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The Lamentation of Two Hearts	By : Lucythebeast Category: +M to R > Neon Genesis Evangelion Views: 4074 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
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- 1-The Lamentation of Two Hearts
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NG: Evangelion � The
Lamentation of Two Hearts

Required Disclaimer: This is of course a work of fanfiction. It is meant simply to be homage to the
wonderful work of GAINAX and the creative team that worked so hard to give us
such an amazing story. It is also meant, of course, to entertain you, the
readers. So� enjoy and stuff.

Author�s Note: This story is an �alternate vision�
scene of my story �Only In Your Eyes Am I Worthy�, which unlike the prior one
�A Moment of Peace�, which COULD have happened, this one most definitely did
not. It takes place after Toji Suzahara's
death when the Dummy Plug controlling Unit 01 crushed his entry plug to defeat
the 13^th angel. Shinji is likely a bit OOC here... though for
someone who tried to kiss a sleeping Asuka and then later on wanked himself over her comatose body, perhaps not so much.
Haha... It's a dark and sad fic
and involves an encounter that could be considered rape, depending on your
views on the issue. If you don't want to read it, then don't. So on top of the
usual lemon warning, a �possible� rape warning is here too. No violence though.
If you do read it, either enjoy it or be disturbed by it. Either way, hopefully
the writing itself is appreciated. You can also find this fic
on my website, with illustrations.

Rei Ayanami was lying on her
stomach on top of the covers of her bed, staring blankly at the lamp on the end
table situated behind her bed. She contemplated whether to read a book or not,
but she wasn't really in the mood. Her mind was on her fellow pilot, Shinji Ikari, and what the Dummy Plug system had forced him to do.
Her shoulder was also still sore from when they had to disconnect her Eva's arm
to prevent the rest of her Eva from being contaminated, while the neural
connection was still in place. The sensation of having her arm severed from her
body was still rather fresh in her subconscious and had left a ghost pain in
the limb.

Her crimson eyes shifted to look at the sliding
glass door that led to her balcony as she heard the sounds of rainfall,
filtered water collected from the surface above to fall onto the Geofront below. The patter comforted her. The first child
was just considering sitting up to stare out the window and watch the raindrops
when the annoying sound of her door buzzer resonated throughout her apartment.
As usual, she ignored it, even as it resounded urgently several more times.

The door opened several long moments later and the
blue-haired angel turned her head from her prone position on the bed to regard
the third child as he entered her apartment. �Ayanami? Are you... awake?� Shinji inquired in a
soft vulnerable tone.

The red-eyed girl stood up and took a step towards
the boy. �Yes.� She responded simply, curious why he was paying her a visit.
She had assumed he would either be in a detention cell or at home with Major Katsuragi and Asuka by now.

�I... I'm sorry to barge in here like this.� He
stated nervously, glancing back towards the door, likely contemplating leaving.

�Why?� Rei inquired. The
young Ikari was the only person who visited her
apartment that expressed such concerns over invading her privacy, so it was a
foreign concept to her.

The blue-eyed boy misinterpreted her question,
assuming she was asking why he was visiting her. �I... quit. I am no longer an
Eva pilot. Father... didn't even apologize for... what he did. I am leaving the
city, but I couldn't leave without seeing you one last time. To
say... goodbye.�

Melancholy settled over the girl's heart, though no
change in her expression occurred. �Oh.� Was her only reply.

The third child's eyes squeezed shut as tears
forced their way out. �Why... did he do it, Ayanami?
Why did he force me to kill Suzahara? And why
couldn't he just... apologize for it?�

�I do not know, Ikari.�
The red-eyed angel responded evenly.

Shinji rushed forward suddenly and wrapped his arms
around the blue-haired beauty, sobbing onto her shoulder as her eyes widened in
surprise. �I'm so sorry, Ayanami.� He whispered
between sobs.

The first child stared blankly towards her door,
her own arms prone impassively at her sides. �Why?� She asked in her usual soft
tone.

�I wish I were stronger... maybe I could have saved Suzahara if I were.� The dark-haired boy muttered, his
tears dampening the shoulder of the girl's school uniform, which she was
wearing even though she hadn't gone to school that day.

Rei stared ahead silently, unsure of what she was
supposed to do, so she remained still as the boy's choking sobs filled the
sparsely furnished apartment.

�I wish... I could have been stronger for you too, Ayanami.� Shinji whispered, feeling ashamed at expressing
his sorrow all over the girl's frail shoulder. He clutched at her tightly as
his tears fell unchecked.

The red-eyed girl glanced towards her stove through
the doorway leading to her entrance hallway, wondering if she should offer the
boy some tea. She remembered having some, but she had never made it and she
wasn't sure how to prepare it. The consideration ended when she felt the boy
nuzzling into her neck, murmuring something she couldn't quite hear. A moment
later, she felt his lips on her neck and his hot tears dripping down the back
of her neck, falling into the opening between her skin and the collar. She was
confused by the other pilot's strange actions, but she remained motionless.

�Ayanami...� The young Ikari
murmured, finding comfort from holding the girl and he was spurred onward by
his grief. He kissed the girl's sweet-smelling neck several times, without
conscious thought.

�Ikari?�
The first child asked into the emptiness of her apartment, baffled by the boy's
actions.

�Ayanami.�
Shinji whispered again, running the fingers of his left hand through the girl's
feather-soft blue hair as he pressed his lips to hers in an inexperienced kiss,
using his right arm to hold the girl close. He pecked her several times before
his sorrow started expressing itself in passion, his smooches becoming hotter
and more demanding.

Rei stared forward at the boy's face, her eyes widened
in surprise and confusion, though his eyes were closed so he did not see her
expression.

The third child made a soft �Mmm�
sound into the girl's mouth as his own tongue snaked out to caress against the
girl's and his hand moved down to grope the girl's bum, lifting the back of her
skirt so his hand was pressing into her panty-covered backside.

The blue-haired beauty felt her cheeks heating up
in a blush as the young Ikari's lips made their way
down to the base of her neck and his hand trailed up her thigh into the crotch
of her panties. Her eyes drifted over to stare fixedly at her closet, passively
standing still as the boy touched her in all manner of intimate ways. �... Ikari?�
She questioned again, her tone a little more vulnerable than usual.

�You smell so good, Ayanami...�
Shinji murmured as one hand made its way underneath the cotton of the girl's
panties to explore her insides and the other opened a few buttons on the dress
shirt of her uniform so he could clumsily grope at her bra.

Rei's blush deepened, both in embarrassment and due to
the third child's inexperienced touches. A few moments later she found herself
staring up at the cement tiles of her ceiling as the boy lowered her down onto
the bed behind her and lay half over her body as he continued fondling the
quiet red-eyed girl. She turned her head and could see water drops falling
around the edge of her curtains and watched the sight as the other pilot's
fingers continued sliding around in her moistening depths.

The third child murmured something the girl didn't
quite hear as he started suckling at her now exposed right nipple and his hips
shifted between her thighs as he pulled the blue-haired beauty's legs a little
further apart.

The first child heard a chinking sound as the boy
undid his belt and then a moment later the telltale sound of a zipper being
lowered. She then felt her panties pulled over to the side, exposing the lips
of her sex. After a few moments of uncomfortable shifting, she felt something
hard and hot pressing against her vagina. She tried to turn her head to see
what was on the dark-haired boy's face but his head was against her shoulder and
she heard a soft sobbing sound again.

�Why did he force me to do that, Ayanami?
Why does he destroy everything I care about?� Shinji asked as he pressed
himself forward until he was buried to the hilt inside the girl's warm and
moist depths. Without waiting for a reply, his hips started shifting back and
forth in a slow and deep rhythm as his choked sobs floated into the barren
depths of the apartment.

Rei winced as her body was unaccustomed to such
intrusions, but she made not a single sound. She began to wonder just what sort
of man the commander was to destroy the sweet innocence of the pilot that was
having sex with her now. Her eyes shifted over to the dresser a little ways
past the foot of her bed, focusing on the cracked eyeglasses that were so dear
to her.

The blue-eyed boy wept harder as his thrusts picked
up speed, one of his hands moving down to slide underneath the cotton panties
to squeeze her bum hard enough to leave impressions in the flesh, likely
bruising the tender pale skin. �I hate him. I... think I even want to kill him,
Ayanami. How can he be so... cruel?� He whispered,
breaking down into wracking sobs.

The young Ayanami felt
the back of her hair growing moist from the salty tears. She winced again as
she felt the boy's nails digging into the flesh of her shoulder as his arm
wrapped around the back of her own.

�Why did he have to bring me
here?! Why did I have to pilot
that thing? Why couldn't he have just left me alone? He only wanted me when he
could use me... and he used me up and spit me out. Toji...
I'm so sorry.� Shinji whimpered, grinding his hips almost cruelly into the
first child's. A moment later he wrapped both of his arms around the small of
the girl's slender back and pulled her upright as he shifted back into a
sitting position.

Rei's arms hung limply down toward the bed as her body
was rocked on top of the third child's lap. Her head rolled back as she felt
her cheeks burning in what seemed a permanent blush. She remained loose and
passive as she was forced up and down on the boy's straining erection. Her red
eyes shifted down to see the other pilot's eyes were clenched shut and his
expression seemed caught halfway between rage and sorrow. Her heart wept for
the boy's pain, despite what he was doing to her body.

�That stupid... evil... son of a... bitch...� The
blue-eyed pilot gasped out, pounding the girl's hips on his own ever faster and
harder as fresh tears spilled down his cheeks.

The crimson-eyed angel's eyes drifted shut as her
mouth hung open, soft sighs forcing their way out of her as a strange warmth
and pleasure radiated unbidden out of her center and washed over the rest of
her body. She would have been confused at what was going on if she had been
able to form conscious thought at the time.

�AYANAMI!!!�
Shinji cried out, holding the girl still as a groan issued forth from the
depths of his throat, which sounded more like a growl than anything else. He
shivered as he reached his peak in the deepest reaches of the girl's body.

Rei gasped softly as she leaned forward to rest her
head on the boy's strong shoulder as she felt the wet warmth spreading in her
body. She felt weak, but she wasn't sure why. She became aware of the third
child sobbing onto her shoulder again as he clutched at her hips. After what
seemed an eternity later, she was lowered onto her back once more. She took a
deep breath as she felt a lethargy starting to spread throughout her body and
she wondered if the boy was going to sleep with her, and whether he would now
stay in the city. Her heart yearned for that, hoping he would stay with her
forever.

The blue-eyed boy turned so he was sitting on the
edge of the bed and stared at the half-opened closet blankly. Without looking
back at the girl behind him he said �I'm sorry.�

The girl turned her head and fixed her crimson eyes
on the sweat-stained back of the pilot's shirt. �For what?�
She inquired innocently.

Shinji turned his head to look at the girl with
sadness in his eyes. �I'm... going to miss you, Ayanami.�

A foreign pain lanced into the blue-haired beauty's
heart as she realized he was still going to leave the city. �I... shall miss
you as well, Ikari.� She stated the truth, though it
was barely a fraction of what she wanted to tell him. She felt a little angry
at being used. She felt yearning for him to take her once again. But most of
all, she just felt sorrow at the boy's impending departure from her life.

The third child stared at the floor for an
imperceptible amount of time and then reached into his forgotten backpack and
pulled out his SDAT player. He turned to face the first child and placed his
beloved device into the girl's hands as she regarded him with surprise and
confusion evident on her normally stoic face. �I want you to have this... to
remember me by. I hope...� He fell silent for a few moments and then sighed.
�I'm sorry.�

Rei watched as he stood up and bashfully zipped his
pants back up and buckled them. He then straightened out the rest of his
clothes, unable to meet the girl's eyes. She wanted to call out to him, to ask
him to stay, for her if for no other reason. But she kept silent, watching his
nervous departure and the way his eyes fixated on the floor as he left.

The red-eyed angel sat up, wincing slightly as her
weight settled onto her bruised and tender parts. She stared silently at the
door for a while, half-expecting the pilot to come running in and saying he
changed his mind and would never leave her. That what he just did meant
something and it wasn't just his expression of lamentation. She would have even
settled for him returning just to ask for his SDAT player back, just so that
she could see him one more time. But her door remained closed and her heart
remained empty.

The blue-haired beauty shifted her gaze onto the
SDAT player in her hands. Impulsively, she lifted the earpieces up and placed
them in her ears. She stared at the player for several moments before her
finger reached out as if with a mind of its own to hit play. The sounds of the
boy's favorite song flooded into her consciousness.

She contemplated the kind and caring boy that had
entered her life when the angels first started coming, and the broken down
bitter man-child that had shuffled out of her life moments before as she
listened to the song. Hot tears spilled from her eyes as she grieved both for
the loss of the young Ikari's innocence, and for
herself for now being alone once more. �Ikari... Ikari... don't go.� She finally whispered out, much too
late.

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