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+. to F › FAKE
Rating:
Adult +
Chapters:
9
Views:
4,894
Reviews:
26
Recommended:
0
Currently Reading:
0
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I do not own FAKE, nor any of the characters from it. I do not make any money from the writing of this story.
Chapter Eight
“Since JJ has no living family, well that any of us can get a hold of the doctor has settled into letting you deicide…” Dee pulled into a parking spot.
“Why me…?” I looked over at him as he stopped the car and got out when he did, “And what do you mean let me deicide?”
Dee stayed quiet as he sped walked in front of me and hurried inside the hospital where Ryo was waiting for us.
“Dee! Drake!” he waved us over and Dee pushed me in front of him toward Ryo, “Drake, come on! We’ve got to hurry, let’s go!”
“What? Wait what’s going on, Ryo?” I getting a little angry being pulled around without getting a reason, “Ryo, tell me, what is wrong with JJ!”
Ryo pushed me inside the elevator and turned to Dee before the doors closed called, “Meet us up stairs!”
Dee nodded and the doors closed shutting him away from us, Ryo leaned against the wall and he started to laugh…
“What the hell is so funny…?” I looked over at him totally confused and even shocked… Ryo laughing at a time like this…? What the fuck is he on?
“I’m sorry… you’re probably thinking that I’m crazy right about now…” Ryo sighed, “I don’t know… maybe I have finally snapped. Too much time in the hospital… you’re probably going to hate me for saying this… but I’ve never pictured JJ dying.”
Now I’m even more confused but far from angry, “What do you mean by that…Ryo?”
“Well I don’t mean like JJ’s immortal or anything like that… but if you put death and JJ in the same sentence somehow it just doesn’t go… I mean well… maybe I don’t know what I mean but… it makes sense to me…” Ryo tried to smile, “Well at least you didn’t get mad at me…”
“Why would I get mad at you… you’ve spent all this time here with JJ and well the hospital has finally made you snapped… I’m actually happy to know that you and Dee have stayed here for him…” I watched as Ryo’s face lit up and soon I felt guilty… I’ve made a mistake…
Ryo must have seen something in my face and read it well, “Don’t worry Drake… he’ll forgive you… he’s been moping around since you told him to get lost.”
The doors opened and even Ryo was in shock at how many doctors have gathered on the floor. I looked over at him and looked over at me, “This isn’t what we called you over for…”
We pushed through and tried to get the attention of at least one of the ten that were running in and out of the room where JJ was being held. Not one seemed to notice us and I was starting to feel afraid… that what everyone wants me to choose is going to happen sooner than except…
“Excuse me!” Ryo stopped and shouted and with luck we finally got the attention of one of the doctors.
“Oh Mr. McLean… is this?” the short chubby man looked up at me. “Mr. Adam’s partner?”
“Yes… this is Drake Parker.” Ryo eyes and face remained serious, “If you don’t mind me asking why are there so many doctors up here?”
“Well… what we were talking about earlier, Mr. McLean is happening at this moment.” the doctor looked toward the door and then looked back at us, “You see Mr. Adams has now stopped breathing on his own.”
“What?” I swear my heart stopped here and now… I could feel everything just go numb as I stared wide eyed and the short and round man.
“We’ve got him on life support but… I hate to be the bearer of bad news but I don’t think things are looking good for your partner Mr. Parker.”
“No!” I shouted out like an immature little kid not getting his way… but I wasn’t getting what I wanted, “You’re lying! You have to be!”
“Drake!” Ryo looked at me in surprise, “Drake, please! Calm down, now!”
“NO! He’s okay! JJ can’t die! I won’t let him leave me! I’m not going to give up on him--”
I couldn’t believe what happened next… all I could feel was the burning as the hand print turned bright red on my face… I never knew that Ryo had it in him to slap someone, but he slapped me.
“Stop it Drake.” His voice was firm and yet I could still hear his guilt; grabbing my arm he pulled me into the room where all you could hear was a steady beeping…
“You have to calm down and I mean it!” Ryo made me look at him; made me face those eyes of his, “I know you don’t want to hear any of these but you can’t hid from the truth any longer, Drake.”
I don’t wanna know the truth…
“Nothing anything can do will help him! I know this sounds harsh but this is what you need! You need reality to slap you across the face like I did!”
I wanna keep dreaming… Fuck reality…
“Drake, you have to make an important decision… you can’t make it with your head in clouds… you need to be here! Where we need you… where JJ needs you.”
He needs me…?
“Please answer me…”
“I’m sorry…”
“What?” Ryo finally showed a small smile, “Drake, you don’t need to apologize… I should be. I mean after all I was the one that hit you.”
“And I deserved it.” I walked away from him and gently started to stroke lavender locks; looking down at pale skin could feel a lump gathering in my throat, “I just… I just wish this was just a dream… and horrible dream that anytime soon I’m going to wake up and find JJ there beside me…”
“…” I could feel Ryo’s eyes leave the back of my head and I could hear a light sigh come from him.
“I want this to be over with…” I could hear my voice trembling as I wiped one of my tears that had fallen on JJ’s cheek, “I don’t want to see JJ suffer anymore than he has to… I can’t handle this…”
“Wha…?” Ryo sounded surprised, “What are you talking about, Drake?”
“You know what I’m talking about… the decision that everyone wants me to make! Me!” I clenched my fist, “This isn’t fair to JJ… Dee, you, Ted, the doctors and even…even I know he’s not going to make it…”
Ryo walked up to me placing a hand on my shoulder which I quickly shook off as I looked down and listened to the beeping that wasn’t even JJ’s heart on it’s own… that beeping was thanks to the life support.
“Are you sure about this…?”
“We’ve got no other choice… I can’t handle the thought of him never waking up… it’s not fair to anyone if we just keep him like this… it’s not fair…” I’m getting tired of saying the same things over and over again but I’ve got nothing else to work with… nothing else that my mind can think of.
Ryo solemnly nodded as he turned and walked out of the room leaving me and JJ alone… our last moments together…
*\'This is how you two are going to spend your last moments together...\'*
I can still hear that fucker’s voice in my mind… his cruel words haunting me more now that I look down at the only lover that has stuck around longer than a few weeks. JJ’s been here for me from the first day we became partners, no not partners the first day we became friends.
Then I ended up falling… falling right into his arms… but now here is where we’ve ended up. I’m losing him, losing the one I love. This time is different though; from any other relationship that I have been in… JJ’s not leaving me. I’m the one that’s letting him go… I’m letting him leave me. I know I’ve failed.
“I’m sorry… I’m sorry JJ!” I couldn’t hold anything any longer… I started to bawl. I slumped down to my knees leaning my head on JJ’s hand which laid so cold and still underneath my cheek… it felt like it was burning.
“You’ve gotta wake up… come on! Damn it Jemmy!” I cried out loud, “Damn you! How could you do this to me? Why leave me now? JEMMY!”
I was trembling… screaming… crying… and losing all of myself in just one moment…
“…Jemmy…”
Why can’t you just give me a sign… twitch, move, sigh, squeak…? I don’t care just do something to tell me you’re still alive!
“I need you…”
This is it… this is really good-bye. Why is this so painful… why is this so wrong? Goddamn it! WHY?
“I…”
Slowly standing on my shaking knees and I bent over him and kissed his forehead as I lightly stroked his blue locks.
“…love you…”
I slowly waked out into the hallway and didn’t really care when I walked right into Ted.
“Drake…” Ted didn’t move as I leaned into him and it felt nice to have him wrap his arms around me...
“I wanna go home…” I mumbled into Ted’s shoulder, “I don’t wanna be here anymore… Ted.”
“I know… Come on I’ll take you home.” Ted let me lean on him as we walked down to the elevator and down into the cold underground parkade.
The drive home was long and quiet as I leaned back in the passenger seat and watched everything move by me. I could feel Ted’s eyes on me every time we hit a red-light.
He parked and helped me to my apartment staying with me the whole time. He helped me inside and I walked right into my bedroom; crashing down on my bed. He sat behind me and pulled off my shoes and socks for me.
“I’ll stay the night if you want of course.” Ted pulled the blankets over top of me, “Only if you want.”
“Thank you…” I managed to mutter as I was soon fast asleep…
“Anything for you Drake…”
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Waking up for about the millionth time… every time I closed my eyes I could see JJ. Sapphire blue eyes, platinum blue hair the most meaningful smile across his face, he’s the one that’s haunting me now.
I don’t really know what the hell I’m doing… I don’t know what the hell is wrong with me… but I found myself in the living room with my comforter wrapped around me, walking quietly up to the couch as I looked down at the red-head who was sleeping soundly.
Moving around the couch I crawled up into his lap and my fingers carefully began to undo his button and zipper… what am I doing? Ted let out a small moan as my fingers over the cotton of his boxers.
“Drake… uh?” Ted tired to sit up, “What are you doing?”
I don’t know… I can’t stop it. I don’t wanna stop it. I sped up the speed of my fingers.
“Dra…uh!” Ted slapped my hand away from his crotch, “Stop it!”
I sat there on his legs and looked at him still wrapped up in my blanket. When his eyes met mine I looked down and noticed Mr. Ficklesburg crawling out from underneath the couch.
“What was all this about…?” Ted placed his hand under my chin and got me to look at him.
“I don’t know…” I tried to pull away as I mumbled.
“Hmmm…” Ted sighed as he sat up and he ruffled my hair, “Well let’s not worry about it then.”
“What do you mean ‘Let’s not worry about it’? I mean I nearly gave you a blow job or something!”
Ted started to laugh, “Doesn’t matter… you probably stink at giving head anyway.”
“You bastard.”
“As long as we both know it.”
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It’s the first time I’m back at work since JJ’s not been here every thing’s moving so fucking fast. … I can still remember the funeral… I didn’t know most of the people there. All of his friends from L.A. were there. I felt so out of place…
Nothing has really come up since he’s been gone. Chief and the commissioner are trying to find me a new partner… but I don’t want one. I’ve thought about quitting so many times, but where would I go from there?
I honestly have nothing left…
*\'DRAKE-SEMPAI!\'*
I can still hear JJ calling me… every time I enter the hallways his voice echoes in my mind. I can’t take this anymore; I’ve come to my end.
I carefully climb up on the railing. I’m looking down at all the people in the New York City streets that I can see from the roof of the 27th precinct.
Take a deep breath.
Close my eyes.
I’m finally going to set myself free.
I fall forward.
I’ve stopped… I’m not falling any longer as I can feel a grip on my wrist. Opening my eyes, I’m afraid to look up and see who saved me from my death. Whose disappointed face will I look up to… Dee? Ryo? Ted?
Neither…
I’m looking up at sapphire blue eyes, tear stained cheeks and lavender locks… I’m looking up and I see…
JJ.
“Drake! I’ve got you!” JJ called down to me, “I’m not letting you leave me now! Drake, I love you!”
I opened my mouth but nothing comes out but a sharp scream from a horrible pain in my chest. My body jolts and my hand slips from his grip; I’ve started to fall again.
*\'DRAKE!\'*
I closed my eyes and wait from the bottom to find me… I’ve lost JJ all over again… only this time, I’m dying.
*\'DRAKE!!!\'*
I’m dead.
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I\'m not done just yet... I\'m sorry again for the horrible cliffhangers but it keeps you coming back for more. And the suspence can\'t be all that bad can it?
Neko-Rinny
“Why me…?” I looked over at him as he stopped the car and got out when he did, “And what do you mean let me deicide?”
Dee stayed quiet as he sped walked in front of me and hurried inside the hospital where Ryo was waiting for us.
“Dee! Drake!” he waved us over and Dee pushed me in front of him toward Ryo, “Drake, come on! We’ve got to hurry, let’s go!”
“What? Wait what’s going on, Ryo?” I getting a little angry being pulled around without getting a reason, “Ryo, tell me, what is wrong with JJ!”
Ryo pushed me inside the elevator and turned to Dee before the doors closed called, “Meet us up stairs!”
Dee nodded and the doors closed shutting him away from us, Ryo leaned against the wall and he started to laugh…
“What the hell is so funny…?” I looked over at him totally confused and even shocked… Ryo laughing at a time like this…? What the fuck is he on?
“I’m sorry… you’re probably thinking that I’m crazy right about now…” Ryo sighed, “I don’t know… maybe I have finally snapped. Too much time in the hospital… you’re probably going to hate me for saying this… but I’ve never pictured JJ dying.”
Now I’m even more confused but far from angry, “What do you mean by that…Ryo?”
“Well I don’t mean like JJ’s immortal or anything like that… but if you put death and JJ in the same sentence somehow it just doesn’t go… I mean well… maybe I don’t know what I mean but… it makes sense to me…” Ryo tried to smile, “Well at least you didn’t get mad at me…”
“Why would I get mad at you… you’ve spent all this time here with JJ and well the hospital has finally made you snapped… I’m actually happy to know that you and Dee have stayed here for him…” I watched as Ryo’s face lit up and soon I felt guilty… I’ve made a mistake…
Ryo must have seen something in my face and read it well, “Don’t worry Drake… he’ll forgive you… he’s been moping around since you told him to get lost.”
The doors opened and even Ryo was in shock at how many doctors have gathered on the floor. I looked over at him and looked over at me, “This isn’t what we called you over for…”
We pushed through and tried to get the attention of at least one of the ten that were running in and out of the room where JJ was being held. Not one seemed to notice us and I was starting to feel afraid… that what everyone wants me to choose is going to happen sooner than except…
“Excuse me!” Ryo stopped and shouted and with luck we finally got the attention of one of the doctors.
“Oh Mr. McLean… is this?” the short chubby man looked up at me. “Mr. Adam’s partner?”
“Yes… this is Drake Parker.” Ryo eyes and face remained serious, “If you don’t mind me asking why are there so many doctors up here?”
“Well… what we were talking about earlier, Mr. McLean is happening at this moment.” the doctor looked toward the door and then looked back at us, “You see Mr. Adams has now stopped breathing on his own.”
“What?” I swear my heart stopped here and now… I could feel everything just go numb as I stared wide eyed and the short and round man.
“We’ve got him on life support but… I hate to be the bearer of bad news but I don’t think things are looking good for your partner Mr. Parker.”
“No!” I shouted out like an immature little kid not getting his way… but I wasn’t getting what I wanted, “You’re lying! You have to be!”
“Drake!” Ryo looked at me in surprise, “Drake, please! Calm down, now!”
“NO! He’s okay! JJ can’t die! I won’t let him leave me! I’m not going to give up on him--”
I couldn’t believe what happened next… all I could feel was the burning as the hand print turned bright red on my face… I never knew that Ryo had it in him to slap someone, but he slapped me.
“Stop it Drake.” His voice was firm and yet I could still hear his guilt; grabbing my arm he pulled me into the room where all you could hear was a steady beeping…
“You have to calm down and I mean it!” Ryo made me look at him; made me face those eyes of his, “I know you don’t want to hear any of these but you can’t hid from the truth any longer, Drake.”
I don’t wanna know the truth…
“Nothing anything can do will help him! I know this sounds harsh but this is what you need! You need reality to slap you across the face like I did!”
I wanna keep dreaming… Fuck reality…
“Drake, you have to make an important decision… you can’t make it with your head in clouds… you need to be here! Where we need you… where JJ needs you.”
He needs me…?
“Please answer me…”
“I’m sorry…”
“What?” Ryo finally showed a small smile, “Drake, you don’t need to apologize… I should be. I mean after all I was the one that hit you.”
“And I deserved it.” I walked away from him and gently started to stroke lavender locks; looking down at pale skin could feel a lump gathering in my throat, “I just… I just wish this was just a dream… and horrible dream that anytime soon I’m going to wake up and find JJ there beside me…”
“…” I could feel Ryo’s eyes leave the back of my head and I could hear a light sigh come from him.
“I want this to be over with…” I could hear my voice trembling as I wiped one of my tears that had fallen on JJ’s cheek, “I don’t want to see JJ suffer anymore than he has to… I can’t handle this…”
“Wha…?” Ryo sounded surprised, “What are you talking about, Drake?”
“You know what I’m talking about… the decision that everyone wants me to make! Me!” I clenched my fist, “This isn’t fair to JJ… Dee, you, Ted, the doctors and even…even I know he’s not going to make it…”
Ryo walked up to me placing a hand on my shoulder which I quickly shook off as I looked down and listened to the beeping that wasn’t even JJ’s heart on it’s own… that beeping was thanks to the life support.
“Are you sure about this…?”
“We’ve got no other choice… I can’t handle the thought of him never waking up… it’s not fair to anyone if we just keep him like this… it’s not fair…” I’m getting tired of saying the same things over and over again but I’ve got nothing else to work with… nothing else that my mind can think of.
Ryo solemnly nodded as he turned and walked out of the room leaving me and JJ alone… our last moments together…
*\'This is how you two are going to spend your last moments together...\'*
I can still hear that fucker’s voice in my mind… his cruel words haunting me more now that I look down at the only lover that has stuck around longer than a few weeks. JJ’s been here for me from the first day we became partners, no not partners the first day we became friends.
Then I ended up falling… falling right into his arms… but now here is where we’ve ended up. I’m losing him, losing the one I love. This time is different though; from any other relationship that I have been in… JJ’s not leaving me. I’m the one that’s letting him go… I’m letting him leave me. I know I’ve failed.
“I’m sorry… I’m sorry JJ!” I couldn’t hold anything any longer… I started to bawl. I slumped down to my knees leaning my head on JJ’s hand which laid so cold and still underneath my cheek… it felt like it was burning.
“You’ve gotta wake up… come on! Damn it Jemmy!” I cried out loud, “Damn you! How could you do this to me? Why leave me now? JEMMY!”
I was trembling… screaming… crying… and losing all of myself in just one moment…
“…Jemmy…”
Why can’t you just give me a sign… twitch, move, sigh, squeak…? I don’t care just do something to tell me you’re still alive!
“I need you…”
This is it… this is really good-bye. Why is this so painful… why is this so wrong? Goddamn it! WHY?
“I…”
Slowly standing on my shaking knees and I bent over him and kissed his forehead as I lightly stroked his blue locks.
“…love you…”
I slowly waked out into the hallway and didn’t really care when I walked right into Ted.
“Drake…” Ted didn’t move as I leaned into him and it felt nice to have him wrap his arms around me...
“I wanna go home…” I mumbled into Ted’s shoulder, “I don’t wanna be here anymore… Ted.”
“I know… Come on I’ll take you home.” Ted let me lean on him as we walked down to the elevator and down into the cold underground parkade.
The drive home was long and quiet as I leaned back in the passenger seat and watched everything move by me. I could feel Ted’s eyes on me every time we hit a red-light.
He parked and helped me to my apartment staying with me the whole time. He helped me inside and I walked right into my bedroom; crashing down on my bed. He sat behind me and pulled off my shoes and socks for me.
“I’ll stay the night if you want of course.” Ted pulled the blankets over top of me, “Only if you want.”
“Thank you…” I managed to mutter as I was soon fast asleep…
“Anything for you Drake…”
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Waking up for about the millionth time… every time I closed my eyes I could see JJ. Sapphire blue eyes, platinum blue hair the most meaningful smile across his face, he’s the one that’s haunting me now.
I don’t really know what the hell I’m doing… I don’t know what the hell is wrong with me… but I found myself in the living room with my comforter wrapped around me, walking quietly up to the couch as I looked down at the red-head who was sleeping soundly.
Moving around the couch I crawled up into his lap and my fingers carefully began to undo his button and zipper… what am I doing? Ted let out a small moan as my fingers over the cotton of his boxers.
“Drake… uh?” Ted tired to sit up, “What are you doing?”
I don’t know… I can’t stop it. I don’t wanna stop it. I sped up the speed of my fingers.
“Dra…uh!” Ted slapped my hand away from his crotch, “Stop it!”
I sat there on his legs and looked at him still wrapped up in my blanket. When his eyes met mine I looked down and noticed Mr. Ficklesburg crawling out from underneath the couch.
“What was all this about…?” Ted placed his hand under my chin and got me to look at him.
“I don’t know…” I tried to pull away as I mumbled.
“Hmmm…” Ted sighed as he sat up and he ruffled my hair, “Well let’s not worry about it then.”
“What do you mean ‘Let’s not worry about it’? I mean I nearly gave you a blow job or something!”
Ted started to laugh, “Doesn’t matter… you probably stink at giving head anyway.”
“You bastard.”
“As long as we both know it.”
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It’s the first time I’m back at work since JJ’s not been here every thing’s moving so fucking fast. … I can still remember the funeral… I didn’t know most of the people there. All of his friends from L.A. were there. I felt so out of place…
Nothing has really come up since he’s been gone. Chief and the commissioner are trying to find me a new partner… but I don’t want one. I’ve thought about quitting so many times, but where would I go from there?
I honestly have nothing left…
*\'DRAKE-SEMPAI!\'*
I can still hear JJ calling me… every time I enter the hallways his voice echoes in my mind. I can’t take this anymore; I’ve come to my end.
I carefully climb up on the railing. I’m looking down at all the people in the New York City streets that I can see from the roof of the 27th precinct.
Take a deep breath.
Close my eyes.
I’m finally going to set myself free.
I fall forward.
I’ve stopped… I’m not falling any longer as I can feel a grip on my wrist. Opening my eyes, I’m afraid to look up and see who saved me from my death. Whose disappointed face will I look up to… Dee? Ryo? Ted?
Neither…
I’m looking up at sapphire blue eyes, tear stained cheeks and lavender locks… I’m looking up and I see…
JJ.
“Drake! I’ve got you!” JJ called down to me, “I’m not letting you leave me now! Drake, I love you!”
I opened my mouth but nothing comes out but a sharp scream from a horrible pain in my chest. My body jolts and my hand slips from his grip; I’ve started to fall again.
*\'DRAKE!\'*
I closed my eyes and wait from the bottom to find me… I’ve lost JJ all over again… only this time, I’m dying.
*\'DRAKE!!!\'*
I’m dead.
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I\'m not done just yet... I\'m sorry again for the horrible cliffhangers but it keeps you coming back for more. And the suspence can\'t be all that bad can it?
Neko-Rinny