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-.This chapter is VERY long and I suggest you only read it if you have the time or if you break it up into two parts.-. Good luck!

I feel soon I will sink into you�

-Mascara // Deftones

7. The Anatomy of my Inebriated Heart

�No. You are supposed to cease your use of words just shut-up and be thankful that someone cares that much.� And Light, he did just that he shut-up leaning forward crushing his lips against L�s thinking: I will fucking show you who should be thankful.

Their lips parted surprisingly quick, however Light�s tongue managed to lick at the investigators slyly, tasting him. L wondered transiently what it was he tasted like and if it was addicting enough to make the other want more even when more was not available. Something like complicated lovers too busy at days end, too tired to cook dinner but hungry, starving for each others love. The moments were not always perfect or right , there would even be times when nothing matched but a path could be made for them to find each other, wrap themselves together all limbs and warm skin, because they were simply imbued with one another.

Their love could be an impetuous wind that swept through their lives disrupting everything and anything. Including each other.
L was not one hundred percent positive on the facts that were spinning around in his head but he was sure when two people yearned for one other that was how it felt, and they would do almost anything to have one another. A modern day example could easily be derived from the classic tale of Romeo and Juliet. A wrought love so addictive it consumed ones mind to the point where death was a welcomed promise of forever togetherness.
L knew of addictions quite well, in fact he felt comfortable with them much like his worn jeans. He needed his sweets, he needed to drown himself in his work, and now he needed his Light. His love for these things was inveterate.
One of Light�s hands was at the nape L�s neck playing with the midnight hair there, the other enslaved the detectives wrists. When the younger ones face pulled away there was a handsome serpentine smirk on it. �I�m sorry did I forget to say thank-you?� Long fingers carefully untwined themselves from L�s almost endless spikes and found their way to his lips, tracing them ever so slow. �Thank-you for caring so much.� He said with a scary sort of sarcasm L could only blink and then Light kissed the side of his mouth. �Thanks.� Strangely, in a twist of emotion so quick the word was spoken soft and seemingly truthful as it embedded it�s way under the detectives frigid skin and sought to drown his heart with false hopes. A Cheshire cat Light was, untrusting eyes and far too big a smile, yet L believed anyway because even though he was not tumbling down a rabbit hole Light had done a stupendous job at making him believe that just maybe he was. And just maybe the only one who could catch him would be the megalomaniac.
Light�s love was a precarious one shielded in secrecy and lies but L believed he knew his way around the battlefield of the teens convoluted mind and he would take his chances to hold onto this feeling even if it were just for a moment.
Another kiss was applied to the other side of his mouth and Light�s fingers were pushing past his lips caressing his sharp teeth as he pulled his head back. L knew those teeth held some sort of immoral power over the young one and there was an aberrant emotion coursing through him that came with such a fetish. So, he bared those deadly canines for Light, looking quite drunk with a murderers instinct, and the teen bent forward licking the shiny enamel surface. The top of his tongue scraped slowly under the sharpest point of one of the detective�s teeth and L bit down causing Light to gasp in surprise. The bite was not hard enough to puncture Light�s tongue but there was enough pressure to keep the younger one in place as he softly sucked the abused area. L admitted (to only himself) he had never sucked on anything this vigorously including his beloved strawberry lollipops. Light Yagami was his drug, his undoing, more viperous than the vampire�s curse that polluted his already unclear thoughts. L knew if he was not careful he might overdose.

If he were to turn his head even just a little his mouth would hit Light�s neck, that un-sullied flesh that screamed to be sullied by him. Want. So hungry. Yes, he did want that but he would not create a monster. No. L would not contribute to the darkness in Light�s mind by turning the younger one, but couldn�t he just bite and suck on him a little, without the process of making Light a vampire? Yes, that he could do, that could not hurt�much. As if the decision had been made for him Light pulled away his hair covering those perilous eyes.
The paler of the two fixed his own eyes on Light staring at the teen above him, his eyelids falling unnaturally low, but slit enough for him to see clearly. L longed to taste the neck that was now out of his reach. The detective licked impatiently at his lips and teeth as Light smiled deviously. Light was a man to be marveled and feared (though L was not scared), he inspired such virile feelings within him, creating utter chaos in his mental state. The detective frowned deducting that it had always been that way with Light. If L hadn�t cared he would never have bothered with this plan of his, he would have let the teen become another notch in his extraordinary belt of solved cases. But he did care, he cared and he operated on what little understanding he had of this emotion to save Light from his own mind and Lenore, his mother. If he had resolved this matter legally, within the law, Light would have been executed, the death note destroyed and Lenore might have moved on, seeking her next victim or conquest. But he had taken matters into his own hands because his heart felt heavy, weary with an ache that would not cease and his eyes could not bare the sight of seeing Light murdered or executed. Though he truly deserved it.
L could sense the young Yagami was confused, Light was at a loss, that much was obvious. The teen had been stripped of his freedom, in all aspects of the word, including his freedom to dole out Kira�s sick form of justice, to execute whomever was in need of executing. It was he who had put a halt to the unjust power that came from Light�s steady writing hand.
Light had been informally submitted to L�s own private Twilight Zone. The man above him desired to have some form of control because he truly had none and hadn�t for almost a month now. Light was under pressure and yet the usually explosive man had stayed unusually composed. Deprived. How unfortunate. How wonderful.
That was how it became this way, himself trapped beneath Light, his wrists enveloped tightly in one of Light�s large hands held above his head. The teen allowed his full weight to press nicely against L�s body. Soft brown hair dusted along his forehead every now and then only to keep Light�s almond shaped eyes out of view. The detective was very turned on. �You�re welcome.� He said finally while smirking and gently thrusting himself upwards against the hardness he felt there. They were about to skip all the intricacies that came with a serious relationship (since in reality they did not have one) and go straight to what all dedicated couples built up to. The sex. L was not complaining. Merely speculating. The detective found it rather desensitizing that they would be able to do this and not because they were madly in love. They would never be a conventional couple, it wasn�t even possible, he knew that. He was L and the man kissing his neck was Kira. He would never be safe and neither would Light. Alas, it was a tale of woe.
Light Yagami was not aware of the goings on in L�s head so his touches never halted, his kisses never turned bitter, they were messy and steady, carefully, shyly trying to reveal more pale skin. Sure, L liked Light�s gentle touches and the uncertainty of where he would place his lips next but foreplay was a bit overrated. �Let me go.� The teen was grinding his hips against L�s his breath appearing to slip out of the grasp of his lungs as he eyed the vampire detective, his eyes cutting themselves into sharp slits. Always zero to sixty. Amazing.
�If� I� If I do that everything will change.� Which was Yagami speak for: you will have all the control and there is no way in hell I will hand that over. There was another hard circular grind to his pelvic region and L moaned while Light grinned. Appearing over joyous with his current role.
�If you do not nothing will.� The detective was not struggling against Light, he enjoyed being held captive by the younger one but he wanted more, needed so much more. He felt hollow inside, like a vessel that was supposed to be carrying something, anything yet he was empty, algid with and artic touch. L yearned to abort that feeling, crack it open and freeze everything within range or be melted by this one man. The man with such a fitting name as� Light.
�What is that supposed to mean?� Light�s grip tightened and it was slightly painful but L endured this pain with a starved grin as he licked his lips.

�It means if you do not release my wrists we could be doing this same thing all night.� Which technically was not bad at all, but it was not enough. Light shot him another jaded look, this one had to be his seriously offended face which L could not be bothered to fix. Light was bound to be offended sometime during this conversation, better that it be at the beginning. �I am curious, has Light ventured this far before?� The blush on the teens face quickly spread to his ears and Light tried to cover up his inexperience with a fierce snarl and seductive slow rub to L�s groin area. The vampire snarled back humping into Light�s hand and crotch, wanting nothing more but to bite the gorgeous creature before him and suck that blush out of his cheeks.
�What are you talking about? Of course I have ventured this far!?� L smiled again as Light continued to mumble angrily.

�Oh of course, a ladies man like Light-kun must be very experienced.� He thrust upwards again causing a moan to rise from the younger one and Light looked enamored with frustration. �Now, if you will release your stranglehold on my wrists.� The firm grip loosened until the fingers surrounding him were completely gone, replaced by Light�s soft lips which promptly kissed the abused area. L was slightly taken aback but did not reveal this in any way, besides his brain was quickly betraying him by shutting down. L placed his hands on Light�s waist coaxing him off as he stood to his feet bringing the teen with him. Light�s hand never disconnecting from L�s body as it continuously rubbed harshly at the hardened spot between his legs. �I meant,� he started, pushing Light against a wall as he quickly attached himself to that hot body. �With another man?� L knew the answer to this, he could practically smell it. The detective wouldn�t be surprised at all if the proud Light was a virgin to both sexes. Though L was satisfied in knowing he would be Light�s first sexual encounter with a male.

The young Yagami blushed again and L was flattered that he could make the mass murderer turn colors so easily. �Do not worry, I know what I�m doing.� His face fell into Light�s neck where he sniffed the flesh carefully. Light�s scent could only be described as divine and it made him feel possessive over the body he had trapped against the wall. His mind screamed that it was his, that Light belonged to him and he longed to prove it, mark it. His mouth opened, his tongue swirling swiftly against the skin beneath and he growled, like an animal, like a man, like something empty that needed to be filled.
�So do I.� The younger one countered all too slow as if it took his sexually charged mind a minute or two to catch up. Yes, of course. Light never backing down, never revealing because that would be losing. The detective liked that so he alternated his licks with the scrape of sharp teeth upon malleable skin.

�Then let us learn from each other. I will teach Light-kun all that I know.� Not waiting for an answer, L continued assaulting the spot he so loved. The detective bared teeth against the flesh and against his better judgment sank those canines in breaking the skin perfectly. Light clenched his eyes shut a painful cry escaping his lips as his hands flew to L�s shoulder and back of his head, fingers curling tightly in his hair and shirt. The detective had one hand on Light�s back the other on the teen�s face where he felt fiery tears being sewn into the coarse skin of his fingertips. He easily wiped them away while carefully tilting Light�s head to gain better access of that supple neck. L groaned into Light�s skin, sucking at the flesh and blood harshly. He was almost ashamed that he had done this, when he told himself he wouldn�t, but there was no time for regret as the hot liquid burned it�s way down his throat and into his famished body. He wanted this, this exactly. Nothing else would do, no one else could feed his hunger as Light could. �L�� said Light with such sexual conviction he felt violated. He knew he had to stop, he had to stop because if he kept going he would either have to kill Light or turn him and he would do neither.
So the hand on Light�s face dropped to his stomach where he lifted the thick sweatshirt enough to touch the teens skin with his own as he moved his head back licking crazily at Light�s neck, blood spilling along the sides of his mouth. �Kiss me.� came the soft command and his head was turned towards Light�s where blood tainted lips met with dry clean ones. The kiss was nothing short of a mess, it was not spectacular at all and that made L want the mass murderer even more. He moved his head back to lift Light�s hoodie over his head and throw it to the floor. When their eyes met, L knew his were ink black and soulless but Light stared at him as if there was beauty within him, as if he was something to be admired not damned, and part of him hated it. Because Light was looking upon a vampire not a human detective. The other part of him reveled in it because he had never been eyed in such a way that made him feel priceless or precious. Also because maybe this was one way to lock down and get rid of the chaos inside Light. It was not that farfetched a thought he attempted to convince himself. People released frustrations through sex all the time.
One of the young Yagami�s hands found the detective�s face and he wiped away the remaining blood, L caught Light�s wrist before he moved too far, his tongue darting out over the tarnished surface of his skin licking away the blood. With his free hand Light unbuttoned and unzipped his own pants and L would have been slightly amused and impressed if he wasn�t so turned on. Before he fully understood what was happening the detective found himself on his knees in front of Light his hands on the teens hips stripping him of the bothersome clothes there. He leaned forward pressing his nose into the crevice between Light�s thigh and crotch sniffing and licking the sensitive spot. Seconds later the teens hands were in his hair, massaging his scalp. L�s tongue traveled outward and up the muscled thigh to the hip bone where he helplessly sank his teeth through the vulnerable flesh. Light made a noise that resembled a whimper which caused L to become more adamant in his biting process, especially if it could elicit such unheard of noises from the young Yagami�s controlled mouth. He sucked, feeding again from the delicious teen. Bloody lips parted and he pulled his teeth out of the soft skin hurriedly whispering the word bedroom up at Light. The command wasn�t lost on the younger one as he stared down the dark hallway awaiting L�s movement first.
He wasn�t a romantic, he wasn�t even human anymore, yet he held emotions. Emotions that moved him deeply enough to care about how Light felt and he wanted the teen to be comfortable his first time. He wanted Light to enjoy this as much as he knew he would. So he stood taking one of Light�s arms and turning him around to fully face the hallway. L immediately glued himself to Lights back, his mouth kissing fervently at the teens neck. �Is Light-kun feeling alright?� He asked his lips still connected to the younger ones skin as he moved them forward, toward the bedroom. L was not sure if Light was feeling light headed from the loss of blood, the same blood that was now inside of L.
�I�m fine L.� L nodded applying another kiss while skating his fingers down Light�s chest and stomach then stopping abruptly when his hand connected with the hard shaft that protruded there, his hand instinctively wrapped around it. The detective slid his hand down the length his thumb kissing the slit while he moved back up and repeated the motion this time slightly faster and Light moaned something unrecognizable to L�s ears.

�Still fine?� He inquired as they stopped in front of the bedroom door, a weak-kneed Light falling into it.

�L�� was all he said as the vampire continued to work his fist in a steady motion, holding Light up with his free arm. He licked at Light�s shoulder blades and spine then back to his neck, licking the spot where two perfect bloody circles were. A mark he put there, a mark that would never fade as long as he remained alive. L kicked the door open with his foot and slowly walked him and Light inside.

L pushed the teen on the bed and got to removing his own clothes as Light watched, his fingers lazily tracing the bite marks on his neck and hip as he unknowingly spread his legs for L while falling back onto a pillow. L�s eyes roamed achingly slow over Light�s faultless body and the only thing he could think of was devouring the man on the bed. The detective kicked off his remaining clothes and pounced on Light.
L wasn�t one to helplessly admire a man�s body but with Light it could not be helped. The man was sculpted in such a way that made him feel as though he had an artists eye or hands, and he was doing mankind a great injustice by not documenting such beauty. Light�s hard member was pressed against his flat stomach, dripping onto that beautiful skin. He wanted to verbally praise Light for looking so stunning but he did not, the words were trapped somewhere that his voice could not reach. L placed his hands on the teens ankles and massaged upwards stopping at the knees where he bent Light�s legs up. He wasn�t one to ask stupid questions either but again it was Light and it could not be helped. �Do you want this?�

�Either you are going to do this or I am.� The mass murderer said through heavy lidded lashes his hand grabbing his erection as he stroked it slowly for L�s ash-black eyes. The detectives ears heard the words but L�s eyes and mind seemed to be preoccupied with that naughty schlicking sound Light�s hand was making while massaging the hardened skin.
The way Light�s fingers twisted around his own hardness making him breath heavily as he stared wantonly at L was setting the vampires skin afire. He could draw this out no longer, his body demanded to intertwine with Light�s. The detective moved off the bed leaving Light to stare on in wonderment as he walked into the bathroom. He wasn�t exactly prepared for this situation and he didn�t want the teen to be in extreme pain. Because he knew it would hurt, that couldn�t be helped but he didn�t want the pain to overshadow everything else. He searched quickly finding nothing he truly wanted except a tiny bottle of lotion, it would have to do. L took it and walked back out to Light tossing the lotions cap to the floor as he squeezed some into his impatient palm kneeling between those endless legs. With a generous amount of lotion on his palm he rubbed two of his fingers in it while leaning forward to remove Light�s hands with his teeth and tongue taking Light�s member into his mouth. L�s head bobbed up and down to the rhythm of Light�s languid moans and he placed his two lotion covered fingers firmly against that forbidden spot that made Light squirm away from him slightly. L held him in place with his free hand, swallowing Light deeper in the process. His tongue followed a prominent vein that disappeared near the tip of Light�s hardness where he pressed his tongue in removing it and repeating the process. L pushed one of his fingers inside the warm cavern, circling it around in a tortuously slow fashion which caused a string of un-saintly words to spew from Light�s mouth. L pushed his finger deeper.
�Hsss�I can�t- you bastard, just fucking do it.� L continued his ministrations slowly adding a second lotioned up finger then moving them in opposite directions inside the young man as he removed his mouth from Light�s hardness. His voice was slightly scratchy when he spoke, �I�m afraid that will not do.�

�Don�t tell me what will do-�

�Light-kun I am preparing you to lesson the pain. I do not wish to hurt you.� A hand flew to his head and tangled in his hair gripping the roots tightly and he looked at the teen who was staring intensely at him.

�Pfft!� Was all Light managed but kept on jerking up and down on L�s fingers.

�You think my intention is to hurt you, to bring you pain? For if it is you would be wrong. We are not enemies in this bed.� Maybe we�ll be enemies everywhere else, but not here, never here. He pushed his fingers deeper finding the spot that made Light push back harder and moan despite the fading anger written on his face. �I want to bring Light-kun much pleasure. I want Light to feel good.� Removing his fingers L grabbed the lotion with one hand and leaned forward to kiss Light on the lips and surprisingly the teen opened his mouth accepting it. L quickly applied lotion to his own member, keeping his hand wrapped around the base of his hardness as he guided it to Light�s readied entrance. The detective pressed his erection against Light, teasing him, rubbing himself up and down making the younger one writhe insanely below him.
�Fuck! Just� put the goddamn thing inside!� The detective covered Light�s mouth with his own, slowly pushing his way in.

�Light-kun has such a dirty mouth.� His lips were connected to Lights as he spoke and the younger one breathed hotly into his mouth, his tongue slickly darting out to lick at the detective.

�If�� there was a sharp intake of breath here as Light got used to L being inside him. �you don�t hurry up and fuck me it will get a lot dirtier.� Light smirked as L�s eyes darkened.
The detective badly wanted to thrust himself forward, Light was that tight, that hot, his words made L harder than he thought possible, but he moved slowly as he saw the pain written so blatantly on Light�s face.

�I�m hurting you.� Like duh, but he couldn�t think of anything else to say especially with Light�s tight heat surrounding him as it was.

��Nngh fuck. No. I� just start moving.� He said biting his bottom lip a rosy blush slowly coloring his face. Light looked simply exquisite and L hoped when he started moving he would never have to stop. How could Light possibly be enjoying this as much as him? Wasn�t it burning, the pain surely had not faded that quickly. Of course he could always be saying that it had just to appease L, but why would he care to?
The vampire gripped Light�s hips as he could move forward no further and needed to still himself so Light could adjust properly but that would never happen as long as the younger one kept pushing his hips forward and demanding for L to move. After what seemed to be a very long twenty seconds L could stay still no longer and he began to slowly pull out of Light, the teen took a deep breath as L thrust himself back in starting up a slow pace. He wanted to lose control, smash his hips into Light�s frantically and make them both crazy with lust chasing the heels of their orgasm, but he didn�t because he wanted it last also.
Light wrapped his arms around L�s neck and pulled him down breathing heavily into the detectives ear as he licked and bit at it while L placed one hand underneath Light�s back moving it down to his butt grabbing at it harshly and spreading Light�s left leg a little farther, and he pushed harder desiring to get deeper. �C�mon detective you can go harder than this�� the words fell breathily into his ear followed by a sloppy kiss from lips that didn�t stop until they met his own. Light�s hand trailed down L�s crooked spine to his buttocks where he held on pushing the detective deeper into him. �Fuck yes!� L moved his head in between Light�s neck and shoulder to the spot where he had bitten the young one before and bit down again causing the mass murderer to hiss loudly at the invasion of the fresh wound. Light�s hands went to L�s hair where he ran his fingers through it and then just began messing it up as he frantically thrust against the vampire who was fucking and feeding off him.
He pulled L�s head back to look at his face holding the pale detective by soft coal colored hair and L mirrored Light, rough fingers twining tightly in the light brown strands, as his mouth dripped of blood that fell to Light�s heaving chest. They stared at each other unblinking as L thrust relentlessly his hips like a jackhammer pounding into Light. The teen attempted to move forward but could not as L had a robotic grip on his hair so the detective moved closer, his face hovering above Light�s. The young Yagami stuck his tongue out licking at L�s bloodied lips then teasing his tongue daring it to come out and meet his. It did and their tongues wound around each others, both of them moaning loudly as their bodies slammed together out of time a huge sweaty hot fucking mess.
L released Light�s hair and moved his hand to the teen�s ignored member wrapping long fingers around him and stroking quickly. Light was pulling at L�s hair again then grabbing his ears, his fingers hungrily caressing his face and L turned his head to suck one of Light�s fingers one of his sharp canines biting into it softly but hard enough to draw blood and L sucked harder with Light�s thumb rubbing L�s cheek. He was madly thrusting trying to sync his movements with Light but it just was not happening as they were both too far gone. So he pumped his fist faster as he moved his mouth to the teens wrist where he bit down harshly allowing the blood to spill down his throat and he was practically screaming it all felt so good. Light pressed L�s head harder to his wrist his eyes wild as he got off on the sight and suddenly Light�s stomach and hands were covered with his own come and L wondered how he didn�t see Light finish but it no longer mattered as his own orgasm was ripping through him his hardness being slammed in and out of the hot body below, the warm blood spilling down his lips and he was coming inside and outside of the teen. A few thrusts later L was completely spent and he slumped forward falling on top of Light with a satisfied groan. He didn�t stay down for long though as he quickly moved off of the tired teen and out of the bed back into the bathroom where he gathered a few towels and gauze.
He threw one of the towels at Light�s head and crawled back onto the bed. �Hey� can�t see�� came the tired protest so L moved the towel off of Light�s face and down to his stomach where he cleaned it off along with the rest of Light then himself. �Light-kun, you�re still bleeding I am going to wrap it.� He said holding up the bandages and Light nodded sleepily offering the older man his bloody wrist. L thoroughly cleaned it with the other towel and slowly wrapped the wound and secured it in place with some tape. �I apologize for leaving Light-kun so many wounds.�

�Mmm� Was all Light said for a few minutes and then, �Shut-up and go to sleep.�
-o-

The hinges were unlocked and the heavy window frame was flung open. �Despondent and weak�� a voice that sounded similar to his spoke. Let the disaster of this dance with him, let it corrupt the remains of his heart, erase the weakness, that stubborn sickness.
He could feel the sun on his skin, sense its magnificent light beneath his eyelids and he rolled over to absorb more of its warmth. Fingers trailed up the bumpy surface of the bed surfing over something grainy�sandy. He pinched the sand between his fingers closing an uncertain fist as realization woke his sleepy mind. His eyes snapped open their line of sight falling directly to his hands and then the mass of grayness beneath it. Garnet orbs opened further as he gasped for breath stripping the bed of blankets revealing more of the ash colored sandy substance. �No!� His long fingers swam deeply in the ashes cupping them in his hands. No. This was� no! He looked up, almond eyes connecting with the mysterious laughing shadows standing by the wide open curtain-less window. The scalding sun spilled in like acid falling from impious vengeful hands. He looked back down at his own dirty ash covered fists and screamed. This was L� this was L� this was all that was left of the great detective. Part of him almost exploded with mad laughter, exultant laughter but did not as he was overwhelmed with tremendous misery. This tragedy seeming to annihilate the most demented parts of him.
�This is what you wanted.� Spoke one of the beings by the window and Light strained to see their faces his anger burning through his usually calm features as he shook his head disagreeing with their words.

�Who did this!?�

Then they all laughed answering him in unison. �You did.�
Light grit his teeth in anger ready to stand but was stopped by a thin hand on his wrist and when he turned to see who had hold of him his voice caught in his throat. It was an ash covered L.

�This will not last.� The detective said from behind brittle lips.

Light revealed befuddled fearful eyes to a pitch black quiet room and blinked daring to reach his hands across the surface of the bed. His fingers greeting nothing but a mound of blankets which he gripped tightly. His head automatically cocked to the side as he ran a hand through tousled hair managing to pull the blanket further up his chest. And there out of the corner of his eye he spotted the detective sitting on the bed scrunched up in his peculiar crouched position, blankets wrapped around his hunched shoulders, wide raccoon-like eyes staring straight at� him. �L, you�re awake.� You�re alive� I just had a terrible nightmare and you were in it, you were�

�I am.�

�Aren�t you tired?� Light frowned his nightmare floating before his distracted eyes. He knew there was sunlight beyond that carefully covered window and if he dared he could rip it open. He could do anything� anything. What could L do but scream in pain as he was scorched to fine ash? No one could stop him, not even L. If he did this, he would be able to rule freely as he wanted. If he did this, which he made no move to do a thing except stare at L�s sad eyes and want to wipe away that sadness without cruelty or death.
L, this man who seemed to be made of stone at times was so much softer than rock. The detective was so human, conflicted just as Light was. The young Yagami was awestruck because the detective could ignite him so and he allowed it and sometimes he welcomed it. There was no denying his attraction to the vampire or his need to make excuses for every future breath he wanted the man to take with him. He did not want L gone, not if it meant he would never see his face again. What he did want was for L to join him and his cause, which he knew would probably never happen and therefore death would wait for one of them. Possibly both. And because he was feeling so pathetically empathetic he asked again, �Aren�t you tired?�
�I am.� the younger of the two sat up trying to comprehend what it was that reflected from L�s seemingly blank eyes. There was something there, something unspoken. Light wanted to embrace him, feel his skin and hear his breath in his ear but he didn�t move as he tried to be content with just knowing L was here right now.

�You should get some sleep.�

�That would be most unwise.�

�Why ?� L rolled ink-bled eyes, meeting his gaze with a little smile on his lips as his hand moved to Light�s hair and brushed it out of his eyes. Did the detective just have a fond thought of him, about what had happened between them? Is that what brought such a sincere smile to his unusually pale and unsmiling face?

�Hmm, I assumed it was painfully obvious that someone is trying to kill Light-kun and because of this dire situation I gave an oath that I would protect his life.� Light fought to keep the soft smile on his lips even though he wanted to punch L in the face� several times. The younger one could take care of himself, despite L�s lack of faith concerning his own survival. Though part of him truly admired L for his dedication.

�So does that mean you do not need sleep.�

�No. I do not need sleep. I want it. There is a difference.� Light covered his face with his hand feeling a little exasperated with L and his complicated personality.

�You can have it. I can stay up, if I hear anything I will wake you. How does that sound?�

�Suspicious.� Light moved closer to L his face was one huge glare as he shoved the other onto his butt and smeared the detectives vision with his visage.

�I don�t get you.�

�You�re not meant to.� Fuck that, did L think he was some kind of fucking uncharted deadly territory or an unsolvable case? He could get the detective, the detective just didn�t want to be got. Simple as that. L was not so complex that he was out of Lights reach. And Light shook his head because L�s response was just all wrong. �What the hell is wrong with you?� L blinked his reaction to Light�s words was practically invisible but what little he did show revealed that the statement had stung. L placed his thumb on his lips and hummed quietly before he spoke.

�As I said before, I care for Light-kun.� Light nodded then pointed an accusing finger towards L�s huddled form.

�That is what is wrong with you? You care about me?�

�Correct.� Light was so not impressed, in fact he was the opposite of impressed, he was unimpressed.

�Okay then, wrongs can be righted� they can be fixed.� L stared at him for a moment before removing his thumb from his lips to search his person for candy, which he found none. The man was naked or had he forgotten this. Light sighed loudly making a big deal about leaning over the huge bed and searching out L�s pants to forge for candy in the deep pockets. Upon finding a peppermint he smiled triumphantly unwrapping it and dramatically handing it to L who nodded his thanks. The detective quickly popped it in his mouth his eyes briefly closing as he sucked loudly.

�In most cases.� L said finally answering Light�s earlier question.

�Okay, so how would you fix this?�

�I would not.� Now it was Light�s turn to stare and he did with wide surprised eyes. That had to be the most shocking revelation Light had gotten out of this man thus far.
�Excuse me if I am slightly confused. We shared a very intimate moment, something that is very sacred between two people and you are suspicious of me? Yet you claim to care about me so much so it makes you act this way.� L kept his eyes on Light, unwavering.

�Forgive me, it is an emotion that is hard to be removed.�

�Because I am Kira?� God, if it is because I am Kira I am going to fuck some shit up. Yeah, he was Kira and he was going to be fucking Kira for-fucking-ever. L didn�t seem to have any complaints about this when his dick was up his ass.

�Because you are Kira.� Who did this guy think he was?

�I told you I will give up ownership of the note.�

�But you will not destroy it?�

�No.�

�Hmm, then you have met my dilemma.� No L, you have met reality. Light never said he would be willing to destroy his death note.

�Giving up ownership is better than owning it!�

�Correct, and destroying it is better than hiding it.�

�L can we please meet halfway on this we�ve come this far.�

�Light can you not see -�

�I see L, I see you and I see me sitting here in this bed, arguing over something that will unfortunately reach an unhappy stalemate. I see a tired man with a too heavy burden he will allow no one else to help him carry. I see your want for things not viable.� L�s eyes hadn�t left his during this whole conversation but the detectives black orbs looked lost to his words as if he was clouded by a determination Light could not comprehend. Or maybe they were just clouded with unshed tears� the young Yagami did not know and was actually frightened by both outcomes. �You can go to sleep L nothing bad will happen. The world will not fall apart, your Mother will not kill me, I won�t kill anyone�Kira will not prevail in the next hour or two.� He brought the detective closer not so much embracing him as he was smothering him and trying to smother the despair that leaked from the others beautiful eyes. �For once let someone look out for you.� There was a quiet questioning hum emitting itself from L�s stiff being as he shifted in Light�s possessive embrace.

�Would Light do that again?�

�Do what?�

�Have sex with me, would Light-kun engage in such an act with me once more?�

�Right now?� He asked, that famous blush creeping back to his face. The way L posed such intimate questions often threw him off balance.

�No at a later date.� Light rolled his eyes, a grin suddenly appearing on his somewhat rose colored face as he thought carefully about his answer.

�Do you have to talk about it like we�re scheduling a doctors appointment?� The detective only blinked and Light thought he was trying to look that damn adorable on purpose so he spoke on, �I would.� L was quiet as he seemed content with this answer so Light decided to ask another question. �Do I get to be on top next time?� L only smiled his dark fringe of hair hiding his even darker eyes. Light kissed the top of his head, as he wrapped the blankets around them both and spoke softly. �I hope you know I intend to take your silence as a loud resounding yes.� He smirked. �Anyway, you know you want me to.� The detective was still smiling not giving in, not protesting. It seemed like a good sign to Light. He shrugged and decided to speak about what was really on his mind. �You didn�t turn me.� The sweet as cake smile instantly faded as the detectives stoic face was replaced.

�How is it that Yagami-kun came to such a conclusion?�

�Common sense.�

�Hmm. Common sense is for the majority. How would it be common knowledge for the majority to understand the true creation of a vampire?�

�It wouldn�t, but it is common sense for me since I am speaking of myself.� L offered him a crooked grin which Light accepted offering his own smile.

�Is Light-kun suggesting that he knows what it is like to be turned?�

�No, of course not , but I assume it would feel much different than how I feel now.�

�How do you feel now?�

�Sated to say the least.�

�And if you were to say the most?�

�I don�t think it can be said with words.� L�s smile was simply wicked and Light mirrored it wondering if he should kiss the man or should he stay his place. He decided to just stay still and steer the conversation in a different direction. �Why didn�t you turn me?�

�I won�t.�

�Why not?�

�It is a curse not a blessing, not an answer.�

�I was never meant to be blessed and let us not forget I am the question.� L just stared at him wearily as he fell into Light�s arms slowly falling asleep.
No, their relationship was not conventional but it somehow seemed to be working for them. As they say if it�s not broke don�t try to fix it, so Light didn�t as he leaned closer to L resting his chin softly on the top of L�s head thinking the vampire would have to turn him sooner or later. He foresaw no other outcome except death.
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Bite, crunch, chew, Light turned his head towards the very familiar noise of a certain shinigami eating a ripe juicy ruby apple. �Never figured Kira as the cuddling type.� The death god said while staring strangely at L and Light wrapped comfortably around each other. Light�s smirk was iniquitous and dazzling as he sharpened unrelenting eyes on the shinigami. If looks could disintegrate nothingness would surround the young Yagami.

�Why Ryuk� Hello� where the hell have you been all this time?� He whispered not wanting to wake L for various reasons both selfish and unselfish. The death god seemed to be smirking, though one could never tell with such a smile painted on his face like a clown.

�You and the detective fucked.� Much to Ryuk�s chagrin they had and he would willingly do it again. L was smitten with Light and what better way to get what he wanted besides connecting with the man physically. Not that it was one sided at all but he was not about to admit that freely to anyone. Not yet at least.

�To answer my own question with another you�ve been here in this room the whole time, watching us?� The rest of the apple disappeared into the shinigami�s wide mouth as he ignored the question and changed the subject altogether.
�Light did you know that someone followed you here?� Of course Light didn�t know that, stupid sarcastic shinigami. If he did why would he be lazily lying about in bed!?

�Someone followed us, did you happen to see this persons face?� L stirred in his arms and Light stroked his hair lightly his heavenly fingers magically putting the detective back into a peaceful slumber.

�Maybe. Got any apples?�

�How the hell do I know if we have any apples? We�ve just arrived here. Where the fuck did you get the apple you just ate?�

�Kitchen.�

�Did you happen to think there would be more there?�

Ryuk laughed loudly scratching the back of his head with those sharp unsightly nails of his. �Yep.�

��And?�

�There were no more.� Light slapped his forehead his hand sliding down the disgruntled surface of his face.

�Well there�s your answer.�

�Huh. I guess so.�

�Look, I�ll get you some apples later today, now just tell me did you see the persons face? Do you know who it is that followed us here?�

�There was more than one and yeah I saw their faces.�

�More than one? Were they together?�

�Nope.�

�Let me guess was one of them Matsuda?� Light could think of no other person besides that poor excuse of a detective who could accidentally stumble upon them. No one else would be that skilled, no one else except the second person who followed them. Which meant they must have been following Matsuda but why?

�Yeah Light, you still got it.�

Light narrowed his lovely eyes looking quite offended. �Of course I do!� Ryuk hyuked and Light huffed, flipping his hair out of his eyes. �What about this other person, who was it?�

�Don�t know.�

�How can you not know? You said you saw their face.�

�I did, but I didn�t see their name or lifespan above their head.� What! Another vampire? Was it possible? Stupid question of course he knew it was possible.

�Was it Lenore?�

�No it was a guy.�

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�I did recognize him from somewhere though.�

�Where would that be?�

�The alley.�

�The alley?�

�Yeah that night-� L moaned loudly in his sleep interrupting Ryuk and started twisting and turning in Lights arms. Light tried to hush and calm him by gently petting his back as he spoke quietly into his ear. He felt he had gotten enough information for now and could easily get the rest later when he had apples.

�You say you don�t care but admit it you do.�

�I� care enough to give you insight. I�ve always done that.�

�Yes, I suppose you have Ryuk.�

�But I won�t die for you.� Light�s face twisted as he once again looked offended.

�I never asked you to.�

�You will. You will ask me to kill someone for you, but I won�t. I would rather take my notebook from you now and be on my way� with your life.� Wouldn�t L just light up with joy upon hearing that. Not.

�So why tell me anything? Why not just kill me?�

�Because Light I am still intrigued by all of this, by you.�

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�I also thought you should know that Matsuda guy is creeping about in the hallway just outside the door.� What! How was it he was capable of such good luck. Matsuda, how Light hated him. Hated him dearly. He desperately wanted to throw a tantrum and pull at his hair because it was all so ridiculous. Matsuda, pfft. Light refused to be caught by that idiot. If he killed him, if he wrote his name down in that book no one would have to know. He could bury the body or better yet write that Matsuda dig his own grave and bury himself alive. That could definitely work� but how would he get the dirt on top of himself? No matter Light could manage this, he could kill the idiot detective and they would be rid of the pest once and for all. Yes.

�I�ll get rid of him.� Ryuk smiled seemingly happy with this interesting response from Light.

�I can not allow you that privilege.�

�What!?� Light said his gaze tore from Ryuk�s to the pale detective that was huddled safely in his arms, those dark eyes staining his vision.

�You�re not gonna listen to him are ya? You never let anyone push you around before.� The shinigami said looked quite smug as he crossed long arms.

TBC

A/N: -waves- I just did not want to end it there because it is incomplete but it was already way too long. Anyway I want to praise all of the people who have left me such in-depth reviews, they truly moved and inspired me. Thank-you, thank all of you who review it means a lot and it does motivate to stay on track. I love you guys! Oh and I hope the lemon was to your liking I re-wrote it so many times because arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I was frustrated with a few things. I wanted it to be yummy but not completely x-rated yummy -nosebleeds- so I tried to make it nice and not too naughty. It was hard because I like naughty things. -runs off to play Uncharted: Drake�s Fortune for the one hundredth time- Yay!
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