First Kiss | By : phoeyay Category: +S to Z > XXXholic Views: 1482 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0 |
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It was like every other time that rude jerk stole something from my lunchbox… except worse, because this time it was more than just a bite of food.
I was standing outside the shrine. It had been a year since we'd freed the spirit who was haunting the cherry tree. The blossoms were falling again, putting me in a pensive mood. I was thinking about Kohane-chan. Things seemed like they were going well for her and her mother now, and it made me happy.
Then he showed up, and ruined everything.
Admittedly, he does live there, but still, the guy just has horrible timing.
"Oi." I heard from behind me.
I turned around angrily. "I have a name, you know!"
I didn't expect him to actually say my name.
And of course the first time the bastard says my name, he manages to find the rudest possible way to do it.
For a minute he just stood there in that wooden way of his, watching me, making me nervous. I can never tell what he's thinking behind those weird camel eyes of his. What's with the guy, anyway? Why is he so freaking silent all the time?
Then he started walking towards me. It was really strange, like something suddenly occurred to him and then he had a whole new purpose. Doumeki is scary when he has a purpose. Most of the time it's like he can't be bothered. It's comforting in a way - makes him solid, like nothing will faze him - so then when something does seem to affect him it scares the crap out of me.
And then he said my name… my given name, of all things, and he drew it out syllable by syllable in this incredibly offensive way.
"Ki… mi…." Jerkface kept walking towards me, closer with each syllable.
"…hi…" He closed the distance between us completely, so he was right up in my face - still with that damned unreadable expression. If it hadn't confused me so much, I would have probably yelled at him.
"…ro." Then he did it. He just grabbed my chin and covered my lips up with his, like it was no big deal, like my first kiss was just his for the taking. I was so surprised and weirded out that for a few seconds I didn't move.
And I would never admit it to him… or really to anyone… but in those few seconds, it felt kind of…. almost…. right. Like this was supposed to happen.
The bastard stuck his tongue in my mouth. I let him. My mind was running in circles, trying to figure out what was happening to me, and I kept thinking of what Yuuko had said to me when I first met her. "This was inevitable. It was always going to happen."
She wasn't talking about this, of course, but… I thought that in the time I worked for her I'd gotten a feel for those moments - the ones that mean something, that change everything, that really matter.
Only this couldn't possibly be one of those!
Doumeki came up for air and I was able to think clearly again, so I started yelling in his face. "What the hell is wrong with you, you weirdo? What do you think you're doing? That was my first kiss, you know!"
He just stood there looking as solid and rock-like as ever. Idiot. Then, after a pause… "I'm glad you liked it, then."
I exploded. "LIKED it? What are you thinking? What makes you think I enjoyed that at all? Do you think I'm some kind of pervert? Do…"
"Check where your hands are."
My arms were wrapped around him. Like, not a casual sort of touch on the shoulders, like maybe I lost my balance, but one arm was sort of bent upward with the hand on the nape of his neck, touching his hair… the other was down around his waist, partially touching his butt…
My face got really hot and I started spluttering. I would have yelled at him some more, but I couldn't think of anything mean enough to yell. I waved my arms around for good measure, making sure they were nowhere near Doumeki anymore.
Then this unbelievable bastard grabbed me, and kissed me again.
This time was really scary, because there were not only my own weird feelings from the first time, happening all over again… now I had a little bit of awareness, I could feel him. I could smell him, too. He had this faint mossy smell that made me think of a forest. He had this calmness about him like nothing would ever move the guy. Except somehow, when he was kissing me, I found that weird calmness to be kind of nice, instead of annoying. But beneath the calm, I felt something more. In the insistence of his movements, the way he held me, the way his lips felt on mine… It was like with all the strength he normally used to feel nothing, now he was using the same level of strength to feel something.
It made me think of a boulder that was so gigantic no one expected it to move, and one day it gets dislodged, and starts rolling down the mountain. And because it's so big, it picks up speed slowly, but once it gets going, no one can stop it.
That was how Doumeki felt to me. He'd never expressed anything, never seemed like he cared enough to feel anything… and now, it was like those feelings were unstoppable.
I realized he was right… I did like it. I wanted him to keep doing it. I wanted to hold him. That made me really scared. I knew nothing was going to be the same, ever again. Something was lost, never to return.
This time, when he pulled away, I didn't yell at him or wave my arms. I just looked up at that solid, steadfast face of his. He reached his hand up and touched something on my cheek. I realized I felt wetness there.
"Why are you crying?"
I couldn't explain. It was something deep inside me that had changed, and already it was as if I was becoming someone different. It was right, but yet it made me sad, and being sad was somehow part of the rightness.
"D-Doumeki…" I hazarded. It was the first time I'd said his name without gritting my teeth around it. It felt different in my mouth, like some new kind of food I'd never tasted.
He gazed calmly back at me. He still had his arms around me, but I didn't seem to mind anymore. "Yeah?"
"What's… what's going to happen now?"
He stepped away, and looked at me for a few seconds. "Hiyayakko with ginger."
"Gaaaa? Are you seriously telling me to make you food right now? Do you even have any tofu?"
"Sliced okra, too. And mitsumame for dessert."
I stalked angrily to the kitchen, but my annoyance was undermined a little bit by the fact that I realized I was laughing. He's still the same old jerk he used to be, after all.
There was a small bottle of chilled sake in the fridge, and I brought it out with the food. We sat there on a blanket, watching the cherry blossoms continue to fall, saying nothing.
Something had ended, but something had begun, and something told me that through any change, any upheaval, no one was better to have by my side than this annoying, stubborn jerk with the stone face.
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