Together

Together
by
Pocky

I was extremely bored. I closed my eyes as I lay back on the lounge of the small apartment Natsuo and I shared. Natsuo had been out all day, he was gone when I woke up, and I was waiting for him to come home. I was missing the red-head a lot, lately it seemed like my lover was out more often than not.

My cat ears twitched as I heard the sound of a key in the door, but I kept my eyes closed and stayed where I was.

'Youji?' he called as he came over to me and sat down on the edge of the couch.

I opened my eyes as I recognised the emotions in his voice, hurt and fear, and I was shocked to see that his ears and tail were missing!

'Natsuo, how could you?!' I suddenly found myself angry with him. 'You promised that I would be your first! And that you would wait until I was ready!'

Natsuo was shaking and still had that same look of fear in his eyes. 'Youji...' he whispered my name. '...I was....raped...'

My tail stiffened in shock at his words and all my anger suddenly vanished. 'What...?'

'On my way home, a man approached me. I couldn't do anything to stop him. He shoved me up agaisnt a wall and took my ears and tail.'

Natsuo was crying. I pulled him into my lap and wrapped my arms tightly around him, trying to comfort him. 'Natsuo, I'm sorry about yelling at you, I had no idea.'

I really had wanted to be the one to take his ears and tail though. I sighed inwardly and kissed his forehead lightly.

'Youji...' he started. 'Do you...hate me now...? Because of what's happened to me?' Natsuo was shaking in my grip like a lost, scared kitten. 'I know that you really wanted to be the one who took my ears and tail.'

'Of course not, kitten. I still love you as much as I did when I first told you I loved you.' I told him, trying to make him feel even just a little better. 'If you ever left me for someone else...I don't know what I would do. Natsuo, I'm completely lost without you.'

There was an awkwardness between us for the next few hours, but I kept my arms wrapped around him, and eventually my earless and tailless kitten fell asleep in my arms.

I must have fallen asleep because the next thing i knew the sun was shining in my eyes through the open window. Natsuo was nowhere to be seen, so I twitched my cat ears, listening for the small sounds I would usually hear him make in the mornings.

I heard nothing.

There was no way he would have gone out today after the state he was in when he came home last night.

I looked down at the coffee table and saw a folded piece of paper with my name scribbled hastily on the front in Natsuo's handwriting.

I picked up the piece of paper and opened it, shocked when I read what he had written.


*Youji, I can't take this anymore. My life isn't worth living anymore. You were the only thing　that held me together, but after what happened yesterday, I completely fell apart inside.　Not even your amazing smile can help me now. Youji, love, I'm so sorry for this, but you must　go on living your life without me. Even in death I will love you with all my heart and soul.
Natsuo*


I had to read it three times before my mind made sense of what he had written. There were a few smears of blood on the note, and the writing was smudged in a few places from his tears.

It was then that I noticed the small trail of blood leading out to the balcony. I ran over to the glass door and yanked it open, stepping outside with a soft splash, and when I glanced down, there was blood everywhere. And it was all his.

'Natsuo!' I yelled, falling to my knees as I saw him. The tears started to flow from my eyes and they wouldn’t stop. My lover looked like he had been torn apart by wild animals, but there was a knife next to his leg, stained with his blood.

Natsuo had deep cuts all over his arms and legs. There was a gun next to his right hand, where it had fallen after he'd shot his brains out of his skull.

I couldn't stand the sight of my lover's mangled body but found that I couldn't tear my eyes away, no matter how much I wanted to. Natsuo was lying in a huge puddle of his own blood, some of it was dripping down off the edges of the balcony.

'Natsuo, I'll join you in hell,' I whispered as I reached over and picked up the blood-covered gun with a shaky hand. 'I love you so much, Natsuo, my life is nothing without you.'

I put my left hand down, intending to use it to steady myself as I stood up, but I felt a sharp pain in my hand, and I looked down to see that I'd cut it on a sharp piece of broken glass.

I looked closer at Natsuo and saw the small pieces of glass sticking out of some of his cuts. there was glass all over the ground, most of it covered in his blood.

I put the gun in my lap and picked up a larger piece of glass, bringing it to my wrist and slashing it across my skin. My warm blood dripped down my arm, and I dropped the piece of glass and picked up the gun once more.

'Natsuo, we must always be together, even death cannot seperate us,' I said as I moved closer to him. Then I kissed my dead lover softly and pulled away, lifting the gun and placing the barrel of the gun in my mouth. My vision was blurry, and my left arm had gone numb.

I loved Natsuo so much, I could never go on without him. I pulled the trigger of the gun, felt intense pain, and then nothing. I never knew that death could be so easy to obtain.

I was surrounded by darkness.

'Why, Youji?' a voice asked me, and I spun around.

'Because we must always be together.' My answer was given. 'I have no will to go on without you.'

'Oh, Youji, whatever am I to do with you?' Natsuo asked, giving me a sad smile.

I flung my arms around him, tears falling from my eyes as I felt his body pressed against mine once more.

'Natsuo, I love you so much...'

We would always be together, no matter what happened. Not even fate could keep us apart.

~Owari~

AN: This is the kind of fan fiction I come up with when I’m depressed. Please, no flames.