Desperation

All Ryu could do was hold the smaller boy in his arms. He really wanted to go and punch Tsuchi until he was black and blue again, but right now he had to comfort Take. Gently he stroked the spiky hair letting the other cling to him like he was the only thing that could save him. Take had been fine once he stopped in the car, and he was strong when getting his things from Tsuchi’s apartment, but once inside the safety of the hotel, Take broke down again.


It was another several minutes before the sobbing had slowly stopped and all that was left was sniffling and hiccups. The only thing Ryu could do was hold him and rub his back in soothing circles.


“Ryu…” Take’s voice was soft and almost desperate.


“Mm…” Ryu wasn’t sure he was ready for the talking part with Take yet. He was still fuming over the Tsuchi cheating part.


“Ryu.” The way Take said his name made him look down and pull away from the embrace he had. The look in Take’s eyes made him stiffen. “Make me forget…” Take gripped Ryu’s dress shirt. “Please…”


To say that he was shocked was an understatement. If he was taking the way Take was asking in the way he thought…


“Take, I don’t think-” Ryu was silenced by Take desperately kissing him. It was filled with despair, sadness and desperation. The only thing Ryu could do was let his hand slip from Take’s hair to his shoulder. He couldn’t push the other boy away, fearing that it would be taken the wrong way.


The grip on his shirt tightened, and Take pushed him until his back hit the mattress. He didn’t move; he could only stare at Take moved above him. Ryu would be lying if he said the kiss wasn’t pleasant. It was amazing, even if Take was sniffling as he kissed him.


Slowly Take pulled away fully, his grip on the dress shirt still tight. “Please… Ryu…Please…” Take kissed him again wanting to forget. To forget how betrayed and hurt he felt. Ryu could and would make him feel better; he knew it, Ryu promised. When he slipped his hand under Ryu’s shirt, he knew Ryu was giving into him as he felt the redhead arched into the touch.


Sitting up, Take looked down at Ryu who could only stare at up Take. The smaller boy bit his bottom lip, as he unclasped Ryu’s belt working to move his pants out of the way. A small protest escaped Ryu’s lips only to be silenced by the look in Take’s eyes. Take needed this, wanted this. How could Ryu deny him that?


Moaning, Ryu grasped the smaller boy’s hair as Take slowly engulfed him. With his spare hand, Take rubbed circles on Ryu’s hip smiling around him. Ryu knew he shouldn’t be doing this with Take, but he didn’t have the heart to push him away. Screw the consequences, right now this was what Take needed from him, and he would give everything he had to make the smaller boy better.


Ryu leaned up, forcing Take to get up as well. Slipping off the boy’s shirt he pushed him down onto his back. He wouldn’t let Take do all of it himself. He’d make the smaller boy feel just as good. Gently, he kissed him, letting Take’s hand reach into his hair, tugging and gripping the strands. He felt Take start to unbutton his dress shirt as he worked on Take’s belt. The way the Take’s body was squirming under him was driving him made. Reaching down, Ryu shoved Take’s pants off along with his own.


He could only stare at Take spread out on the bed, staring at him with eyes begging. Begging him to make him feel good. It was maddening. Moving back to kiss Take, he took the other’s member into his hand, stroking and teasing it feeling Take arch into his touch. The whines and whimpers were music to his ears. It drove him to stroke Take slowly, just to have him cry out more.


He smiled as he laid down beside Take feeling the other take him in his hand stroking him as well. It was amazing. The feeling of Take’s petite hand touching him, teasing him. Slowly he moved his hand from Take’s member to his butt checks, gripping them, every once in a while teasing the hole. Every time his finger brushed the spot, Take would stiffen and moan into the kiss.


Ryu almost laughed as Take finally shoved him onto his back shifting above him breaking their to kiss to suck and bite Ryu’s neck. Take was getting desperate, and wanted more. He didn’t want to have full control, but he was wanting more than Ryu was giving at the moment. Again Take moved down to take Ryu into his mouth. He loved to see the usually composed and stoic Ryu come undone so easily.


A moan escaped Ryu’s lips. It was becoming unbearable. The way Take was moving around him, sucking him. Burying his fingers into Take’s hair, he arched into the warmth. He couldn’t push it though; he wasn’t sure how experienced Take was in doing this. Finally with a twist of Take’s wrist, Ryu was unable to keep it together anymore. Pulling Take away from his painfully hard member, he moved him onto his back, moving between them. Ryu wetted his lips staring down at the smaller boy who looked up at Ryu with half lidded eyes.


“Ryu… please…” He was afraid Ryu was going to stop soon, and he wanted to feel more, even if it would be painful. He needed this, to feel good and better. To make all the emotional hurt disappear. He wanted it to be all right again.


“Do we have any lu-”


“No… Just do it. Please…” Take didn’t want to wait. He didn’t want anything besides feeling. Ryu shook his head. He wasn’t going to do this without preparing Take. It would be too painful. Putting two fingers to Take’s mouth, he gave him a hard look.


“Suck.” Take only blinked at Ryu’s tone, slowly wetting his lips. “I’m going to prepare you if you like it or not. So coat them well Take.” The commanding tone did it for Take as he slowly took Ryu’s fingers into his mouth. He was going to make Ryu wish he hadn’t done that. Smiling slyly, Take took hold of Ryu’s wrist, sucking on the fingers, running his tongue all around them. The way Ryu looked like he was about to explode made Take grin around the fingers as he licked them.


Unable to take Take’s teasing, he ripped his hand away slipping a finger inside of Take. He hadn’t been too gentle with the first insert, but seeing Take tense and grit his teeth made him slow down, slowly twisting and inching his finger in and out.


When he felt Take was ready, he added another, and another before finally pushing himself in. Both moaned at the feeling, the overwhelming feeling. Slipping his hand around Take’s leg, he lifted it pushing forward to lean down and kiss Take. Seeing his opportunity, Take reached grabbing Ryu’s hair trying to hold him as close as possible. The feeling of being stretched and filled was painful, yet had an underling feeling of pleasure.


Cautiously at first, Ryu moved feeling the smaller boy clench around him. It was unbelievably tight and it made his head spin. Nothing should feel this good. Seeing the somewhat pained expression on Take’s face, he smiled using his free hand to reached over stroking Take’s neglected member smirking when Take moaned into the kiss. Such an ego boost to watch the smaller boy wither under him.


Both of them knew that they wouldn’t last too much longer. The feeling was too intense, too raw, it was unbearable. Slowing his pace, Ryu stroked Take faster grinning the spiky haired boy arched clenching at the sheets until his knuckles turned white. With encouraging words from Ryu, Take finally climaxed hot and heavy in Ryu’s hand as Ryu sped his pace up. The feeling of Take clenching even tighter around him as he moved in and out was too intense sending Ryu over the edge just behind Take.


For several minutes they just laid there, panting, foreheads rested against each other trying to regain their bearings. Finally pulling out from Take, Ryu collapsed next to him tugging Take into a one-arm embrace. Feeling the smaller boy curl up into him, he smiled sighing and closing his eyes.


Things would get better. Eventually.