You, Me, Myself and I
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Gravitation › General
Rating:
Adult +
Chapters:
1
Views:
2,275
Reviews:
10
Recommended:
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Currently Reading:
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I do not own Gravitation, nor any of the characters from it. I do not make any money from the writing of this story.
You, Me, Myself and I
Disclaimer: I do not own Gravitation in anyway (though I wish I did)... I'm just too poor to own it right now XP
Note: Ryuichi has MPD (Multiple Personality Disorder), I'll be doing POV of each of his personalities, he has 3: Ryuichi (original Sakuma Ryuichi, the one you see on stage), Ryu-chan (Chibi-like Ryuichi one sees offstage) and Kumagoro (the pink bear/bunny)... and yes I'm going to do a section with Kumagoro's POV later on.
"Speech"
/Ryuichi talking to Ryu-chan/
//Ryu-chan talking to Ryuichi//
Now, Onwards!
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You, Me, Myself and I
By: Nichibotsu
(Shuichi POV)
I knew about it 3 months ago, when Yuki always game home late every single night smelling like girls’ perfume and having red smudges that looked similar to lipstick marks all over his face. Two months after, he wouldn’t even touch me, let alone look at me and the only thing he’d say to was me “Go away, Brat”, but I acted like it was okay.
Soon after, I found out.
I had been gone for a week to a concert in Osaka and told Yuki the exact day I’d be back. Some disaster happened and it was cancelled, I came home 2 days early… err… 2 nights early. I came home at 10 ‘o clock at night, I didn’t want to disturb Yuki so I tried my hardest not to make noise. When I first walked in, all seemed fine, but when I walked closer towards Yuki’s room, I hear moans and cries of MY lover’s name. There was a crack in the door as I peaked in. I wouldn’t believe my eyes! There was some brunette lady making love to MY MAN! I didn’t know what was bigger, the brunette’s boobs or Yuki’s erection. I had had enough!
I ran out as fast as I could, I didn’t care if I make so much noise running into things that it would tell Yuki that I was home or not, I was so angry that I didn’t care. I ran as fast and as far as my legs could take me until I finally collapsed.
And here I am now, hurt and crying. It seems like I found a small alleyway. What a wonderful place to finally have your legs five out. Oh well, at least people won’t see me now. I feel like the little girl in “The Little Matchstick Girl” Freezing and broken, all I need now is for Grandmother to pick me up from earth and I’ll go to heaven with her. I’m talking nonsense again; I should have brought my cell phone. It’s probably on the floor in “Yuki’s house”.
“Ne, ne, Shu-chan? What’cha doing sitting there like a broken doll? Yanno, your butt will get cold if you sit there much longer,” Oh. My. God. Can this be? “Grandmother” has come to pick me up from earth. It’s Sakuma Ryuichi-san! He’s actually talking to me I’d better answer or else he think I died… although a part of me already did.
“Sakuma-san?” I ask.
“Yeah, Shu-chan?” My idol replies in a bubbly chibi kid-like sort of way.
“Can… can I stay over at your house tonight? – N-not that you have to say yes or anything! It’s just that… you see… umm… I sort of don’t really have a place to say and I was just wondering… umm…” I stumble on the words. Words, I’ve never been quite good at using them.
Sakuma-san’s face turns into a wide smile, “No, no, I don’t mind at all! I don’t think Kuma-chan minds either. Kuma-chan likes Shu-chan too! He says that all the time! I just have to find him first, he decided to go to the grocery store without me and now he’s lost. I think his cell phone’s battery is dead because I can’t get through to him on his phone,” I try to suppress a giggle. Sakuma-san is full of wacky things to say. That’s why I like him so much because no matter how down you are, he can always make you smile. He’s like a ray of sunlight on a gloomy cloudy day.
“I’ll help you look for Kumagoro if you want, Ryuichi-san,” I offer while getting up. He’s right, my butt did freeze, but it’ll unfreeze in a few minutes.
“Really? You’ll do that for Ryu-chan?” his eyes sparkle in an amazingly bright way, I’m mesmerized, but I nod, “Yay! Thank you Shu-chan, na no da!” He hugs the guts out of me, but I don’t mind, it’s Ryuichi Sakuma, THE Ryuichi Sakuma! What do you expect?
(Ryu-chan POV)
Shu-chan and I’ve been looking for Kumagoro for half an hour already, but there’s still no night of that naughty Kuma-chan. Oh Kumagoro, I told you to wait until I finished my bath to go grocery shopping, na no da! See? Now you’re all lost because you didn’t listen to Ryu-chan. But don’t worry Kuma-chan we’ll find you!
“Hey Sakuma-san, Is that Kumagoro over there?” Shu-chan asks me. Kumagoro, is that you? I see you turn your head. Kumagoro! I run to Kuma-chan. He was behind the bench in the park all along! I pick him up.
“Bad Kuma-chan, I’ve been worried sick about you! You have to thank Shu-chan for finding you, or else you could have been lost forever, Kuma-chan!” I say to him, I can see he’s really sorry, na no da. He turns to Shu-chan.
“Thank you for finding me, Shu-chan!” He hugs our pink haired friend. That hog, he knows I like Shu-chan, and he’s trying to make me jealous! Shu-chan hugs Kumagoro back.
“Mou, I don’t get a hug, na no da?” I pout. Shu-chan hugs me too. I almost melt, he smells like strawberries. I love strawberries. Kumagoro and Ryuichi and I went strawberry picking once, it was very fun, and even Ryuichi enjoyed it!
//Ne, ne, Ryuichi-chan?//
/Sure… whatever you said, Ryu/
//Mou, Ryuichi-chan’s no fun!//
We’re walking back to my apartment now. It’s so quiet, na no da.
“Shuichi, why were you in that alleyway?” Ryuichi asks… Wait… Ryuichi-chan?! When did he appear here? Wah! Ryuichi-chan’s being a big meany!
/Gomen, Ryu. I just need to know something, you can take over after I’m done, alright?/
//Or if it gets dangerous!//
/…Fine/
I hear Shu-chan sigh as he spoke, “Yuki… he cheated on me, I kind of knew all this time, but I didn’t believe it, I wouldn’t let myself. I’m such an idiot.”
“It’s not your fault Shuichi, don’t blame yourself, you didn’t do anything wrong,” I hear Ryuichi-chan say. What is this guy planning?
“You’re only saying that because you haven’t seen what I have, Sakuma-san. I’m not trying to be mean, but you don’t know how I feel. You can get whatever you want, I mean, you ‘are’ Sakuma-san, THE Sakuma-Ryuichi-“ I feel Ryuichi-chan twitch a bit, I know he hates being called “The” as if he’s an object, he’ll blow up soon. Maybe I should draw him back…
/No, just a bit longer… please Ryu…/
//Fine, but once it gets into major danger zone, I’m pulling you back, Ryuichi-chan! Maybe even without a warning, na no da!//
“I wish I had your life. A life without these problems,” He finishes.
“My life isn’t as fun as you think it is,” Alright! That’s way too far, Ryuichi-chan! I’m pulling you back now!
/Demo..!/
//Too dangerous!//
“What I meant to say is that when it gets tough, you’ll always have me, na no da! It’ll be lie you are Sakuma Ryuichi and I can be Shindou Shuichi!” That Ryuichi-chan! He cries! And now I have to wipe it off! I brush the tears away quickly without creating suspicion.
Shuichi smiled sadly, “You actually want to be me? Who would want to be me?”
Great, Ryuichi makes the mess and now I have to clean it up!
/Gomen…/
//Daijoubu, daijoubu! As long as you’re okay, Ryuichi-chan!//
“I do because Shu-chan is loved and I love being loved! I want to be Shu-chan because he is loved,” I say, maybe I should tell him my feelings, but would it harm Ryuichi-chan in any way?
“Yeah right, who would actually want to love me?” Oh Shu-chan, don’t say such bad things about yourself.
“Me,” I decide to say it, I can’t keep it inside me anymore. Shu-chan’ll probably reject me for Yuki again so Ryuichi-chan will be safe and since I told Shu-chan how I feel, I won’t have that questions “Should I tell him hoe I feel about him or not?” keep nagging in my head.
“No… no, this is wrong. I love Yuki, I… I can’t, Sakuma-san. I’m sorry, I mean… I’m flattered and all and it’s once in a lifetime that your idol, your god, falls in love with you, but… I just… I just don’t like you that way, Sakuma-san. I can only see you as my idol, as someone I look up to… not ever as my lover,” Shu-chan replies. I hear my heart shattering, it’s so loud, I wonder if Shu-chan can hear my heart break into pieces as well.
“It’s ok, na no da! But… but if you ever give up on Yuki, will there still be a change for me? Or is there someone else on the waiting list?” I ask.
“If I ever give up on Yuki, you are the next person I turn to,” Shu-chan says, that’s so nice of him to say!
“Well, we’re here, na no da!” I shout as we arrive to my apartment. We go to the 15th floor where my apartment lays and we go in.
My apartment is clean most of the time; it only gets messy when me, Kumagoro and Ryuichi get into a fight. My apartment is clean today, my living room is straight ahead where the T.V. and couch is, that room with the funky light, me and Ryuichi chose it! Kumagoro was sick that day, so he didn’t have a choice, he says it’s ugly, but I think he’s just jealous that Ryuichi-chan and I got to pick the light and he didn’t.
Across that hallway over there and to the left if my bedroom, it’s fairly clean except for the pain of jeans that are on the floor. I was too tired yesterday and kicked them off onto the floor. On either side of my room, there’s a door, the left one is the bathroom and the right one is the closet. Connecting to the hallway is the guestroom, the guestroom is haunted though, no one has even been in there, not even me! Only one certain Kumagoro had said he’s been in there, he said that there were ghosts and ugly, slimy monsters! Kumagoro is so brave, but I think he was lying. To the right of the living room is my kitchen and connecting to that is my dining room, but I never use it because it is only me, Ryuichi-chan and Kumagoro who is him, we usually watch T.V. while we eat,
“Make yourself at home!” I exclaim, I can still see that Shu-chan is a bit cautious of me. He probably thinks I’m jealous and I’ll hurt him, oh Shu-chan, I’d never do that! Especially not to you, you’re just too special.
(Shuichi POV)
“You can sleep in my room tonight,” Sakuma-san says before showing me where his room is, “That door leads to the washroom and I have some spare pajamas if you are planning to change, na no da.”
“Wh-where are you going to sleep, Sakuma-san?” I ask cautiously, maybe Sakuma-san wants payback? I hope not, Sakuma-san is my idol, I feel safe around him, it’s just that… it’s just not right, how he loves me and all… it’s just not right.
“Oh don’t worry, Shu-chan, I’m not going to do anything to you, I’m going to sleep in the living room, maybe on the couch… or on the floor, if Kuma-chan feels like it, and there’s a lock on the door so you can lock it from the inside. I don’t have the key anyways; Shu-chan will feel all safe!” Sakuma-san pipes. He’s so cute – oh god, I did not just call him cute… appealing, yes, sexy, yes, but never ‘cute’ he’s more ‘hot’ than ‘cute’ … oh no, now I’m judging other men! What kind of a boyfriend am I? I love Yuki! I can’t just leave him! Yuki, Yuki, Yuki!... But Sakuma-san gives off this aura… like you feel really safe around him, like you’ll never get hurt if you’re around him.
Sakuma-san leaves after handing me a clean set of pajamas and telling me to never ever, ever open – let alone touch – the drawer beside the closet. I wonder what he has in there. Oh well, it’s none of my business, I might make him mad if I find out. I don’t have time to find out what’s in there though, I have work tomorrow and it’s getting late. I change into the pajamas and get into Sakuma-san’s more than comfy bed and drift away to Slumberland.
TCB....
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A/N: Hope you enjoyed it all! Please review! The more you review the more happy I get, the more happy I get the fast updates I make, the faster updates I make the more you'll read, it's karma!
Note: Ryuichi has MPD (Multiple Personality Disorder), I'll be doing POV of each of his personalities, he has 3: Ryuichi (original Sakuma Ryuichi, the one you see on stage), Ryu-chan (Chibi-like Ryuichi one sees offstage) and Kumagoro (the pink bear/bunny)... and yes I'm going to do a section with Kumagoro's POV later on.
"Speech"
/Ryuichi talking to Ryu-chan/
//Ryu-chan talking to Ryuichi//
Now, Onwards!
*~*~*~*~*~*~*
You, Me, Myself and I
By: Nichibotsu
(Shuichi POV)
I knew about it 3 months ago, when Yuki always game home late every single night smelling like girls’ perfume and having red smudges that looked similar to lipstick marks all over his face. Two months after, he wouldn’t even touch me, let alone look at me and the only thing he’d say to was me “Go away, Brat”, but I acted like it was okay.
Soon after, I found out.
I had been gone for a week to a concert in Osaka and told Yuki the exact day I’d be back. Some disaster happened and it was cancelled, I came home 2 days early… err… 2 nights early. I came home at 10 ‘o clock at night, I didn’t want to disturb Yuki so I tried my hardest not to make noise. When I first walked in, all seemed fine, but when I walked closer towards Yuki’s room, I hear moans and cries of MY lover’s name. There was a crack in the door as I peaked in. I wouldn’t believe my eyes! There was some brunette lady making love to MY MAN! I didn’t know what was bigger, the brunette’s boobs or Yuki’s erection. I had had enough!
I ran out as fast as I could, I didn’t care if I make so much noise running into things that it would tell Yuki that I was home or not, I was so angry that I didn’t care. I ran as fast and as far as my legs could take me until I finally collapsed.
And here I am now, hurt and crying. It seems like I found a small alleyway. What a wonderful place to finally have your legs five out. Oh well, at least people won’t see me now. I feel like the little girl in “The Little Matchstick Girl” Freezing and broken, all I need now is for Grandmother to pick me up from earth and I’ll go to heaven with her. I’m talking nonsense again; I should have brought my cell phone. It’s probably on the floor in “Yuki’s house”.
“Ne, ne, Shu-chan? What’cha doing sitting there like a broken doll? Yanno, your butt will get cold if you sit there much longer,” Oh. My. God. Can this be? “Grandmother” has come to pick me up from earth. It’s Sakuma Ryuichi-san! He’s actually talking to me I’d better answer or else he think I died… although a part of me already did.
“Sakuma-san?” I ask.
“Yeah, Shu-chan?” My idol replies in a bubbly chibi kid-like sort of way.
“Can… can I stay over at your house tonight? – N-not that you have to say yes or anything! It’s just that… you see… umm… I sort of don’t really have a place to say and I was just wondering… umm…” I stumble on the words. Words, I’ve never been quite good at using them.
Sakuma-san’s face turns into a wide smile, “No, no, I don’t mind at all! I don’t think Kuma-chan minds either. Kuma-chan likes Shu-chan too! He says that all the time! I just have to find him first, he decided to go to the grocery store without me and now he’s lost. I think his cell phone’s battery is dead because I can’t get through to him on his phone,” I try to suppress a giggle. Sakuma-san is full of wacky things to say. That’s why I like him so much because no matter how down you are, he can always make you smile. He’s like a ray of sunlight on a gloomy cloudy day.
“I’ll help you look for Kumagoro if you want, Ryuichi-san,” I offer while getting up. He’s right, my butt did freeze, but it’ll unfreeze in a few minutes.
“Really? You’ll do that for Ryu-chan?” his eyes sparkle in an amazingly bright way, I’m mesmerized, but I nod, “Yay! Thank you Shu-chan, na no da!” He hugs the guts out of me, but I don’t mind, it’s Ryuichi Sakuma, THE Ryuichi Sakuma! What do you expect?
(Ryu-chan POV)
Shu-chan and I’ve been looking for Kumagoro for half an hour already, but there’s still no night of that naughty Kuma-chan. Oh Kumagoro, I told you to wait until I finished my bath to go grocery shopping, na no da! See? Now you’re all lost because you didn’t listen to Ryu-chan. But don’t worry Kuma-chan we’ll find you!
“Hey Sakuma-san, Is that Kumagoro over there?” Shu-chan asks me. Kumagoro, is that you? I see you turn your head. Kumagoro! I run to Kuma-chan. He was behind the bench in the park all along! I pick him up.
“Bad Kuma-chan, I’ve been worried sick about you! You have to thank Shu-chan for finding you, or else you could have been lost forever, Kuma-chan!” I say to him, I can see he’s really sorry, na no da. He turns to Shu-chan.
“Thank you for finding me, Shu-chan!” He hugs our pink haired friend. That hog, he knows I like Shu-chan, and he’s trying to make me jealous! Shu-chan hugs Kumagoro back.
“Mou, I don’t get a hug, na no da?” I pout. Shu-chan hugs me too. I almost melt, he smells like strawberries. I love strawberries. Kumagoro and Ryuichi and I went strawberry picking once, it was very fun, and even Ryuichi enjoyed it!
//Ne, ne, Ryuichi-chan?//
/Sure… whatever you said, Ryu/
//Mou, Ryuichi-chan’s no fun!//
We’re walking back to my apartment now. It’s so quiet, na no da.
“Shuichi, why were you in that alleyway?” Ryuichi asks… Wait… Ryuichi-chan?! When did he appear here? Wah! Ryuichi-chan’s being a big meany!
/Gomen, Ryu. I just need to know something, you can take over after I’m done, alright?/
//Or if it gets dangerous!//
/…Fine/
I hear Shu-chan sigh as he spoke, “Yuki… he cheated on me, I kind of knew all this time, but I didn’t believe it, I wouldn’t let myself. I’m such an idiot.”
“It’s not your fault Shuichi, don’t blame yourself, you didn’t do anything wrong,” I hear Ryuichi-chan say. What is this guy planning?
“You’re only saying that because you haven’t seen what I have, Sakuma-san. I’m not trying to be mean, but you don’t know how I feel. You can get whatever you want, I mean, you ‘are’ Sakuma-san, THE Sakuma-Ryuichi-“ I feel Ryuichi-chan twitch a bit, I know he hates being called “The” as if he’s an object, he’ll blow up soon. Maybe I should draw him back…
/No, just a bit longer… please Ryu…/
//Fine, but once it gets into major danger zone, I’m pulling you back, Ryuichi-chan! Maybe even without a warning, na no da!//
“I wish I had your life. A life without these problems,” He finishes.
“My life isn’t as fun as you think it is,” Alright! That’s way too far, Ryuichi-chan! I’m pulling you back now!
/Demo..!/
//Too dangerous!//
“What I meant to say is that when it gets tough, you’ll always have me, na no da! It’ll be lie you are Sakuma Ryuichi and I can be Shindou Shuichi!” That Ryuichi-chan! He cries! And now I have to wipe it off! I brush the tears away quickly without creating suspicion.
Shuichi smiled sadly, “You actually want to be me? Who would want to be me?”
Great, Ryuichi makes the mess and now I have to clean it up!
/Gomen…/
//Daijoubu, daijoubu! As long as you’re okay, Ryuichi-chan!//
“I do because Shu-chan is loved and I love being loved! I want to be Shu-chan because he is loved,” I say, maybe I should tell him my feelings, but would it harm Ryuichi-chan in any way?
“Yeah right, who would actually want to love me?” Oh Shu-chan, don’t say such bad things about yourself.
“Me,” I decide to say it, I can’t keep it inside me anymore. Shu-chan’ll probably reject me for Yuki again so Ryuichi-chan will be safe and since I told Shu-chan how I feel, I won’t have that questions “Should I tell him hoe I feel about him or not?” keep nagging in my head.
“No… no, this is wrong. I love Yuki, I… I can’t, Sakuma-san. I’m sorry, I mean… I’m flattered and all and it’s once in a lifetime that your idol, your god, falls in love with you, but… I just… I just don’t like you that way, Sakuma-san. I can only see you as my idol, as someone I look up to… not ever as my lover,” Shu-chan replies. I hear my heart shattering, it’s so loud, I wonder if Shu-chan can hear my heart break into pieces as well.
“It’s ok, na no da! But… but if you ever give up on Yuki, will there still be a change for me? Or is there someone else on the waiting list?” I ask.
“If I ever give up on Yuki, you are the next person I turn to,” Shu-chan says, that’s so nice of him to say!
“Well, we’re here, na no da!” I shout as we arrive to my apartment. We go to the 15th floor where my apartment lays and we go in.
My apartment is clean most of the time; it only gets messy when me, Kumagoro and Ryuichi get into a fight. My apartment is clean today, my living room is straight ahead where the T.V. and couch is, that room with the funky light, me and Ryuichi chose it! Kumagoro was sick that day, so he didn’t have a choice, he says it’s ugly, but I think he’s just jealous that Ryuichi-chan and I got to pick the light and he didn’t.
Across that hallway over there and to the left if my bedroom, it’s fairly clean except for the pain of jeans that are on the floor. I was too tired yesterday and kicked them off onto the floor. On either side of my room, there’s a door, the left one is the bathroom and the right one is the closet. Connecting to the hallway is the guestroom, the guestroom is haunted though, no one has even been in there, not even me! Only one certain Kumagoro had said he’s been in there, he said that there were ghosts and ugly, slimy monsters! Kumagoro is so brave, but I think he was lying. To the right of the living room is my kitchen and connecting to that is my dining room, but I never use it because it is only me, Ryuichi-chan and Kumagoro who is him, we usually watch T.V. while we eat,
“Make yourself at home!” I exclaim, I can still see that Shu-chan is a bit cautious of me. He probably thinks I’m jealous and I’ll hurt him, oh Shu-chan, I’d never do that! Especially not to you, you’re just too special.
(Shuichi POV)
“You can sleep in my room tonight,” Sakuma-san says before showing me where his room is, “That door leads to the washroom and I have some spare pajamas if you are planning to change, na no da.”
“Wh-where are you going to sleep, Sakuma-san?” I ask cautiously, maybe Sakuma-san wants payback? I hope not, Sakuma-san is my idol, I feel safe around him, it’s just that… it’s just not right, how he loves me and all… it’s just not right.
“Oh don’t worry, Shu-chan, I’m not going to do anything to you, I’m going to sleep in the living room, maybe on the couch… or on the floor, if Kuma-chan feels like it, and there’s a lock on the door so you can lock it from the inside. I don’t have the key anyways; Shu-chan will feel all safe!” Sakuma-san pipes. He’s so cute – oh god, I did not just call him cute… appealing, yes, sexy, yes, but never ‘cute’ he’s more ‘hot’ than ‘cute’ … oh no, now I’m judging other men! What kind of a boyfriend am I? I love Yuki! I can’t just leave him! Yuki, Yuki, Yuki!... But Sakuma-san gives off this aura… like you feel really safe around him, like you’ll never get hurt if you’re around him.
Sakuma-san leaves after handing me a clean set of pajamas and telling me to never ever, ever open – let alone touch – the drawer beside the closet. I wonder what he has in there. Oh well, it’s none of my business, I might make him mad if I find out. I don’t have time to find out what’s in there though, I have work tomorrow and it’s getting late. I change into the pajamas and get into Sakuma-san’s more than comfy bed and drift away to Slumberland.
TCB....
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A/N: Hope you enjoyed it all! Please review! The more you review the more happy I get, the more happy I get the fast updates I make, the faster updates I make the more you'll read, it's karma!