Itami

Disclaimer: I don't own the characters..Maki Murakami does.

Warnings: Very dark, and depressing, sex, angst, cutting..

Pairings: Shuichi/? (Can you guess?)

Summery: Just a short thing I had floating around in my head tonight..

ITAMI

The night is dark..and yet I am here..
Not home with my lover..not safe or loved..
I stay here because HE makes me..
I hate his touch, I hate his cruel yet calm words..
He looks so calm and professional at all times..almost..
But not when he has me bent over his desk or on my back on his couch..or even pinned up against the window..
He seems to see me and lose all control..
Not surprising really... I hold the heart of the one person he loves and craves..
Eiri would never return his affections..he doesn't love him back..
And so HE takes it out on me..
Why? You ask?
Because I am the one Eiri makes love too at night, I am the one who wakes up beside him, I am the one who lives with him..
HE cannot stand that. At first he tried to break us up using any means nessesary and nothing worked..
I was so naive..I thought HE had finally accepted our relationship, thought he had become tolerant...
I know now that I was so wrong. HE threatens me, saying that if I tell anyone what goes on in this room, he will hurt everyone I love, even Eiri..
Yes I know what most of you are thinking..HE loves Eiri so HE would never hurt him right? Wrong again...
I actually am certain he is insane...
Right now I am pinned against the wall and I feel him once more thrust up tearing through me with no remorse or care..
The blood flows down my bare legs, painting them like an artist paints a canvas..
I am utterly helpless as pain and shame sweep through my body threatening to drown me..
I feel him as he cums inside me, feel it run down my legs to mingle with the blood..
Red and White..Blood and Innocence..
Both are forced from me and I don't know how much longer I can live and remain whole..
It hurts even more tonight, afterwards when I am set free from HIM, go home and lock myself in the bathroom, listening to Eiri's shouts and orders to come out..
It hurts when I take the razor and begin to create the art I so desire..
Eiri has given up, it is quiet now and I open the door as blood runs down my bare arm and I hold it out and up to him...
His eyes fill with shock, horror and disgust as he sees the word I have carved into my skin..
The word that defines the only constant I have left..
ITAMI

FUSHIGI: Wow..ummm..yeah..I wrote this while depressed. It makes no sense at all but hey..I tried. AND I feel better now..thank you Gravi characters!!
OK well this is done..feedback would be greatly appreciated..until next time everyone! Byes!!

Itami=pain
lie=no