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In Love and Lonely	By : SkittleSama Category: Digimon > General Views: 4446 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
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In Love and Lonely

Skittle Sama

NC17/Taiorato

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Finally completed! This fanfiction was completed on 7/16/2005 for J_Fuma's Taiorato songfic fanfiction contest. The song chosen is "In the Shadows" by The Rasmus.

Taiorato: Tai/Sora/Matt fiction. It contains sexual situations, slash, and other themes that may not be appropriate for all readers.

Reader descretion is advised. This is a lemon- thank you.

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No sleep.

No sleep until I am done with finding the answer.

Won't stop.

Won't stop before I find a cure for this cancer.

Sora Takenouchi hauled her bag over her shoulder, adjusting the staps on the racket shaped holder. She smiled while removing a faded red cloth from a pocket to wipe the vague beads of sweat that had fixed themselves on her forehead. Tennis was a sport that she had always enjoyed from the very first moment she picked up her first racket. Still, even Sora had to admit when practice was over she was ready to go home and relax with an ice cold glass of iced tea. Her thoughts began to turn to Tai Kamiya, her boyfriend of just over a year now, and that he had been so busy with his own schedule lately that there had been no time for him to walk her home like he used to do when they were first together. There were always telephones to keep them in touch with eachother if all else failed.

She recalled the night before when her boyfriend had called her on the telephone a bit longer after curfew than her parents would have preferred. Though he apologized, she was more interested in the call itself rather than the time. His words had made her blush a bit as he spoke of their time apart and what he would like to do if she were there with him at that very moment. After all, if it wasn't soccer practice keeping him occupied, it was his best friend Matt Ishida.

They had talked in careful detail about their relationship's importance and how they would spend time alone once in a while. Even though that Matt was Tai's best friend, she had also become very accustomed to having him around and it didn't bother her as badly as she would have originally thought. Asside from the occassional skirmish between the two boys, they were exactly alike in her eyes. Matt had grown on her to a point where it was almost strange when he wasn't present in their activities. It wasn't intruding at all- Matt was almost as close to her as Tai. Lately, Matt had his own agenda with the band and several other things after school and hadn't been around either Tai or Sora for several days.

It was early nighfall by now and she had wished that the day had given her more time before having to rush right home and go to sleep to start another long day of high school. The side streets of Odaiba gave her time to think over her situation and the amount of time that her and Tai had been apart recently. Perhaps a little too much time to think as her thoughts turned to Matt's smiling face and how she missed him as well. She missed them both equally. In fact, both of the boys were her best friends and she smirked at that realization.

She passed Heightonview Terrace, only stopped for a moment to look up at it. The mass of stone and glass gave it a homey appearance. It was something that kept your home away from the sounds of the busy street below. Kept it hidden and peaceful. Tai would be home by this hour and she was sure that Matt would be home, too. It was too late in the evening to stop by for a visit. Continuing on, she knew her head would be glued to the side of a telephone for yet another night.

Her house was built into a two story unit to have the bottom floor be a business. This had always worked out well for her since she never travelled very far to go to work. It was strange that there were no cars in the driveway. All that presented itself to her was a small, soaked oil stain on the pavement where her parents' car had been. Unlocking the door to the side entrance of her home she opened the door and sighed as it shut behind her. The door didn't even completely latch before a mouth claimed hers in the darkness of the livingroom, making her jump so powerfully that their teeth bumped together during the kiss.

Tai's taste was recognizable- familiar- and she relaxed slightly, feeling the kiss they were sharing become more deeper with time. His tongue pleaded for entrance and she felt herself blush at his intrusion. The urgency of his kiss surprised her and had definitely caught her off guard. His affections were always so sweet and gentle. It was almost as if he were afraid that he'd hurt her in some way if he pushed too hard or touched her body with excess force. His actions were different tonight and though their kiss had started sweet, it was beginning to consume her.

Tai's kiss was deep and seductive in its delivery, never once breaking to breathe. His hands explored the curves of her body over her tennis uniform, once in a while tugging softly on the fabric. Since when was Tai ever so desperate to pull on her clothing when they wanted to make love? The way his hands felt made her shudder as they travelled under her uniform and finally touched her bare skin. His hands were soft to the touch, but then slowly trailed themselves lovingly over her breasts. One hand slipped around to the dip of her lower back, pulling her against his hips lightly. Sora almost gasped at the feeling of his erection pressed against her lower stomach.

Sometimes,

I feel I'm going down and so disconnected.

Somehow,

I know that I am haunted to be wanted.

He was pressing her against the door and it latched quietly from the pressure of their leaning bodies. She managed to free her hand from his attention and slink it down to the door knob in order to lock it from parents or the occassional visitor. This was not the time to have someone unexpectedly drop by and ruin such an intense moment between the two lovers.

With the confidence that no one would interfere, a rogue hand raised to run fingers through his hair. For a moment, she could have sworn that Tai had an extra hand sliding up her inner thigh. Come to think of it, she never knew Tai to wear the cologne that was currently dancing on her senses. It didn't make any sense. Reaching around to touch the hand on her thigh, she stopped and drew in a breath of uncertainty.

"Matt."

The hand froze in its spot, mere inches away from the junction beneath her skirt. The sudden cease of movement confirmed her suspicion. The accused stood up to the side of her.

"Damn it..."

Sora was shocked by the thought that her best friend would try something so bold. Carmel eyes met azure when Matt came to his feet completely, level with her. His look beamed an exotic mixture of shame and arousal. Upon turning her head, she came face to face with her boyfriend. At least it was really Tai that she had been kissing from the start. The thought made her feel more at ease through the uncomfortable realization of Matt to her left.

"This was a bad idea, Tai.", came Matt's voice from the side. He had been shifting uncomfortably since his name had come into the conversation. The entire ordeal hadn't turned out the way it had originally been planned. "This was a really bad idea."

Tai closed his eyes after gazing shortly at his lover. He wasn't sure what to say at first, given the horribly awkward moment between the three of them. It wasn't entirely his idea. It had been a collaboration between the two of them. He had been missing Sora over this past week and a half. His only form of entertainment was having Matt in his afternoon classes.

It occurred to him as he glanced over seeing his friend gazing out the window in boredom that he had never witnessed Matt dating anyone since he and Sora began seeing eachother the year before. There had never been a steady girlfriend in his eye or never any phone numbers written on his palm as he had done the times before. The behavior was very unlike him. Finally, after lunch, Tai mustered the courage to ask him why.

"You didn't think I was the only one who loved you, did you Sora?"

It was the only choice of words that sounded appropriate to Tai at the moment.

I've been watching,

I've been waiting,

In the shadows all my time.

I've been searching,

I've been living,

For tomorrows all my life.
Matt's face flushed with crimson in the dimly lit livingroom. His darkest secret had been revealed into the open after years of festering inside of him under the veil of 'friendship'. All three of them had been friends since childhood and it had been by chance that Tai had decided to ask her on a date one sunny weekend. Nobody's companionship even compared to that of Sora's. Other girls were boring and tasteless- both boys agreed.

Her attention was drawn to Matt, his blush wearing off, yet still leaving reminders of his discomfort at the situation through inconsistant fidgetting. When he finally did look up at Sora and catch her gaze, he regained the ability to speak.

"I can't help it, Sora." he stopped in mid-sentence, unable to say anything more.

Matt had never been one with words, given the exception of a showman for concerts and charity shows. Why hadn't she seen this before? Seen the way that Matt acted around her and Tai when they became affectionate? Now that she really thought about it, he always would look away or look down at his feet.

"We love you..." Tai spoke up in the quiet.

The kiss began anew, Tai wasn't waiting for an answer this time. What would the others think about this arrangement? It wasn't considered normal to be in a relationship with two men at once. She could hear the piercing ring of Joe's disapproval in her mind. That was, until Tai backed away from their kiss, breaking their lips apart. His expression was as sincere as it had always been and having Matt there didn't seem to make much of a difference. There had always been a strong rivalry between the two boys, but right now neither of them wanted to buck opinions. Right now, they were willing to share without feelings of jealousy or rage.

It had been as she'd thought earlier- Matt's eyes had been averted from the intimate kiss shared between Tai and herself. Somewhere within, the blonde's body language gave her stomach a small flip. Unable to admit it before now, she had always thought about what it would have been like if Matt had been her first lover. Curiosity got the better of her as she turned her face to Matt's, making him lift his head in attention. The crimson hue across his face immediately came to full color once more once Sora pressed her mouth to his gently. He couldn't believe how erotic it was to kiss his best friend's lover while he watched, but visibly relaxed when their tongues caressed each other.

Tai, trying desperately to ignore his uncomfortable jeans, stepped close behind Sora breathing softly into her ear. The soft breaths on her neck made her skin prickle. It became even worse when Tai's mouth had found the special spot on her neck and he moved her hair to bite it lightly. His teeth grazed over the sensitive skin and she gasped into Matt's kiss. Matt would have forgotten that Tai had been there had he not opened his eyes to see Sora pressed in between them.

He let go of her lips in understanding that there was no turning back from this point forward.

Tai's hand cupped hers and pulled here away from Matt's gaze. They weren't going to waste the night by talking and fondling; no matter how good it felt to rub their clothed bodies together. "Come with me...", his voice was spoken through a hushed tone, convincing Sora to go anywhere he planned to take her.

Sora was the first one into the bedroom and she looked at the bed, knowing full well what was about to happen. She was embarrassed at the thought of stripping her clothes with them both watching her so intensely, but she managed just fine. Her tennis skirt slipped gracefully down her shapely, petite hips, taking her bloomers in its wake.. Her polo came next, leaving her in her undergarments. Even in just her panties and bra, she didn't feel as nervous as she had anticipated. Something about all of this seemed suddenly natural and right. Though she was sure of the three of their decision to continue with this game, she dreaded appearing overly eager to play. It didn't stop her from covering herself a little in attempt to hide the dampness between her legs.

They say,

That I must learn to kill before I can feel safe.

But I,

I'd rather kill myself than turn into their slave.

Sometimes,

I feel that I should go and play with the thunder.

Somehow,

I just don't wanna stay and wait for a wonder.

Tai never failed to give her a soft and appreciative smile when they made love- this time was no different. It was affectionate and sweet; a perfect compliment to Matt's smirk at seeing Sora stripped on her own bedsheets. His grin made her blush even if he had been blushing, himself.

"You're so... cute splayed out for us like that." Tai muttered to her just loud enough so that both participants in the room could hear his words. "You've always been cute with no clothes on."

Tai walked slowly towards the bedside while pulling his own white t-shirt over his head. He knew that Sora always loved his plain white t-shirt. He could never really figure out the reason why. He assumed that it was because of the way the fabric hugged him when he moved, and that was sexy to her. Before anyone could say any more, his lips captured hers in a passionate lock. One that began sweet and loving and slowly twisted into a display of sexual dominance. Tai had won. Pushing her down into the covers, he crawled on top of her, feeling the skin of her stomach pressed against his. Matt could only watch in awe as his two friends writhed against each other's touch. It was an incredible turn on. Sora's soft, ragged breathing was making him burn for her like nothing he'd ever felt before.

"Are you just going to stand there?" Tai's words swept through the room once more.

Matt licked his lips unsurely and stepped forward to the bed, slinking out of his school uniform's jacket and unbuttoning the white dress shirt underneath. He watched intently as Tai kissed and nibbled at the nape of her neck, driving her even further down into the bedding beneath her. Sora tilted her neck to the side, letting Tai have better access and to see Matt's clothes dropping from his body- one- by- one.

"Matt, you're... really handsome under there." Sora whispered between the minor intakes of breath. Her eyes were ficsated on his figure at the bedside.

By now, Tai only lifted his eyes from her breast to look at Matt, running his tongue across her nipple through the cloth of her bra. His hands fumbled with his belt to take his jeans off, but it looked as though Sora was already working on the problem. Before long, both boys were unclothed before her and she bathed each of them with her eyes.

"... Kiss me?" Matt finally said aloud after hesitating.

Sora gazed up at him as if she had been waiting for that question since this night's beginning. Her head made a curt little nod and leaned up, accepting Matt's kiss with no resistance. Tai glanced upwards watching Matt and Sora glide their tongues along each other's lips. Matt had shifted himself on the bed, leaning over her just enough to shadow her from view for a moment before both of them coming up for air.

Tai took this time to lean up and kiss her once, knowing full well that Matt couldn't pay for a better seat in the house to see it. He thought about making the delicious foreplay more interesting and slipped a hand down to the top of her panties. However, he decided against it. Having two boys pleasuring you should be enough to get any girl off. Especially when those two boys were Tai Kamiya and Matt Ishida.

Sora felt Tai's fingers dancing dangerously close to the damp cotton between her legs and she raised her hips to his touch absentmindedly. All of this attention on her body was overwhelming and all she could manage to do was squirm and writhe at their kisses and touches. Rogue hands unclasped her bra from her back, though with the movements and hands all over her it was unclear of to whom they belonged to. The room was getting hotter and the tension on her body was driving her mad. Matt kissed her deeply, breaking only to kiss her cheek and the side of her neck. Tai nuzzled her right side, kissing the side of her mouth. It took only a mere shift of weight for Tai and Matt's lips to collide. Their eyes went wide in uncertainty at first. It was alarming to them that their lips had met at all, but they hesitantly leaned into each other, accepting the kiss that was too late to stop.

The two boys pressed their bodies together in a blazing exchange of desire. It didn't matter that they were kissing each other or how odd it felt; being inside this room gave all three a sense of safety and comfort. Anything that happened here tonight stayed here. Tai was the first to pull away from their kiss. Sora swore that what she had just bared witness to was the most erotic thing she had ever seen. Her thoughts broke once she saw Tai and Matt grabbing the cloth to each side of her hips and delicately pulling down the last remaining article of clothing between the three of them. They never broke eye contact from her- not even once.

As if it were a planned action, they moved up to let their hands explore their lover's body slowly. Tai's fingers finding the perfect spot to rest before brushing against the bare flesh of her womanhood. Oh, how Tai knew how to tease her and she couldn't help but whimper his name. There was no rough contact, just a gentle touch that made her eyes roll back into her head at the sensation. Pressing his fingers against her, he slipped two inside, moving them in a rhythm so sensual she thought that she would come at that very instant. What surprised her was Matt's actions.

Tai was also surprised when Matt slid his hand around the other male's wrist and pulled the hand free from its duty. Her stomach swelled with butterflies at watching Matt place Tai's fingers into his mouth, tasting Sora on each individual digit. It was plain to see that none of her would be wasted. Tai's face blushed wildly while he stared at his counterpart's tongue graze over his fingers suggestively. The tactile sensation made him bite his lip to quiet his noise.

Mouths crashed together one more time before Matt smiled at her wickedly. "You're so wet, Sora..."

She could only whine quietly. He had disappeared from sight, but completely caught of balance when the rockstar's hot mouth claimed where Tai's hands had been only minutes ago. Sora gasped and whined in heated passion. It was a rarity for Tai to allow her the pleasure of oral sex. He loved to please, but he had always felt uncomfortable with putting their mouths there. It was bliss. This was bliss. Matt's tongue teased her and only paused to spread her, delving deeper into her depths. It had immediately become fact to him that Sora didn't receive this type of attention very often- and he would make her remember it.

She tossed, Tai kissing and fondling her, but also blocking her view of Matt's eyes which were watching from below. It wouldn't be long now, she could feel her body beginning to shake from the strain of her impending release.

"Stop." Tai said, issuing Matt a sideways glance.

Matt did as he was asked, not over stepping his boundaries. "Why? She was just about to--"

"I know... but not yet." Came Tai's reply.

"Please... it felt so good..." Sora's breathy words came from underneath them. It was no longer a request. It was an urgent plea.

"Hey, Tai. I think she's ready.." Matt backed off a bit, licking his lips to savor the remaining taste from her.

I've been watching,

I've been waiting,

In the shadows all my time.

I've been searching,

I've been living,

For tomorrows all my life.

Tai smiled gently at her- a ritual they shared before they became one. She had been laying on her back as the boys did what they would with her, but things were getting stale with that routine. He helped turn her over, pulling her on her hands and knees. Their first time had been missionary, but with time he found it much more pleasurable for both of them now if he took her from behind. With a fair warning, he gripped her hips, digging his fingers into the soft skin before reaching a hand down to guide himself to her entrance. With one move, he thrust himself to hilt inside of her. He felt her body swallowing him, stretching to accomodate his length inside of her.

This position was definitely an attention getting display for Matt as he looked at them. Tai hadn't moved since his first initial plunge and Sora remained on her hands and knees to take a moment to let her body get comfortable. Sora looked at Matt, wanting to include him in their lovemaking though unsure of exactly how. Reguardless, the look she was giving him had coaxed him near her again and he laid on his back, sliding down underneath her. It was the perfect place to be- Matt laying on his back as Sora straddled him, Tai thrusting into her from behind. He watched as Sora laid her head and shoulders on Matt's chest to support the force of Tai's hips beginning to push forward and draw back again.

She was so beautiful this way and Matt kissed her, allowing her to moan into the kiss. Her face was flushed and Matt could feel the heat radiating from her cheeks as he cupped his hands to her face, their kiss needy and lustful.

"Oh, god..." Tai was gritting through his teeth. Sora felt so warm around him and he pulled her hips against his with such strength that her teeth collided with Matt's. The blonde gathered his strength and wrapped his arms lovingly around her.

Matt couldn't take it any longer. The sounds of Tai and Sora's lovemaking were making him ache worse and with him underneath Sora, he was unable to find the pleasure he needed. Sora's head was thrown back, level with Matt's, her breasts gently swaying over his body as he laid, his hands slinking down his abdomen. Lower. Lower. Yes- that was it. That was the spot he needed. Sora leaned down, matching gaze with him as Tai continued to thrust into her from behind, the sheer power behind it making her shake a little with each motion. All Matt could do was kiss her until she decided to lean down to his ear while his hand worked himself over; unheard over the slap of skin between Tai's body and Sora's rear.

Matt shifted underneath her, quickening his pace at words he had never heard her say. Her voice was sweet and jolty, but whispered in a soft hush just for him to hear.

"Ungh ... I ... love you...."

He felt his heart jump.

She noticed the shift in Matt's body and looked down between them, watching as Matt stroked himself with unspoken urgency. It wasn't going to end this way for him.

"Matt, mnh...let ... ngh ... me-- .. for you...."

Tai had been listening, and though he found it difficult to slow his thrusts, he managed, letting Matt stand on his knees in front of Sora, facing Tai as Sora stayed on her hands and knees between them. Tai hadn't withdrawn from Sora, his hands still gripped at her hips posessively. The two boys stared at eachother in wonderment for several seconds before Matt's eyes went wide and then shut tightly. Sora had done something either incredibly amazing... or incredibly painful.

Sora's hand had replaced his own and he let go, giving Sora reign to do as she pleased with him. A hand gently ran through her red hair, before matching eyes with Tai. It wasn't long before Matt felt a familiar sensation of warmth and wetness engulf his sex. For one that never gave or received oral sex, she was making sure to hit every spot. His mouth hung open slightly, still watching Tai who was completely gone in his own pleasure now that he had gone back to picking up their earlier rhythm. She teased him and carefully dragged her teeth over the wet flesh in a way that made him moan her name.

Without warning, Tai leaned forward, taking Matt again into a kiss. This time is was more comfortable; less hesitation.

Sora was to the edge. One more thrust forward sent her body into unbridled throes of passion. Her climax froze her to her current position before she opened her mouth to cry out her finish to her lovers. Tai followed suit with his own climax, releasing himself deep within her depths. His cries mixed with hers, creating a beautiful symphony of sound.

Sora hadn't given up on Matt just yet as she took him back into her mouth long enough for him to enjoy another 20 seconds of pleasure before he pulled away from her. She felt good. There was no doubt about that, but being so close to climax he needed to finish it his own way. Tai pulled himself away from her and as if driven by instinct, she laid on her back once more watching Matt's strokes become jerky and uncontrolled over her. Tai nibbled on her ear, watching her expression in the afterglow. Matt suddenly grunted softly, tensing and relaxing with a sigh, spilling himself onto Sora's chest.

Lately I been walking, walking in circles,

Watching, waiting for something.

Feel me touch me heal me, come take me higher.

I've been watching,

I've been waiting,

In the shadows all my time.

I've been searching,

I've been living,

For tomorrows all my life.

The three of them became quiet, calming down with the memory of the events that had just happened. Tai leaned over on his side, leaving Sora to lay in the middle and Matt on the opposite.

"We can't let this get around school, you know." Tai spoke up at the two in bed with him. "People will think we're gay."

"That's not true, Tai," Sora sighed in feeling satisfied, "We don't need to tell." She looked at Matt who was nuzzling her at her left side, buried into her hair. They had both been incredible lovers. She was right; they didn't need to explain anything to anyone. Love was love- no matter what form in came in.
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