Congratulations

***WARNING- Major spoilers for Death Note!! Read at own risk!!***

Dear Light,

So you won. You’re Kira after all. And I’m dead.
Congratulations.

Don’t take this win so easily. I won’t be your last opponent, you can be sure. But enjoy it for now.

I suppose you’ve earned it.

I don’t believe in an afterlife, Light, but lately I’ve rather been hoping for one. If one does exist….

I’ll miss you when I’m there.

Until you’re there, too, I suppose.

I guess I’m a bit sore about losing. I am dead, after all. But it was just a game and you won.

Don’t worry, I haven’t sent anything about your being Kira to anyone else. I still don’t have proof, anyway.

This is between you and me.

We’ve always known each other so equally.

Light, there’s something I’ve been wanting to tell you. I can probably be certain that I didn’t tell you before I died.

All those months of being chained together, I quite enjoyed being intimate with you. You’ve probably guessed that you were my first time, which is correct. I guess I’m not yours. You were always so popular.

I t probably didn’t mean much to you. Sexual favours between a pair of friends- or enemies, as is evident.

But I want you to know what it meant to me.

Even if we were enemies, we were friends, too. You were my first friend, as I’ve told you before.

You would usually fall asleep in when we were done.

Smiling.

I don’t sleep much, but I would watch you. You’re beautiful when you sleep. Innocent.
One night, you were still in my arms as your eyes closed slowly, peacefully. That’s when I knew.

Since then, I’ve hoped that I would die like that, in your arms. I would just close my eyes and rest. Is that how it happened? I wonder…

I wonder if I smiled.

Light, I love you.

I knew it that night and I know it now, even as I wait for you to kill me. But you already have…

But Light-kun, let me be very clear. I love you. Not Kira.

I love Light Yagami, the man I was chained to, the one I slept with that night and every night for so long, the one I fell in love with. When I first met you, you were not that man, and you’ve recently reverted to what you were then.

I know you’re still there, even if he’s clouded your mind.

You were different the night we caught the third Kira, when you became Kira again. I knew I would die then, from the way you acted. We were back to our mind games. It was simpler before.

This may sound cliché, but even once we were unchained, I still felt chained to you.

You said you’d never lie to hurt someone you love.

Either that’s a lie or you never loved me.

Either way, it hurts to hear it.

I hope you’ll never have to read this. That I’ll be alive to hide it for another night. But I guess that’s not the case.

I love you Light.

Remember that as Kira dances on my grave.


Yours,

Lawliet

~ ~ ~
Light silently watched the letter burn. It took a while because the tears were not yet dry on the page.
“I love you too, Ryuuzaki.”

Authors Note: I wrote this many months ago and posted it on deviantART. Figured I’d post it here too (I’ve edited it slightly from the version I posted on dA). ^^ I hope you enjoyed it.