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FAKE

Don't Know What
You've Got Till It's Gone

by Lady
Dragonphire

Summary: When Dee suffers amnesia after sacrificing
himself to save Ryo from a terrible accident, can Ryo overcome his shyness and
win back the love of his life before it's too late for their love?

Disclaimer:
FAKE and its characters are the property of Sanami Matoh.

WARNING:
The character's reactions might be slightly out of character when faced with
traumatic events, but then again one never really knows how one will act when
confronted by inescapable tragedy.

WARNING:
Angst/Lime

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Chapter 6. [You
Were] Born To Be My Baby

[& Baby I
Was Made To Be Your Man]

(Bon Jovi)

"Randy! Oh
God, Randy!" Dee
yelled, practically throwing JJ off as he saw the blond start to sway as Ryo's
face turned a pale white and his dark eyes rolled back in his head. Leaping out
of the bed, Dee forgot the pain of his own
injuries as he ran to Ryo's side and caught him just before he crumpled to the
ground. He hugged Ryo close to his chest, desperately wondering if he was going
to be okay. The handsome man had lost more weight since Dee had seen him last and Dee was concerned, as his partner
already had a slender frame. Actually, he had a gorgeous and very alluring
body, Dee reflected as he ran his hands gently over Ryo's sides, checking him
for any injuries from the fall. JJ saw the worried look in Dee's eyes as his eyes never left his
partner. He walked quietly out of the room, eyes downcast and feeling dejected,
not wanting to disturb what obviously was true love.

Dee continued to take in Ryo's gentle
features, memorizing each contour of his perfect face as he lifted him up in
his arms and placed his limp body gingerly onto the bed. The man was a dream
come true, Dee mused. As he brushed a stray wisp
of hair away from Ryo's closed eyes, his breathing quickened slightly as he
felt the inviting warmth emanating from Ryo's smooth skin. Dee stroked Ryo's cheek lovingly with
feather-light caresses and whispered in longing, "If only things were
different, then maybe you and I could be together," the pain of being so
close to the unattainable object of his desire wrenching his heart. Hesitantly
he leaned down and brushed his soft lips against Ryo's forehead, letting them
remain there for a second before moving away and once again marveling at the
glorious sight of the man lying before him. Tearing his emerald eyes away from
the sleeping beauty with a reluctant sigh and breaking the tender contact, Dee got a wet washcloth from the
bathroom to put on Ryo's forehead and gently massaged Ryo's wrists in an
attempt to revive him from his fainting spell.

Eventually Ryo's
breathing began to deepen steadily and his gorgeous eyes fluttered open, taking
in Dee's anxious face above him, only
inches away from his own. He inhaled sharply and blushed furiously. "I-I'm
sorry," Ryo said weakly. "I-I didn't mean to interrupt you," he
finished, trying desperately to keep the underlying hurt out of his voice.

"It's okay,
you didn't," Dee
said firmly, his heart going out to the man underneath him who obviously was in
so much pain, conflict tearing apart his very soul. Ryo froze in hesitant
expectation at Dee's near proximity. The man continued
to gaze deeper into Ryo's hurting soul, trying to fathom the cause for the
tortured splay of emotions that mirrored his own confusion as he seemed to
drown in Ryo's midnight depths. Ryo's beautiful smoldering eyes never
seemed so dark before to Dee.

Ryo's heart
began to beat faster, his body captivated by Dee's intense gaze that seemed to bore
right through him. `Why did he always feel so intimidated by Dee's closeness?' Ryo wondered. Giving
into his desires, he spoke the name that resonated from deep within his heart -
the name that had been forever consummated with searing passion onto his soul
so long ago. "Dee,"
he breathed longingly in a sultry sigh that escaped his slightly parted lips.

"Don't try
to talk yet," Dee
said as he put one finger to Ryo's lips delicately to silence him and moved his
face closer to Ryo's. "You don't want to overdo it." Dee's searching eyes encompassed the
utmost concern for Ryo, again wondering if the fragile man was going to be all
right. Dee pressed closer to Ryo, his body
unconsciously covering the other man's protectively. Dee was now so close to Ryo that Ryo
could feel Dee's gentle breath against his lips.
Ryo could only nod and whimper slightly, a pleading look resonating from his
hazy eyes. God, Dee
so wanted to kiss this man - no, this angel - who had fallen out of heaven and
into his arms. But now was not the time. Not when he was so torn up inside and
not sure who he loved or who he could trust anymore. Even his heart had
deceived him.

As Dee pulled away reluctantly, breaking
the sexual tension in the air momentarily and all physical contact, he offered
a disarming smile and held out a hand to help Ryo up. Ryo reached out his hand
tentatively and repressed his feelings of disappointment at the loss of intimate
contact emanating from Dee's warm body. He was so sure that Dee had been about to kiss him, and it
was what he wanted more than anything right now. He craved the pleasure Dee's kisses could bring him. He
wanted to feel Dee's sultry lips against his own. He
wanted to feel whole again.

As Dee led Ryo towards the doorway, his
arm wrapped protectively around Ryo's waist as Ryo draped his hand over Dee's shoulder, they came face-to-face
with�

"Elena!"
Ryo gasped, feeling a bit guilty at having to make her and Bikky wait for so
long while he had been passed out. Dee, however, mistook Ryo's feelings of
guilt for those of being caught doing something he wasn't supposed to, and he
released his grasp around Ryo's waist as he handed him over to Elena's outstretched
arms a bit reluctantly. She guided the exhausted Ryo into the wheelchair that
she had brought with her, and Ryo offered no protest as he collapsed against
the wheelchair, wearily closing his eyes and falling asleep, utterly exhausted.

As she stood there
gazing down at Ryo, Elena said, "Thank you so much for taking care of him,
Dee. I had a feeling that something like this might happen, so I stopped by to
check in on him. I hope that you are feeling well enough to go home soon
too," she said warmly as she wheeled Ryo out the door.

Dee blinked in astonishment at his
apparent rival for Ryo's affections being so kind to him. This man and his
family were just too good to be true. To his surprise, he found himself liking
the woman in spite of his initial jealousy. "Well, make sure you call me
and let me know how he's doing," Dee managed to get out before Elena turned back to him.

"I'll have
him come tell you himself," she said, winking suggestively.

"Do you
really think he'll come see me again?" Dee asked, knowing that Elena hadn't
witnessed what Ryo just had.

"Of course;
why wouldn't he? He still loves you, you know," she said, planting a quick
kiss on Dee's cheek as he looked at her with
only a stunned expression on his handsome face, his mouth hanging open. And
with that, she flipped her hair over her shoulders and sauntered away, pushing
Ryo and humming a soft tune as she waved to Bikky in the waiting room. All
three of them made their way out to the car, Elena pushing Ryo along. She did
not tell the nurses that Ryo had fainted, for she felt that being at home with
her taking care of him would be better for his recovery. Maybe then with Bikky
around to keep him company as well, he would not constantly be worrying about Dee.

The gorgeous
emerald-eyed man walked over to his bed and sat down, shocked. Randy loved him?
Randy had loved him all along? `No, that couldn't be true,' he thought. If he
had in fact been involved in a relationship with the other man, wouldn't he
have said something to Dee by now? Although, he could not get Ryo's hurt
expression at seeing him with JJ out of his mind. Ahhhh - everything was just
so confusing! Dee was going to have to find some answers, and fast. He didn't
know how much more of this not-knowing he could take. He could not keep
bottling up his emotions inside like this. He had to talk to someone before he
exploded. Every man had their breaking point. Dee's was inevitable and soon he
would reach the point of no return and be pulled into the depths of the dark
abyss with an unrelenting fury.

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�Thanks,
Bikky," Ryo said with a grateful smile as he sat up in bed, stretching,
and accepted the tray of food Bikky offered to him, balancing it on his lap. He
looked at the cup of tea and the bowl of homemade soup and crackers that his
Aunt Elena had prepared for him and began to eat the food, the first
substantial meal that he had eaten in close to a week.

"I'm sorry
if I woke you," Bikky said apologetically as he moved towards the door,
"but you know Elena - she insisted that you eat something, and I wasn't
about to argue with her."

"That's
okay; I was just resting anyway," Ryo said, placing the tray on the
bedside table and indicating a spot on the bed for Bikky to come over and sit
down. "Come here. It's been awhile since we've talked together. I'm sorry
that I haven't been myself lately. It's just that I've felt so hopeless and
alone without Dee that I kinda lost myself for awhile there," Ryo said,
his dark eyes conveying his honesty to the young boy.

"Wow, you
must really miss him," Bikky observed. "I never really noticed how
much of an affect his well-being had on your happiness until after the accident."

"Well, when
you're in love, the fate of your own happiness lies intertwined with every
action, every word, every whim, of the one who shares your soul," Ryo said
wistfully, thinking of how much Dee meant to him. "I'm sorry that you had
to hear this, Bikky. I know you aren't comfortable with my relationship with
Dee," Ryo broke off, blushing furiously.

"No Ryo,
it's okay. I appreciate that you can talk to me on an adult level and not treat
me like a little kid," Bikky said, putting his arms around Ryo's
shoulders. "And really, Dee's not that bad. I guess it's just because him
and I are so similar that we clash - being two street kids and all. I don't
care if you're in love with a guy - it's the person you love, not their gender.
Seeing you and Dee together taught me that. I just get worried about you and I
know that Dee didn't have the greatest reputation in the past, so of course I
use that as ammunition against him. It's just keeping with tradition - it's fun
to harass the perv. I just want to see you happy, even if that means not having
you all to myself. Go for it - win Dee back," Bikky finished, a genuine
look of acceptance crossing his face.

"Do you
really feel that way about Dee, Bikky?" Ryo asked. When the boy nodded
wholeheartedly, Ryo pressed his next question to the youth. "Well then,
how do you feel about me asking Dee to move in with us after he gets released
from the hospital?" Ryo asked quietly. "I know it would be an
adjustment having him around all the time, but I wanted to know how you felt
before asking him, that is - if he still loves me," Ryo said, a bit
remorsefully as he remembered walking in on Dee and JJ and Dee's reluctance to
kiss him.

In response,
Bikky left the room, returning shortly with a small object behind his back. "Does
this answer your question?" he asked, handing Ryo the object as Ryo turned
it over in his hands and studied it intently.

Ryo gasped
when he realized that it was a framed picture of Dee. Dee was sleeping
shirtless and sprawled out on Ryo's couch, his face radiating a peaceful
serenity. He slumbered innocently as if he didn't possess a care in the world.
His emerald eyes were shadowed by his dark lashes and his ebony hair was
disheveled, only adding to his aura of untamed masculinity. It was a beautiful
picture that conveyed a softer side of Dee that he shielded from the world. It
was an intimate portrayal of the side of Dee that he only revealed to Ryo. With
midnight eyes now brimming with unshed tears, Ryo tore his gaze away from the
man in the photograph and met Bikky's intense blue stare, quietly asking in
wonder, "Where did you get this?"

"Oh, I took
it one day when the perv was waiting for you to come home and he fell asleep on
your couch. I was planning to use it as blackmail at some point, but I figured
that you might actually like the picture, so I figured what the hell, I
might as well save it for a rainy day when you would need to be cheered
up," Bikky admitted. "When I knew you were coming home, I asked Elena
to help me pick out a frame for it."

"Thank you
so much, Bikky. This means the world to me," Ryo whispered, tears falling
down his pale cheeks as he pulled Bikky close.

"Yeah, well
I'm not promising that I'll cut Dee any slack when he lives here though,"
Bikky said with a devilish twinkle in his eye. "But I won't ever go too
far again. I don't want anything else to happen to him or to you. I love you,
Ryo."

"Oh Bikky,
you know that I don't blame you or your harsh words for causing the accident.
Sometimes these things just happen and there's nothing that you can do but
become stronger, rely on your inner strength, and get through them," Ryo
said earnestly.

"Thanks,
Ryo. I think that for awhile there I just wanted to place all of my hate and
frustration on Dee. Thanks for still loving me despite everything," Bikky
said softly.

"Oh Bikky,
I will always love you no matter what," Ryo whispered as he hugged Bikky
closer to his slender body. "Don't ever think otherwise." Nodding and
hugging Ryo one final time, Bikky picked up Ryo's tray of remaining food and
took it out to the kitchen to give to Elena before sitting down to eat with
her.

Ryo leaned back
against the pillows and sighed, deep in thought. Although he still loved Dee
with all his heart, he could not get the picture of Dee and JJ out of his mind
that seemed to permeate all of his thoughts. Ryo could not believe the
unparalleled depths of hurt and anger that he had felt when he had seen Dee in
the arms of another. Although he could not blame Dee for being deceived by JJ
in his current mindset, he was furious at JJ for taking advantage of the one
person that he truly loved and whose companionship he valued more than life
itself. True, Ryo had been too shocked initially to do anything and had
automatically backed off, apologizing for interrupting the private moment, but
now he knew that he had to stand up for himself and what he and Dee had
together if he did not want to risk losing the one he wanted and desired with
unsurpassed love and devotion.

Ryo stared at the
photograph of Dee in his hands. This man embodied all of his hopes and dreams.
He held the promise of what was to come in Ryo's future. If it was anything
like what they had discovered in each other before the accident, then things
could only get better with time. Ryo just had to reach deep down inside his
heart and conquer his inner fears. He had to show Dee that he was comfortable
with the idea of their relationship. He might even have to initiate things with
the usually persistent ebony-haired man. Ryo had sensed Dee's reluctance to
explore their relationship even though he felt that Dee had yearned to kiss him
from the depths of his heart. That was it! Dee hadn't known how Ryo felt about
him. Ryo had never told him. It all made sense now - the unspoken hesitation
behind Dee's emerald depths, the slight falter of indecision that came before
the withdrawal from Ryo's prone body that had practically begged for Dee's
touch.

But how to do
it? Ryo was not experienced in the matters of the pursuit of love and the art
of seduction like Dee was. In fact, he had never felt such a burning desire for
another that would warrant such brash actions from his usually reserved
demeanor before he had met Dee. Dee had won him over with one kiss at a time,
advancing his gentle but relentless pursuit of Ryo's heart until Ryo had given
into his forbidden desires and acquiesced to the sweet temptation that Dee's
love had offered. Ryo had faced up to everything that he was and had attained a
slice of heaven wrapped snugly within Dee's loving arms. Reflecting on the past
two years of Dee's unhurried but persistent seduction of him, Ryo now knew that
he had to win Dee back. Dee was just too good to let go. Ryo could not lose the
best thing that had ever happened to him now. His broken heart would not be
able to take much more. Yes, he knew that he had the choice to just walk away
from everything he had with Dee, but Dee was everything that he had always
wanted. He could not abandon the one person, the other half of his soul, who had
captured his heart as well.

Ryo sat up with
a firm resolve and a renewed sense of hope reflected in his midnight eyes as a
growing realization dawned on him... That was it! He knew how to win back the
love of his life. He would have to show Dee just how much he loved him through
his actions. It was only natural that sometimes one would need reassurance that
the one you loved with your entire being was equally desirous of you. `Someone
who's unloved can never be happy... I just can't keep chasing after something
I'll never get...' Hadn't Dee said these things to Ryo after Ryo had either
slightly shied away from his advances or responded to Dee with only a worried
look gracing his handsome face when Dee had wanted to know how Ryo felt about
him?

Of course, Ryo
could not expect that Dee would want to sleep with him yet, not when it would
just be having sex and not making love, and he would not want Dee to take him
in his current mindset either, although Ryo loved to be utterly ravished by his
ebony-haired lover. But he could sense that Dee was already attracted to him,
drawn with a powerful magnetism that exuded so much more than just a passing
whim to belong to another, and he was determined to take advantage of this
opportunity to the fullest. Ryo would show Dee how much he loved him with
everything he had, everything that he was, through his passionate kisses that
revealed his unspoken desires.

With a smile,
Ryo turned out the bedside light and hugged the picture close to his chest and
over his heart, falling into a dream-filled sleep with wonderful images of him
and Dee sharing the most intimate expression of love to one another in the most
erotic of ways. This time, he fell asleep with Dee in his arms. It was the
first night since he had been home that he had forgotten to take one of the
pills on his bedside table to help him sleep. Things were definitely looking
up. Ryo had convinced himself that he was going to try to win Dee back with his
whole heart, his entire being - everything he had and everything he was. There
was no turning back now. Nothing could take away his resilient determination. A
life without Dee was no life at all. Now only one question remained - could he
succeed in convincing Dee that they belonged together?

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