Live Twice and Sin No More

hey guyz...I hope you liked the last chapter and I hope I can top it.

SO here goes.
this is for all of you C Bebop fans.
\"I\'m awesome\" shut up Jesse!!!
\"well i am!!\"


Disclaimer: as much as i wish i did i do not own cowboy bebop.



The fresh air and cool breeze blew through the window, causing Faye to stir in her sleep.
Turning on her side her eyes fluttered open and she nearly jumped right out of bed at the sight of a certain mossy green haired person lying beside her. She groaned inwardly as all of last night flashed through her mind in fast motion. She remembered everything. The heavy breathing, the brutal kisses, the... *ok maybe I should stop there* she thought getting out of bed. Even when she was naked she had a perfect \'I don\'t give a fuck what you think\' kind of look to her.

What Faye really wanted to do was jump back into bed and wake her sleeping love with a light kiss. But that was impossible. Last night was a mistake and she would make sure it never happened again. *easier said than done Faye* she thought bitterly as she grabbed a towel and locked herself in the bathroom attached to the bedroom for a munch needed shower.

The water was refreshing, she was washing away every last scent of Spike that was left on her, the water cleansing every part he touched her. Not only did she sleep with her roommates boyfriend but she had done it on her roommates bed! no, she could never allow this to happen again and Julia would never know. Turning off the shower she stepped out, water dripping down her back into a pool. Drying herself off she walked into the bedroom hoping that Spike was still asleep but no luck. he was standing there in nothing but his boxers staring out the window, but as soon as he heard the door to the bathroom open he turned to look at the purple haired woman who had messed him up in one night of heated lust.

Neither of them moved. One. Two. Three. They were still in the trance. Finally it was Spike who made the first move taking a few steps towards her. Closing the door Faye leaned against it as Spike closed the distance between them and muttered the words \"good morning.\" He almost sounded in pain. Faye only nodded and her eyes widened when she realized how close he was.
*I wonder if he can her my heart pounding so fast* No words followed, only the heavy breathing and tiredness that now consumed them both.

Raising his hand he stroked her cheek and leaned down placing his lips upon hers. Warning signals went off in Faye\'s head but she ignored them. The man could do that to her and his hands were working wonders, enticing her, her skin burned wherever he touched her. Pressed up against the wall Faye could only try and listen to what her head was saying, which was so far from what her heart was telling her.

His lips possessed her, his eyes bore into her own, his hands were at her waist lowering to her thighs and bringing her right leg up. He wrapped it around his waist. Spike groaned, her skin was so smooth, she was his for now and he could do what ever he pleased.

Thoughts? fegs? gs? thoughts? feeling? She was on an edge and slipping... in danger of falling into his embrace and losing herself again. A tear was dangerously close to running its course down her cheek when she shut her eyes and shook her head of all upsetting thoughts. Faye had to use all her strength to push him away willing her body to calm down.

Spike just stared at her confused and out of breath. Biting her bottom lip she looked away off \"I\'m going to make something to eat, you can join me if you like.\" That was all she said leaving him alone, aroused, and aching for her more than he thought he could.

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Spike was already dressed when he joined Faye in the kitchen. She was sitting at the table drinking coffee, dressed in long black khaki pants and a white tube top. she looked perfectly content. With a grin Spike made himself comfortable across the table and waved. \"Any more coffee left?\" was all he asked.
She nodded and stood pouring the coffee for him then put it down in front of him and sat down at her own seat. \"Faye we need to-

\"talk?\" she cut him off \"I don\'t think so, there\'s nothing to talk about.\"

\"Yes there is Faye, you know it, last night-\"

\"I\'m not going to discuss the events of something that never happened spike, i was ting ing last night, and you fell asleep in the bedroom.\"
He looked at her quizzically then nodded but had to add \"and this morning?\"
\"I went into Julia\'s private bathroom to take a shower.. I wanted to use her shampoo, whatever else you think might have happened then you probably dreamt it.\"
With that Faye stood and walked away into her bedroom shutting the door after herself.

Spike didn\'t know what to do. He couldn\'t exactly follow her since he knew he might give in and take her there and in her room, but he couldn\'t let it happen again. He loved Julia and Faye was just there. That\'s all, Nothing more nothing less, and thats the way it was going to stay.
He would make sure there were no more accidents like the..

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the one that occurred last night. No. No more accident. Faye was stubborn and she would hold her foot down on this one. *I mean who does he think he is, Casanova?* She was unconsciously pacing across room and biting her bottom lip in frustration. Last night meant nothing to her, it was just a moment of lust that she couldn\'t over come. But she had to admit it to herself, he was good.
She spread her arms and fell back onto her bed and sighed closing her eyes. Minutes passed, then hours, she eventually changed into shorts and a tanktop tying her hair back she had made her way tot he training room, getting her frustration out on the punching bag. Before she kne the there was a knock on the door, exhaling harshly she moved to open the door still breathless from the exercise.

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His jaw nearly dropped when Spike saw Faye open the door breathless in that outfit. The sweat made her skin glow in the dim moonlight that spilled into the room. She was one woman who he couldn\'t ignore, not even with Julia around which made him tense a bit. Raising a brow Faye thought he lost it for a moment \"something you want spike?\"
\"yeah, its eight, we should call Julia\" He said in his casual tone. If there was anything Spike knew how to do it was how to controle his voice and his expression.
\"Oh yes, Julia, how could i forget\" walking past him she made her way into the living room which, to her surprise, was clean.
*Guess Spike wasn\'t spending his time in the living room* with that thought she collapsed on the couch and put her feet on the table. Spike soon followed with the cordless phone in his hand and dialled the number uliaulia\'s cell phone *when she gets back i can forget about this shrew.* That thought was lost in his head as soon as a gentle voice answered the phone. \"Hello?\"

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The conversation wasn\'t something Faye cared to remember, Listening to the moans of Julia in the other room was drowning her in a sea of self pity until her lungs felt heavy with the need to breath. *would that bitch shut up!!* She sat up in bed and through one of the pillows at the wall screaming \"Shut the fuck up!!\" and immediately all sound ceased. Faye had to smirk at that, getting up out of bed she made her way from her room taking care to be quiet and went out to the balcony, this was going to be hell and wouldn\'t you know it....

It was hell, two weeks or so passed and they had gotten word that Vicious left Mars and she hated the fact that she didn\'t get to kill the stupid fuck. Julia was cooking something at the moment and Spike was laying on the couch. Faye saw Spike kiss her occasionally, hug her and whisper sweet nothings into her ear. Did the fuck think he was making her jealous? sick more like it.
Literally. She was throwing up in the mornings and just wouldn\'t get up. Fatigue quickly consumed her in the last few days. Stepping inside the apartment she heard Julia\'s calm voice from the kitchen call out to her \"Faye, do me a favour and go to the store for me.. I need you to pick up a few things at drug mart.\"
Rolling her eyes Faye shrugged and yelled out something like \"sure\" and saw Spike jumped from the couch at that instant. \"I\'ll drive\" was all he said and before she could stop him he was already out, Julia and Faye tilted their heads and stared at him disappear out of the apartment.

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The car ride was quiet, no one bothered to say a word, neither of them wanted to. Ten minutes passed when Faye realized they weren\'t driving to drug mart. All she did was send him a quizzical look but still said nothing. Thnutenutes dragged on and Spike only drove faster to their... that is..his..destination. When they did stop it was at a graveyard that Faye has seen a few times before but could mus muster a reason as to why Spike would bring them here. The day was still early and a light fog covered the ground but nothing too bad. He got out and after a moment of hesitation so did Faye walking around the car to stand beside him.
\"Spike what are we.....whoa, wait...\" he didn\'t even let her finish her sentence but grabbed her wrist and began running, all she could do was follow, jumping over the smaller headstones and trying to avoid anything in her way that Spike didn\'t seem to notice.

They stopped at a small garden shed and Spike, still not letting go of her wrist, opened the creacking door and pulled her in following after her and closing the door behind them. \"Spike what the hell are we doing here?\" that was all Faye managed to ask after catching her breath.
\"Visiting\" he simply answered and started moving closer and closer until she felt trapped against the wooden wall of the shed. He had a certain look in his eyes that Faye now recognized all too well. When he crushed his lips against hers all thoughts fled her mind...

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All thought fled his mind. There was only them now, in the middle of nowhere. He couldn\'t stand another heatless night with Julia, he still loved her, but she was so fragile unlike Faye.
Faye was rough, liked it rough and gave it rough, there were no words, no meaningless nothings, it was pure and simple and she drove him wild. Spike was however surprised when she made no protest to stop him but wrapped her arms around his neck. Their bodies were on fire and they were ignorant to everything. Pressing against each other no time would be wasted. Right now they needed each other more than ever to sooth each others pain, but neither one imagined it to be in the others arms. Moments later the heat only grew, there was heavy breathing and sweating, they didn\'t stop to talk about it or to stop each otheom gom going further. The only pieces of clothing that were taken off were Spikes pants and boxers and Faye\'s mini skirt was lifted and her thong laying on top of spikes pants. He was now buried deep in her with slow agonizing pumps, but he quickly remembered this wasn\'t about teasing or love, this was pure need and lust and so he didn\'t waste a minute in plunging into her with fast and quick pumps.

When they were finished and dressed Faye sat on an upside down bucket and hugged herself as Spike was doing his belt. She let it happen again. She lost herself in the moment and let him take her like some sort of whore. A silver tear trickled down her cheek and another followed after it, he would just leave her again and she was powerless to do anything about it. *You idiot, why are you doing this to yourself* Faye thought in the back of her mind.

Spike turned around and winced at the sight of those tears that were now following one another.
He caused those tears, but he didn\'t know what to do, he was, like she said, a stupid cowboy. Slowly walking towards her he was about to say something reassuring when she stood up and wiped away her tears in a disgusted manner. \"Faye please, can we talk about this.\"
\"No Spike, there is nothing to talk about, you used me for your perverse pleasure and now that your done you can go back to your little Julia and forget any of this ever happened.\" She adjusted her and did her best to avert her eyes from his.
Taking her by her shoulders her forced her to look at him and for a moment Faye thought she saw hurt in his eyes but she decided the light was playing tricks on her.
\"Why are you being so stupid Faye, Don\'t you understand that I never would have slept with you if I didn\'t love you, why did you think i brought you here?\"


She stared at him incredulously, in his own weird little way Spike had just told her he loved her. In a grave yard, after making love in a garden shed, wasn\'t he the romantic she thought sarcastically.
\"What about Julia?\" she blurted out though she didn\'t want him to remember her at the moment.

\"I...I still love her Faye, I\'m sorry but Its the truth an\"
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\"don\'t bother\" she cut him off and pushed him away form herself \"I cant and wont do this spike, You got to live twice, so live twice and sin no more, maybe god will take mercy on you and you can go to heaven.\"
With those fatal words she pushed open the door and ran out as fast as she could.
When Spike followed her to where he parked the car he noticed that the car was gone, as well as Faye.