See All That I See

It was night, and while sleep seemed to want to claim him, Tsume did not let it come. He lay in front of a fire, his arms resting under his head, his eyes closed. His mind wanted to go on and go on, but he shut it up, not liking how his thoughts were going. So many years had passed, had passed around he and his friends. And while they had grown older, they still seemed so young and restless. Tsume himself had grown older, and Toboe.... Toboe's a man now. Can't exactly call him kid anymore. But he is, he's a kid. Do things have to change so much? Can't he be as young and warm as ever? Tsume didn't know, all he knew was that time marched on, and he was powerless to stop it. He sighed heavily, feeling like a fool. He moved closer to the warmth of the fire, letting his hands drop and rest on his stomach, his eyes opening to look up into the night sky.

Light footsteps were heard. The sound grew louder and stopped a few feet from the lying wolf. "Hey, Tsume," he greeted, sitting down beside him. He knew the wolf didn't care much for company, but he hung around anyway. He knew there was a softie deep down under that tough guy shell. Why else would he have let Toboe stick around? "Wha'cha thinkin' about?" Though Toboe was grown, he still had a childish charm about him. But one only had to glance at him that his personality was the only childish thing about him. He sat with his legs out, his hands behind him for support.

Tsume looked to him. Toboe was so beautiful now, and he felt a small pang of love for the boy in his heart. It was deep and strong, but he shoved it away. Not liking how it made him feel. "Nothin'. I don't always have to be thinkin' do I?" His voice was as rough and mean as ever, and he hated the way it sounded. All he wanted to do was be alone, but Toboe, in his childish naiveté, would always want to hang all over him. "Leave me alone, kiddo. I don't want to talk right now. All I want to do is...." But he didn't know what he wanted to do. Be alone? No. He didn't want to be alone. He wanted warmth, and comfort, and he was shoving away the only other living creature that had ever offered it to him. "All I want to do is find a reason for all of it," he said softly, and his eyes were pleading, staring into Toboe's own. "To find a reason why things have to always change. Why we can't just stay the same. Why you won't always be the boy who would always follow me around. You say we'll always be together. But I see that as the bullshit it is, Toboe."

"Bullshit?" Toboe repeated, giving Tsume a look that said "what are you talking about?” He scooted closer to the man and gave him his usual soft gaze. "I'm still that same kid and you know it. I still bug you all day and night, I still like to have fun, and I still don't want to be apart from you guys."

'Especially you.'

The love he felt for Tsume was more than simple friendship and he knew it, but he knew there a chance for anything more was nonexistent, but he was happy for settling with giving Tsume the company that was normally shoved off. Then a sudden realization came to him.

'He's not telling me to go away.... Is he ok?'

Toboe's eyes were filled with worry for a moment before returning to their calm, caring state. Tsume wanted to move further away from the boy, but his body wouldn't allow him to. Suddenly he was very tired, was completely exhausted. Couldn't move, couldn't speak; could only stare.

'Don't go away then, kid. Come closer to me.... It's alright. That's okay. As close as you want....'

There was love for the boy, so much that he felt foolish. But he couldn't shove it away like he did everything else. Tsume reached up to Toboe, smiling faintly. "Come closer, kid. It's...." he thought for a moment, and then his smile widened. "It's okay."

Toboe was shocked to see that smile on Tsume's face and couldn't help but laugh at that thing that, to Toboe, didn't show up nearly often enough. Taking the hand that was offered, he moved to lay beside Tsume, resting on his arm. He wanted to question the change in attitude, but didn't want to spoil it and make him push away like he always does.

"Maybe I'm just tired," Tsume whispered, and he sighed. "Tired of always being so angry. Angry with you, angry with the other two. Angry with myself." He laughed, the sound dry and without humor. "Angry that I always let things slip right through my paws." Toboe was heavier, so much heavier. And it only hurt Tsume more. He brought his other arm over, patting Toboe's head, feeling the smoothness of his long hair beneath his fingers. "Is it possible that I can change who I am? I should change.... It does me no good to be so distant, to hate so much...."

'Would you love me still, kid? If I changed all that I am. Would you love me more?'

The younger wolf raised his head into the patting, continuing to smile. "That's what I've been trying to tell you this whole time. Harboring so much hate and frustration can't do you any good. It only keeps you from enjoying life and it makes you old and bitter. And everyone has the potential to change. You just have to want to change. And I'll be here to help you along the way. I'm sure even the others would help... in their own way."

'Yeah, I'll be here. I'll always be here.'

Toboe felt forever in his debt for taking him in when he was still young, but there was another force that kept Toboe at the wolf's side. "Hey, maybe I'll get to hear you laugh more often. Rare though it is, I love hearing you laugh."

Tsume sat up and looked down at Toboe. In that moment, he felt like he could let the boy have his way. He wasn't stupid, could read the look in the young wolf's eyes, had always seen it there. Tsume reached down and put his strong hand against Toboe's pale cheek. "You're the only one who can make me," he said to him. "Only you, kiddo. I'm not the greatest I know, but sometimes you make me feel like I'm more than I am." Tsume smiled at him crookedly, stroking his cheek almost tenderly. "You can tell me how you feel, kid. I won't bite."

'Only me, huh? I feel special.'

Tsume's comment only brought more warmth to Toboe as he lay with him. "How I feel? I'm surprised you even need to ask. We both know how transparent I am." he said with a light laugh. "I love you, Tsume." The words seemed to flow from his tongue so smoothly. It was clear that his mind was made up long ago. "I don't expect you to love me back, but that's how I feel. I've loved you for years. At first it was just admiration, but it grew to be more than that. And, though you often distanced yourself from me, I grew to love you." Though the younger wolf had just began to express his deepest feelings, he did not let his eyes waver from Tsume's.

Tsume knew it; had known it all along. But he still gaped stupidly at the boy. No words would come to mind, and he drew his hand away from him, almost as if Toboe's words had stung him. "You.…" Tsume shook his head. "You can't love me. You're just a dumb kid. You don't know what love is." But that was a lie, he knew what love was more than any of them, had given all of his heart to all of them since the beginning. It was Tsume that had hidden his away, hid his away still. "You... know nothing of who I am, Toboe. You can't love me...." It was odd, talking to the wolf about love. He had known him all through his childhood, had basically raised him, and now he was confronted with his love. Tsume leaned over the boy, and his eyes were curious and warm. "You stupid kid. You don't know the first thing about love do you?" Tsume lowered himself down, kissing the smooth skin right next to Toboe's lips softly. "Not one damn thing," he said, and he pulled back, staring at him; waiting for him to say something. Anything.

"Is that so?" Toboe lifted his head to brush those soft lips across Tsume's. A shiver ran through him as he finally felt that which he had been waiting so long for. There his lips lingered as he spoke into the other's. "Well, this dumb kid knows that you're not as tough as you put up. I know how you watch and wish, when you're alone, that you had some kind of connection. That you were closer... to me. I can feel it. Even when you scowl at me and call me things, I know you're just protecting yourself from something that makes you feel uneasy. But you need to let it out, Tsume." He nuzzled into the older wolf's neck and breathed in that wonderful scent that comforted him God only knows how many nights. "It's such a wonderful feeling and if you really want to change, love will do it. Love can do anything."

Tsume nodded numbly. "Yeah...." he said. "Love can do anything."

He pulled away slightly, looking down into the younger wolf's eyes. For a split second, he thought he could see the boy Toboe had been. The sweet, meek boy who made life easier for Tsume with his silence. But while Toboe's mannerisms had for the most part stayed the same, the little boy who Tsume had first taken such a shine to was in fact, gone.

'But it's a good adult he's becoming. Strong and free. Not afraid like you.'

Tsume pressed his lips to Toboe's firmly, letting his hand rest on the back of his neck. Pulling away, breathing hard against his lips, he whispered, "I love you too, Toboe. Maybe it's always been there. I'm not the best person at seein' things too clearly. But I love you... and I love how you love me." It sounded silly, but Tsume stood by it.

Toboe's heart skipped a beat as Tsume's confession reached his ears and for a moment, it felt like he had already reached paradise. "I don't care how long you've loved me or how sure you are. I'm just happy to know that you do. So happy."

His lips tasted so good and one side of his mouth dropped to change the smile that resided on his face into a sly smirk. Pheromones seemed to ooze from his body as the one he loved hovered over his body and he didn't care. He wanted Tsume to know everything about him and he felt no shame in the wolf knowing how he felt for him. A hand reached up to wrap around Tsume's neck and bring him down for another kiss as the other snaked around to his back.

'I want you so bad. I've been waiting so long for this. I don't ask for much, but please don't take this away from me.'

'Toboe. Toboe, I love you so much.'

His arms were much stronger than they used to be, and Tsume allowed himself to be lead into the kiss. He kissed him back passionately, his tongue finding its way into Toboe's mouth, twirling with the boy's own. He moaned into the kiss, laying his heavy body on top of the younger wolf's, feeling his lust and love for him. He thought back on all the years they had spent together, so much friendship and trust and warmth and anger and learning. All of it together. And Tsume was his for the taking, whatever he wanted. He broke the kiss first, letting his strong hands explore Toboe's body, running over his body, wanting to feel his skin, but settling for touching him through his clothes.

"What do you want, Toboe? Anything.... Anything is yours...."

"You. I want all of you. Everything you've got. Your love, your body... you fantasies," Toboe said with hastening breath, half moaning from the sensation of Tsume's thick hands against him. "Do what you will with me. I trust you and I want you to feel every bit of the love you dream of." He gently fingered the discolored scar on Tsume's chest and looked up at him with loving, lustful eyes then moved to nibble at the older wolf's shoulder.

"All of me...? Toboe. That means everything there is to me. My burdens, my pain. Will you shoulder all of it with me, kid? Are you strong enough for that?"

But that was a stupid thing to ask, Toboe was stronger than him, had always been stronger than him. Anyone willing to love and not be afraid of losing was someone infinitely strong. Tsume had resolved to shutting himself up, being closed to the world, and had lost touch with his heart. Had lost touch with the wonderful emotion, with any wonderful emotion. All that had remained for him was anger, and it was no way to live.

"Yeah," he answered himself, looking deep into Toboe's eyes. "Yeah, I guess you're strong enough. Help me then, kiddo. Help me...."

He sat up onto his knees, pulling Toboe up with him gently. He began to unbutton Toboe's shirt, sliding it off of his shoulders and kissing his skin. Toboe's skin was incredibly soft, and Tsume moaned against him, his hand plunging into the young wolf's thick hair, fisting in it almost painfully.

"Let me love you then, Toboe," he whispered against him, "Let me make love to you, then. I want to.... I want to so bad."

That same rough attitude had bled into his actions and, though Toboe was as gentle as they come, he was turned on by the treatment Tsume gave him. "Yes, do it. Please. I want you inside me. I want you to fill that emptiness. Love me and make me feel whole." His nipples hardened as his hands moved to caress Tsume's shoulders before moving to his back, pulling him closer. "Oh Tsume, I've waited so long to feel your sweet lips against me. I dream of you almost every night. You and me, together in paradise." Toboe pressed his body close to Tsume's before lowering them both to the ground. He looked up at Tsume with seductive eyes and spoke. "Make love to me, Tsume," he said in a low, raspy voice. "Fill me and give me everything you have."

"Everything I have," Tsume agreed. "I will. I'll give you everything, Toboe. You deserve it so much, Toboe. Everything I have and more."

'Together in paradise. Oh, Toboe. You are my paradise, you idiot. You always have been, kiddo.'

Tsume grabbed him by his hair and jerked him up, kissing him hard. He made it so that Toboe was on top of him, his legs on either side of him. Tsume's arousal pressed into the younger wolf, and Tsume grinned up at him, moving his hips against him, his hands roaming up to play with his hardened nipples, pulling at them teasingly, rolling them between his thumb and forefinger.

'Can this be my Toboe? My sweet, innocent little Toboe?'

Tsume searched his face almost thoughtfully. Yes, he still was his sweet little Toboe. Only now he was his incredibly sexy little Toboe as well, and Tsume laughed softly, sitting up, wrapping his arms around him. He pressed his lips to Toboe's neck, nibbling on him softly. And he was terribly hard for him, and throbbed and ached for him maddeningly.

"I can't play around anymore," he said, and his voice was deep and low, "I need you now...."

"Ditto," replied Toboe.

He quickly rose to removed his own lower clothing, his eyes never leaving the other. Illusion or reality, Tsume was still an image to make Toboe swoon. The second everything was removed, the young wolf pounced on Tsume, knocking him to the ground. He smothered him in hot kisses as his hands roamed Tsume's battle worn body. He shivered from the skin to skin contact as he began to mentally prepare himself for the entrance of Tsume's piece. Tsume wrapped one arm around Toboe, rolling on top of him. He then took the younger wolf's legs and place his ankles on his broad shoulders. Looking down at him, at his beautiful, unmarked, naked body, Tsume grew even more turned on. He placed himself at Toboe's opening, staring down into his eyes.

"I love you, Toboe," he whispered, and then he gently moved inside of him, crying out at the tightness of the young wolf. "T... Toboe...." he whimpered, and he turned his head slightly, kissing his foot; his ankle.

Though Toboe loved that his dreams were finally made true, there was one thing that those dreams had left out. "Tsu...me.... It hurts," he said, his face clenched in pain.

'It hurts, but please don't stop. Don't stop.'

He held on tight in an attempt to brace himself. There was pleasure in the movement that proceeded, but it was still overshadowed by the pain of the stretching of his virgin hole. But that discomfort didn't stop the young wolf from moving his hips against his new lover.

"Oh... Toboe, I'm so sorry...."

But he didn't pull away, he merely let the boy hold onto him, and moved in and out of him gently, careful to be as easy on him as he could be. The sensation that raced through his body was tremendous, and Tsume couldn't help but moan as he made love to him. He could feel the young wolf being stretched wider for his large muscle, and Tsume quickened his pace slightly, looking into his face worriedly. It was twisted into a look of pain and pleasure, and Tsume could only hope that the latter overrode the former.

"Toboe," Tsume breathed, his breath growing heavy and ragged. "Toboe, I'm sorry it hurts.... K...kiddo.... I'm sorry...." But he moaned louder still, his own face showing extreme pleasure, his teeth bared.

Toboe's eyes cracked open to gaze at Tsume's face, his own relaxing as the pain began to dissipate. "Don't... be sorry. Just don't stop." He moaned as the wolf pushed in and out at an increasing pace. Hands began to caress Tsume's body, griping at times. His hips moved against the other’s with aggression as he whispered his new lover's name. "Tsume. Tsume." Pleasure was building up in him and he didn't know if it was possible to love the wolf any more.

Tsume quickened pace even more once he saw that Toboe's pleasure was overriding his pain. The boy looked so wonderful lying there, almost heartbreakingly beautiful in his exuberant youth and innocence. Tsume's own eyes were terribly hard and unforgiving, while Toboe's had always only been filled with love and gratitude; had never gone harsh, or cruel. Tsume felt his love for Toboe almost like something physical. It was so deep and strong, and he laid forward, pressing his lips to Toboe's neck.

"Feels... great, kid," he breathed, meeting the boys movements with his own. "So great...."

"Y- Yeah," Toboe responded, beginning to pant and moan louder. "I told you I'm not a kid anymore," he wanted to say, but wasn't able to speak.

'I'm a wolf now, not just some pup. A wolf that seems to be good enough for you, my love. And you're mine now and I'm gonna take care of you to the best of my abilities.' A hand went to Tsume's back to keep him close as the other moved through his hair. The hunger in Toboe's eyes grew deeper as the pleasure was turning him into a wild creature.

'Such a big strong wolf now....'

The voice in his mind should have sounded jeering and teasing, but it was true. Such a strong wolf Toboe had turned into, and Tsume could not deny the small part of him that loathed the change. He had liked it better when Toboe relied on him and followed him, when the boy was nearly helpless without him. Now he stood tall and strong in front of Tsume, no longer a pup.... Tsume felt his heart nearly breaking at the way life had to always change around him. He had never conformed, had never accepted that he must change with time as well. But my little Toboe has changed...has changed so much. Tsume pushed all of his thoughts away. So the boy was strong, Tsume could still be strong for him. Could still guide him. He pushed in deeper, burying his face into Toboe's hair and breathing in deeply. Toboe was still tight around him, and Tsume's breathing became harsh and ragged, sweat starting to stand out on his skin. All of a sudden he felt like howling to the moon, like calling out to all of creation his love for Toboe.

'Paradise has no chance, huh? It doesn't stand a chance. Paradise is right here, in his eyes.'

Toboe's breath began to match the one who he made love to. His moans grew louder as Tsume pushed deeper. "Yes, Tsume! Faster!"

Toboe screamed out with a deep voice. Claws raked into Tsume's back and teeth pressed against his shoulder. His breath was rapid and his body sweat against Tsume's hard body. Everything seemed so perfect as they moved together as one. It was like as dream and Toboe couldn't help but shed tears of joy as the one he sought after for so long was finally his. He couldn't care less how Tsume kept that hard exterior. Toboe knew Tsume's heart was his. He knew the real Tsume that was kept from the world and knowing that felt him with such love and warmth. The changing process for Tsume would be a slow one, but Toboe would be there every step of the way to help him through every problem. That was the love he shared with him.

Toboe was powerful, and his voice possessed deep strength. Tsume took his legs and wrapped them around his waist, obeying his lover's command and slamming into him harder and deeper. The sound of flesh against flesh was loud in the night air, and for the first time since they had begun, Tsume thought of his other companions.

'What will they think of ya, Tsume? Making love to the kid here. Givin' in to all of the parts of yourself that you've managed to suppress for all this time.'

But Tsume could have given half a shit what the others thought of him. They loved him as well, and while he was willing to bet that they would find this behavior strange, he knew that they knew that Toboe had loved him forever. Such love and devotion deserved to be rewarded. And if the only way Tsume could express himself was through the animal act they were now engaged in, what of it?

'We are animals. But we're animals in love. And that must account for somethin.''

It did, it accounted for everything. Tsume cried out his lover's name, hearing birds fly off from the raised sound of his voice, jetting away from their hiding places in the tall trees above them. His cry of lust morphed into a howl, smooth and low and strong, and he held onto Toboe tightly, pressing insistent, hard kisses all over his face.

That howl moved through Toboe's ears and went straight to his soul, making him shiver. It was a haunting yet loving call that would stay with him forever. He added a howl of his own, calling out his lover's name as he was smothered with kisses. He felt like he needed to tell the world of his love and devotion for Tsume. His breath died out with the end of his cry and he moved his head to meet every kiss that Tsume placed on him. Toboe's legs grew tighter around Tsume as he kept him close.

"That's it! Yes! Give me all you've got!"

"Fuck.... Fuck, kid. You...."

But Tsume's throat locked up on him, and he obeyed the younger wolf still, shoving into him as hard and far as he could, making Toboe squirm and whimper beneath him. Tsume could feel something happening, the sensation of Toboe tightening around him nearly making him howl again it felt so good. His hair still stood on end from their howls mixing together. The sound full of love and lust and deep, wonderful emotion. Tsume pulled away from the boy, separating their torsos, grabbing onto his legs and shoving them forward, Toboe's knees resting against his chest.

"You... You don't know what you're saying," he whispered harshly, and he rammed deep in side of him, over and over again, digging his nails into the meat of Toboe's thighs.

'I know what I asked and I want it. I want you. I need you.'

Toboe's calls continued, increasing in pitch and frequency. It began to sound a bit strained as every muscle he had seemed to squeeze down to half it's size, enclosing Tsume within them. He pulsed around Tsume's manhood, keeping with that tightness. His body quivered and he screamed one last time into the night air. Hot, white liquid shot out from him and coated the two wolves as those happy tears once again made their appearance.

"I love you. I love you. I love you." This he repeated until his voice finally gave out.

"I... I love you too...."

The thick liquid was everywhere, and the sight of it, more than the tightening of Toboe around him, pushed him over the edge. He shoved in deep one more time, and then emptied his seed into the boy, crying out, his nails digging in even harder, scratching at his delicate skin. Once more, a howl escaped his throat, deep and primal, and he collapsed against his lover, panting and sweating like the animal he was.

"T... Toboe...." he whispered. "So beautiful...."

He didn't know what he meant by that. What was beautiful? Toboe? Their love? Their sex? All of it. Everything. Everything is so beautiful with him here....

"Paradise," Toboe whispered, his breath still ragged. He held onto Tsume, not caring of the sticky mess that was crushed between them. "You are my paradise. Everything I could ever want is in you."

He kissed Tsume gently and caressed his back. For a moment, Tsume could see that puppy he knew and loved in his lover's eyes. But instead of it dissipating in the grown wolf that he had become, the love and care melted the two sides together, leaving Tsume looking at a carefree adult who was ready and willing to give everything he had for love.

Tsume stared at him. Toboe could be both. Had always been able to love and live and give and be free, and still know when it was time to settle down and stand tall. To stand up for pride. Tsume had always shrugged the word off, like he had always shrugged off "paradise." Those words were for dreamers; for people who had too much imagination and not enough common sense. But as he stared into his lover's face, he saw that pride was alive and so was paradise. Toboe was full of pride and warmth and care, and Tsume wished for just a moment, that he could be like him.

"You are... my Toboe," he whispered to him, and then he was smiling. "You are the Toboe I remember. And the one I want to learn everything about." Tsume allowed himself the freedom of lying helplessly in Toboe's arms, and he felt at peace.

Tsume's dead weight was heavy on the young wolf, but he did not care. He finally had that intimacy that he had longed for for so many years. "I'll share everything about me just as you'll open up to me," he stated, continuing to whisper. "But I don't know how much there is to tell. You know almost everything about me. But what you don't know, just ask and I'll gladly tell." He lightly kissed his lover and continued to stroke Tsume lovingly. "And yes. I am yours. Forever. I always have been and I always will be, Tsume. I love you now and I'll love you forever more."

The words went right to Tsume’s head, and he felt tears sting his eyes. So much love for someone like him. So much tireless devotion and loyalty, over all the years they had spent together. Never had Toboe's faith in him wavered, never had his love deserted him. Tsume felt like a fool for treating him the way he had, for ever being harsh to the boy.

"But... can't I come with you?" Toboe had asked him that, many years ago, when he had been a pup and Tsume had lived life masquerading as a human. And he had responded coldly to the boy, had not even bothered to explain himself. "No, you can't." He had answered, when the only think Toboe had wanted was to be loved. To be needed and taken care of.

Tsume was crying steadily now, laying his tear stained face against his lover, "I'm so sorry," he whispered. "I never meant to be so mean to you, kid. I never meant to...."

Toboe's hands immediately went to Tsume's face and lifted his head to dry his tears. "Please don't cry, Tsume," he pleaded, giving him a comforting kiss. Soft hands caressed an aged face as Toboe spoke. "I admit, it did hurt at first. But as I got to know you better, I began to see the real you. I know you never wanted to hurt me. I grew to understand that facade you kept up and learned to see through it. I saw you for the person you really were and my admiration grew into love. I still admire you, Tsume. I could never last on my own. My courage seems to be nothing by myself." He laughed to himself and looked away for a moment. "I guess I've always been so dependant. But you... you give me the strength to make me feel like I can do anything."

"It's the opposite for me, kiddo," Tsume said and he too laughed. "The complete opposite. You make me feel so weak sometimes. Like I can just hand everything that weighs me down to you and it'll just be alright for a while." Tsume placed his own hands over Toboe's, staring at him unflinchingly, his eyes strong and gentle at the same time. "I love you so much, Toboe. For everything you are and everything you make me into. It's not enough to hand paradise to you. When you give me that and more...."

"Oh, Tsume. You're gonna make me cry again," Toboe said with his slowly strengthening voice, his eyes watering once more. "Well, they've always said opposites attract and it seems that we're about as opposite as they come. But our differences didn't stop me from falling for you. Hard. You know, I dream about you almost every night. Not all of them are wet dreams though," he said, smirking. "Often times, it's just you and me snuggling in the cool grass under the moonlight or something. Or sometimes, we'd just talk and talk. I guess it sounds kind of cheesy, but I guess that's all I've ever wanted from you. And now that I have it, well, I'm so happy I could just burst.... Not that I already haven't or anything." He offered Tsume a low laugh, but cleared his throat. "I know. I know. Dirty and corny. So sue me." He gave another laugh, this one more lighthearted.

Tsume rolled away from him, chuckling to himself. "What the hell happened to you, kid? You never used to have such an... immoral sense of humor." Tsume lay there with his arms resting behind his head, looking at Toboe with calm eyes. "I won't sue you for it, either. You know I've never been the kind to mind a dirty joke or two." He thought about it, and then grinned, "Or three for that matter." Toboe's dreams sounded so wonderful, and Tsume couldn't help but close his eyes and imagine them rolling together in cool grass and flowers; in paradise. Again this paradise crap, huh? The kid's enough for the likes of you, Tsume. Just appreciate what you have. He reached over, laying one large warm hand on Tsume's forehead, brushing back his long, sweaty hair. "I love you, kid."

Toboe's smile widened at Tsume's touch and he looked back him. "I love you too.... And I'm not a kid, old man.... And you should probably blame Hige for that change in humor." He then turned toward the other body to snuggle with him, just as he had always done in his dreams. "So warm," he cooed, nuzzling his head into Tsume's chest. Toboe did feel the warmth of Tsume's body, but there was another warmth that felt stronger now more than ever. It was a warmth that he had always somehow felt and Toboe gladly shared all the warmth, all the love he had with his Tsume.

Tsume roared laughter, accepting Toboe's gentle nuzzling. "Well, I blame Hige for most things in my life, you know?" Tsume felt the warmth as well. It was more a warmth in his heart than his actual body. But Toboe's warm head on his chest was warm as well, and Tsume laid one arm gingerly across his lover's back, tracing his nails across his skin. "I think this time though, I'll thank Hige. Maybe I don't mind my little pup being a little dirty."

A single claw made designs on Tsume's hard chest as she sighed, still smiling. "I guess I'll always be your 'Little Toboe,' huh? Well, that's ok. I guess I'm still just a pup inside anyway.... A pup with raging hormones. A pup that moans and scratches and howls our your name." He shivered against Tsume as he remembered that intense pleasure that he had experienced only moments earlier. "Mmm. I gotta stop that. I'm turning myself on," he half joked, instinctively pressing his body against the wolf.

"Alright, alright. Cut it out." Tsume smirked at the wolf, sitting up. "You're gettin' yourself into dangerous territory again, kiddo. I can make you how some more if you want." He winked at him, his eyes going hungry and full of lust. There was still the small part of him that couldn't believe that he had made love to sweet, innocent little Toboe. Tsume sighed, grabbing onto his arm and pulling him up. "I think it's better we get some sleep. I'm exhausted. I don't know about you, but I sure am." And he proved this was true by offering a large, long yawn. 'He's still a kid. He'll be wide awake now....' Tsume had never felt so old in all his life, and he shook his head. "Maybe I am an old wolf, Toboe."

"Nah. You're not old. You're just chronologically advanced. Kidding. Kidding. But don't worry. I'll make you feel young again." Toboe stretched, his body now feeling loose and wobbly. "But that'll have to wait. I'm pooped. I know. I know." He put his hands to his face in mock shock. "Gasp! The puppy's tired? The world is ending!" His hands lowered and he pressed his soft lips against Tsume. "Let's sleep then. And if we're going somewhere tomorrow, I think you may have to carry me. I can't move very well. You really did a number on me, but that's ok. I'd gladly do it again any day." He plopped back down and then a certain smell tinged his nose. He looked down to find that sticky mess all over and inside him. "Hmm. I think I might have to drag myself to the river," he said, moaning in
laziness.

Tsume rolled his eyes. "Yeah, right. You'd just as soon have me carry you there too, huh?" When the wolf only looked at him knowingly, smirking, Tsume sighed heavily. "Fine.... Fine." He picked Toboe up into his arms and carried him down to the river that flowed past where they camped. The water was cold and refreshing, and Tsume bathed in it as well, letting the water wash the young wolf's burst of excitement from his stomach. Tsume watched Toboe splash and play in the water, and he smiled faintly. "Good kid.…" he whispered to himself, "My Toboe...."

Water flew everywhere as the cold water gave Toboe enough of his energy back to have a water fight with Tsume. He laughed loudly as he turned to kick water at him. He bounced around in the water like a young Labrador, making circles around the other wolf. After a minute of bobbing around like a buoy, he slipped underwater. Silence. Tsume's quickly began to grow worried until he was suddenly pulled underwater. Water rushed into his eyes and he squeezed them shut. Instinctively his mouth closed as well, and he flailed with his arms. Toboe held onto him tightly, wrestling with him in the chilly water. Tsume twisted his body around and squirmed out of the boy's arms, kicking with his strong legs and resurfacing, gasping for air. After a few seconds, Toboe joined him. Tsume glared at him, shaking his head from side to side like a common stay dog, water flinging from his hair.

"Next time you want to play, remember who you're playin' with, kid!" Tsume noticed the hard edge in his voice and he forced it away. "I mean.…" he looked to Toboe, who looked slightly wounded by his words. "I mean... I don't really play Toboe. You know that." Tsume scratched as his head, looking away from the younger wolf
ashamedly.

'Nice job.... You'll never change, eh?'

Toboe looked down for at the running water, flicking it lazily. "I know. I'm sorry." It was true. Tsume had never been the one to joke or play. For him to crack a smile was rare enough in itself. But then he stopped to think and he raised his head again, moving his hair from his eyes and looking at him with gentle eyes. "Well you know, you said earlier that you wanted to change. Now's as good a time as any to start. It doesn't have to be much." He made his way to Tsume and put his hands on his chest. "I just want you to relax."

Tsume took in a deep breath and let it out slowly. "Relax. Yeah. Yeah, I think I can do that." He felt himself doing it immediately in fact. All of the tension and anger went out of his body, and he placed his hands over Toboe's, holding them tighter against his chest. "I'm sorry. You're right. I need to change. I need to get rid of all this crap that weighs me down." Tsume kissed Toboe's forehead lightly, and then pulled back, smirking softly. "And I guess I need to learn how to have a little fun." He slapped his hand into the water, splashing Toboe with the cold liquid.

Brown hair shook out lake water and Toboe smiled back at Tsume. 'That's it. Keep going.' Water was splashed back at the other wolf as Toboe grinned his best toothy grin. Joyous laughter filled the air as the young wolf played with his lover. 'This is the best I've ever felt. This is the best night ever!'

Tsume laughed. He ran at the boy and tackled him playfully into the water, twisting around and around, holding onto him tightly. Then sensation of his wet naked body against his own was beginning to excite him once more, but he pushed it away. He was content just to play with him. 'Play? Play?? What the hell is this? You're playing like some damn runt. Like the runt you're with now. What's the matter with you Tsume?' Nothing was the matter with him; he was just happy.

In there water wrestling, Toboe made it onto Tsume's back and wrapped his legs around his waist. He buried his face in the other's shoulder and kissed him, laughing all the while. "Ah, Tsume. I'm having so much fun. And I'm glad you are too. I've never seen you so happy! I love seeing you like this. Feels nice, huh?" He pressed another kiss to Tsume's neck.

"Yes," Tsume said, his voice low and sensual, a deep growl. "Yes, it feel so nice." All of it felt nice. Letting go and having fun, the boy’s nakedness against his body, his warm, gentle kisses, their love. All of it felt amazingly wonderful, so beautiful and warm and.... "Nice," Tsume repeated. "Everything you do. It's always been nice, runt."

Tsume's deep voice made Toboe twitch in his lower area. He closed his eyes and sighed, but quickly shook his head, trying to clear his mind. "Thanks. I try. I've been trying to make you happy since I met you. I'm glad my efforts are finally paying off." Toboe hugged his lover and kissed his hair. His heart fluttered as they played and cooed in the water. He felt so light, he could fly away at any moment. 'Yeah, that's right. You gave my heart wings, Tsume.'

Tsume began to walk away from the water, feeling the way Toboe hardened slightly from the deep sound of his voice. He grinned, walking to where they had made love and letting the boy hop down from his back. He turned and regarded him with almost paternal eyes, patting him on the head affectionately. "It's time for bed. How much you wanna bet that we woke up Porky and Chief No Talk with our howls?"

"Be nice, if that's even possible," Toboe said, laughing. But then his mind did finally turn to the wolves that were left behind who were not given a single thought until that moment. "Well, if they weren't asleep then, they're definitely not falling asleep now. I think half the world heard that." Toboe shivered, the sweet song that was Tsume's haunting howl echoing in his mind. He closed his eyes as he sank to the floor. 'Stop it, Toboe. Don't need to be startin' anything else tonight.' When his eyes opened, they rested on his lover. 'Gorgeous....' Not caring much about his nudity, he pulled the unbuttoned shirt over his hips for modesty and waited for Tsume to join him.

Tsume lowered himself to the ground, laying next to Toboe. The young wolf covered himself, and Tsume did the same. His shirt lay crumpled up beside him, and he snatched it up, laying it across own hips and smiling up into the night sky, letting his arms rest beneath his head. Tsume took in a deep breath and sighed contentedly. "It's a wonderful night," he said. "So calm. But it's starting to get cold. Come here Toboe. Come over to me."

"Gladly." Toboe moved to lay on his side, pressing his body against Tsume's. A hand rested on Tsume's chest, fingering at his scar, as his a leg draped itself over one of his lover's. "Yeah. You've given me the best night I've ever had. Tsume, you make me so happy. I love you so much." He kissed the other wolf's shoulder as he held his tightly.

Tsume watched as Toboe's gentle, delicate fingers traced over his scar lovingly. He closed his eyes against it however, loving the feel of his fingers tips on his skin, and his breath warm against his shoulder. Tsume let one arm slide out from under his head and wrap itself around Toboe's thin shoulders. "I love you too, runt. And whenever you want another night like tonight, just ask. Or don't. I think I might give it to ya again either way." Tsume smiled softly, patting the boys shoulder. "G'night, Toboe," he said sleepily, and yawned.

"Night, Tsume. And you can count on me asking again. Definitely." Toboe kissed him one last time before closing his eyes and drifting off to sleep, nuzzling against Tsume and giving him a few loving licks. That night, Toboe would dream of a wonderful future with Tsume in it. He hoped in his heart of hearts that every day would be as joyous as that intimate night they spent.

Tsume dreamed as well. In his dreams he frolicked like a pup in flowers. The scent was so strong and sweet. And it filled his nostrils as he played. Soon he was joined by his friends, and they played together, full of happiness and love for one another. Toboe jumped on him and pulled on his ears, tugging on them teasingly, his fur thick and warm.

Tsume got his first glimpse of his paradise.

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