In Retrospect

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Summary: Shido spends some time pondering how his feeling for Ban have changed. (Pt 4 of The Tangled Web series.)

Rating: NC-17

Warning Codes: m/m, language, waff, yaoi, WIP,

Pairings: SxB

Author’s note: This is part 4 of the Tangled Web series. Shido's feeling for Ban have changed since the first time they met, and Shido spends a little quiet time reflecting on those changes.

Although each one can stand alone, they will make more sense if they are read as a series.


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In Retrospect

(Shido’s Thoughts)

Shido was sitting propped up with pillows in the bed he now shared with Ban and Gingi, wide awake as the other two slept. Ban lay snuggled against him with his head on the beast master’s stomach, using him as a pillow since Shido had stolen Ban’s earlier. Gingi lay sprawled on his back, arms and legs thrown carelessly about.

Shido stroked the damp, dark hair back from Ban’s face, his fingers tracing their way down his jaw and across his neck to stop at the scar on the back of his neck. Shido touched the mark he had left on Ban’s body the day he claimed him as his own. Ban moved somewhat restlessly, then calmed as Shido resumed stroking his hair.

Just when had his total dislike of the snake bastard change into fascination? When had thoughts of that slender, white body started to dominate his mind? When had the touch and taste of the snake bastard turned into a craving that he found almost uncontrollable and completely irresistible? When had he fallen in love with Ban Mido?

Shido slid down into the bed somewhat and pulled the slender body of his lover into his arms, cradling his dark head on his chest. Ban murmured something, then settled in more comfortably. Gingi rolled up to settle against Ban’s back, snoring softly.

There were so many questions that had no easy answers to them. Shido wondered where he would ever begin to unravel this tangled web of thoughts and emotions, or if he should even try. Ban Mido. The name of the man who stood at the very center of his emotional turmoil. Ban Mido…

It was hate at first sight for Shido Fuyuki. The brash, obnoxious, cocky young man had rubbed Shido the wrong way from the very first time Shido every laid eyes on him, and he seemed to enjoy going out of his way to antagonize the beast master. Sometimes, it seemed to Shido, he actually looked for ways to irritate him.

The arrogant bastard had the nerve to have walked into the Infinite Fortress, challenged the vaunted Lightening Lord, beat him in combat, then took him away with him, causing the delicate power structure to crumble. Without Raitei to hold them together, the four Emperors broke apart, and when they split, they lost control of everything. Shido and the other three just couldn’t hold on without the single pillar of Raitei’s strength behind them.

They had all hated the snake bastard for that and would have gladly seen him dead, preferably in the slowest and most painful way possible. But Ban lived on quite happily, oblivious, so it seemed, to the disaster he had caused in the Infinite Fortress.

Shido would have gladly seen the snake bastard screaming and writhing in his grasp as he killed him slowly, taking pleasure in his last dying gasp.

Now Shido did have Ban screaming and writhing in his grasp and he was taking great pleasure from all of the gasps that he got from the snake bastard. It just wasn’t in the way he had originally planned, but this was much better. He was getting a lot more pleasure out of the snake bastard this way. Shido smiled and kissed his lover on the forehead.

They had fought in the past, clashing violently at times, but they seemed fairly evenly matched, Shido’s command of the beasts negated by the jagan master’s evil eye. And if the snake bastard ever got a hand on you, his grip could prove devastating. But still, Shido took every opportunity to clash with the arrogant bastard, hoping one day to crush Ban Mido. Slowly, the hatred had turned to simple animosity, then into a grudging respect of sorts as they often became less then willing allies on jobs for Hevn. They found they could actually work together with a minimum of sparks.

Then Shido started to notice things about the snake bastard, such as the way he was around Gingi. Ban treated Gingi like he treated no one else. No matter how often he got aggravated with the childish Gingi, Ban went out of his way to protect him from harm, often putting Gingi’s well-being before his own, although he grumbled loudly about it.

And no matter how devious or unscrupulous he seemed, he had a code he lived by and that code put his friends and allies first. Loyalty seemed to be what drove him and his main loyalty was to Gingi. He was absolutely loyal to Gingi, his friend. Friends. That seemed to be the key. He and Gingi, above all, were friends.

Shido found himself watching that, watching the interaction between the two. He saw it when they started to become more then just friends. He saw Ban’s face take on a more satisfied look as he became more possessive of Gingi. And he watched Gingi bending more and more under the will of the demanding Ban Mido. But Gingi didn’t seem to mind, welcomed the domination, in fact.

As Shido started watching them closer, he found it was Ban that his attention was focusing on more often than not. He felt like he was stalking the snake bastard, moving closer and closer, as if approaching a wild animal. An animal that needed to be caught and tamed. A creature to be broken and dominated.

That day at the Honky Tonk, he saw his chance. Initially, he had only planned to confront the snake bastard, to see how far he could push him. If he could force him into having sex with the beast master, the humiliation would be something Shido could use to bring the snake bastard down to his knees, figuratively speaking, of course.

Ban tried to blow him off, but a single threat to Gingi was enough to get him to comply. Shido felt exhaled. Now was his chance. The mighty Ban Mido, humbled and humiliated before him. Shido closed in for the kill.

Then Ban’s scent filled his nostrils, his icy blue eyes glittered over the top of his tinted glasses. His lips parted slightly and his tongue peeked out to touched his bottom lip nervously. And Shido became lost in his own responses to the snake bastard.

There was a warmth that radiated from the retriever’s slender body, and his mouth looked so inviting, Shido couldn’t help himself. He had never intended to actually kiss the snake bastard, but when their lips met, Ban’s had parted easily and Shido’s tongue slid into his mouth, exploring and playing with Ban’s tongue, while Ban kissed him back willingly. Then Ban’s hands came up to squeeze and caress Shido’s shoulders and arms, while Shido let his hands run over Ban’s smooth, warm skin. The kiss was nice, and when they broke from it, Ban’s neck looked very inviting. The first kiss set the tone, and it went on from there, both indulging in an excess of stimulation.

Far from the planned humiliation of forced sex, Shido took the snake bastard much more gently then he ever thought he could, in the process biting him hard and deeply on the back of the neck, much in the way an animal deep in rut would mark it’s mate and hold it. Something happened at that moment, and Shido felt something twist inside of himself. Something about the snake bastard got into his blood at that moment. The feel of Ban’s skin under his hand’s, the taste of Ban’s blood on his tongue, his heady scent filling Shido mind, it all worked to overwhelm the beast master at that moment, captivating him.

And the docile way the snake bastard had let Shido take him, when his hard cock slid up into that warm, willing ass, Shido had been lost. He had never had such a willing, wanton sex partner, and the way Ban Mido had responded to him so avidly, Shido knew he had liked it. He had never even resisted. The two had successfully conquered each other, and they hadn’t even realized it.

When Shido claimed him for his own, the younger man hadn’t resisted that either. His only thought had been Gingi, and what he would tell him.

And now Shido lay with Ban Mido held in his arms, his for all eternity.

It had been a little strange at first, because he was only used to the one night a week and needing to get all of his desire taken care of in that one night, so the first few nights, Shido had been just a little jealous of the time Ban lavished on Gingi. He found himself being a little rougher on Ban then he needed to be because of that, but by the second week, he was starting to relax more, and now he could actually be awake like this, thinking, and not want to wake Ban for yet one more bout of hard, driving sex.

Tonight, he actually felt himself starting to drift off to sleep, so, with one last kiss, he got a little more comfortable, snuggled Ban closer and closed his eyes, giving in to the wonderful feeling of sleep that, before, could only come after completely exhausting himself with endless rounds of mindless sex.

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The next part of The Tangeled Web will be Romeo and Juliet. A new twist on an old favorite. What happens when you think you’ve lost someone dear to you?