My Dying Dream

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~~*Note: This is taking place before the third volume in the manga, just so there is no confusion, enjoy and I hope you all like it. Please give me some feedback if you can ^_^*~~

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My Dying Dream



"Ren, please come here and do your dishes. Do you realize this is the seventh time today I asked you? I'm sorry, but I can't keep doing them
for you."

The dark haired man walked out from the kitchen and stood in the threshold between that and the living room. His kind eyes showed
caring and compassion for Ren, but also worry. They had to be on their toes and watch out for those who were sentenced to fall, speaking for
themselves as well. Ren turned around as he sat on the old, musty couch so his eyes could meet Rai's. He sighed heavily and stood up, rubbing his
head to ruffle up his golden locks.


"Didn't think you actually count. I'll do them, I suppose. Are you sure it was seven times or are you just saying that to make me feel bad." He smiled and walked up to the taller male so he now was standing in front of him. "You know, you shouldn't stress over little things like that. You have enough to worry about right now so just rest and I'll do a few things around here, all right?"

Ren lifted his hand and placed it on Rai's shoulder as a friendly jesture. Rai adjusted his glasses and gently placed his hand over Ren's and kept it there for a moment before taking it in his own hand to hold. A slight warmth filled the blond's cheeks, not knowing what to do or better yet, what his close friend was doing. The raven haired boy lifted the other's hand up to his lips and softly kissed the pinky finger, enjoying the warmth that came from him as it brushed against his lips. That finger symbolized so much for them. That promise they made to each other, the finger held that promise in both of their grasps. Ren's eyes shifted to look up into Rai's, but he kept his head low, his long, dark bangs shielded him from looking into his sapphire orbs.


"Rai....you, okay?" He asked in a light voice filled with concern. Lately, his friend has been more affectionate than usual. They have always been close, but it seemed it was getting more and more everyday. For some reason, he didn't mind as long as Rai was happy. He lifted his head and brushed away the stray strands of hair that fell in the way of looking at Ren.

"Yes, I'm fine. I should go lay down." After that, he quickly released his grip on the blond's hand as if regretting ever doing that and hurried off towards his room.

A moment passed before Ren shook his head and released himself from a daze as he watched his friend trail off down the hall and disappeared into his room. "Gotta get to those dishes." He said to himself as he headed into the kitchen and over to the sink, turning the water on.


Their apartment was rather small, but plenty big enough for just them. It consisted of two rooms, Ren's and Rai's, a living room, a bathroom and a kitchen. It had a few occasional closets lined up against the wall, simple furniture, something that looked as if it weren't perminant due to their situation. Rai laid on his stiff bed and placed a plush, old pillow over his head, ending with a deep sigh. His room was quite bleak and dull. Very gray looking and dusty as well. If you were to walk into it, you'd think it would've belonged to an old woman or man. Definitely not the most up-to-date room. It didn't really matter since they were lucky enough to ravange up enough money from their part-time jobs they aqquired a few months back to pay for the rent and also buy some cheap furniture to last some time. As he laid there on his stomach, staring aimlessly at the headboard, he lifted one arm up and tugged and pulled out the hair band to free his hair from the pony-tail. It felt good not to have it tied back, but he couldn't help, but keep it a habit everyday to where it like that. He felt as if he wasn't himself if he didn't where it pulled back. Ren always found that strange, but there wasn't any explaination for it, really. There was a fluttery feeling in the pit of his stomach from hearing approaching footsteps slowly making their way down the hall. Rai bit his lip in anticipation as he knew where they were headed. This happened a lot nowadays and it was starting to drive him mad. Every time he would be around the other boy, he would feel that way and would have to leave. He just wanted to be close to him, touch him, love him, but in the back of his mind, he kept telling himself to forget it and focus. Though it was so hard to block out, a part of him enjoyed seeing the blond in his thoughts. "It will never happen...just stop thinking about it..." He said quietly to himself right before the door handle turned and the door creaked open, revealing a soaked Ren, not too mention bubbles everywhere. Rai pushed himself up and turned his head towards the doorway where the wet friend stood.


"Oh my, what happened to you? Did you get into a fight with the sponge again and now you can't wash the dishes for another three weeks?" He joked, smirking a bit.

The raven haired boy sat up on the bed and looked Ren up and down, finding the situation rather amusing to him. The wet boy stiffly walked into the room, his legs far apart from each other to avoid anymore clinging clothing against his skin. His arms were far apart in the air as if his body were forming an 'X' shape.

"You think this is funny? There is something seriously wrong with out draining system or whatever. Every time, every time...that damned foucet goes outta control and gets me." He pouted. A laugh escaped Rai's lips as he stood up and walked over to Ren for a closer look.

"How do you explain the soap? Last time I checked, we washed in the bathroom, not the kitchen." He teased. His eyes ran over various parts of the other, examining how firm and slim Ren's body was now that the clothing was sticking to his body. That gave him the chance to see more of him, if only for a brief moment. Ren twitched and reached down to the bottom of his damped shirt and pulled it off of him, drenching the floor with soapy waters as the wet clothing trickled down from it as the blond held it tightly in his hands, showing his upper torso fully to the other male. He noted that there was something different in his friend's eyes as he stared at him.

"Rai...um...would you mind helping me wash this? I'm no good with laundry and all of that." The nervous boy rubbed his head and changed th subject from his mind, hoping that Rai would stop looking at him the way he thought he was. Rai nodded with a grin and walked up closely to him, almost close enough that his own dry body touched that of the wet one. His hand reached down slowly towards Ren's hand and grasped onto the shirt, skimming his hand along the soft knuckles of the other boy.

"You'll get the hang of it once I show you." He walked out of the room with the wet shirt in hand.


Rai didn't know how much more he could take of this torture. He was so close to Ren. His body just barely touched him. The other's scent, movement, everything drove him crazy and he didn't know if he could control himself if he were to snap. He took in a deep breath and tried not to think about those sinful thoughts as he started up the rusted, old washing machine. Ren followed and listened and watched as Rai instructed him. A few moments later, the two walked out of the tiny, cobweb-infested laundry room and headed over to the couch.

"All right, that seems easy enough. I doubt I'll remember that." The blond laughed, leaning his back on the couch pillow. There was something different at that moment. Rai was sitting way too close to him from the norm he was used to. Their legs were touching enough to feel each other's warmth. Rai smiled at Ren as if he were in a daze and he leaned himself closer to his friend, placing one hand on the arm of the couch beside Ren and the other hand next to his head on the top of the couch so that he was pinning him to the furniture.

"You will soon enough..." His breath was warm as it grazed over Ren's lips from Rai being so close to his face. He shivered at what was happening and was very confused.

"Rai....what are you doing? It's just laundry..." Before he could finish, his lips were sealed with a rough, heated kiss. His chocolate brown eyes widened, not believing what was happening. This was a huge shock to him that his close friend...was doing this to him! He didn't try to move or pull away. It's not like he had never any attraction to Rai, he always had some kind of thing for him, but he never knew that the other did for him, or that much anyway. He did enjoy the feel of another's lips against his own, especially his hansome, dark haired friends. Ren snaked his arms up around Rai's neck and pushed more into the kiss. Rai's leg came up onto the couch and layed itself right between the blond's legs for teasing and it also helped him prop up so he could get a better view of Ren. He smirked into the kiss and slipped his tongue in, massaging the other's with his own, slowly and skillfully. A slight moan emitted from him as he moved his tongue about Rai's, letting them taste one another. The kissed roughly and hungrily for a long while until they both pulled away, gasping for air. The two boys were panting and their eyes met.

"Rai...I didn't know...."Ren looked down, embarrassed. The raven haired boy lifted his chin up and smiled at him, placing a quick kiss on his lips.

"You didn't have to. As long as I was around you, I didn't care about anything else. I wasn't sure if you'd feel the same way about me, but I couldn't just let it slip. You know...we don't have much time left until our eighteenth birthdays. I needed to let you know my feelings for you before then. I'm sorry..."

Ren pulled him in for a tight hug and whispered into his ear. "I do feel the same way. I've felt this way for so long now and I'm glad I don't have to hide it anymore...Rai, I love you." With that said, Rai's eyes started to tear up a bit and he wrapped his arms around Ren, pulling him closer to his chest as he kissed the top of his head.

"I love you, too..." Though, in the back of his mind, he knew their time will not last forever...only in their dreams...


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Thank you for reading! Please feel free to review. I would love to hear from you if you have any suggestions or whatnot. <3 Chapter 2 will be coming shortly if enough people like what I typed so far. I also am probably going to type up another chapter seeing as I don't want to leave things as they are in this story. ^_~