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Chapter 7: Weak And Powerless

As soon as Shiki went out the door Izaya rushed to the couch and collapsed on it; she should've known that Shiki wouldn't let it go so easily. She shivered, her skin crawling at the memory of his touch and she wished she could've slit his throat. It was a shame their altercation took place in Shinra's house, otherwise she might not have hesitated. Izaya usually got people to kill each other instead of killing them herself but there was a start for everything.
She noticed the pizza and her stomach growled in response. With the last of her strength she got up and brought the pizza box back to the couch, then she took a slice and slowly began to chew on it. It wasn't that the pizza wasn't delicious or that she wasn't hungry, but she somehow didn't have any appetite. She sighed in annoyance, put the slice back inside and pushed the box away. She curled in on herself and closed her eyes once again, feeling that she needed sleep a lot more than she needed food.
She had no idea for how long she had slept but when she woke up again it was to the noise of someone banging on the door. Her heartbeat increased at not knowing who was behind it and she decided it was best to stay silent and pretend that no one was home. Her hope was shattered however when she heard a voice and recognized it as being Kasuka's. She got up and went to the door to let him in.
"Before you ask, I don't know anything yet," said Izaya.
Kasuka walked past her and sat on a chair. "How is that possible?"
"Indeed, usually I get my information much faster than this. I am equally surprised. I'm still waiting for my source in the Police Department to email me. That aside, why are you here if you don't mind me asking?"
Kasuka closed his eyes and took a deep breath to calm himself down. "I went to the prison today but they refused to let me see my brother."
"Oh? That's strange," said Izaya and moved closer to sit on a chair next to Kasuka.
"Exactly! He hasn't even been sentenced yet!"
"Did they give you any reason as to why you can't see him?"
"They said he attacked some guards, but can you blame him?" said Kasuka, sounding more than a bit exasperated.
Izaya tensed at the question, immediately averting her eyes away from Kasuka's own. The younger Heiwajima had no idea what his brother was capable of, so of course he'd think that Shizuo was somehow being wronged. If anything, Izaya thought that Shizuo wasn't suffering enough for what he had done to her. She laughed bitterly and looked at Kasuka again. "Your brother isn't a saint, you know that, don't you?"
Kasuka went silent for a while.
"Your brother is probably being treated a lot better than he deserves," Izaya continued.
Kasuka narrowed his eyes then and looked Izaya straight into hers. "You're no saint either. I know what you have done to my brother over the years."
Izaya lost it then and dropped her fist hard on the table. "You don't know your brother," she said and smiled bitterly. "He's a monster, Heiwajima Shizuo really is a monster."
Before Izaya could even react, Kasuka sprang to his feet ad grabbed her arm. "You loved driving him crazy, didn't you?" he hissed and was a bit shocked to see how Izaya had recoiled from his touch. The next second Izaya slashed at him with her flick blade and Kasuka barely had time to dodge the attack. His eyes widened in disbelief and he raised his hands to try and look as non-threatening as possible.
Izaya was breathing heavily, her eyes livid. "Don't ever touch me again," she hissed and moved further away from her aggressor.
"Please calm down. I apologize for touching you and I give you my word that I will never do so again."
Izaya slowly lowered her arm and put the flick blade back into her pocket. "Get out!" she spoke harshly.
Kasuka nodded and left Shinra's apartment, knowing that he had badly screwed up and wondering if Izaya would still help him obtain information regarding Shizuo.
Izaya waited five more minutes then picked up her coat and left as well. It was obvious she would find no peace at Shinra's place. She found it ridiculous how easily could people scare her and she wondered if she could ever again stand in the same room with another person without having the urge to flee. It was truly laughable how pathetic she became because of one man.
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It was Hell. No, it was worse than Hell, Shizuo thought as he moaned in pain for what felt like the hundredth time that day. He couldn't help but wonder what could he possibly have done to deserve such a cruel fate. He remembered freaking out in his cell, not without reason mind you, and then the next thing he knew he was tased again only to wake up in chains in a tiny cage. It was so small that he could only stand on his knees and he briefly wondered how they had succeeded in shoving him inside while he was still unconscious. It couldn't have been easy. But no, that was not the worst part of it. It was the chains that truly bothered Shizuo and the way he was tied up. His right hand was tied to his chest and the left one against his back and to make it all a thousand times worse, if he so much as tried to stretch his arms he would end up choking himself to death with the chain around his neck that was connected to the cuffs around his wrists. In conclusion, unless Shizuo was eager to die a slow and painful death, he had no choice but to stay like that until he was allowed to get out.
He rested his head against the bars of the cage, and grit his teeth against the pain in his muscles. Sitting in such a position for so long was torture and never in his life had Shizuo wished to at least be allowed to stay in what was considered to be a normal cell. Compared to the cage, the cell was Heaven. It wasn't just his legs that hurt, but his arms as well from being forced into such an uncomfortable position for hours on end. He couldn't even remember the last time he had felt so weak and he wished he would at least be allowed to eat something. The last time he had eaten something was the accursed day in which he took revenge on Izaya.
He didn't even have words to express how much regret he felt for what he had done to her. When Izaya had woken up in the middle of the night back at Shinra's apartment Shizuo remembered clearly how mesmerizing she appeared to be in the moonlight. He shouldn't have allowed her leave the apartment that time since it was that night when he had almost killed five people for her. He could still remember clearly how possessive he had felt and to have those animals touch her like that made him lose his mind. Not even Izaya had ever succeeded in ever making him so angry.
He could still hear her voice, calling out for help and he hated himself for making her so weak that she'd cry for help. He knew too well how strong Izaya was. Those five men would've been nothing to the old Izaya, but she wasn't the old Izaya anymore, she was just a woman that got hurt in the worst possible way, and he had been the one to damage her. He truly was an animal, he thought bitterly as he remembered the despair in Izaya's voice as she was begging him to stop. But he hadn't stopped, her pleas only making him want to hurt her more. It was disturbing how with the passage of time he found it harder to identify himself with the Shizuo from back then. The Shizuo who hurt Izaya was just a monster, and he hoped to never go back to being that person again. That Shizuo scared him. He knew that Izaya would never forgive him but he wished she would. He would spend the rest of his life making up to her if that was what she wanted. Shizuo wasn't exactly religious but after what happened to him he couldn't help but wonder if it was divine retribution for his sin.
"God..." said Shizuo through gritted teeth, a feeling of claustrophobia taking over him.
"There's no god around here, just me," said Okuro who seemed to have appeared out of nowhere.
"You! You bastard! What is this?" Shizuo growled.
Okuro crouched in front of the cage and smirked. "Well, you were acting like a wild dog, so we've decided to treat you like one."
Shizuo felt his blood boil, his rage reaching monumental heights and he couldn't stop himself from spitting the guard right in the face.
Okuro's smirk disappeared. "You will regret this you worm!"
"I thought I was a dog," said Shizuo laughing. "Make up your damn mind."
Okuro wanted to beat him to a bloody pulp but it would've been too much trouble to get him out so instead he turned around and started walking away. He couldn't suppress his smirk as he said the next words: "Don't expect any food today either."
"Fuck off already!" yelled Shizuo as Okuro was leaving, even though in reality he was so hungry that he could've eaten anything. He was so pissed off that he could barely keep himself from screaming. He bit his lip in frustration and closed his eyes tightly as he struggled to control his breathing. What went so wrong in his life that he ended up inside a cage, like an animal? Oh, but he knew exactly what because he could still remember that day vividly.
It was a hot summer day and he couldn't wait to get home and dig into the pudding he left in the fridge. He was practically drooling as he entered the kitchen, only to find out that the pudding, HIS pudding, had fallen victim to Kasuka. He lost it then and without even realizing what he was doing he picked up the fridge intending to crush Kasuka with it, only to fail miserably as his bones cracked and broke under the strain. It had been painful and the recovery had been slow but after that Shizuo could no longer control himself when his rage took over. Something else besides his bones broke that day.
Strangely enough, Kasuka was also the only person Shizuo couldn't hurt anymore after that; sadly, Kasuka didn't go unscathed either. Shizuo blamed himself for the way in which Kasuka grew up. Shizuo always let his emotions rule his actions whilst Kasuka suppressed his to the point where he couldn't even feel anymore. Shizuo knew well that Kasuka was extremely good at acting out the emotions so he hated himself even more for damaging his brother in such a cruel way.
He sighed and leaned his head against the bars of the cage. He felt so tired and hungry that he would go as far as begging if need be if that would get him out of the cage and perhaps get him some food too. Hell, even a riceball with nothing in it would probably taste delicious. He licked his dry, cracked lips and moaned in pain as his tongue tasted the blood he spill when he bit his lip. Screw the riceball, he thought, he'd be happy if he got a meager glass of water. He wasn't at all surprised that his head hurt, like someone had just bashed his skull in with a baseball bat. It was the obvious result to being dehydrated. When he opened his eyes again he saw the room spinning out of control and then everything went dark.
He had no idea for how long he had been out but when he woke up again it was to the annoying voice of Okuro who loomed in front of the cage. He knew the man was talking but it took Shizuo a while to recover enough to be able to hear what the other was saying. "I can't hear you, wait," said Shizuo and tried to pull himself together.
"I told you not try anything funny," yelled Okuro.
Shizuo winced at the noise, finally able to hear again. "What are you talking about? I can't even move, let alone 'try anything funny'" he said through gritted teeth.
"I said that you have a visitor, so I am going to let you out now," said Okuto in a bitter tone.
Shizuo's eyes widened and he could almost cry from sheer joy at being permitted to get out of the cage. "Who's visiting me?"
"Your brother," said Okuro, opened the door to the cage and dragged Shizuo out. He waited for a moment to see if the prisoner would attack but when he figured that the man couldn't even move, let alone fight, he simply proceeded to unlock the chains.
Shizuo just stayed on the floor, unable to move his numb body. There was a part of him that wanted to brutally murder the guard but he simply lacked the energy to even insult the man. When his arms were released he almost cried in pain and when Okuro dragged him to his feet and out the door he didn't protest.
Before they reached the meeting area Okuro stopped and turned to Shizuo. "If you so much dare to complain about the way you are being treated in this prison I will personally make sure to make the rest of your life here a living hell. I WILL break you until there will be nothing left. Understood?"
Shizuo muttered a "fuck you", then stilled in shock as Okuro grabbed his throat painfully. The man leaned closer until his lips were almost touching Shizuo's ear and Shizuo shuddered when he heard the words being whispered to him. He looked at Okuro in shock and when the guard smirked he had a sudden impulse to get as far away as possible from the man.
Shizuo gulped but allowed himself to be dragged into the visiting area without protesting. Surely he hadn't heard Okuro right, there was no way the man would say such a thing to him.
Before he could further dwell on the subject his eyes caught sight of Kasuka sitting at one of the tables in the visiting area. He could feel the beginning of tears starting to form in his eyes at having to face his brother after doing something so shameful and he almost wished Kasuka hadn't come to visit him. His brother didn't know what Shizuo had done to Izaya but that didn't make it any easier to face him. He cringed when Kasuka turned towards him and he stopped in his tracks, only to get pushed forward by Okuro who led him to the table and made him sit down on the chair. Shizuo's head hung low, unable to look Kasuka in the eyes, and he almost jumped in surprise when he heard Okuro's voice.
"Prisoner 318668 is violent so I will stay here to make sure he doesn't try anything."
Kasuka raised his head and looked at the man as though he was nothing more than an insect he could easily squash. "I do not need anyone to keep me safe from my own brother. Thank you for your concern, but you may leave," he said, his voice cold. The guard looked like he wanted to say something but Kasuka kept staring at him.
Okuro cursed under his breathe and walked away, vowing to take his revenge on Shizuo for the way the younger brother had treated him.
Once the guard went away Kasuka turned towards Shizuo, worry etched into his features. Shizuo looked horrible, like it took all the effort he had just to sit down on that chair. It was disturbing how Shizuo couldn't even look at him. "Nii-san, are you perhaps feeling sick?"
Shizuo wanted to answer but his throat was so dry that it hurt to even breathe. "I'm f-fine," he finally said with some effort.
Kasuka put his elbows on the table and leaned forward to get a closer look at his brother. "You don't look that fine to me. Is there anything I can do for you besides busting you out of here?"
Shizuo chuckled at that and then coughed, pain flaring in his throat. "Wa-water please."
Kasuka jumped to his feet and went to talk to one of the guards to bring a glass of water. He waited until the man got back and almost ran back to Shizuo to hand him the much needed liquid. "Here you go."
Shizuo grabbed the plastic cup and gulped the water like his life depended on it. He choked on the third gulp and started coughing again, but he quickly recovered and proceeded to drink the remaining water.
Kasuka looked at him with wide eyes, unable to comprehend how his brother could be reduced to such a sad-looking creature.
"Thank you," Shizuo finally said. "You can't imagine how badly I needed that."
Kasuka narrowed his eyes then, that feeling of rage he didn't like quickly taking over. "They don't even give you water?" he asked through gritted teeth.
Shizuo flinched at the question but gave his brother a fake smile, then lied instead of telling him the cruel truth. "I didn't say that, calm down. I was just thirsty, that's all. You shouldn't have come here. What if the media finds out that your brother is in jail? It could ruin your image."
Kasuka's fists tightened so hard that his nails were digging painfully into his skin. "I don't care about that! You're my brother, I'm more worried about what happens to you than what the media says about me!" He saw Shizuo stiffen at his words and he couldn't help but get even more furious that his brother thought so little of him. "The whole world can go to hell! What is wrong with you? Why aren't you saying anything?!"
Shizuo winced at the tone in his brother voice and shifted around uncomfortably. "Something is obviously wrong with me since I ended up in jail."
"You only beat up some guys, that's nothing. You don't deserve to be lumped together with rapists and murderers!"
Shizuo raised a shaky hand to run through his locks, only to remember that his hair got cut. He stopped midway, then lowered his arm onto the table. He sighed, and for the first time since meeting Kasuka he raised his head and looked at him. "You're wrong. I do deserve to be here."
"I know you blame yourself each time you lose control but you shouldn't think you belong in prison just because of that."
Shizuo sighed again. He couldn't tell his brother what he had done but it was frustrating that Kasuka didn't believe him when he told him that he belonged there.
"You certainly do not deserve to be treated in such a horrible way. Just because you deny it you think I can't see that you're not feeling well?"
Shizuo grunted and lowered his head again, suddenly finding the table to be an extremely interesting object.
Kasuka wasn't done though. He was so furious that he nearly yelled the next words that came out of his mouth. "And you certainly did not deserve to get your hair cut!"
"It's fine, it'll grow back, don't worry about it," said Shizuo.
"If you say 'don't worry about it' one more time, I swear I will get up from this chair and break your nose," said Kasuka in a dangerous tone.
Shizuo actually laughed at that. "I'm supposed to be rage monster here, not you."
"How can I not be mad when you look so defeated?" said Kasuka, his tone filled with sadness.
"Once I learn the rules I'll be fine in here," said Shizuo and smiled, trying to reassure his brother.
"I will do everything in my power to get you out," said Kasuka with a determined look on his face. "Please believe in me."
"Tch! You'll just get yourself in trouble if you don't give up on this stupid idea!"
Kasuka got up then, startling Shizuo. "Try to stay out of trouble until I get you out."
Shizuo wanted to get up as well and smack his brother on the head to teach him a lesson but frankly he was too exhausted to even move. "Don't you dare involve yourself in this!" he growled.
"I promise I'll get you out. See you soon!" Kasuka said as he turned around and left, completely ignoring Shizuo's protests.
Kasuka couldn't remember ever seeing Shizuo in such a bad shape and he was damned if he was going to let his brother rot in prison. He made up his mind to do everything in his power to get him out. He knew well that he had messed up that time in Shinra's apartment when he grabbed Izaya but he needed her and he was determined to do anything to get her to help him.
Shizuo was still sitting on the chair, looking at Kasuka's retreating form until he was startled by Okura who grabbed his arm and pulled him up. "Time to go back."
Shizuo was quickly starting to panic, the knowledge that he would be once again forced inside that tiny cage making him want to try and escape even though the odds of him succeeding were close to none.
Okura felt him stiffen in his grasp and laughed maliciously. "You don't seem to appreciate the wonders that cage does to unruly prisoners such as yourself. See? You're so weakened that you can't even defend yourself anymore." He leaned closer to Shizuo's face and whispered into his ear once again. "Right now I could do anything to you and you wouldn't be able to stop me."
Shizuo snarled and tried to free his arm from Okuro's hold. "You're sick, what the hell is that supposed to mean?"
Okuro chuckled. "Oh please, like you don't know," he said in a sickly sweet voice. "I thought you understood the meaning of my words from earlier. They were quite obvious, you know?"
Shizuo paled then, his eyes wide in horror. "You couldn't possibly mean-"
"That's exactly what I mean," he said and pushed Shizuo out of the visiting area.
"No! You can't do that!" he yelled and renewed his struggled.
Okuro slammed him hard into the wall, successfully knocking the air out of his prisoner. "You wouldn't be able to stop me. You think you're exhausted from just the lack of food and water combined with being tased repeatedly?"
"W-what do you mean?" asked Shizuo in a shaky voice.
"You see, after that little show of strength you so kindly shared with us, the warden concluded that you are very dangerous and as such you were administered a shot while you were unconscious."
"A shot of what?!"
"I'm not sure myself, but apparently it's something that weakens you considerably. How else would I be able to manhandle a monster such as yourself?" said Okuro and grinned at Shizuo.
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