+~Sacrificial Love~+

Anime: Loveless

Pairing: SoubixSoubi (masterbation)

Disclaimer: loveless doesn't belong to be in any shape or form and although I have SOubi in my closet, technically I don't own him either. Not legally anyway...

Author's notes: One-shot that was a request from some friends. Not for anyone who can't read graphic scenes as 80% of this fic is graphic scenes. I hope you enjoy this fic and please review it for me ne? Help out a new-to-fanfiction-writer and I shall be in your debt.

+~Sacrificial Love~+

The day was a long and hard one as usual, Ritsuka was a difficult master to comply with, his orders contradicted what he truly wanted, it was almost as if he was daring Soubi to disobey him. But all that washed away under the warm stream of water that spread over every inch of his skin, soaking his muscles and helping them to relax as he tilted his face upwards to accept the spray. Long hair was soaked instantly, rushing with the liquid to change to a darker blond and stick to his lean, semi-muscular frame. Such cleansing of his naked form was welcomed.

Tilting his head back towards the floor, he placed both of his hands on the tiled wall, feeling its chill instantly grip his body like electricity rushing through his nerves. Shivering softly he massaged his fingers over the hard surface to warm it up a little. It reminded him of Ritsuka, how the boy was so cold it chilled him to the bone, so he'd had to work on him to make him warm up to the fighter. However, the boy would always revert to being cold again, like a vicious cycle. It made Soubi wonder, that if Ritsuka was surrounded in his constant heat, if the boy would still grow cold or finally shatter the icy defenses around his heart.

The feeling of that warm water streaming over his body was comforting, but the feeling of those quivering unskilled lips on his own was the best experience he had ever had. How was it that something so uncertain and flawed could be so very beautiful to him? Every time the boy blushed and his unskilled lips attempted to return the kiss in such a novice way, it made Soubi melt.. Even though perhaps by anyone else's standards the kiss was bad, Soubi treasured it within his heart always.

The thought of holding Ritsuka in his arms as the water rushed over him was a pleasant one. However, he had sworn to himself that he wouldn't touch Ritsuka until he was old enough.. And even then, he would let the boy decide which role he'd like to play. Shivering under the water Soubi thought about the possibility of Ritsuka being a little older, completely obsessed with his fighter and in love by that time, wanting to be the seme in the relationship. Soubi had thought about taking the sacrifice as his uke, but to allow him to be the seme... To completely submit his body and soul to Aoyagi Ritsuka... Would make Agatsuma Soubi feel utterly complete.

The thought was getting too much for him as he felt the fantasy start to come to life in the form of mental images that aroused him. Either way, seme or uke Soubi would give Ritsuka his body and love him more than any other. The boy had, after all, basically said he'd forget about the other Loveless to keep Soubi by his side.. For that, he knew he would do anything for the younger male.. Twisting the knob to shut off the water, he opened the glass door of the shower and reached for his white, fluffy robe. Ignoring the fact he was still soaking wet, he pulled on the robe before grabbing a towel to dry his hair. Opening the bathroom door he ignored the steam rushing past him and stepped out into the cold room.

Moving over to sit down on his bed, he felt it sink a little with his weight and felt rather pleased he was the only one here tonight. His hair was still freshly wet, clinging to his back and chest and rushing in front of his eyes randomly as if trying to distract him. The white robe he wore was falling off of his right shoulder slightly, perhaps from the way he was sitting with his hands behind him causing his body to slant backwards. Soubi's hand brushed against something hard on the bed and he turned to see what it was. The fighter blushed as he realized it was a sexual toy, one that Kio had brought over as a joke to 'keep him entertained while he wasn't around'.

"Kio.."

The name came through his lips at a rather angry tone, and he was about ready to throw the rubber cock across the room, but then those images came into play again.. The images of Ritsuka asking him if he could take from Soubi's body instead of receiving it within his own.. How would he cope with it? How embarrassed would be he if he couldn't even accept Ritsuka into himself without feeling alot of pain? He knew if the boy saw him in pain it would be all over.. That was a possibility, and Soubi would be unprepared for that ordeal if the situation were to arise.. Turning his head slowly, his sapphire eyes were wandering over the thick toy contemplating a form of practice for if that time would ever come..

Moving his hand to slowly stroke over the length of the rubber, he shivered, thinking about Ritsuka's novice touches to his body, how he would direct the boy to make love to him.. How he'd wanted and desired him so much it hurt.. Damn it, thinking about Ritsuka like this was making the robe rise with Soubi's stiff arousal and the thought of practicing something similar with this toy wasn't helping..
"Rit..su..ka"

Saying that name so slowly, he felt each syllable roll from his tongue, falling in love with them and the person they resembled all over again. Remembering the questioning look in the boy's eyes when he reffered to Seimei, the fear he had that he was more devoted to his brother.. It made Soubi's heart sink.. He needed to prove to Ritsuka that he was different.. Special. The fighter's deep blue eyes lowered slowly, wandering over the slightly ruffled sheets before being hidden behind a satin curtain of wet hair. The hand that had stroked the cold, hard plastic was now grasping onto it softly, slowly stroking it with his warm fingers to let his body heat warm its exterior. The thought of Ritsuka being this hard at the sight of his naked body excited him. The thought of the boy finally realizing how special he was, made his heart ache to do it.

Closing his eyes, the blond lifted the sex toy in his hands, imagining it was Ritsuka's body and moved it close to his quivering lips to stroke his tongue over it uncertainly. It wasn't as warm or soft as flesh, but it would have to do. Now that he had this idea, he knew he couldn't turn back. Kissing over the tip softly, he let his tongue tease over its surface a little more. The passionate man knew he'd need to lubricate it if he was going to use it and this was the only way he could think of that wouldn't have him reconsidering if he went to look for a proper lubricant.

Clamping soft lips around the large fake appendage, he sucked it into his mouth, pushing it in as far as it would go. Lashing his tongue against it desperately, the man gradually started to lower himself down onto the bed, imagining Ritsuka's hands on his shoulders pressing him down. The fighter's whole body began to tingle with the thought of this forbidden fantasy as he slid his free hand from the knee down to a quivering thigh, slowly opening up the robe to reveal more of his skin. The hand didn't stop there though, it traveled up to the part in the robe at his chest and slipped inside, searching for that small nub that was so sensitive to the touch. Shuddering with desire, he finally found that place on himself, trying to mimic Ritsuka's shy and questioning touch as he softly stimulated the erecting flesh moaning softly into his sucking.

His hair was like a blanket around his face, making him strangely comfortable while performing this embarrassing act. Taking hold of this fake cock in his mouth, he thrusted it in slowly at first before picking up the pace, possessively lavishing it with such a craving tongue. Shuddering at how sensitive his nipples were, he could feel his erection starting to strain against the material of the robe as if begging desperately to be released. The hand stroking at his hardening nipple abandoned its post to travel in a devious line down his fluffy robe to rub softly over the bulge that was raising the material. Quivering with need, he thrusted against the gentle hand as if begging his sacrifice to give him more.

As he ceased his sucking on the rubber sex toy, a stream of saliva slowly trickled down his chin, he'd lubricated the toy well enough he was sure and now it was time for the real test. Blushing uncontrollably, he parted his legs slowly, sliding his hand over his thighs to lift the robe up. Each inch of skin appearing more delicious than the last until his quivering erection was revealed to the eyes of his imaginary lover. Refusing to let himself just grasp the shaft and jerk it off like normal, he moved his fingers past the demanding flesh and slipped them between his legs to probe at his opening gently, making his heart beat faster.

It felt odd to do this with his own fingers, but he didn't want to hurt himself by just trying the sex toy right off. Testing the waters, he pressed one finger inside slowly dragging it along the tight muscle. Shakily, he tried to encourage it to loosen and to his surprise it did slightly, slowly swallowing his finger. Now that he could reach a little further, he circled his finger inside probing at his yielding inner walls of soft warm flesh and gasped softly with the strangely pleasant sensation. Quickly he added a second finger, wondering if the sensation would be even greater than with one. Working them both in he stressed the ring of muscle and groaned at the feeling of both digits stroking over his soft tissue inside. Both loosening and pleasuring himself with this odd new sensation, he could feel his erection swelling with need. That was the last straw, he needed it...

Questing further with his fingers, he started ramming them in a little harder, his erection twitching and rising with desire as he did so. A moan hummed through his throat a little louder than expected and he clutched the vibrator tightly, guiding his hand down towards the other. Blushing as he thought about what he was about to do, he knew there was something deep inside of him his fingers alone couldn't reach.. He needed this so badly.. Soubi needed Ritsuka so badly.. Quickly removing his fingers, he positioned the toy at his entrance shivering at the feeling of the hard length threatening to impale him. The man teased himself by softly straddling against it and his body arched as if begging an invisible lover to show him mercy.

"R..Ritsuka!"

Easing the thick rubber cock into him slowly, he shuddered as it forced past his tight ring of muscle threatening to tear him open. However, he refused to back down and pushed it in further, getting the head of the toy inside. Giving himself a moment to adapt, he breathed heavily letting his head fall back as he toyed with the vibrator, thrusting it shallow at first, trying to get used to the feeling of something moving inside.. The more he thrusted, the more he got used to it and his body was soon hungering for more. Soubi found himself thrusting it against his insides a little harder, questing further into his depths and swirling it in a circular motion to feel the sensation rushing all over the walls of tissue inside.

Feeling a chill rush over his fingers, he realized they were still wet with his juices from when he was using his fingers to pleasure himself. Moving it up, he rubbed the wet fingers over his straining erection, moaning Ritsuka's name softly into the open air. His hand was so soft at first, then it latched onto the demanding flesh squeezing it hard forcing the fighter to let out a loud moan. As he jerked upon his erection roughly, tensing and relaxing his fingers from time to time, he pressed the toy in rougher as well, quivering as he felt it slide over his prostate, sending a current of pleasure to stiffen his cock. The toy felt so good inside of him, and the image of Ritsuka grinding and heaving against him desperately was giving him the confidence he needed to continue.


That sex toy felt so good inside of him, but something was missing.. Remembering it had a vibrate function, he dared himself to try it, pressing his finger over the switch placing pressure upon it, wondering how it would feel. He threw his head back and cried out, arching his back as he felt the rubber humming to life, with a different sensation all together. It was pressing over his flesh in an unpredictable way, like a real lover, forcing the pleasure before shadowed by this intense feeling. It was almost too much to take as he squeezed at his dripping cock to measure up to its demands. The fighter knew he couldn't last long like this, but he had to keep focus if he was to pleasure Ritsuka.

"RITSUKA!!"

The voice of the man was shrill, desperate and begging for release. Back arched with need, the hand upon the toy was ramming it into his body as hard as possible forcing it to vibrate against his prostate and drive him insane. Finally the shock of the vibrations became too much for him to handle. That hand tugged rapidly at his swelling flesh chasing the feeling until the overwhelming climax seized his body, forcing him to rock back violently. The warm, white seed splattered over a perspiring torso and chest, dirtying the parts of the robe that still hugged around his quivering body. Switching the vibrator off, Soubi just layed there, breathing heavily to feel his body pulsing with the high that was delivered.

Regaining a slight hold over basic senses, the fighter pressed a shaking hand over his chest to gather up some of the sexual juices and stared at it as the liquid dripped down slowly. The dazed man's whole body felt so exhausted, he had completely underestimated the vibrating sex toy. This was something Soubi couldn't allow to happen if Ritsuka was ever to make love to him, if he came first and his master was unsatisfied he would have ruined everything. But Soubi wouldn't give up that easily, he would have to keep practicing in order to be prepared for Ritsuka.

"Ritsuka.. I love you Ritsuka"

END

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~Enchanter~
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