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Chapter 7
Awakening and Agitation

A few days later, Natsu woke up. He came into consciousness slowly, feeling heaviness through his whole body and a sense that he had overslept. His head throbbed in a weird and bad way, not at all like a normal headache. He felt injuries to his body, pain in his chest, ribs, back, arms, face, and just about everywhere. He smelled the sterilized odor unique to hospitals, unfamiliar smells mixed with the familiar aroma of friends somewhere nearby.
He attempted to open his eyes. His vision faded, then returned, then went blurry and doubled until he had to slam his eyelids shut again. A groan escaped his mouth. Suddenly, amidst the pain, heaviness, and disorientation, he felt a soft hand touch his arm.
"Take it easy," came Lucy's voice. "Erza, get the doctor."
Natsu heard movement and soft voices around the room. He blinked a few times as his vision went from blurry to hazy. At last, it cleared up enough to see blond hair and a worried face peering down at him.
"Lucy?" Slowly, with an ache throughout his body, Natsu pushed himself into an awkward sitting position. A doctor entered and took a stand beside the hospital bed. "Where … what's going on?" Natsu stared blankly at the elderly man, then slowly, he looked at his surroundings. "Lucy? Erza? Wow, even Gramps," he said in surprise when he saw Makarov standing beside his bed. Then, slouched in the doorway, looking on from afar, was… "Gray?"
Their eyes locked, and Gray watched cautiously for some spark: a smile, a blush, anything that would tell him that Natsu remembered, and that he felt the same way as him. He knew that the worst would be for Natsu to look at him with disgust, remembering those moments and despising them. He had spent days bracing his heart for every possible reaction.
Instead, Natsu just looked at him, and his eyes swept back over to the others. Gray jolted a little. No recognition at all! Not even revulsion. Just a normal, casual look. Had he truly forgotten everything? Gray's heart already began to sink.
"Natsu!" Happy tackled him with a hug.
"Oww," Natsu laughed, cringing from a pain in his side. "Hey, easy. I think I have a broken rib."
"I was so worried, Natsu."
"I'm fine," the Dragon Slayer laughed, petting his blue head. "Um, why am I here? Is this a hospital? What's going on? Was there a fight?"
Erza looked worried. "Don't you remember?"
"Huh? What am I supposed to—" Natsu suddenly paused. His face flinched as he tried to think through the pounding throb in his head. "Oh. We were on a mission, right? The jerks kidnapping girls." His brows tensed a little, and he rubbed the temples of his forehead. "What happened? Did I lose a fight? Don't tell me I lost!" he whined in annoyance.
Makarov looked up to the doctor. "Memory loss?"
Gray gulped hard as he looked at the confused Dragon Slayer. Natsu did not even look in Gray's direction anymore, and his face kept flinching as he rubbed his head with an annoyed expression. Gray forced himself to look aside. He had known this was a possibility, but he truly thought someone like Natsu would fight against all negative side-effects.
He had taken comfort in telling himself that even if Natsu could not remember anyone's birthday and forgot to shower sometimes, at the very least he would remember the details of that ill-fated mission. Gray had hoped to find resolution to the confusion, solace for the painful burning in his heart. Either the drug merely released some inhibitions, enough for Natsu to express his true feelings, or Natsu did not feel the way he said that day, in which case Gray would simply have to push aside the feelings that had been blossoming that week.
To have nothing, no recognition, no closure at all, felt like being trapped in Limbo, lost between Heaven and Hell.
The hospital doctor was busy checking Natsu's pulse and listening to his chest with a stethoscope. "What do you remember about your abduction, Mister Dragneel?"
Natsu held his head as the ache intensified. "Abduction? Was I captured? I … I think I remember being tied up. It's like … flashes of scenes in my head. I'm not sure what was real and what was a dream."
"What's your last clear memory?"
"I…" Natsu looked around at all the others. His eyes finally met Gray's again.
The ice mage shivered with some wavering hope. 'Please remember. Please recall at least a little about us.'
Again, Natsu looked away without showing any sort of specific emotion. "I'm not sure. My head is really hurting."
"Try to recall," urged the doctor.
Natsu's face scrunched up. "It's just little bits here and there. I was tied up. There were … people. Something … it … it hurt." His breaths came quicker, and he looked ready to panic. "They … pain … I tried … I … I dunno." With a gasp, he grabbed his arm where the needles had been jabbed in.
"Natsu…" Lucy squeezed his hand with worry.
Gray's heart froze. 'No! Don't remember that! I don't want to see you like that ever again. I want you to remember, but … but not that!'
"Okay, not that part," the doctor said in a calming tone. "Don't worry about that part yet, just the last clear memory."
Natsu grumbled in annoyance, wishing the ache in his brain would go away. His memory was so weird, sketchy and jumbled. He sensed there was something bad in his memories, something his brain wanted to hide, and he hated that feeling. Hiding was like being a coward, and he never wanted to be scared of anything. Despite all the confusion and frustration, he tried to recall the last clear picture in his mind.
"I smelled something weird. I realized it was a sleeping gas, and that meant an ambush. I pushed everyone out of the way. Oh, I pushed Gray and Lucy out the window. I'm really sorry about that," he laughed, grinning to Lucy but avoiding the eyes of the Ice-Make mage. "Then suddenly the gas was all around me. I saw Erza and Happy escape. I fell to the floor, and then … I … I dunno. The rest is fuzzy, sort of jumbled in my head, nothing solid. To be honest, I don't remember anything about getting captured. I can't even remember the faces of the men who tied me up."
"That's the drugs they used on you," the doctor told him. "It might also be that, with such a harrowing experience, your brain simply blocked that part."
"Was it really that bad?" Natsu hummed, not really understanding it. "I guess it probably was pretty bad. I feel like crap," he admitted, yet laughed it off instantly. "I kind of remember … pieces. Getting hit or kicked or something, and … and bad sensations. Can't remember the details. Probably don't wanna."
His eyes raised again and met with Gray. Natsu looked like there was something new returning to his mind.
Inside the ice mage's head, he was screaming, 'Come on, you idiot, remember me. Remember us. Remember something!'
Natsu stared at him, and his eyes flinched. His mouth began to open, then closed, and he shook his head. "Why can't I remember everything?" he growled in frustration.
'No! Come on, you idiot flame-brain. Remember it. Not the bad parts, but the good parts. Or was that also a bad memory for you?'
Gray felt panicky. What if having sex with Natsu only contributed to his trauma? He had been rough, after all. He had touched Natsu despite protests. Ejaculating that many times was surely a trauma to the body. Was it also damaging to his mental state?
Gray felt a shiver through his body. 'Did I make it worse? Did I only hurt you more? Oh God, is this partly my fault?'
Natsu shrugged off the confusion. "Anyway, do you think you can get someone to heal this ankle? It really hurts."
"Oh!" gasped Lucy. "I was supposed to get Wendy as soon as you woke up."
"It's fine for now. Also, was the mission a success? Did you free the captured girls? I hope you caught all the bad guys."
"We got every single one," Erza assured him. "We also tracked down their clients, and guilds in those countries are working to release the people sent away."
Makarov nodded with a serious face. "It's a sickening international problem. To think that human trafficking is still happening in a place like Fiore! Disgusting! Fairy Tail is working with those foreign magic guilds to ensure that the girls are set free, get medical help, and are returned to Fiore to be reunited with their families."
"Good. I'm glad to hear that. And Gray…" When Natsu looked back over to the door, the ice mage was gone. "Where'd Gray go?"
Gray stormed away down the hospital hallway, and every cup of water he passed turned to ice as he stomped toward the exit. He fought desperately to hold back tears. He had been warned, after all. With all those drugs, the possibility that Natsu might have amnesia was high. Yet to have Natsu forget such a wonderful experience, to be trapped with these feelings and not be able to share them…
He told himself he should be happy that Natsu did not have to remember the bad parts. A ghastly trauma like that was better off being forgotten. Reminding him would only bring Natsu pain. Gray had seen the panic in his face at just vaguely recalling his time as a captive. Amnesia like this was the body's response to memories that were too horrific to recall. Gray did not want Natsu mentally broken. He never wanted to see the Dragon Slayer like that ever again.
Even if it meant sacrificing his feelings, he did not want Natsu to suffer.
Even if he had to keep quiet and live with the burning pain in his heart, he would accept that suffering if it meant Natsu could smile happily again.
Still, to have him forget the good parts, too…
"Gray!"
He stopped and looked back around as Natsu hopped on crutches through the hall in his hospital gown.
"What are you doing out of bed, idiot?" snapped Gray. "You just woke up, and your ankle is broken. You should be resting."
"Then don't run away from me like that." Natsu stopped in front of Gray and leaned against the wall, only now feeling the weariness of having been stuck in bed for a week. "I just … I wanted to say … thanks." Natsu looked away, frowning as he tried to hide his embarrassment. "I … I can't recall everything right now, it's all foggy, but I remember you grabbed me out of that room."
"Yeah, and you're a heavy bastard."
Natsu laughed softly. "Sorry." He mumbled in a quiet whisper, "I just … I wanted to … to say…"
"Huh? I can't hear you, flame-brain. Speak up."
A vein popped out. "I'm saying thank you, droopy-eyes!"
"For what?" Gray muttered, turning away. "I didn't do anything important. It wasn't much, nothing you have to thank me for."
Natsu's mouth dropped open. "How can you say that?" he whispered, looking heartbroken.
Slowly, Gray glanced back around. "I thought you didn't remember anything."
"Nothing about getting captured, and only bits and pieces about the men who tied me up, but … but I remember … what you did. Afterward, that is. Only little memories, it's all unclear, but … but I … I know what happened, what we did," he said softly, looking bashful. "At least, I sort of do. I wish I could remember it all. That part, at least. I just didn't want to say anything, not in front of the others."
"Oh," Gray mumbled. Now he was unsure if this was good or bad. He wanted Natsu to remember, but he also knew it could destroy their friendship. "So, do you hate me for it?"
Natsu hesitated, gazing up into Gray's eyes and searching his face for clues about his emotions. That cold face was stoic, impossible to read, and it made Natsu hesitant to say anything too abruptly.
Gray hardly even breathed as he waited for an answer. He dared not look overly anxious just in case Natsu crushed his hopes. This hesitation was awful, and his confidence shrank as the seconds ticked by. The two forgot about the rest of the hospital around them as their eyes locked on one another.
Finally, Natsu asked, "Was it really not important to you?" His eyes dropped. "I know you were being affected by the drug too. You felt it was … was … necessary," he said, ending softly with sadness in his voice. Then Natsu glanced up nervously. "Did it mean anything at all to you?"
Gray shifted his weight awkwardly. "To me? Well, yeah, but … but if it didn't mean anything to you, then we can just forget it. I won't tease you about it. We can go back to—"
"I'm not going to forget it, Gray! And I refuse to just go back to how we were. I'll punch you in the balls if you try to run from me after taking my virginity."
Gray jolted with huge, startled eyes. "What? Your … your vir-…" He shook his head. Did Natsu really forget that part? "Natsu, those men … I mean, I don't want to bring up bad memories, but they … um … to you…"
"What, did you think I was raped?" Natsu shouted furiously, but then he remembered he was in a hospital.
Gray stared down at him, utterly confused now. "Well, yeah. You were."
"No I wasn't."
Gray ran his hand through his hair in frustration. He really hated the idea of Natsu remembering all that, but still! "It's fine if you forgot—"
"No! I … I didn't forget." His forehead tensed up. "Not that part, at least. Wish I could," he growled. "I just don't want to tell anyone about it. I don't want Lucy and Erza to know … that happened to me. They don't need to pity me."
"But you … you had that breakdown, and what you were saying…"
"I was drugged, beaten within an inch of my life, sexually assaulted, forced to do some disgusting things, but they didn't … you know … put it in." His eyes lowered, and his voice fell softer. "That is to say … umm…" He blushed and looked a bit sick. "Does it count as losing your virginity if they use … t-toys?"
Gray looked confounded by the question, then furious at the thought of what must have actually happened to Natsu that day, only to be slightly alleviated to know it was not quite as horrific as he had originally feared. Still, he wanted to beat those men into a bloody pulp … again. "I dunno. I don't think so. I think it only counts if it's with a person. Otherwise, you'd lose your virginity the first time a doctor gives you an enema."
"I see. That makes sense. Then … yeah. It didn't count with them." He shifted his weight on his crutches, looking very uncomfortable with the subject. "Look, I can't recall the details, but I know they did a lot of things to me … really horrible things … things I don't wanna talk about just yet … things I don't want anyone in the guild to know about," he said with a shiver, "but not that. I can't remember their faces, the details are fuzzy, but I remember what I felt, and … and it wasn't … that."
"You can't be sure."
Natsu looked angry now. "What, did you want me to have lost my virginity to those bastards?"
"No! Of course not. But—"
"I told you back then, didn't I? It was my first time making love."
Gray blinked. That was one thing Natsu said that had echoed in his mind, such a sweet thing he said. "I thought you meant making love as opposed to being forced."
"Idiot! I didn't mean that at all. You were my first." The frustration eased out of his face, and Natsu reached up to caress Gray behind the ear. "You were my first, Gray," he repeated softer, smiling gently. "Even if I can't remember the details of being with those men, I remember I said that to you. It was my first time making love, and I remember feeling so happy that it was with you. What you did, and what we said: those memories are carved into my heart, even if the details are fuzzy in my mind. I … I remember that I marked you."
Natsu touched where he had bitten, and Gray flinched from lingering pain. There was still a faint bruise there, and scabs were healing where those teeth had sank in. Gray had looked in the mirror at that bite mark with fond memories and warm feelings. Now, as Natsu's fingers rubbed it, the pain reminded him and made his heart race.
"A Dragon Slayer only takes one mate for life, and even if it was forced upon us, it was still you who did it. So you better not run away from me, or I'll sniff you out, hunt you down, and truly make my claim on you."
Still, Gray felt ambivalent. "Even if I was the first, you can find someone else. You were drugged, so … so it … it doesn't have to count. Sort of like an enema, you know. That mate for life thing doesn't have to apply if you don't want it to."
"Who the hell said I don't want it?"
Natsu suddenly grabbed Gray by the collar and pulled him into a rough kiss. Gray's eyes widened with shock at the feel of those burning lips searing away his doubts. Then Natsu yanked back, still holding Gray by his shirt, and glared at him.
"There! I claim you, Gray. You're mine, forever, whether you want it or not."
A deep shade of blush rose on Gray's shocked face. "B-Bastard!" he yelled, glancing around nervously at all the nurses and patients who were now staring at them and whispering. "Don't say that so loudly."
The fierceness in his eyes softened. "You … Y-You do want me, right?" Natsu looked ready to panic. "Oh crap, was it only because you were drugged through me? I know that drug affected you too. If you didn't want it—"
"That's not the problem here," Gray yelled. "Don't … don't just kiss me like that out of the blue! Tell me first."
Natsu smirked at that. "Is that all? Then that means you did want it, and it's okay so long as I warn you."
Gray went bright red. "I … I don't mean it like that at all. We're in public."
"So?" Natsu cupped Gray's face, and in a deep voice, he whispered, "I gonna kiss you now."
"Not in front of—"
"Shut up. You're mine now," he whispered ardently. "I'm claiming you, Gray."
Natsu gently kissed Gray on the lips, and both of them shuddered as their eyes closed, captured in the tender moment. With a sensual hum, Gray grabbed Natsu around the hips, pulled him in closer, and deepened the kiss between them. His tongue met that scorching mouth, and the taste of the Dragon Slayer burning away all worries.
Neither one realized that the members of Fairy Tail had come out of the hospital room and were watching them from down the hall. Erza and Lucy both had dropped mouths and wide eyes. Makarov stuttered and pointed while a nurse fretted that the old man might have a heart attack. Happy giggled to himself.
"They lllllllllllllike each other!"
End of Chapter 7

A/N: Yasmine's original plot ended here. I expanded it by one more chapter.
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