Roses have Thorns | By : Cheekestlemur Category: +S to Z > Vampire Knight Views: 824 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0 |
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an looked down at the floor as Rido walked Kaname out of the mansion. She couldn't believe what she had just done. Why did she drink his blood? Why!? She screamed at herself inside. Why didn't Rido stop it? If she hadn't been so thirsty she would have stopped him. She was blinded by her own thirst for the first time in her life. She waited for Rido to come back, she knew that Rido would be furious.
Rido quickly sat down next Ran once he knew that Kaname was gone. He felt like a monster after what he did to Ran. He could never forgive himself and he would understand if she didn't forgive him. As much as he hated Kaname feeding her but he deserved the pain it brought him after what he did to her. He wouldn't blame Ran if it was her way of punishing him. He wanted to stop them but then Kaname would know he really loved Ran. He knew Kaname would work it out in time but right now, Rido wasn't ready for marriage. He wasn't ready for a family, he had to face his demons before he could think about having a child.
He would let her go if she couldn't forget him. 'If you love someone you let them go' repeated in his head. "Ran." He called her name softly and waited for her to look up at him. "I'm sorry." He told her with a pained expression. He knew those words alone wouldn't be enough to make up for what he did. "I never meant to hurt you like that. I never thought I would or that I could." He continued. He was waiting for her to scream at him but she remained silent. "Ran?" He wanted to hurt himself just as much as he had hurt her and even then he would still think he needed to be punished even more.
"Were you in control?" She finally asked him and he shook his head.
"No, no, of course not." He answered her honestly. He wanted to reach out and hug, hold her tight but he doubted she wanted to be near him let alone let him touch her. "The monster inside took over." He tried to explain, he wasn't sure if he could fully explain. "Before you came into the room I was fine and then your scent surrounded me." He carried on and then realised it sounded like he was blaming her. It wasn't her fault at all, it was his, he let his control slip. "I lost control of the monster, all he wanted was you." He tried to shift the blame back onto himself. "He took control and all I could do was watch as I fought for control again." Rido was almost in tears as he told her. Flashes of what happened played in his mind. He was disgusted with himself. Ran looked at him in shock. She had never seen him like this. "I understand if you want to leave and can never forgive me." He told her. "I won't stop you from leaving." He then added.
Why did it feel like she was being stabbed in the chest when he said that? Was this what Rido felt when he watched her feed from Kaname? She hated herself more and more for what she did to him. She remembered looking up at him as she pulled away from Kaname. She saw his pain in his eyes, she swore she also saw fear. Did he fear losing her to Kaname? He should know that she would never leave him for the boy.
Even though what he did played on her mind, she still loved him. She still felt betrayed and hurt but they could fix this. She had no doubt in her mind he was also feeling hurt and betrayed by her. She quickly shook her head and moved closer to him. This time, it was his turn to look shocked. He had expected her to leave. "I'll never forgive myself." He whispered as he pulled her into his lap. "Never." Ran looked up at him and pulled his face down and kissed him softly.
"I can forgive you this once Rido." She told him as she pulled away. "But if it happens again." She took a deep breath. "I will leave." She told him. Rido nodded and held her close to his body. She took another deep breath, taking in his scent. Rido showed her small smile but she knew he was still beating himself up. He couldn't blame her and he won't stop her.
Ran apologised for feeding from Kaname but Rido told her she didn't have to. Rido knew that Kaname wouldn't have left until he got what he wanted. Rido would have to killed him if Ran hadn't done what Kaname wanted. The murder of Kaname would cause Rido a lot of trouble, he wouldn't be able to keep Ran and would most likely hunted till he was killed. It would risk Ran's life as much as his own. He wouldn't dare risk her life.
It was best to play along with whatever game Kaname was playing until he knew what that man was up too. Rido knew that Ran didn't fully understand the danger that Kaname brought with him. He hoped she would never have to see what Kaname could and would do to get what he wanted. Kaname had his pick of women so why was going after Ran? It unsettled Rido to no end but until he knew what Kaname's end game was, there was nothing he could do.
As morning drew closer, Rido took Ran to her room. She looked at him confused, they had made love, why did she have to stay in her own bed, alone?
"I don't want to hurt you again." He told her as they stood outside her door. She felt her heartache. "I can barely live with myself now if it happened again I wouldn't be able to live with myself." He explained. "The only thing that is making it bearable is that you forgave me." He added. Ran looked down, trying to hide her hurt.
"But I want you with me." She whispered as he went to walk away. Rido froze and looked back at her.
"You want me!? After what I did?!" He shouted in anger, anger that was for himself, it wasn't meant to be aimed at her. Ran looked away, trying hard not to cry.
"I love you." She whispered and quickly went inside her room. She ran to her bed and jumped onto it, crying. Rido sighed and looked down. She hadn't given him enough time to tell her he loved her too. He was beating himself back up again, he had never meant to shout at her. He stormed off, aiming to get rid of his anger before he lashed out at her again.
As Kaname went home, he felt a number of emotions flood from Ran: fear; sadness; happiness and heartache. What was going on? When he went to his room to settle down he felt the fear and sadness again. He wanted to run over to Rido's but if he did Rido would know he was finding out information he shouldn't. He was worried it would lead to more suffering for Ran. If she was in pain then he would run over and save her. Kaname sighed and got into bed, he would be having words with his father tomorrow.
Kaname cornered his father after breakfast, stressing he needed to talk to him in private. Haruka agreed and led him to his study. Kaname explained what he had witnessed the day before and the emotions that were flooding through to him. Haruka looked concerned, he knew his brother was a dangerous man and could cover his tracks easily. They needed evidence seeing as Ran didn't have any parents to call her back home. Haruka sighed, she was too old to have a guardian so that wouldn't work. He looked at Kaname and watched his son's face fall when he told him that evidence was needed.
"Did gain any information from Rido?" Haruka asked he had hoped that Rido may have slipped out some information he shouldn't have. He knew that Rido was too good to make mistakes but he had often underestimated Kaname.
"He told she had been there a year after I mentioned that Ran should join me at the school seeing as we all thought he wouldn't be keeping her." Kaname told him. "He got rather aggressive towards me for it." He added.
"That's strange. It's not like him at all." Haruka said confused. "Maybe he's going to wed her after all." He added with a small sigh before looking up Kaname. "I hope you didn't fall in love with her Kaname, if Rido wants to keep her, it'll be impossible to take her away." Kaname glared at Haruka, Kaname got what he wanted no matter what, even if he had to kill Rido, he would have her. "He turned down his support for the school I take it?" Haruka asked ignoring Kaname's glare.
"It was like you said, he would only agree if it meant he could hunt them." Kaname answered.
"Look Kaname, I will go there today and find out if he going to wed her. If he isn't then I will tell Ran about your interest to wed her." Haruka told him. "Rido may not agree to let her go but it would make it easier to release her from him if she chooses you." He went to explain.
Ran stumbled around, trying to make her way to the dining room to have breakfast. Rido smirked as he watched her from his seat. As she walked pass, he grabbed her and pulled her into his lap, chuckling. Ran squeaked and glared at him. Rido smiled slightly and looked into her eyes.
"I love you too." He told her, she looked at him confused. "You ran into your room too quick for me to answer you." He explained and she blushed. She was surprised he remembered. "I'm sorry for shouting at you." He added and she nodded, she had already forgiven him. She knew that he was angry at himself and was battling with the demons inside. "I was just so angry at myself. I couldn't understand why you still wanted me." He went on to explain. "I still don't understand." He added and her eyes softened.
"I love you Rido, love conquers all, remember?" She said and Rido smiled, kissing her forehead.
"I know, my love." He answered and watched a nervous servant set a cup of black coffee down in front of them.
Ran smiled and took a sip.
"Remember how we met?" She asked with a small smile as she looked up at him.
"Yes." He answered her with a small nod. "I couldn't believe you survived the attack." He told her with sadness in his eyes.
"Yet a man who was meant to be as cold as ice and just as unforgiving saved me." She said taking another sip of her coffee.
"I was going to use you as a follower to start with." He admitted she looked at him surprised.
"What changed that?" She asked curiously. It wasn't often Rido changed his mind on things, then again she couldn't remember a time when he had changed his mind.
"I'm not sure, when you finally woke up, I couldn't take my eyes off you." He told her, looking away in shame. "I wanted to stay with you constantly and then the more I learned about you, the more you won my heart." He continued. Ran smiled and gently tugged his face to look at him. "I never thought you would love me back." He admitted as he looked into her eyes. She kissed him deeply.
"Do you want to know what made me fall in love with you first?" She asked him and he nodded. "Your eyes." Rido looked at her shocked, people were normally creeped out by his miss-matched eyes. "Not only are they beautiful. They show the two different sides of you." She explained, she could have sworn she saw Rido blush. He looked at her with keen interest, wanting to know what she meant. "Your blue shows the cold and unforgiving side of you, the protector who won't stand for someone you love being hurt." Rido frowned slightly when she described him as cold and unforgiving until she explained it was protective side. "Your maroon eye shows the warmth within you, your kindness." Rido smiled and kissed her softly.
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