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Never Forget

Disclaimer: I do
not own these characters. ^_^

Warning: Okay,
this story plot just came to me at four thirty in the morning. I�m sorry but
its kinda dark and may be angst to some people. But I have finished the story
so you will be able to read it all and not worry about me abandoning it like I
have done with my past stories ^_^ please no flames.

This plot may be a little sick to some, but I�ve also put it
up in ff.net. Also there is a lemon scene in this story, it�s not in detail.

Please no flames, if you don�t like the plot and find it
disgusting keep it to yourself.

Rated: Would be
an NC-17 but since it ain�t here it�s a very high rated R. There is rape and
dark thoughts in this show PLEASE you have been warned.

Chapter one � A
mask -

A mask covers a lot of things, but you still need holes for
your eyes so you can see, and then those eyes show what really lies beneath the
mask, that is one thing that scared me, that others would see through my mask.

I was sitting alone in one of my many rooms, a book in my
hand, my legs resting on another chair just near me.

I couldn�t stop my thoughts, I wasn�t reading, I didn�t even
know what the story was about. But my thoughts clouded me from reality.

The past year had been very difficult to get through, and it
is still difficult, I was scared that any moment now I would brake, I can feel
it, the ruler is bending and soon � with the right amount of pressure - it will
s

My eyes had grown darker, so I noticed, they weren�t their
innocent storm blue any more, I guess life can do that to you�take away ones
innocents I mean, in more then one way too. I was very cheerful and happy, and
that wasn�t a mask, but soon things changed, dramatically changed, and I
changed with it.

My life was a blur in clouds I could only pick out certain
events but could never clearly remember them.

I was back in Japan, back to Tomodeo
(1) where Sakura and her fri wel welcomed me with warm embraces and sunny
smiles, of course that excludes Syaoran, he still glared at me, and what�s
worse is it affects me; it hurts my already damaged soul.

Its true though, no mistake, I, Eriol Hiiragizawa had fallen
in love with the lone wolf, Syaoran Li, and there was nothing I could do to
stop my feelings.

Syaoran loved Sakura, he dotes over her ever minuet of every
second, he held her as if he were holding his life, and probably that�s how he
saw it, I�m happy for them, truly I am, but I can�t stop the sharp knife that
twists in my heart when ever I see him with her.

But that is only one of my many problems, I can live with
not having Syaoran by my side, I can live knowing he doesn�t love me, sure it
might hurt, but I can do it, and I have been for the past three years.

I heard a knock on the door and looked up from my book, I
had to shield my fear as I saw who stood there, I couldn�t let him know, it
would break him if he ever found out, he would never forgive himself.

So I forced a smile to my lips and asked what he wanted, he
smiled, and in my mind I sd ind in relief, he was normal, my body relaxed as he
told me that tea was being served.

I nodded and thanked him as I closed the book and followed
him out of the room towards the dinning room.

Ruby Moon was already sitting and eating, as usual I sat at
the head of the long table with Ruby and Spinner to my left sitting beside each
other.

I glanced over to Spinner, he was glaring at Ruby, he had
changed significantly since our last stay in Japan, during the three years that
we lived in England for, Spinner had approached me asking for a human form, of
course I obliged, it took a tremendous amount of power and strength to
transform him but I did.

He had long navy blue hair that was in a long pony tail that
reached his waist with darker blue eyes with long lashes rimming them, he was
pale in skin but still his features were stunning, he was beautiful.

I felt sickened all of a sudden, Spinner, now in his human
form and living back in Japan took action in trying to attracted the one person
he had fallen head over heals for, the reason he had asked to be transformed to
a human form, but still he wasn�t noticed, for the person he was after had already
fallen for another.

This hurt Spinner beyond belief, only I knew how much he
hurt, from that day on he was never the same, and soon I followed.

I looked back to my food as I felt the salty sting of tears
brim at my eyes, I hate crying, especially in front of an audience, and I
refused to cry now, I�m strong, I can get through this.

I felt as slowly as the sting left and my sorrow was
swallowed once again, hopefully not to brink any time soon. I slowly ate my
food, only vaguely listening to the conversation going on between my two
guardians, every once and a while throwing in my own words and a smile so they
wouldn�t suspect things.

Dinner was finished and I took my leave to my bedroom, where
hopefully I could sleep, at that thought I felt tears once again prickle at my
eyes, I fought them back.

My mind was fogged as my limbs were numb, this was a normal
feeling for me now, I didn�t feel much I couldn�t even feel pain�apart from the
pain in my soul and heart, other then that physical pain didn�t exist to me,
but then again neither did happiness.

For two hours I laid awake on my bed, my hands folded under
my head as I stared into a vacant black hole in my mind, pain surged in this
darkness, and I watched as it built, some spilling over the edge.

My thoughts were bought back to reality drastically as I
felt a soft touch graze my cheek, a voice spoke into my ear �Yue� it whispered,
I took in a shaky breath as I felt the touches, a warm breath grazing my neck
along with soft kisses.

Again the voice whispered �Yue, you�re so beautiful� I
brought up my hand and gently stroked the silky hair.

The body was heavy against me, lips soon reached mine, I
suppressed a whimper as my mouth was invaded, I fought
not to push the body away, to not fight, to just give into the touches.

Eyes locked with mine, and I was forced to look deep into
them, they were hazed, in a dream like state, but they still held lust and love
in them, not for me, but for Yue, Spinner�s true love.

Yes, it is Spinner who I fear, who comes to me every night
and forces his body upon mine, in his haze of pain he comes to me seeing me as
Yue where he would pour his soul out, take me then wake from his dream.

When he waked he would scream, cry and hurt himself as the
memory of what he had done to me would flood back to him.

And to prevent him from hurting himself I would take the
memories away each night and send him back to his room, so it was only me who
carried these memories on what he would do, I had tried to wipe my memory but
it wouldn�t work, the next night Spinner would return, and I would be confused,
then the memories would come back and hurt twice as much, so I choose to hold
them.

I had even tried to take Spinner�s memory of Yue away, but
his love was so strong that it wouldn�t work. This was all I could do to help
my friend, let him put his love on me, allow him to take my body and allow him
to believe it was really Yue he laid with.

I felt his hands comb down my chest that I realised was now
bare, I still brushed through his hair with my fingers, he was moaning as he
pushed himself into me, I arched trying to burn away the feeling, as I closed
my eyes, I could feel him slowly rock his hips, each thrust was pain for me,
each thrust came with its own level of pain and lost love as it was channelled
into me.

My bond with Spinner allowed his feelings to be channelled
to me, though it was doubled, since I was their creator my feelings were
their�s - but more - their feelings were mine.

I channelled love through our bond, letting him believe it
was Yue�s love he felt, I know what I am doing may sound wrong but Spinner is
my friend, family and love, I created Spinner with my heart and soul and that
makes our bond special, same with Ruby Moon.

I bit my lip as I felt his release, my body tensed and soon
I felt him collapse on me asleep, I looked at the roof, his breaths came out in
rasps. I closed my eyes and felt a tear escape; in fact I felt many, they
wouldn�t stop flowing.

I placed my hand on Spinner�s forehead and soon with my
magic I wiped out the memory that would so much distort him, and once again I
held another painful memory, scar.

Then with a little more magic I sent him away, to his
bedroom where he would wake with a clear conscious and no memory of the pain he
caused me.

I shifted under the blankets, forcing my face into the
pillows in an attempt to suffocate the pain, not a very brilliant idea but it
did help by sending me into a painless sleep.

Authors Notes: Okay see I told you this
story may be a little�on the wrong side, but I still think it disserves a
chance, and I have given enough warnings. Please be nice, I didn�t put
this story up to have it flamed.

Please R/R and I will put up the next chapter; there are
three chapters all up. ^_^ it�s a short story I guess.

(1) Is
that how you spell the town name?
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