A Diffrent Kind Of Strength

Yun Kouga owns Earthian; I am only borrowing her characters for my own personal entertainment. This story was one of my first attempts at writing a story in the first person style. I\'d love to know what you think of it.

Series: Earthian
Pairing: ????/Chihaya and Kagetsuya/Chihaya
Rating: R due to attempted rape

A Different Kind of Strength

Hugging the bag of groceries I\'m holding to my chest, I glance surreptitiously over my shoulder. In the reflection of a window I can see the wind toying with my violet tinted raven locks. My wide amethyst eyes reflect fear. Something malevolent is there in the darkness just beyond the light of the lampposts.

I can feel the force of it drawing dearer even though I can\'t see anything out of the ordinary.

Turning away from the window, I break into a jog. It\'s not far to the apartment building. If I can just make it down one more block, I will be safe. My angelic senses flare with a physic warning of imminent danger. The sudden sound of footsteps from behind spurs me to run faster.

Keeping my eyes on the ground so I won\'t trip, I run with all my heart towards my apartment. My world spins as a strong hand pulls on my arm, twisting me around. The paper bag tears sending fruit, vegetables, and other various perishables to scatter across the pavement.

\"No,\" I scream trying to yank my arm out of the iron clasp as another equally strong arm warps itself sinuously around my neck pulling me close.

Dark brown eyes twinkle at me from a rakishly handsome face as I struggle uselessly. Tossing his head to get his long mocha colored bangs out of his eyes he smiles. Something deep inside me wails in pain. How is it anyone could so enjoy bringing fear and pain to others? It\'s not love this man wants from me. It\'s power.

Power can\'t be taken it must be given. He can do nothing to me that I will not allow. I could be hurt or killed, but he can\'t touch my soul, unless I let him. I have given myself to Kagetsuya alone. This man cannot have me.

I may not understand what motivates someone to do such an evil thing as this, but I am fully aware that evil does exist. Staring into those chocolate eyes I clamp my mouth shut tight as he tries to invade it with his tongue.

He laughs, a sound with a jagged edge that resonates though me. I keep my eyes on his as he backs away slightly to get a better look at me, his arms still locked around my waist. \"Such a pretty boy.\"

My eyes fill with sorrow and pity as he runs the flat of a blade almost tenderly over my cheek. What a wretched creature he is. I can see in his face that this is the only way he knows to make himself feel as if he matters.

I wince as the hand holding the blade twists quickly around moonlight flashing on the cold metal. A tiny sound escapes my lips when the bite of blade penetrates through the adrenaline rush I am on. The rapist\'s hungry gaze falls upon me as he waits for me to offer up myself to his whims. I stare back at him a tiny smile touching my lips.

I can tell at once that my expression confuses him and my smile grows fractionally wider.

\"What\'s wrong with you. You\'re being raped. Why are you smiling? \" My attacker scowls shaking me. \"Are you crazy?\"

He thinks I\'m crazy? I can\'t keep the smile from stretching farther as the irony of the situation sinks in. Though my eyes are still filled will sadness. In response to his frustration he growls in a low and angry voice. The brown eyes that would probably be lovely if they weren\'t glaring narrowed dangerously. \"Tell me why you\'re smiling. I want to know right, NOW!

\"It\'s because I\'ve discovered that I\'m strong.\"

\"No, you\'re weak and pathetic!\" He shouts as the blade trembles against my neck.\"

\"No, Chihaya is strong. You are the one who is weak and pathetic.\" Hearing my bed\'ed\'s familiar voice, my heart skips a beat.

I see the man\'s eyes widen and then slip shut as he falls limp at my feet. Alarmed, I lean down to check his pulse. He is alive, but unconscious. I feel Kagetsuya watching me with an odd look in his beautiful blue eyes.

Just as I lift my to to reach out to him I remember the groceries. Looking around I can see that the ground is covered with broken and damaged food. I drop my eyes. He\'s going to be angry. I just know he is. I speak without looking up. \"I\'m sorry Kagetsuya, the groceries are...\"

He stops me from saying anything more by placing a finger on my lips. Lovingly his mouth traces the contours of my neck. I shiver at the healing touch of his tongue. The look in his eyes is admonishing when he finally pulls back far enough to meet my glance. \"The groceries are in no way as important to me as you are, idiot. We can go shopping again tomorrow. For now we should get this creep tied up and then call the police.\"

I nod in agreement and fling my arms around him. Nestling my face into his broad chest I give him a squeeze. It feels good to have his arms around me in a fiercely protective embrace. Reassured that I am indeed safe, he bends down to kiss the top of my head. Looking up into those shining cerulean pools I smile. Who could have guessed how sensitive Kagetsuya is? He doesn\'t tell me about his feelings very often. But those eyes tell me everything I need to know.

\"I admire you with all my heart and I love you.\" Is the message on that face. Awed and grateful that anyone could feel that way about me, I give my beloved a kiss before backing out of his embrace.