact he\'d told someone about their affair. “Sebastian, kiss me. I don\'t want to feel like a little boy now.”

Sebastian eyed Ciel cautiously, curious whether this was another of Undertaker\'s games with his lover and his heart. Still he could not resist the gleam in Ciel\'s eye. He too wanted to show someone that their love existed. It wasn\'t just some dream tormenting him. He stepped in close and wrapped his arms around Ciel. He leaned down and gently brushed his lips against the boy’s. “Are you sure, bo-chan?”

Ciel stood on tip-toe, almost catching Sebastian\'s lips before the other teasingly pulled away. He was so cute this way, begging for kisses. He hoped it made up for the lack of sex they\'d be experiencing in the next few days at least. “Yes, Sebastian. I want you to kiss me right now,” he said in a commanding tone he knew Sebastian loved to hear.

Sebastian\'s eyes lit up with hope and even had a bit of the red glow he got when he became more emotional. He leaned in and kissed Ciel hard on the lips. He waited for Ciel to part them this time, wanting only to do what his lover was comfortable with.

They were cut short by Josephine clearing her throat. As the couple looked over at her she put a hand to her mouth and giggled slightly. “I hope I find someone to kiss my like that one day. One who will mean it with their whole being as I can see you both do.”

Ciel couldn\'t help but blush even though this was their intention. It was almost a shame for Sebastian\'s gentle kiss to be interrupted. He pulled away from Sebastian slightly, but remained close enough that the other wouldn\'t think he was embarrassed or anything of the sort. “We have been together a long time...You will find someone.” Ciel straightened his own coat and walked closer to Jo, inspecting her. Everything seemed to be in order. She looked just like a young man his age, maybe a bit older. “You look good...Quite attractive I\'d say. You shouldn\'t have any problems passing for a boy at this rate.”

Josephine smiled and nodded in thanks before turning to Sebastian. “You said you could help with my hair?” Sebastian smiled and gestured for her to have a seat in a nearby chair. Effortlessly he swept up her feminine locks into a bun and set some strands out in the front. He topped her off with a hat concealing the style quite well. It looked as though Jo was ready to go out.

Jo smiled and stood up. She hugged Ciel again, this time kissing his cheek with gratitude. “Thank you. I won\'t be all night. I will return with your things as soon as I\'ve had my fill. I think you two should spend some time together.” Josephine nudged Ciel with her elbow and whispered something so low into his ear that Sebastian could not hear it. “You have a really good looking guy there. Kiss him again and make it good.”

Ciel opened his mouth to respond but she had moved away before he could formulate a complete thought. Had it really come off that way? That he was the one who decided such matters? As subservient as Sebastian behaved surely she couldn\'t think...He touched his cheek where she\'d kissed him. What an unpredictable girl.

“H-he always treats me well,” he stuttered as he watched her happily thank Sebastian as well. Ciel wondered if she might have said something similar to him, but she was out the door just as quickly as she had come, and why not? She had pressing matters to attend to.

“Bo-chan, what shall you do this evening?” Sebastian had closed the door and was now looking longingly at Ciel. He did not know what to ask of his lover. He knew only that he wanted to hold him close and make him feel safe once more.

“I want to watch the waves on the horizon with you.” Ciel met Sebastian\'s eyes. He hoped it conveyed the fact he wanted more kissing to occur, but on his terms of course. “I like the cold air...It makes me feel alive.” His lips quirked into a gentle smile and he reached for Sebastian\'s hand, enjoying the feeling of his lover\'s strong hands around his small one.

Sebastian smiled and curled his fingers into Ciel\'s. He would take any contact and affection Ciel would give him. Anything to show things were somewhat normal again. Though when they had ever been normal he could not venture a guess. “Let\'s go then, bo-chan.” Sebastian led the way to the private promenade and kissed Ciel\'s hand softly before letting go so he could set up two chairs for them to view the horizon. The stars were lovely tonight and the waves were light. They were still relatively close to land after all. The ship had stopped in Ireland after leaving Liverpool. Now they were setting east to New York. Sebastian gestured for Ciel to sit and waited. He would only sit after his lover had made himself comfortable.

Ciel sat, thankful they wouldn\'t have to stand, but Sebastian was always that thoughtful. Once his lover had permitted himself to take a seat beside him Ciel threaded their fingers together again. “It\'s a lovely night...Not as cold as I thought it would be out at sea like this.” But he wasn\'t really paying attention to anything he said. Ciel leaned over, pulling Sebastian close and kissing him tenderly, parting his lips just the slightest, wanting to see if his lover would take advantage of it or let him take the lead.

Sebastian\'s eyes widened in surprise and he let out a low gasp, but he did not stop Ciel. He kissed back but remained chaste in his approach. He did allow his hand to find Ciel\'s face and slide off the eye patch. He broke the kiss and looked his lover in the eyes. “Bo-chan, is it really you?”

Ciel blinked, his scarred eye glowing a faint pink as it often was for whatever reason nowadays. The question offended him...Then saddened him. He didn\'t know. All he knew was that Josephine\'s arrival and their display in front of her had spurred the sexual desire he had been denying all day. But was that sexual desire always there for Sebastian...Or was it the desire put there by Undertaker? He sat back and brought his knees to his chest, turning to look back out at the sea. “I\'m not sure...How can I ever know the difference anymore...I feel like I always do when I want you...But how can I know if I really want any of it...” He let out a frustrated sigh. “I want this to be real. I want to want you.”

Sebastian smiled softly. “Then want me, bo-chan. But I will not pursue you until I know what is going on. Do only what you want and are comfortable with. You know I want what ever you will give.” Sebastian brought his hand to Ciel\'s chin and lifted it so their eyes met once more. He allowed another chaste kiss to close the distance between them. “I will not deny that I desire you. Very much so, bo-chan. But I will follow your lead and nothing more for the time being.”

Ciel smiled wickedly. Despite his doubts, the need building inside him was too great. He was almost sure now that this was a product of his affected hormones, but how could he possibly deny them? “So, in essence you are saying for the time being I will dominate this relationship?” He allowed his hand to travel up his butler\'s thigh and kissed Sebastian, pushing his tongue past the demon\'s lips forcefully. “I think I will enjoy that...”

Sebastian took in a sharp breath as Ciel\'s hand toyed with him. He moaned into the kiss and allowed Ciel to claim his mouth. When Ciel pulled away and spoke the words almost didn\'t register. Sebastian smiled at his lover and bowed. “Yes, my lord.”

Ciel groped his lover as those overly appealing words escaped his lips. With those words Ciel knew that Sebastian would let him do anything he pleased. Ciel bit hard at the nape of his love\'s neck before getting off his seat and kneeling between Sebastian\'s legs, toying with his bulge playfully while staring up at him, an expression not far from the one he would wear while plotting revenge. “Take it out...”

Sebastian leaned in and moaned as quietly as he could as Ciel teased him. Before his lover had been shy and hesitant about taking the lead, but Ciel had been growing bolder. Biting down on his lip Sebastian could taste the copper of blood. Ciel\'s mouth had bit down on his neck and he had stopped himself from calling his lover\'s name then. But as Ciel rubbed at his hidden erection Sebastian knew his lover would be satisfied and as long as it was on his terms things should be well between them. Still biting down on his now quivering lip, Sebastian complied with the simple order. He unfastened his pants and pulled them down just enough to reveal his length. Unsure of what to do with his hands at this point, Sebastian placed them behind his neck causing his sitting position to become an arched kneel. He was on perfect display. Ciel could touch him wherever he wanted and Sebastian\'s hands were positioned so he needn\'t worry about the demon taking any advantages.

“Good...You are such a very obedient butler.” Ciel wrapped both his hands around Sebastian\'s length and began to slowly stroke it, very slowly, it was even agonizing for him to do the teasing. “Now tell me your deepest, darkest fantasies...And don\'t leave anything out...If I think you\'re holding back I\'ll have to hurt you...” Ciel looked up at his love\'s blissful expression as he strained not to thrust into his hands. He licked randomly at the cock in his hands, and his lover\'s balls, but only quick flicks of his tongue here and there, nothing that would be enough to give Sebastian any relief from the torturous pace.

“Nnnn, bo-chan....” It was indeed torturous, but torture was what Sebastian loved most. “I would like to see just how far your limits go, bo-chan. How deeply I can carve into your flesh while stroking and sucking on you. Ahhh, oh...” Sebastian shuddered under Ciel\'s touch as his tongue flicked across the head of his cock. “I want to spend days toying with every inch of your skin. I want to make you scream for mercy and beg for more in one breath. I want to have you at my beck and call on that lovely leash I gave you. Perhaps I could even suspend your body on hooks and fill you from behind.” Sebastian paused fearing he had confessed too much. He did not want to scare his lover away again. His need was too great. He needed Ciel to relieve this agonizing pleasure.

Ciel could sense Sebastian was uneasy about continuing. “Go on, didn\'t I say that I would hurt you.” He gave his lover\'s balls a quick slap, not terribly hard, but enough to make him wince a bit. It seemed even demons were sensitive in that place. “I loved it when you took me from behind...Tell me more about these hooks...” Not speeding up his strokes, Ciel did give Sebastian some semblance of relief, licking and sucking at his balls, already red from the harsh treatment. He took one in his mouth, sucking it thoroughly, then the other. Ciel loved the squirms and sounds coming from his butler, and he loved the feeling of complete control.

Sebastian struggled to keep his hands in place. He had to make certain Ciel had control here. If not, this could be the last time Ciel touched him so wantonly. “The hooks, nnn, they dig into the meaty parts of your shoulders and hips. You hang by them. I think I\'d fix a weight to your cock. Something that would cause pain with every thrust. I\'d be standing behind you, slicing at your spine with my claws. I would lap up your blood and what I did not drink I would use to wet my cock before I slammed into you. Oh it would hurt. But it would also feel wonderful, bo-chan. It would be up to you which to focus on.”

“You always want to hurt me...” Ciel had finally removed his hands, now licking delicately at the very tip of Sebastian\'s length, lapping up any precum that had built up. “Tonight I want to use you...But you have to swear you won\'t move an inch while I do. No matter how much you feel you need to. Tonight you\'re my toy, yes Sebastian?” Ciel slowly began to suck on his lover\'s rock hard length as he waited for Sebastian\'s reply. He had an idea of what he wanted to do, but for it to be truly torture for the other he had to agree to the stipulations.

Sebastian shivered more with pleasure and marveled at how skilled his lover was. He would do anything Ciel asked of him. No matter how strange. Sebastian\'s mouth moved but the words would not form right away as his cock was now at the mercy of Ciel\'s tender lips and throat. Finally he managed to whisper... “Yes, my lord.” Sebastian knew now his fate was sealed. Ciel could be cruel when he wanted to be. He could also be quite demanding. The thought made Sebastian smile his sadistic smirk of pure sexual bliss. What indeed did his, master have in store for him?

Ciel himself was wearing a predatory smirk, his eyes gleaming with the joy he felt at being able to try this little experiment. He would test Sebastian\'s will...Something he needed after the near rape earlier that day. Ciel kissed the head of Sebastian\'s cock before standing and removing only his own pants. He then straddled his lover, allowing Sebastian\'s cock to slide against his tight young ass a few times. He kissed his lover with a fierce dominance, his hands at Sebastian\'s neck, tightening his tie to restrict his breathing. Finally breaking the kiss he ordered with lips still pressed against his love\'s, “Put you fingers inside me, but that is all you can do.”

Sebastian remained as still as he could. It was so hard with his lover toying with his senses like this. Sebastian wrapped his fingers together as though to remind himself not to move. His lips were pressed suddenly by Ciel\'s and he felt his mouth forced open. Sebastian parted his lips and toyed with Ciel\'s tongue a little but allowed Ciel his dominance. He could feel the tie circle around his neck, daring him to move. The order hit Sebastian hard. Ciel knew he was keeping his hands locked to help him maintain control. Now that Ciel had ordered his \'toy\' to use one of those hands the task of control would be much harder for Sebastian. Still, he loved the masochistic nature of the request. If Ciel had said nothing more then that meant Sebastian was not allowed to lick his fingertips for lubrication. Ciel wanted his fingers inside him dry and painful. Slowly Sebastian allowed his right hand to inch away from behind his neck and curl under Ciel to find his eager entrance. Sebastian smiled as he plunged first one and then two fingers inside his lover.

Ciel clenched tightly around those fingers, refusing to cry out at the painful entry, only keeping eye contact as his lover worked those fingers deep inside him. It was clear that using his fingers put Sebastian in a position where he was prone to slip out of his tightly kept control, but even then he didn\'t. After a few more moments of painful preparation, Ciel tugged harder at Sebastian\'s tie, cutting off the flow of air. “Remove them now. Go back to the way you were...Don\'t make any move to touch me...”

Sebastian frowned slightly at Ciel\'s order but complied. He connected his fingers once more and held them in place behind his neck. Sebastian looked into Ciel\'s eyes with longing. His own need was great now and he was again biting his lip.

Slowly, taking hold of Sebastian\'s cock to guide it into him, Ciel lowered himself onto his lover\'s length. This was less painful considering he\'d lubricated it with saliva, but it seemed so much larger in this position, like it went on forever. Ciel couldn\'t help but let out a low groan of pleasure as Sebastian slowly filled him completely to the base. He could tell Sebastian was aching to thrust into him, but this was nothing compared to the agonizing need Sebastian would be feeling shortly. Once he had gotten used to the new position, Ciel slowly began to move up and down, rocking against his lover\'s member, making sure to let it slide just nearly out before lowering himself all the way down again with an appreciative moan.

Sebastian moaned aloud throwing his head back but careful not to push into Ciel. His lover felt great wrapped around his cock but the slow pace was agonizing. Suppressing a whimper, Sebastian somehow managed to call out Ciel\'s name softly. He wanted to hold his lover, but was afraid to move. He didn\'t want to say or do anything that would deter Ciel\'s newfound confidence in their love. Finally he could hold in his desire no longer and dared to voice it. “Bo-chan, please. Please let me hold you to me. Let me wrap my arms around you.” Never before had Sebastian sounded so full of need. It was both loving and lustful. His eyes shimmered red but he remained as still as he could manage while waiting for his answer.

Ciel had been waiting for just this moment. With a frighteningly sadistic smile he shook his head. He kissed Sebastian softly, never stopping or speeding his pace. As much as the sound of his lover\'s need aroused him, Ciel would have Sebastian screaming for him before he allowed more. “No...You may lower them...You may put your hands on my waist...No more for now,” he whispered against Sebastian\'s parted lips.

Sebastian tried in vain to suppress the begging noises he was making against his will. When Ciel granted his waist he gladly took it and tried not to dig his nails into his lover\'s sides. Sebastian\'s moans and wordless pleas were growing more frantic, but his eyes betrayed him as they grew brighter and he bit harder on his lip. His chin was wet with blood and still he remained motionless when he could. Finally his pleas began to include whispers. “Nnnn, Ciel. Oh...Please, Ciel...”

Ciel ignored his love\'s pleas, his real goal in all of this was to completely break the demon with need. Feeling he was ready, the boy began to move faster, but only a bit. He was thoroughly fucking himself on Sebastian\'s cock and there was nothing the other could do about it without risking their entire, shaky relationship. The power trip alone was enough to make Ciel high with pleasure. Knowing his increased pace as well as his own blissful moans were driving Sebastian mad, he made no attempt to contain any sound he dared to make. At his leisure he leaned in to lick at the blood that dripped down Sebastian\'s chin and neck forcing his lover to look at him as he kissed those bloody lips raw, moaning into the other\'s mouth as he began to fuck himself with Sebastian\'s cock even faster, beginning to feel his orgasm on the rise.

When Ciel sped up his pace Sebastian\'s eyes were completely ablaze and try as he might his nails were now digging into Ciel\'s sides, but they had not moved. He had to do something. Seeing Ciel\'s lips red with his blood like that. The noises his lover made. The noises he knew he himself was making. His body stiffened in an effort to maintain that tiny measure of control he still had. That control that would ensure his lover would feel safe and secure with him after what had transpired. “Ciel, please. I can\'t...I need to...Do something. Anything. Bo-chan...”

“You need to scream for me...Scream loud...Or I won\'t let you come.” Ciel\'s own body was already tensing to come, but he drew his own pleasure out as long as he could as he was controlling the pace. Sebastian\'s nails in his sides were uncomfortable, but his pleasure was too great now for that to matter. “Once you scream for me I\'ll let you come however you want...” Ciel had to bite his own lip then, so close to the edge. All he needed was Sebastian\'s final desperate plea.

Sebastian could feel his lover\'s muscles tense around his cock as he rode without mercy. His lover\'s request was not an unreasonable one, but Sebastian was afraid if he let go enough to scream he might lose all control. Ciel\'s moans and pants were growing louder. He knew his lover was near release. How he wanted to suck the sweet nectar off Ciel\'s cock. Sebastian could finally take no more. Feathers flitted about the room as nails turned into claws and Sebastian\'s true form screamed out Ciel\'s name. Somehow Sebastian managed to remain mostly still with only some mild shaking here and there, mainly due to Ciel\'s irregular motion, when his form shifted without him meaning to. “Forgive me, bo-chan. Forgive me and let me taste you.”

“Yes! Yes, god damn it Sebastian take me!” Ciel pressed his body impossibly close to his lover\'s kissing him with every shred of passion in his being, wrapping his arms around the demon\'s neck and tangling his fingers painfully into pitch black hair as he came. He was oblivious to whatever else Sebastian did now that he\'d given him permission, all he knew was the wave of pure ecstasy that had him completely in its thrall.

Sebastian had missed his chance to suck the life out of Ciel\'s cock but that would be no issue. Using his hands he drove hard and fast into Ciel pulling him closer and biting at his neck. Sebastian came in only a few moments and slid his cock free of Ciel to lap up every drop he could find before towering over his lover and kissing him with the full passion he felt. “I wasn\'t certain I could hold back.” Sebastian\'s confession slipped before he knew what he was saying. He hoped too late that Ciel would not be upset by it.

“You did well...” Ciel smiled to himself, eyes bright from the joy of their passion. “I wanted to see you break...You almost didn\'t...” Ciel cuddled close to his love, no longer frightened by his touch in the least. “I\'m glad you did though...I love you Sebastian...No matter what they did to my head I\'m sure I would have loved you anyway...” Ciel had the faint realization he didn\'t want to confess all of this now, but he was too dazed with pleasure to care at the moment how sappy he was being. He\'d had enough of being rough for the evening, now he just wanted a warm glass of milk and to be put to bed in his love\'s arms.

Sebastian smiled and kissed his lover. He knew it was late and Ciel would want his nightly ritual of warm milk. Also it would not be long before Josephine would return with the borrowed clothing. Sebastian lifted Ciel bridal style and carried him to the bed they would be sharing. “I\'ll be only a moment, bo-chan.” Sebastian went to make the preparations and found the clothing had already been returned with a small card expressing Josephine\'s gratitude. He brought the note with Ciel\'s milk and climbed into bed with his love once his clothes had been completely removed.



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(A/N: Ciel\'s power trip was a fun scene to write. Sebastian had to really show restraint there and it was not easy for him. Next time: Undertaker makes a new friend...Too bad the little girl\'s on his list. And Sebastian surpasses Ciel\'s expectations yet again by bringing his creator to meet him. Enter Yuki 3...She\'s a bit different to say the least but a really amazing character to work with. Jeze writes her so well.)