Life is Worth Nothing
Life is Worth Nothing8
Countdown: Fifth of September, Forty-Five days until trial
Rating: R
Warnings: Yaoi and Yuri (male/male love, female/female love) Suicidal thoughts.
Pairings: Eriol/Syaoran, Sakura/Tomoyo, maybe more in the future chapters.
Disclaimer: None of these characters belong to me, except for those I made up.
Thanks to: Ugly thanks for reviewing my other story ‘Never Forget’ I will update that story within the
week I promise ^_^
Chapter Eight
The two boys sat on the lounge in silence for almost an hour before Syaoran finally decided it was best to break the silence.
“…Eriol…do you want to talk about it?” looking up from his hands that were in his lap, Eriol looked at the pleading brown eyes.
“I want to Syaoran….but….” Eriol couldn’t find the words as the memories kept interrupting him, closing his eyes he tried to hold back the tears, he didn’t want to scare Syaoran, but he could feel the tears building behind his closed eye lids.
“But?” Syaoran asked seeing Eriol had stopped, “Eriol…but what? What happened between you and your father...did…did he hurt you Eriol?” Syaoran asked feeling the fear build at the thought.
“If he hurt you Eriol you have to tell me” Syaoran looked at Eriol “Eriol please tell me”
Opening his eyes Eriol felt a tear escape, Syaoran almost chocked on the sight of the younger teen, “Eriol…” he asked as he saw the dark eyes weld with tears he saw Eriol was trying to stop them from falling, leaning forward Syaoran brushed the tear away.
“Please Eriol, I would rather find out through you and not someone else” Eriol’s eyes widened, what if his dad…shaking his head he disregarded the thought, no he wouldn’t let him...that was six years ago…
Syaoran watched the boy shake his head as if trying to deny a thought.
“Eriol will you please tell me” looking back to the pleading boy Eriol could only shake his head.
“Syaoran….I want to…really I do…but I…I just can’t…..please forgive me” not being able to say another word or to face Syaoran, Eriol jumped up from the lounge and ran into the given room, closing the door behind him.
Syaoran could only watch and knew better then to try and stop him; looking back down at taperaper that was handed to him Syaoran shook his head, why now? Eriol was only just starting to recover…he didn’t need this…
Signing his frustration on being left in the dark Syaoran scanned the now quite room looking for anything that may help, being interrupted with a knock on the door Syaoran moved towards the awaiting visitor.
“Syaoran-kun” Sakura beamed looking happy in seeing him though there was a sign of uncomfortableness, Tomoyo stood close behind her carrying a video recorder.
“Sakura…do you want to come in?” nodding Syaoran opened the door more for the two girls tme ime into the apartment.
“So what brings you two here?” Syaoran asked as he glanced at the door that hid Eriol, Sakura sat on the lounge looking a little more uncomfortable, though Tomoyo seemed to be reshoeing her.
“Sakura…is there something wrong?” he asked as he moved over to the girl, Sakura just smiled at him.
“Actually…Syaoran I…I have been wanting to ask you something…..” she spoke with her cheeks tinting.
Syaoran stood near her looking a little worried “what is it?” Tomoyo smiled when Syaoran looked at her for the answer; turning back to the girl he waited for her to continue.
“I….I was…ummm…I was wondering….if ummm….if you….if you want to go out with me” Sakura finished closing her eyes with embarrassment of asking Syaoran with Tomoyo video taping them.
Syaoran just looked at Sakura shocked with the question “Sakura…I …” looking at the ground Syaoran tried to think of what to say to the awaiting girl.
“Sakura…I…I’m sorry…but I don’t like you in that….I’….I’m sorry” Sakura looked up forcing a smile onto her face… “That’s okay…I…just had to ask to know the answer” Syaoran nodded feeling horrible for Sakura.
Tomoyo stepped forward stopping the recording on the camera “…I’m sorry” Syaoran looked to Tomoyo slightly shocked for her apology.
“Why…?” Tomoyo smiled at Syaoran warmly “it was me who talked Sakura into asking you out…I was surat yat you felt the same for her” Syaoran felt worse looking back at Sakura he searched for words to comfort her.
“Sakura I really am sorry” Sakura looked up at Syaoran with unshed tears, “don’t be sorry for your feelings Syaoran” Syaoran looked at Sakura feeling worse as he saw a tear fall from her eye.
Sakura smiled “you like someone else don’t you?” Syaoran looked at the girl as her words sunk into him, do I really like someone else?
Syaoran felt the truth hit him like a brick being thrown at him; he did love someone else….and that someone was….Eriol….
Seeing that Sakura was still awaiting an answer Syaoran nodded still feeling shocked with finding out the information himself.
Sakura smiled at him, her disappointment in him not liking her vanishing slightly.
“Who is it…if you don’t mind me asking” Syaoran looked at her still feeling confused but his mouth opened.
“Eriol…I love Eriol” he felt the sentence roll of his tongue as if he had spoken it many times before though he felt once he said it the words confirmed it.
Sakura nodded her eyes saddened but she smiled all the same at the same time Syaoran heard a gasp his head snapped up in front of him he faced a boy that now stood at the hall entry, who looked at Syaoran with shock.
“…Eriol…I” Syaoran couldn’t find the words as he stood facing the boy that he just admitted to liking.
Eriol only looked at the boy with shock…how could this happen…why does he love me…is he telling the truth….why me?
All these questions went through his mind, each wanting to be answered but all he could do was stand there and look at the boy that admitted his feelings, not knowing what to do.
Sakura and Tomoyo stood looking from one boy to the other not knowing what to do, finally Sakura took Tomoyo’s hand “umm I just remembered that we have home work that is due soon…bye” passing Syaoran she wished him luck as she pulled the other girl close behind her.
Eriol stood still watching the girls leave the room after the door closed he turned back to the other boy who had moved around the lounge and now stood meter’s from him.
“Eriol…I guess…we should talk” Syaoran spoke with uncertainty that, that was the right words to use, Eriol only nodded not taking his eyes of the boy.
He had came out hearing that Syaoran was talking to someone, when he came out he saw the back of Sakura, Tomoyo who smiled at and and Syaoran who hadn’t seen him, and then he spoke “Eriol…I love Eriol,” Eriol was in complete shock these were the last words he expected Syaoran ever to say, though here he was admitting his love for a boy he hardly knew.
Eriol gasped in shock, seeing that Syaoran must have heard the sound as Syaoran’s head snapped up and his eyes land on him they widened in surprise, Eriol could only stand there looking at the boy.
After the girls left Eriol saw that Syaoran had moved closer to him, then he spoke “Eriol…I guess…we should talk” all Eriol could do was nod in agreement.
TBC…