Lost in Darkness

I walked into the Endymions study where he was sitting comfortably and reading a book.

I hesitated before walking any further and bit my lip nervously. He glanced up at me then

went back to reading his book.

"Um Endymion Endy?"

"Yes Serenity?"

I walked over to him a bit more confidently.

"I have a request."

"Oh? What is it?"

"Well, you love me right?"

He set his book down on the table next to him and stared at me. It was as if his eyes bore

into my soul.

"Is that your request Serenity?"

"I uh um I mean.."

"Is it because I can certainly pretend to love you if that is what you wish."

"I er no um nevermind." I began to walk out of the study when his hand grasped mine.

"What was the reason you've come here and disturbed my reading?"

"Well..its not important really."

"Tsk tsk Serenity but now your unimportant question has distracted me." His lips found

mine and kissed me gently.

"Mmmm Mamo-chan" The moment I uttered those words I knew I was in trouble. I was

pushed off his lap and onto the ground. I whimpered in pain as he glared at me.

"Thats why you came to me? Were you hoping I would agree to be "healed" by your silly

jewel?"

"No I mean maybe well kinda ...yes" I looked down guiltily.

"Forget it."

"But Endy if you love me then well you'll go back to the way you are."

"Why should I? So you can live happily ever after with...how droll. Tell me Serenity how

do you know marrying me wasn't your destiny hmm?"

"No! It couldn't have been I mean you're evil!"

He was silent for a moment then said "Thats not what you said last night."

"You can't solve all your problem with sex!"

He glared at me "I have more important things to do then to sit here and listen to you

whine and whimper about how much you miss Mamo-chan. Get it through your head, he

is not coming back! You are married to me ME not some goody two shoes Tuxedo

Kamen who couldn't even come up with a decent line or two."

That did it. How dare he insult my Mamo-chan?! As I stood up and tried to slap him

Endymion grabbed my wrist.

"Ah ah ahh is that anyway to treat your husband?"

He pulled me up close to him and kissed me this time more rough demanding like in his

kiss he was begging me to love him then pushed me away when I didn't respond even

though it was hard not to.

"As I said I have things to do, so go."

"No! We're not through talking so I'm gonna stay right-"

"I said get out. Don't make me force you to leave Serenity." He said calmly

I walked out of the study and sighed. So much for that plan.

--That evening-

I layed in my bed trying to think of some other plans. Maybe I could pretend to love him

and then when he leasts expect it...BAM he was back to being Mamo-chan. I heard the

door open and Endymion walked in. He was wearing just his boxers and I stared at his

muscular chest.

"Usako." He whispered as he walked towards me and sat down on the bed.

Um wait a minute when did Endymion start calling me Usako? The only time I was called

that was before Mamo-chan got kidnapped by Kunzite.

"Mamo-chan?" I whispered jerking back real quickly before he could slap me. It was then

that I realized he wasn't trying to slap me.Oh my god! Was he back?

"Mamo-chan is that you?!"

He nodded and I hugged him tightly. I felt his lips on my neck.

"Why wouldn't it be me Usako?"

"I just you were turned evil and I thought I healed you but..."

"Silly Odango Atama, you must have had a ...nightmare." He concluded before pushing

my nightgown down. "Am I right?"

I wasn't sure, what if Endymion was playing a trick on me but, lately Endy hadn't been

THIS nice to me. I nodded and he smiled charmingly.

"Now let me make love to precious princess." His eyes were full of lust. I felt a bit of

guilty because what Endymion said today was true. I was married to him not Mamo-

chan.After making love to me over and over until it was hard for me to move he got tired

and fell asleep. I stared at Mamo-chan, well I think it was Mamo-chan. He looked so

beautiful when he slept I brushed his bangs out of his eyes and his eyes fluttered open.

"Mamo-chan you're awake!"

Mamo-chan stared at me for a moment before he started to laugh. I looked at him with a

confused look. He shook his head and ran his hand through his hair.

"Silly girl, you actually believed I was Manoru."

"Endymion?!"

"Who else? I have to admit I do love roleplaying it adds a little spice to our

...relationship."

"Fuck you!"

"So soon, Serenity we just went a whole night full of sex. Maybe later though if I'm in the

mood."

"You know what I meant. How could you-"

"Don't give me that, you enjoyed it."

I hated how much he was right but I shook my head in denial anyways.

"No, I would much rather have fucked Demando instead of you!"

His eyes flared with intense jealousy and then he smiled maliciously.

"Well then perhaps I'll let him have you for one night hm? Since you have decided you'd

like to be a slut and fuck any guy who offers it to you."

"No! Thats a lie."

"Is it? Even if I had become that pathetic excuse for a man you aren't married to him and

the only memory he would retain is that of pure annoyance from just listening to you talk.

You weren't really with him until that one fateful night when the Dark Kingdom

kidnapped him and thus created me instead. He knows nothing about you. He doesn't

know your fears or what you love or how to make you moan his name in ecstasy does he

Serenity?"

"No but-"

"I do on the other hand. I could have you right now and you wouldn't object so for the last

time forget about that baka. I'm the one you chose to marry."

I looked away my eyes were full of sadness. Could I really learn to love Endymion or

would I have to divorce him just to be happy?

"Don't look like that Serenity. I haven't hurt you why should I start now when there are

much better things to do with you." He cupped my cheek and forced me to look at him

then crushed his lips against mine roughly. I had a bad feeling about the way life was

going to be for both Chibi Usa and me.