Lacrymosa

~Lacrymosa~


Tsuna sighed gently as he bit down on the end of the pen. Things were getting tense, Byakuran had openly announced his hunt on the Vongola and he had no idea why. He had also done something that that was hurting the arcabaleno and they had been fighting against the negative seven rays. Things were getting down to the wire…So many had all ready died and Tsuna was NOT going to let anyone else die.

“Tsuna you need to take a rest.” Yamamoto moved into the tenth head’s office as he rubbed at his eyes. “We’ve been up for days and we’ve had this schedule for almost six months now.” Curious…Gokudera hadn’t come and sent Yamamoto instead… Frowning Tsuna looked to the black haired man. Yamamoto’s lips were pursed and unlike he used to be, he no longer smiled as much. That was something Tsuna would always blame on himself for a fraction of a second when Yamamoto was around.

“I can’t. If we don’t find a way to protect Reborn, and to do more than we have all ready. We’ll lose him because we don’t know if the negative seven rays affected him still after the curse was broken.” Losing the arcabaleno had really messed with everyone and shocked the whole mafia world. Losing Colonello had all ready done damage to all of them. The blond haired man had been a stabilizing force for getting them this far and Ryohei, and Lal Mirch had hardly talked to anyone since they had received word that Colonello had died. Tsuna bit his lower lip sighing as he looked to Yamamoto. His father had recently been killed, yet he was still here working with them. “I won’t lose Reborn like we lost Colonello...”

Reborn was the whole reason they were where they in the mafia and Tsuna couldn’t stand to lose the man that had helped turn him into a mafia boss that everyone could be proud of. Yamamoto frowned and shook his head, “Reborn is doing all right Tsuna, and you need to take a break and rest. If you don’t rest the others will worry themselves sick, and you are also in need of a break. Gokudera couldn’t come because he was forced by the girls to rest and go to dinner so I was sent.”

Studying Yamamoto’s face, Tsuna stood up his back protesting as he winced and stretched himself out. The girls are starting to worry more too. They shouldn’t be hanging around here so much. “How are the communication lines?” Yamamoto couldn’t help but crack a tired smile as Tsuna all but asked about their allies that were in the field. That is just like him to worry about the ones that can take care of themselves instead of worrying about himself. Tsuna brushed his hair out of his face and straightened his suit and tie yawning.

“Hibari is doing fine. Chrome is as illusive as always…She and Mukuro being the guardian of the mist is probably a good thing. We get reports every so often from everyone. Varia has gone into hiding and Ryohei has been sent out with them to split up the guardians.” Splitting up the guardians. Things were really getting bad. Everyone was splitting up and that made Tsuna sigh gently. It was as if they were staying on a sinking ship and all they could do was face the ocean alone. But it was better than having all the ducks Byakuran wanted in one row.

“You know you don’t have to stay with me Yamamoto. Gokudera, Lambo, and the others should go into hiding as well.” Tsuna wasn’t afraid anymore. Nine years ago he would have cried and begged the others to stay, but after having been the head of the Vongola family and trying to keep up with Reborn’s lessons, Tsuna had learned the most important thing about being a mafia boss was the family itself. “Besides…They are looking to hunt down the guardians. I can’t lose you all.” Tsuna felt his throat tighten as he thought about any one of his friends lying in a coffin and having to have a rushed funeral not knowing next when someone else they loved would be struck down.

“I agree that Lambo and the girls should go somewhere into hiding, but I will not leave your side till the end whatever that may be. It’s not a totally helpless battle.” Yamamoto pointed out. They still had Dino and the Cavallone family, and even a few other friends that they could rely on to watch their back. If they hadn’t had the connections they would have all ready been wiped out by the Milifiore family and their white and black spell groups. Tsuna sighed and moved towards the cabinet at the side of the room as he leaned down and took out his mittens with the printed twenty seven on each glove.

“Gokudera wants the same thing you know. He’d rather die than leave your side, but right now there is dinner waiting on the table and Lal and the girls are waiting for us.” Yamamoto reached out and grabbed at Tsuna who deflected the grab easily with a duck of the hand towards the collar of his black shirt as Yamamoto raised an eyebrow and seized the other by the neck with a quicker grab the second time around. “Come on. Reborn’s feeling good enough to eat with us tonight.” Hearing that statement, Tsuna perked up as he allowed himself to be drug from his office and down the long winding hall towards the dining hall by the guardian.

Reborn had been sick due to the negative seven rays and they had been able to get him under ground in a new base, but the man was still too weak, though he was just as stoic as ever. Tsuna sighed as Yamamoto continued to talk to him, but none of it really reached his ears. How have things gotten this bad? When did they spin so out of control? It was still a mystery to Tsuna as he sighed and walked along pretending to listen to the Rain guardian as he talked about I-pin and Lambo and how cute they had gotten and random business that still needed taking care of.

As they moved into the kitchen, Tsuna was nudged forward by his best friend towards the table gently. “Sorry we were late. It was hard to tare him away from his research like usual.” Though Yamamoto’s tone was upbeat, it had a fake quality that made Tsuna wince. Looking to the group gathered around the table, Bianchi, Fuuta, I-pin, Lambo, Haru, Lal Mirch and Gokudera were all sitting there watching both men sitting up expectantly. The atmosphere that had once been cheerful was now tense and silent.

“Don’t make his apologies for him, Yamamoto. He needs to learn how to be responsible for himself.” The deep voice came from recently familiar face at the table. It had been about three months since Reborn had regained his adult form, though they were still unable to understand why he was getting worse. The man was regal standing there in his black suit and the fedora and Tsuna was glad to see the absence of the yellow pacifier around his neck. Leon had also been getting weaker and weaker just like his human partner, probably due more to worry than to really being sick. But it was always those dark eyes that pained Tsuna the most; they had once been mischievous and vibrant but now were now tired and dull.

“Reborn darling come sit down.” Bianchi tried once again as she patted the seat beside her. As usual, she was ignored as Reborn turned to fully face Tsuna, “You’ve not been doing your job as boss, no good Tsuna. You’ve been worrying your subordinates.” Tsuna felt a pang in his chest. Even as sick as he is…He is still my tutor. I guess he really believes in taking responsibility of a student till the end. Tsuna drew in a harsh breath as he stood there watching Reborn and his heart skipped a beat and almost stopped. Till the end…

“At any rate sit down the food is getting cold.” I-pin looked between the two standing men. Tsuna flushed and rubbed the back of his head as he sat down earning a sad smile from Fuuta and a pat on the shoulder from Lambo. They had grown so much around him it was still so easy to see the small children screaming, laughing and playing together with Yamamoto and the other guardians. “Haru and I cooked tonight.” I-pin informed Tsuna wagging a finger at him with a kind smile.

“Thank you. I’m sorry everyone I’ll try to come out of my office more to take breaks.” Tsuna apologized as he grabbed up his chopsticks and then reached out to grab food, and like usual when he was growing up he had to be fast or else Reborn would steal his food and eat it. Quickly he struck out with his chopsticks and was able to grab some food a hair quicker than Reborn was able to stop him. A grunt came from the older man as he sighed and rubbed at his forehead. Tsuna frowned and munched thoughtfully on the Chinese food his face instantly bright. “Ah! This is good.” Finding himself trying to take the attention off of Reborn and directing it towards the girls. Everyone had tensed when Tsuna had gotten to the food first. He never used to be able to beat Reborn.

“Thanks!” Haru tried to chatter enthusiastically about how long it had taken to prepare the food earning smiles and laughs from everyone, but again it was more fake than anything. Tsuna frowned thoughtfully as he caught Gokudera’s eye and the storm guardian looked away as quickly as they had caught each other’s expressions. Pain, sadness and a longing for the past were mixed into Gokudera’s eyes. I can’t blame him or the others…After all the one that brought us all together …Is sick.

An awkward silence fell over the table as everyone ate. Tsuna sighed and shook his head as he finally looked towards everyone and looking to Yamamoto he caught the guardian’s eye and Yamamoto nodded. Taking a deep breath, Tsuna murmured, “I need to talk to you all about something. We can sit here and pretend that there is nothing wrong, but it’s something I’ve been thinking about.” Everyone was all ears as they all stared, even Reborn looked surprised as he watched his pupil with a critical eye. It was those critical eyes that could make Tsuna do anything, and it was those eyes that right now made him back down wordlessly.

“What is it tenth?” Gokudera pressed as Reborn kept Tsuna’s gaze for a little longer. Something that was in those eyes froze Tsuna as he sat there. After a moment, Reborn looked away and Tsuna coughed. “A-actually I forgot!” Tsuna rubbed at the back of his head as he chuckled absentmindedly. Gokudera and Yamamoto exchanged glances as they smiled warily and everyone at the table laughed. Tsuna felt a pang of guilt as he laughed with the rest. I have to make them leave. It’s dangerous if all of them are here with me.

After a few silent moments, idle chatter started at the table and Tsuna felt as if everyone had relaxed enough to try and talk normally. He was reaching for a second helping when the worst thing happened. Reborn doubled over at the table coughing one of his large hands covering his mouth as spasms wracked his body. Bianchi was the first to jump up, “Reborn!” She cried out slightly panicked as she reached out to him and Reborn slapped away her hand. Backing off Bianchi looked almost as if she had been slapped across the face as she exited from the room; Tsuna’s heart went out to her.

It was in a brief second that Reborn eyes leveled on him. Tsuna wished he had never looked into that face…The helplessness and pain within those dark eyes was enough to want to make him hide. Standing up looking to Gokudera and Yamamoto, Tsuna nodded, “Help me get Reborn back to his room. Haru…you, Lambo, Lal, I-pin and Fuuta go after Bianchi.” Everyone sprang to action as Gokudera and Yamamoto handled Reborn as easy as they could as Tsuna pulled a handkerchief and offered it to Reborn. Reborn didn’t refuse his help and pressed the handkerchief to his mouth wincing as coughs wracked his body.

As soon as they had made it to Reborn’s room, Shamal had been called, and instead of whining about how Reborn wasn’t a female, Shamal came right in to see Reborn. He had kicked out all three of the older men saying something about them hovering and being nuisances. Tsuna hadn’t really been paying attention as he had been shoved out. Mafia boss or not he was still an absolute push over when it came to these types of situations. “Tsuna...” Yamamoto’s voice and a hand on his shoulder caused Tsuna to nearly jump out of his skin.

Looking up Tsuna noticed the pained look on Yamamoto’s face and the way Gokudera’s brows were knit and he was frowning. Both were looking at him as he blinked and watched them. It almost felt surreal here he was standing here a mafia boss and his teacher in the room sicker than any of them could have ever imagined. “Shamal’s in there with him right now.” Tsuna said more to convince himself than the other two standing with him. “If anyone can cure Reborn…It’s Shamal.” Gokudera’s frown grew and even Yamamoto shook his head sighing.

This can’t be happening. Not when we’ve come so far. Tsuna panicked his mind screaming as he leaned against the wall his hands buried in his hair as he sighed his eyes sliding shut. It felt like hours had passed by as he stood there waiting for Shamal and neither man with him known just what to say to bring their leader out of his panic and Tsuna unable to really comprehend why they were even in the situation. Finally, the door opened and Shamal stepped out lightly frowning as he Tsuna looked up at him. “Shamal!” Shamal held up a finger over his lips and stepped away from the door motioning for Tsuna, Gokudera and Yamamoto to follow him.

When they were far enough away from Reborn’s room Shamal turned to them a looking quite grave. “Tsuna. I’m telling you against Reborn’s wishes and also you two so you can help shoulder the burden for Tsuna.” Tsuna’s heart pinched in his chest as he numbly nodded and waited for Shamal to continue. “This isn’t going to be easy to say, it’s something that will hit everyone pretty hard but, it’s probably something that you all suspected. Reborn…He’s dying.”

Tsuna’s head reeled. His gut instinct had been right; Reborn had been dying slowly all this time. Ever since they had broken the curse, he should have been getting better. Shamal continued, “He has maybe a week at the most to live. I’ve known for a while, but Reborn promised me not to tell you anything. The negative seven rays seeped too far into his system before the curse was released and it’s begun to break down his system. It’s painful and uncomfortable for him.” Tsuna tuned out the rest of Shamal’s voice again his eyes watering as he tried to search for how he was feeling.

Suddenly, a hopelessness that he hadn’t felt before welled up inside him. Pushing against it trying to find a reason to not cry, Tsuna started to hurt and the hurting turned to anger. Turning away from the other three men he was standing with and his hand clenched he lowered his head and stormed towards Reborn’s room. Shamal reached out to grab him as Tsuna slammed open the door. Reborn was sitting on his bed as he looked to Tsuna will those same dark eyes.

“Tsuna!” Shamal cried as the young man moved towards Reborn grabbing the collar of his white shirt. Tsuna shook Reborn tears finally releasing as he trembled. Glaring at his teacher and tutor, Tsuna couldn’t form the words as his chest ached and he just felt his legs give out. Why didn’t you trust me enough? Why didn’t you let me be there for you when you needed me the most?! Tsuna couldn’t speak the words he wanted to yell at the elder man.

Shamal grabbed at Tsuna and Tsuna shook his head as he looked up at Reborn wordlessly. Reborn didn’t meet his eyes, as Shamal again tried to pull him away. “Tsuna! You need to let Reborn rest…He needs to rest okay? All you’re doing is making things worse right now!” Yamamoto moved into the room along with Gokudera as they moved to his side. Tsuna just shook his head and refused to let go of Reborn’s collar.

“Shamal…Yamamoto…Gokudera…I would like to speak to Tsuna alone.” A hand came down onto Tsuna’s head ruffling his hair as Reborn spoke. He sounded so tired, so different from what Tsuna was used to. “Shut the door …on your way out. Make sure no one comes down here for a long time. I’ll send Tsuna if I need something.” With that Tsuna managed a half sob and half chuckle. Only Reborn is strong enough to order around the head of the Vongola family if he needs something.

With those orders Shamal, Gokudera and Yamamoto all retreated leaving the student and teacher alone to share a moment together. Trembling Tsuna sniffled and Reborn tugged on his arm pulling him into the bed and into his arms. Those once strong arms were weak and weary. All Tsuna could do was bury his face into the hitman’s white shirt and sob. It was a long time before Tsuna could slowly stop his sobbing into small whimpers and then into nothing at all.

“No matter how much time passes, you’re still my no good Tsuna.” Reborn sounded almost pleased about this his hand smoothing Tsuna’s hair. The smell of tobacco and gunpowder calmed him as Reborn sighed and muttered, “You have to be strong Tsuna. I taught you to be stronger than this…I’ll take responsibility for you up until the end.” Tsuna listened to that deep voice muttering soothing sounds trying to calm the him.

“You must think I’m stupid. But, I can’t do this without you Reborn, you brought us together and how are we supposed to function…When you’re gone. Also, you made me feel so useless…Couldn’t you have trusted us to ease your suffering.” Reborn didn’t answer him as Tsuna looked up to him his eyes blood shot from crying so much in such a small amount of time. “A part of me will die with you.”

Reborn sighed as he looked down at Tsuna and leaned forward his lips brushing Tsuna’s causing a shiver to run down the head of the family’s spine. “Tsuna. You will never truly be alone. You have learned all I had to teach and you’ve been doing fine. I told you that I wouldn’t be around forever…So please don’t be sad for me.” It was easy to say that, Reborn knew that Tsuna was going to have a hard time with this.

Tsuna looked up at Reborn his cheeks flushed as Reborn leaned down again placing a peck upon those tear kissed lips. Tsuna shivered once more his hands wrapping around Reborn’s shoulders. Reborn continued to give Tsuna small kisses as he tried to calm the smaller man down. It had been unspoken before…Their bond they had formed had been one of love, so it was hardly surprising that Tsuna was allowing Reborn to kiss him. Reborn let out a gentle sigh.

“I’m fine right now. Shamal likes to make things sound a little more dramatic.” He was still dying, but the pain spasms were few and far in between. He was worried that when it came close to the end that Tsuna would do something stupid, so he had to comfort and prepare him now. “Please don’t cry Tsuna…Mafia bosses don’t cry.” Wiping at Tsuna’s cheeks Tsuna just gulped down air reminding himself he needed to breathe to survive through this.

Reborn’s lips descended down onto his own lips and Tsuna could taste the slight taste of tobacco as his hands reached up and gently tangled hesitantly into Reborn’s hair. Nudging at Tsuna’s cheek with his nose, Reborn gently broke the kiss letting his lips trail down the column of Tsuna’s neck as he whispered, “Be strong for your family. They will need you more than ever when the time comes.” Tsuna’s head was swimming with unfamiliar sensations and with the suddenness of the situation.

“Reborn…We can’t. We shouldn’t…” Any protest was cut short when Reborn pushed Tsuna down onto the bed his hand plucking at the buttons on Tsuna’s jacket and then down the black shirt he wore after he had stripped off Tsuna’s tie. Leaning down Reborn kissed Tsuna deeper than the first few kisses had been leaving the young man breathless and shivering on the bed.

“Why shouldn’t we? I haven’t been able to talk to you about anything until now. I have shot that gun at you so many times and you have regretted so much and cleared those regrets with the dying will. Let me get rid of my one regret with my own dying will.” Let me love you… That was the silent plea that Tsuna saw in those dark eyes. Those were eyes of the one that had taught him so much and had watched over him all those years without complaint.

Calloused fingers gently roamed over Tsuna’s chest as Reborn watched for his students reactions a sad grin appearing as Tsuna arched. “You’re so sensitive, Tsuna.” He buried his face into Tsuna’s neck as he bit down suckling harshly on the skin at the juncture of his shoulder marking him. The bruise would fade, but Tsuna would have a reminder always when he touched that sensitive spot of what had happened there and that the person to claim him was Reborn.

“Reborn.” Breathed Tsuna as he hissed and arched when those big hands impatiently unbuckled and unzipped those white dress pants, and Reborn finally reached inside to touch his member. Tsuna trembled and Reborn drank in the sight of the one person he had distanced himself from writhing as he slowly ran his thumb around the head of Tsuna’s growing arousal. “Ahh…Reborn.” Tsuna’s voice went an octave higher as Reborn licked down his chest and dipped his tongue into Tsuna’s belly button and thrust into it suggestively with the wet appendage.

Tugging down Tsuna’s pants Reborn heard a small cry of embarrassment leave Tsuna’s mouth. It was hard to believe that the young man he was seducing was about to be twenty five. Tsuna squirmed as he watched Reborn and those dark eyes caught his hazel ones until Reborn engulfed his pupils erection and Tsuna arched his toes curling and eyes rolling into the back of his head as he shuddered. Pining down Tsuna’s hips with his hands Reborn took it slow wanting to make this moment last.

The wet heat of Reborn’s mouth around his most sensitive flesh caused little bolts of pleasure to run up and down Tsuna’s spine. Is this a dream? Has this whole even been a dream? Will I wake up and be back in Jr. High again? The sensations were causing his head to swim and his body to tingle and heat up as Reborn’s mouth bobbed up and down upon his cock. The feeling was nothing that he was used to and it shot straight to his spine and up his back and right back down into his groin once more.

It was only after a moment that Reborn stopped and sat up. Tsuna looked to him with one eye open the other squeezed shut tightly as he watched the Mafioso stand up unbuttoning his collared shirt one button at a time. Tsuna found himself mesmerized as Reborn quietly unbuckled the belt and then unzipping his pants and quietly took them off and folded them setting them in a near by chair as he then quietly took off his underwear standing in front of Tsuna now naked.

Tsuna’s breath caught in his throat as the man stood before him. His body was scarred from various weapons and missions that had left him nearly at death’s door numerous times. Once Reborn settled back on the bed Tsuna reached out and Reborn caught his hand yanking him into his lap as he felt Reborn’s erection press against his ass. Lips descended down the right side of Tsuna’s neck causing a shiver for each kiss to course through Tsuna’s body. Reborn let his lips wander down his shoulder as he then let his hands slick with Tsuna’s pre-cum pick up where his mouth had left off as he squeezed Tsuna’s erection and pumped slow making sure to give enough pressure to stimulate the other.

The sensations alone had Tsuna ready for what Reborn really wanted from the start. Pushing the boy off his lap and face first into the bed Reborn kept his hand on his would be lover’s lower back to keep him from getting up. Licking at his own fingers Reborn slowly started to prepare Tsuna pushing in two fingers to start. Tsuna shuddered and squirmed uncomfortably. The pressure of the fingers there really ached and made his ass burn slightly and it became very uncomfortable after a third finger was added. Tsuna felt tears welling back up at the corner of his eyes as he felt that slight rush of adrenaline in his system.

“Trust me.” Reborn whispered in a low rumble as he leaned over Tsuna positioning himself at Tsuna’s entrance. Tsuna braced himself as Reborn pushed in and hissed as he gripped at the edge of the bed his head tossed back as it hit Reborn’s shoulder. Giving little pelvic thrusts to prepare Tsuna, for the most part Reborn didn’t pull out or dare to push in at full force just yet. Hearing a soft sob from Tsuna, Reborn let his fingers reach down between Tsuna and the bed to find his erection once more. Once he touched him there Tsuna relaxed a little and Reborn pulled out almost all the way and thrust back into Tsuna’s body all the way to the hilt.

He wanted to leave his mark upon that supple and tender body. Reborn wanted at least one person to always remember him. Tsuna had been there and they had shared so much, his only regret was that he hadn’t done this to him sooner after he had broken the curse. Tsuna let out a strangled cry as Reborn again drew almost all the way out and thrust back into him firmly and rougher than he would have liked to. Tsuna’s body felt as if it were on fire and almost as if he were on a roller coaster at the same time. With each thrust his lower abdomen tightened a little more as if he was getting closer and closer to the end.

Using his free hand Reborn turned Tsuna’s head to the side so that he could gain access to his lips once more as he pulled out and thrust back in once more. It was a slow but satisfying coupling as Reborn pressed his lips breathlessly to Tsuna’s as he swallowed each moan and whimper his tongue caressing the younger mans gently as his fingers slowly worked to keep Tsuna from coming too soon before Reborn wanted him to. He might have been a good hitman, but he was also an expert lover too.

“Reborn…please...I can’t….” Tsuna whimpered not sure what he was trying to tell the black haired man as he felt Reborn thrust into him starting to pick up the pace. Tsuna craned his neck to look up and what he saw there was tenderness and a want to pleasure and love him. It caused him to shiver and tears to come to his eyes as he turned his face and buried it into the blankets beneath their bodies. Reborn finally picked up his pace.

Pushing into Tsuna’s body more insistently it took three more thrusts before Reborn heard Tsuna’s muffled whimper and cry into the sheets they were on top of and also before he felt the delicious pressure around his cock and the warmth on his fingers. With a groan and a couple more insistent and hard thrusts, Reborn trembled and came falling onto Tsuna’s back his cheek pressed up against Tsuna’s as they body trembled and breathed harshly together.

Tsuna reached out his hand wanting to find the comfort of the other’s hand He loves me…Why leave me with such a burden? Even if he didn’t want to admit it…It felt like a weight had been lifted from his shoulders too. Reborn’s hand gently covered his as they laid intertwined together panting and letting their breathing get back to normal, before Reborn finally pulled from Tsuna’s body with a groan. Tsuna sat up looking at Reborn who lay down and grabbed Tsuna’s arm with one hand and the covers in the other pulling the covers over their bodies his arms wrapping around Tsuna’s waist drawing the boy closer. “Everything’s going to be all right.” Reborn promised even if they both knew it was anything but all right. Tsuna allowed himself to buy into the lie as he drifted off to sleep.

Lacrymosa dies illa
Qua resurget ex favilla
Judicandus homo reus.
Huic ergo parce, Deus:
Pie Jesu Domine,
Dona eis requiem. Amen.

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Author: I was worried about posting this here, but I decided to anyways. It's the first time I've written something this dark so I was wondering how I did. Please review and let me know what you think.