Secrets Never to be Told

Yo. I wonder how everyone will like this fic. It's Yuki talking about how deep his relationship with Ayame really is. Read and review. Thanks a lot.


I don't know how it started. I never liked my brother. He was always trying to get me to like him though. But we took it too far one day. He asked me to come over because he wanted to talk. At first I had refused but after discussing the situation with Shigure I ended up going over there. It was about seven o' clock at night when I arrived. I had no idea I would wind up staying all night. We sat on his couch and he started to tell me how much he loved me and wanted us to be brothers. It was nothing I haven't heard before. But then he did something unexpected. He touched my cheek and stared at me with a strange look in his eyes.


"Ayame?" I said.


He just continued to rub my cheek then he finally leaned in...and kissed me. I don't know why I didn't pull away. I should have...but I let it continue. It was just a small kiss. But it happened. We pulled away and stared at each other.


"Why...." I started.


" I don't know. I'm sorry, Yuki. I...I'm so sorry." Ayame stuttered out.


I tried to walk away but I couldn't. I just couldn't. Instead I kissed him again, this time deeper. What the hell was wrong with me? With us? He didn't stop my kiss either. Instead he wrapped his arms around my body and before I knew it he was on top of me. I felt him take off my shirt and did nothing to stop him. I was a virgin though. I had never done anything like this before. In fact this was my first kiss. Who would have guessed that my first kiss would be from my brother? But it didn't end when he took off my shirt. He removed his own top and started to undo my pants.


"Ayame." I said in a breathless voice. "We have to stop...this isn't right."


He nodded his head. He stopped moving entirely and just laid on top of me. He eventually started to plant light kisses on my neck. I put my arms around his neck and let him do what he wanted. I didn't want to stop. I don't know why. It felt so wrong but it also felt so good. He started to grind his hips into mine and I moved my body along with him. Remember now, I was a virgin. I was just going with my instincts. Ayame eventually stopped that and he once again began to remove my pants. This time I didn't stop him. He pulled my pants off entirely then took off my underwear. There was a situation I never thought I would be in. Lying naked underneath Ayame with Ayame removing his pants on top of me. After Ayame took in the sight of my naked body he took off his own pants. All the while he had an extremely lustful look in his eyes.


He said that I was turning red and that my lips were puffy. That was probably because of the makeout session we had before we removed our clothes. I looked at Ayame's body and gasped. He was so beautiful. I loved the way his hair framed his pale body. He leaned down and kissed me again. I pulled away after a few moments.


"I've never done this before." I whispered.


Ayame nodded. "I figured as much. Just trust me ok?" he said. I nodded my head not knowing what else to do. I let him do what he wanted to me.


He told me to relax and I tried. I don't think I did a very good job of it. He slipped his fingers inside of me and started to move them around. A little moan escaped me. I don't know how it felt. It's hard to describe. It hurt but at the same time it felt good. Ayame must have took my moans to be a good sign because he slipped his fingers out of me and prepared to go all the way...I don't think I was ready. He slowly entered my body and I let out a gasp.


"Are you ok, Yuki?" he said.


I nodded my head even though I was feeling dizzy. "Yea. Just go slowly...and gently...." I told him.


Ayame nodded and procedded. He did as I asked. He went very slowly and very gently. I gasped lightly and moaned quietly. Ayame started to moan too. He must have liked this. I was so tight though. There was no way he could get through without hurting me. I tried to loosen up but I couldn't.


"It hurts." I told him.


"Would you like me to stop?" Ayame asked.


I did...but I didn't. It was painful...but it wasn't. I didn't know what I wanted. "No. Don't stop." I said in gasping breaths. He started to go a little faster. It was beginning to be too much for me. My breaths came faster and soon I was hyperventilating. Ayame must have thought this was pleasure because he went faster. I must have been at my climax when it happened. I passed out right before I had my orgasm. When I woke up I was lying in a large bed. Ayame was sitting next to me. He took the time out to dress me in some pajamas and put a fan next to me. I looked at him and he smiled. He started to rub my hair.


"I thought I was going to have to call Hatori to come check on you. Are you feeling all right?" Ayame asked.


"I'm...in a lot of pain." I said. I touched my lower body to try and sooth the pain but when I looked at my hand there was blood on it. I was about to start freaking out but Ayame put his hand on my shoulder to calm me down.


"You're bleeding simply because it's your first time. There's nothing to be worried about. I promise." He kissed me on my forehead and I felt better. I looked at the clock. It was almost nine in the morning. I was out that long? I stood and Ayame tried to stop me but I ignored him.


"I have to get home. I don't want anyone worrying about me." I said.


"Yuki...." Ayame said sadly.


I just shook my head and gathered my clothes which he so graciously folded. "This never happened, Ayame. I'm sickened with myself. This night never happened." I told him. Then I left him.


I didn't stay gone though. A few days later I found myself going back to his home. It was late at night again. For some reason I couldn't concentrate on anything since that night. I wanted to talk to Shigure about it. I wanted to but I didn't. What would he think of me and Ayame if he knew what we had done? And besides, what could he say to me that I haven't already thought myself? The only person I could talk to again was Ayame. I walked into his home and this time he lead me to his bedroom. I didn't think this was a good idea but I didn't refuse it. We sat together on his bed. I couldn't think of anything to say.


"Yuki...I...I don't know what to say." Ayame said.


"Neither do I." I responded. "What we did was wrong of us."


Ayame nodded. "But...it happened. We can't change that. And I want apologize because I know it was your first time. Who would have guessed that your first time would be with...well...."


"My brother." I finished for him.


"Yea." He said.


He looked at me and I looked at him. I knew it was going to happen again. I felt it in my heart. And guess what? It did happen again. He leaned in and kissed me and I kissed him back. Once again he was on top of me. I would say that in the course of seven minutes we both had our clothes off and Ayame was ready to penetrate me again. I didn't want to because I remembered what happened last time. But as he slid himself into me it didn't hurt as much. In fact I felt shivers of pleasure run throughout my whole body. This time it didn't feel good and bad. It just felt good. It felt really good. I wrapped my arms around him and told him to go faster.


"Are you sure, Yuki?" he asked me.


I nodded my head and took deep breaths. "Yes, I'm sure. God, Ayame, go faster." I told him. He did as he was told. He was coming in and out of me faster and faster. Eventually my moans turned to yells and my yells turned to screams. I was like a banshee. But Ayame loved it. He was going so fast. I don't think he could go any faster if he tried. While I was screaming my lungs out I started to flail my legs around. I don't think Ayame liked this because after a few moments he grabbed my legs and rested them on his shoulders. I arched my back and he pulled me closer to him. I embraced him deeply as well.


"Ayame...oh, Ayame." I said in his ear.


He turned me around and I was lying on my stomach. He climbed on top of me and I started to push himself inside me. I yelled and yelled and yelled. It was all out of pleasure though. I moved my body with his. The soft matress felt good against my...manhood...for lack of a better word. I started to pump it but Ayame slapped my hand away and did it himself. It felt so good. It felt much better than me having to do it myself. Eventually I released and so did Ayame. But I didn't want it to end. I had to think of something to keep it going. I could tell Ayame was tired so I decided that I would pleasure him a little bit.


I flipped him around so he was lying on his back. I sat on top of him and planted kisses down his chest. He moaned in delight. I was glad. I stopped at his perfect nipple and started to suck on it. Everything about my brother was perfect.


"Yuki...." he said in barely a whisper.


I started to go lower and stopped when I reached his manhood. I kissed his inner thighs and that recieved a sharp yell from him. I think it was mostly from impatience. After a few moments of teasing I took him inside my mouth. His moans started to get louder and louder. He grabbed at my hair and started to push himself inside my mouth. I loved the taste of him. He started to push faster and faster. He released himself in my mouth and I sucked up every last bit of his fluids. After that, it was over.


I crawled next to him on the bed. He looked at me and rubbed my hair.


"Was I good this time?" I asked him.


He smiled. "You were wonderful, Yuki. That was amazing." he said.


I was about to fall asleep when he crawled on top of me again. I guess he liked the view from up there. He slipped himself inside me and I gave a small gasp. That was all he did though. I guess he wanted us to be one as we slept. I didn't mind. I moved to make myself more comfortable with him in me and fell asleep.


When I woke up I wanted to scream. I pushed my brother off of me waking him up.


"Why, Ayame? How can we even think of doing these things? It's disgusting. We're brothers!" I yelled at him.


"I know." he said calmly. "I don't know what to say...."


I just shook my head. I put on my clothes and left. But...when I go to visit him again, how do I know we won't do what we did before? I guess...only time will tell.


And that's that. Review if you will. I hope you like it. I really like Ayame and Yuki as a couple but I seem to be the only one so it would be nice to see who else thinks it's ok for these two to be in love.