The Cost of Depression

Pocky: My first ever Kyou Kara Maou fic. I wrote it when I was depressed due to lack of sleep at 2am.

Disclaimer: I don\'t own Kyou Kara Maou.

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*Wolfram*


I was lying in our bed, waiting for my fiancee, and then a thought hit me.

I loved him so much, yet he didn’t seem to love me back. In fact, Yuuri seemed to love other people more than me!! And *I’m* his fiancee. This isnt going to work, if he doesn’t love me.

I heard the door open and Yuuri’s footsteps, and curled myself up, my back to him. I didn’t want to look at him.

‘Wolfram?’ he asked, but I didn’t answer him.

Yuuri put his hand on my shoulder and I trembled slightly under his touch. He let out a soft gasp.

‘Wolfram, you’re cold as ice!’

I could hear the concern in his voice, but it was the same concern he gave everyone, and that made me angry.

I sat up and faced my fiancee, a sad but fierce look in my green eyes.

‘You don’t love me, do you, Yuuri?!’ I shouted.

His eyes widened as he stared at me.

‘Wolfram, what-?’ he started, but I cut him off.

‘I don’t want to marry you anymore,’ I said to him, turning my head away, and staring down into my lap. ‘How can I marry someone who doesn’t love me back?’

‘Wolfram, I’m sorry...’ Yuuri said softly, his hand on my shoulder.

I couldn’t take it anymore, the tears started flowing from my eyes. Yuuri pulled me into his lap and I cried into his shoulder, soaking the material of his pyjama shirt.

I cried myself to sleep in his arms, and when I woke up It was still dark and he was lying next to me.

All of a sudden I heard him muttering, and what I heard made me very angry.

‘Konrad... come back to me...please.. I need you, Konrad!’

Yuuri was twitching in his sleep.

I couldn’t believe it. He really didn’t love me! He loved my half human brother instead.

That was the final blow. I couldn’t take it anymore. I could feel the tears again, they fell to the floor as I stood up.

I took my sword from it’s sheath and decided that I would end it all then and there, as I admired the beautiful craftmanship of my blade.

I slid the edge of the sword along my arm, it cut cleanly through the material of my nightwear.

This is such a pretty sword.... but even moreso when it has my blood on it...

I sat there in the middle of the floor, making many cuts on my arms and legs, my blood getting everywhere, and then I raised my sword to my neck.

‘Goodbye, Yuuri,’ I said, still crying, then slashed my own throat. I fell to the floor, quickly loosing consciousness, and before I did, I found the strength to embed my sword in my chest, stabbing through my broken heart.


*Yuuri*

I felt so sorry for Wolfram. I did love him, I just loved his brother more.

I opened my eyes, expecting to see my fiancee lying next to me, but he wasn’t there.

I sat up, looking around the room for him, and my eyes widened and my mouth dropped open as I saw the most horrible sight I’ve ever seen.

Wolfram was dead.

The first thought that crossed my mind was ‘Who could have done this?’

‘This is... all my fault,’ I said softly. ‘I’m sorry, Wolfram... I’m so sorry’

I kept staring at him, his blood was everywhere.

Even when the door opened and footsteps came running in, stopping near me, I couldn’t take my eyes off the sight before me.

‘Heika... I have something to tell you-‘ Gunter broke off as I pointed in the direction I was looking.

He let out a small gasp.

Tears were falling from my eyes, and then Gunter gave me some more bad news.

‘Heika... Konrad is dead too...’ Gunter said to me, his voice sad. ‘I went to speak with him and found him tied to his bed, his body hacked and bleeding terribly, his blood splattered everywhere...’

‘...No...not Konrad...’ My tears came harder, and my whole body shook as I cried.

‘...My life isn’t worth living now...’ I said, softly and Gunter’s eyes widened.

‘Heika...’

‘Leave me, Gunter,’ I said and he nodded and left the room.


After that I refused to leave my room, staring at the spot where my fiancee killed himself often, and thinking deeply. I never spoke a word to anyone, too depressed by the murders of my fiancee and the one I loved deeply.

One day, I smiled as I stared out the window, deciding to end my life.

I then left the room and climbed to the highest balcony in this castle, and flung myself over the edge, falling long and fast.

As I fell, I thought to myself, ‘We can be together now forever, my loves.’

I felt the impact a second before I lost consciousness.

*Owari*

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