Belarus's Song

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This is my first fanfic so please be gentle with me T_T

I don't own Hetalia axis powers or any of the characters!!!

I’ve given up. He’ll never love me. At least not the way I love him. I’ll always just be his little fucked up sister, nothing more. But even through all the pain and rejection I will never stop loving him. Even after the fall in 1991 I’ve stood by his side. Why cant he see that I will always be the one here. Maybe he does, maybe he just doesn’t care. No!! Its not that he doesn’t care I’m just …… I’m just not what he wants. Oh god I’m so pathetic!! Why did let it get like this! Ivan, Katyusha we used to be a happy family.

            The tears are falling again. They always do when I think of how it used to be. The vodka isn’t helping. It always helps brother…….. I’ve made my decision. I walk to brother’s room and knock on the door “Ivan” silence “Ivan I have something important to tell you. ” Silence. I lean against the door. “I’ve decided…” oh god the tears are falling again .Can he hear me cry?  “I’ve decided that tomorrow I will leave and return to my own home. I don’t belong here with you” the tears are streaming down my face now. “I will leave you alone like you want” I turn to walk away then whisper “Ya tebya lyublyu.” I run off to my room.

            Does he care? Will he come see me off tomorrow? I start packing my things and make a few calls. Going through the closet I find the dress I made especially for mine and his wedding. I rip it as much as I can and cry. Whether he comes to see me off or not I will not disturb his peace. I’m so tired, must be all the crying. I put my stuff next to the door and turn off the lights. Tomorrow will be tough but I do it for him. I lay awake in the dark running through everything about him in my mind. Making sure I don’t forget a single detail.

            I hear the door open. I know its him. I can tell by the smell, sunflowers and vodka. I fake being asleep so I don’t do anything crazy. He walks over to my bed and runs his hand over my cheek. Oh god I can not stand this sweet torture. He then leans over and kisses me on the lips. ‘Why? Why do you do this now to me. You’re so cruel’ he pulls away and whispers “Ja ciabie liubliu” my heart clenches. I feel something wet hit my cheek then hear him leave. Brother do not cry for my leaving when you wanted me gone all along.  

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Translation:

Ya tebya lyublyu = i love you in Russian 

ja ciabie liubliu  = i love you in Belarusian