My everlasting love
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Category:
Gravitation › General
Rating:
Adult +
Chapters:
1
Views:
1,041
Reviews:
1
Recommended:
0
Currently Reading:
0
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I do not own Gravitation, nor any of the characters from it. I do not make any money from the writing of this story.
My everlasting love
[DISC]: Gravitation... as usual... not mine *Damn!!*
[A/N]: It\'s being a long time since I\'ve posted a new story... I hope you like it and bear a little with me because I wrote this on my lunch break today... which means it was written in 15 min... on with the fic.
THANX TO ASHLEY FOR BEING MY BETA... THANK YOU SO MUCH
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:: My everlasting love ::
by: KM-Sama
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Maybe he wasn\'t the right man for me, but then again, what man is the right one for another man? Maybe I\'m just being naïve, maybe I\'m being stupid, or maybe, I\'m just hopeless. I don\'t know, I think I\'ve always been this kind of moron, always trusting people... people who don\'t deserve to be trusted. I hope this will change, I hope I can change, but I think that I never will; being the main reason for it the fact that I don\'t want to change the main reason being the fact that I don\'t want to change. Confusing I know, I\'m such a mess. Why am I such a contradiction? Did I jump to a conclusion too fast? Did I rush myself? It seemed so right at the time; to finally be able to get out of that useless relationship, to finish it all, to be free.
I mean, I know I was fed up with him being, well, him but now I\'m not so sure. After the time I\'ve spent on my own I\'ve come to see that it wasn\'t all just black and white, like I had thought. There was a lot more there than meets the eye.
Now I want him back. Now I want to feel again like I used to when he touched me. I want to feel my knees go weak and get butterflies in my stomach just like when he looked at me with those... beautiful eyes. I want to feel him close to him to be there, to warm him on cold winter nights, to love him...
Maybe I\'m just a fool; what makes me think that he\'ll want me after a year? Nothing. Now I see that he did indeed cared for me, in his very own special way. Now I see that it was me who had no patience, who pleaded, cajoled, and begged for more when he couldn\'t give it, when he didn\'t know how to give. It was my fault. That I now know It was my fault because I failed to teach him, I failed to listen when he begged me to give him some time, some space where he could gather his strength; where he could regain courage to be what I wanted him to be for me.
He tried. Oh yes, he did try, but sadly, to me it was never enough. Soon it became too unbearable for me, I couldn\'t understand his reasons. I didn\'t see his heart far beyond the ice case it was covered with.
When I met him, he was so wounded, but soon he opened up to me. He showed me how much he needed me, how much he needed to be loved, and that gave me strength to put up with his temper, with all of him. Now, I\'m not sure exactly when or why I stopped seeing Some wounds are deeper than anyone could ever dream to heal.
I wish I had understood this so long ago. I keep thinking... I just keep thinking, that\'s all I do. I think and think about him. I still love him so much it hurts, and I don\'t care if its such an overused phrase because in my case... it\'s the sole truth. I don\'t know what to do now, I\'m sure I\'ve lost him forever. I need him, I need him so bad I want to throw myself at his feet and cry, to ask for his forgiveness.
I promised him, I\'d never leave him. But I broke that promise and now he would never take me back no matter how much I beg and plead... because I betrayed him; yes!, me, who swore never to hurt him, never to betray or lie... I BETRAYED HIM.
I\'m so alone and I miss him. I want to see him, to hear his voice, just one last time before I have to let him go, forever.
I am so stupid. I want my koibito back. I want to lay down with him, to be trapped in those strong arms again, to run my fingers through his golden locks, drown in the endless pools of his hazel eyes, and to loose myself in sweet, passionate long kisses. I want him back. I need him back because I\'m nothing without him. I\'ll die if I don\'t have him.
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The pages of a young singer\'s diary kept dancing back and forth to the rhythm of the wind. The same wind that entered through the window as outside the god sun relinquishes its place in the skies to its fair bride the moon.
OWARI
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[A/N] Please R&R.... well that\'s it for this time... matta ne minna.
::Plotless, pointless... just like me::
[A/N]: It\'s being a long time since I\'ve posted a new story... I hope you like it and bear a little with me because I wrote this on my lunch break today... which means it was written in 15 min... on with the fic.
THANX TO ASHLEY FOR BEING MY BETA... THANK YOU SO MUCH
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:: My everlasting love ::
by: KM-Sama
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Maybe he wasn\'t the right man for me, but then again, what man is the right one for another man? Maybe I\'m just being naïve, maybe I\'m being stupid, or maybe, I\'m just hopeless. I don\'t know, I think I\'ve always been this kind of moron, always trusting people... people who don\'t deserve to be trusted. I hope this will change, I hope I can change, but I think that I never will; being the main reason for it the fact that I don\'t want to change the main reason being the fact that I don\'t want to change. Confusing I know, I\'m such a mess. Why am I such a contradiction? Did I jump to a conclusion too fast? Did I rush myself? It seemed so right at the time; to finally be able to get out of that useless relationship, to finish it all, to be free.
I mean, I know I was fed up with him being, well, him but now I\'m not so sure. After the time I\'ve spent on my own I\'ve come to see that it wasn\'t all just black and white, like I had thought. There was a lot more there than meets the eye.
Now I want him back. Now I want to feel again like I used to when he touched me. I want to feel my knees go weak and get butterflies in my stomach just like when he looked at me with those... beautiful eyes. I want to feel him close to him to be there, to warm him on cold winter nights, to love him...
Maybe I\'m just a fool; what makes me think that he\'ll want me after a year? Nothing. Now I see that he did indeed cared for me, in his very own special way. Now I see that it was me who had no patience, who pleaded, cajoled, and begged for more when he couldn\'t give it, when he didn\'t know how to give. It was my fault. That I now know It was my fault because I failed to teach him, I failed to listen when he begged me to give him some time, some space where he could gather his strength; where he could regain courage to be what I wanted him to be for me.
He tried. Oh yes, he did try, but sadly, to me it was never enough. Soon it became too unbearable for me, I couldn\'t understand his reasons. I didn\'t see his heart far beyond the ice case it was covered with.
When I met him, he was so wounded, but soon he opened up to me. He showed me how much he needed me, how much he needed to be loved, and that gave me strength to put up with his temper, with all of him. Now, I\'m not sure exactly when or why I stopped seeing Some wounds are deeper than anyone could ever dream to heal.
I wish I had understood this so long ago. I keep thinking... I just keep thinking, that\'s all I do. I think and think about him. I still love him so much it hurts, and I don\'t care if its such an overused phrase because in my case... it\'s the sole truth. I don\'t know what to do now, I\'m sure I\'ve lost him forever. I need him, I need him so bad I want to throw myself at his feet and cry, to ask for his forgiveness.
I promised him, I\'d never leave him. But I broke that promise and now he would never take me back no matter how much I beg and plead... because I betrayed him; yes!, me, who swore never to hurt him, never to betray or lie... I BETRAYED HIM.
I\'m so alone and I miss him. I want to see him, to hear his voice, just one last time before I have to let him go, forever.
I am so stupid. I want my koibito back. I want to lay down with him, to be trapped in those strong arms again, to run my fingers through his golden locks, drown in the endless pools of his hazel eyes, and to loose myself in sweet, passionate long kisses. I want him back. I need him back because I\'m nothing without him. I\'ll die if I don\'t have him.
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The pages of a young singer\'s diary kept dancing back and forth to the rhythm of the wind. The same wind that entered through the window as outside the god sun relinquishes its place in the skies to its fair bride the moon.
OWARI
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[A/N] Please R&R.... well that\'s it for this time... matta ne minna.
::Plotless, pointless... just like me::