Death would be my friend...

Basic: Suguru is having trouble at home. He copes with it as well as he can and acts like nothing is wrong, but when his cousin and his friends venture further into Suguru\'s life, they find a web of horrific occasions.
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*Okay, I edited this chappy a bit because I wrote it too fast and it needed to be fixed. I didn\'t change too much but, it should be a little better. I\'ll try to have the secong chappy up soon, I promise. Oh and thank you for ALL my reviews, I seriously appreciate them. Oh and if you have any ideas or suggestions, email me at: bleeding_roses2989@yahoo.com. Thanks so much, enjoy the edited chappy!*
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Disclaimer: I DO NOT own Gravitation, if I did everyone would be shocked at the pairings I\'d make. I am not makin money off these fics, so go away if ur trying to delete my story! Enjoy the fic!
************************************************************** Okay hopefully this is the LAST TIME it will be edited. Sorry, I should have worked on it more before I posted it! heh, oh well! But NOW it is done, and I\'m starting on the second chappy! I know before I said hopefully this weekend but it will most likely be Thursday, or Monday, depending on when my new beta gets back to me!!!! ^_~ Oh and I\'d like to thank Angela, because this chappy would be crappy w/o her! Enjoy the re-edited fic!
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Suguru snapped awake at the sound of his alarm clock, that lay plugged in, yet thrown askew on the floor. The memories of the night before haunted him to no end as he took in his surroundings. He lay on his back horizontally, on the bed. Bruises, scratches, and deep wounds covered his body. His once dark blue bed sheets were stained purple with blood, and another sticky substance coated his thighs as well as his sheets. The teen groaned as he rolled over, the pain once again burning up his spine. It was hard to move. Even hard to breathe. The teen took in the pain and his recollection of the night before. His mind began to spin as the memories flooded in, and he shook his head as to be ridded of them.

Fighting back tears, he leaned up, and forced himself to a sitting position. Pain seared through him, causing him to let out a samll squeak. Once he had regained his breath, Suguru made an attempt to stand, but fell helplessly to his knees. He wailed in agony, as his hands broke his fall. Tears leaked out of two blackened eyes, but he merely wiped them away. He wasn\'t weak as his father had told him. He was strong, he couldn\'t cry. Not over something as pathetic as this. With a deep breath, he made another attempt to rise to his feet and hissed as he managed to stand. Then, immediatly the teen straightened up. It was all he could do to ignore the pain in his body, but it almost came naturally to him to ignore it. Especially with how constant, and consistant this had come to be. It was nearly what was to be expected on a regular basis. Without another thought on last night\'s encounter, he got dressed (after he managed to figure out how not too walk with an obvios limp) and reached for his cell phone.



\"Hello? Rui?\"Suguru asked, happy to hear the voice of his friend and classmate.

\"Oh, hey Suguru? Ready for that test tomorrow?\"

\" Uh, yeah, but look can you do me a favor and get my homework for me? I\'m...going out of town today, so if you could just put it in my mailbox...\"

\" Huh? Oh yeah of course, Suguru. Guess I\'ll see you tomorrow? Hey where are you going anyways? Playing hooky?\"Rui asked in excitement, since that was so unlike Suguru to play hookey.

\" Um, no actually, I\'m er... visiting my grandfather in...Kyoto.\"

\"Kyoto?\"

\" Um, yeah, see... he\'s dying and its really not an easy subject to talk about, but this is probably the last time we\'ll get to see him. Anyways I have to go, but just remember to put my homework in the mailbox.\"

\" Yeah, the mailbox... okay well I\'m sorry to hear about your grandfather. Take it easy Suguru.\"

\"Alright, bye.\" Suguru sighed as he hung up the phone. How the hell did he make up a story like that, he asked himself.Better yet, how could he lie to his friend. Or skip school for that matter. He sighed, mind tired...\' I don\'t even have a grandfather in Kyoto\'...he thought to himself as he made his way down the stairs of his house. His parents were both gone, he knew they had left by the silence that filled the house. Before leaving Suguru washed all the dried blood from his face. He then masked his face in make up, careful as to not make it look like he was wearing make up, but covering up all the discolorations and minor cuts. He grabbed his bag, and started down the down the street, headed for N-G studios.

\"Hey, Suguru-kun!\" Shuichi all but screamed as he bounced around the studio. From the look on his face, he and Yuki had had a good night.

\" Hi, Shuichi-san.\" Suguru almost laughed at the idiotic man.

\" Good morning Fujisaki-kun. Wait it\'s Tuesday, don\'t you have school?\" K asked as he greeted him.

\" No, its testing day today-so... t-the seniors and the juniors are the only ones that are supposed to go. The Sophmore class had testing yesterday.\" ( theres only three years of high school in japananese schools, but i don\'t know if first years are called freshmen or sophmores. I figure they\'re probabbly called freshman, but i dont feel like explaining, so ha!) Suguru lied, quickly turning his back to K-san


\" Ah, I see.\" K nodded and passed him as he ran to contain Shuichi who was nearly driving Sakano-san to a nervous break-down.
Suguru sighed. He didn\'t want to talk to anyone. He was amazed that no one had noticed his black eyes through the poorly applied foundation he had put on to cover up any bruises he had on his face. He bowed his head, and felt tears begin to welt in his eyes. \"Hello Suguru.\" Suguru nearly jumped, his heart rate increasing as the voice snapped him out of his thoughts.

\"Oh hi, Nakano-san.\" Suguru greeted, his face slightly red.

\"Heh, sorry, I didn\'t mean to startle you.\" Hiro smiled.


\"Thats okay, you didn\'t really startle me.\" Suguru replied quickly, in an almost excited tone of voice. Hiro nodded an okay before glancing down at his friend. Something caught the corner of his eye.

\"Fugisaki-san... whats that?\" Hiro asked examining a few drops of what looked like blood stains on the left side of the teen\'s shirt.

\"Oh, that?! That\'s just ...er... paint.\" Suguru smiled, his face slightly pink.

\"Paint?\" Hiro asked.

\"Yes. Just paint.\" Suguru lied. He didn\'t want to tell to anyone, at least not about this. Not now. He was amazed that Hiro hadn\'t noticed his black eyes through the poorly applied foundation he had put on to cover up any bruises he had on his face. The teen bowed his head, and felt tears begin to welt in his eyes. He hoped to the heavens that Hiro wouldn\'t see.

\" Okay.\" Hiro said almost too soon as Shuichi tore around the studio, nearly knocking the two over. Both boys were quite accustomed to Shuichi\'s morning- activeness, and through this, they had also learned to stand their ground, if Shuichi ever did run into them. They looked unamused by the blur that sped by, which was Shuichi.

\" Think he and Yuki are getting along?\"

\" I\'d say so.\" Suguru almost giggled,.his tears dissapearing as quickly as they had come.

\"C\'MON you guys!!! Its recording time!\" Shuichi cried out as he dashed off to the recording boothe.
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Darkness consumed all of Toyko as Suguru found himself walking down the blackened sidewalk. The only light was the nebulous count of stars that brightened the sky, aside from a few street lamps that dotted the sidewalk every here and there. Although Suguru tried to focus on actually making it home, his mind averted to what would happen when he actually got home. He shook his head and tried to abolish the thoughts. He crossed the street, his mind locked on the events that had occured the night before. Bright lights and the sudden screech of breaks, nearly shocked the boy dead as he jumped to get out of the way. He landed flat on his face, his feet unable to keep up with the movement of his body. He groaned in pain as he rolled over. He knew he had further injured himself as he felt a warm liquid drip down his thighs caused by the the abuse he\'d suffered from the night before.

\" Oh my Gods! I\'m sorry! Are you alright!?\" The motorcyclist asked hurridly as he stopped and jumped off his bike, running towards the teen.

\" Uh yeah... I\'m ... fine...\" Suguru groaned as he sat up.

\" Oh you\'re hurt! \" The man gasped eyeing the redish-purple color that spotted the seat of his pants.
\"Nuh, n-no, I\'m alright.\" Suguru winced slightly. The Cyclist shot him a worried look that sent shivers up Suguru\'s spine. It was as if he had seen right through him.

\" No really, I\'m okay, I-I just didn\'t see you...\"

\" No, no! I didn\'t see you! Here let me help you.\" He offered as he extended a hand and pulled the boy to his feet. Suguru glanced the man over once again. Brown locks fell to the the man\'s cheek bones. Although it was dark, Suguru took note of his nearly black eyes. He looked so familar. Suguru could tell that he was most likely in his early twenties. But he felt as if he knew this man. It reminded him of someone that he couldn\'t place. And it was that fact itself that almost frightened him.

\" I-I\'m very sorry! Please if there\'s anything I can do... Would- would you like a ride home? Oh of course you wouldn\'t! I just fucking hit you, how stupid can I be! Well then would you-\"

\" Actually, that would be nice. I would like a ride...\" Suguru said quietly, shocking the man as well as himself. The man stared at him unsure, and then nodded as he fiddled with his keys scearching for the right one. Anxiety curled in the teen\'s stomach, and he could feel his heart begin to race.

\"Yeah, alright then, here hop on.\" The man said as he handed Suguru a helmet and helped him on the back of his bike. Suguru wanted to scream when he sat down, but held in the pained cry along with all the obscenities he wanted to shout. He wrapped his arms around the man\'s waist, to keep from falling off as the man started and reved the engine, before taking off. Suguru could feel his cheeks flush. The man\'s body was so warm and soft. It was almost as if he never wanted to let go. \'What if he kidnaps me?\' The thought raced through Surugu\'s mind and part of him wished the man would take him captive. Suguru didn\'t care if he had almost killed him. At least he apologized, offered him a ride, and actually had cared whether or not he had killed him. He knew he was being very unreasonable to himself, but he wanted a new life. As Shuichi would say it, \" I want a new world...\" Suguru thought out loud.

\" What was that?\" The man asked.

\"Um, I just said you take a left up here...\"

\" Oh, you got it, kid.\" He said, happy to comply. Not long after, Suguru found himself standing at his door step.

\" Is this it?\"

\" Yes, thank you.\" Suguru, said as he stepped off the bike, and bowed slightly.

\"Forgive me for nearly hitting you. I\'m very sorry. I\'m not exactly familar with the area, I just came to visit my brother.\" Suguru only smiled.

\"Thats okay.\"The boy said as he stared into the deepths of the adult\'s eyes, a bit longer than he should have. He flushed slightly. \'Wait I\'m not gay!\' His eyes widened at the thought, and he turned, embaressed, as he began to head up the driveway.

\" Oh, wait a second, here\" (okay i dont know how to convert american money yen, so if some knows please email me!) The man said as he reached inside the pocket of his jeans. The teen whirled and stared at the bill that the man held in front of him. \"Its the least I can do, but I hope it helps.\" The man said, voice soft as he handed the boy fifty dollars.

\" Heh, thanks, its really okay though. Besides I can\'t take that from you....\" Suguru declined as he tried to hand the money back.

\"Yes you can, now just keep it .\" The man said, cupping the teens hand with his own and pushing the money back into Suguru\'s hand,\"Besides its not everyday that you nearly get run over then get paid for it.\" He chuckled and drew a giggle out of the teen.

\" Well thank you, then. Good bye.\"The boy said shly at merely a whisper.

\"Good bye...Fujisaki-kun.\"The man\'s voice rang in Suguru\'s ears as he began to take off. The boy\'s eyes widened as he turned to face the man.

\" If you know me...then do me a favor next time,\" Suguru called to the motorcylist who had began to adjust his helmet, \" Next time if you hit me, kill me.\" Now it was the man\'s turn, as his eyes widened at the remark and watched dumbfoundly as the teen went inside. Minutes later, he left.


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First chappy down! I\'m starting the second one right now! Oh and if you have any comments or suggestions, you can email me at: bleeding_roses2989@yahoo.com. And please, please review. I really wanna know waht you guys think! Till the next update then!~BleedingRoses~