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Super Psycho Love	By : Rhov Category: +. to F > Fairy Tail Views: 9712 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
Disclaimer: Fairy Tail is the property of Hiro Mashima. I make no money, I just do this for my own pleasure.

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A/N: Not every tragedy has a happy outcome. Sometimes the light at the end of the tunnel, is the "light at the end of the tunnel."
Today is this story's two-year birthday. Yep, it took me TWO FRIGGING YEARS to reach this monumental scene. Actually, this chapter was one of the first that I wrote, because most of it is taken right out of the AMV, including some of the dialogue. Cheers!
To assure my concerned followers, I'm not "overdoing it" while I heal from a broken wrist. This chapter was 90% done at the time of my injury. All I had to do was add the intro. Slowly. One-handed.

Chapter 12

Feel the Pain Getting Bigger
Where am I? I don't remember getting here. I don't remember…
She lied. She lied to me. She cheated on me. Just like back then. Just like…
Why does this happen? Don't they realize how much it hurts? Don't they realize how hard it is to trust again, to love again, to open up your heart after it has been scarred? Don't they realize?
Just like back then. Like with her. She said she loved me, but I caught her. I caught her with that man. I caught them…
This is why I didn't want to love again. This is why I froze my heart. But I thought, at least Lucy was okay. Lucy wouldn't do that. Lucy wouldn't cheat on me. I thought, if anyone in this world could actually love me and not cheat on me, at least her. At least Lucy.
Why, Lucy? Dammit, why? I loved you … so much! I wanted you, to have you with me forever. So why?
It hurts. My chest. It hurts so much.
Dammit, Lucy! I could forgive you flirting with other guys. I could overlook the way you smiled at Natsu, but this…
Just like back then…
I can't think straight. I can't even feel. I don't want to feel. Where am I?
It hurts!
She doesn't understand this pain.
She should feel this pain.
She should be made to understand how much this hurts. Having your heart torn out slowly. Having all of your love and trust mocked and destroyed. It hurts. My heart hurts.
She should feel how much this hurts.
She should hurt!
She should suffer.
For making me hurt this badly, for lying and cheating and using me…
Just like back then. Like that other girlfriend who slept with that guy, who cheated on me, and then laughed when I found them together in bed. Laughed at me, said I was so stupid for not realizing it sooner. She laughed and mocked me, while naked in bed with that man. It hurts! Just like back then.
I can't feel my feet.
Where am I? Where am I going now?
My chest hurts.
She should hurt.
She should feel what it's like.
Lucy should suffer like I do.
I want her to suffer!
Revenge!
REVENGE!
REVENGE!

Lucy sat against a tree in town, wearing long sleeves to cover the bruises, yet they were still visible on her cheeks and legs, dark purplish-red marks left behind to show the violence. The hit to her head had also swollen a lot over the past few hours. She probably had a concussion. She knew she needed to see a hospital, at least about her broken wrist and injured spine. However, they would question. A girl does not get injuries like this due to a simple slip in the shower. Although her back still throbbed, she was scared of going to a doctor, only to have the whole true exposed.
She was not ready to go through that yet. It was too soon, too fresh, the shame still too painful.
She knew deep in her heart, she should report what happened. It was the right thing to do. Keeping quiet would only lead to something worse. However, if she reported this, then Natsu would get arrested. She did not want that, either. She felt it was her fault for leading him on, he was only reacting to her own actions, and she felt immense guilt at driving him to that level of madness. Still, she knew she had to report it eventually.
Later.
For now, she cried. It was her birthday, yet she had been avoiding everyone. The present Gray left stung her. She held it in her hands now, unopened. She wanted to open it with him, but right then she did not have the nerve to look for him.
How could she face him after this?
'Why did it turn out like this? He didn't deserve this.'
She cried softly. She would lose Natsu. She had to report it, and he would be arrested. Everyone would know what happened. Natsu would tell the judge and everyone else what Lucy did to get even with him, how her pride destroyed their friendship, turning it into some sick, twisted, psychotic love.
"What have I done?" she cried to herself as fresh tears came to her eyes. "This is all my fault."
She had to report it, but first she had to explain things to Gray. She needed to confess her sins. Right now, she had to trust him. She had to throw everything onto him and hope he would still stand by her side.
'I'll explain everything to him. I'm sure he'll forgive me. He'll understand.'
She wiped away her tears. Yes, Gray would stay by her. She wronged him, but he would smile, hug her, comfort her tears away, and stand beside her at any trial against Natsu for what he did. She had to believe he would still love her. She needed someone by her side or she could never continue.
She stared into the sky. It was the same color as Gray's eyes, as if he was smiling at her, already forgiving her.
'Yes, I'll tell him. I have to!'
She dropped her head down and smiled privately. Gray had been so wonderful. Maybe he was a bit possessive, but she liked that. If anyone would stay by her, surely it was him.
She heard footsteps that stopped right in front of her. She looked up to see the familiar white coat, but the face that loomed over her was darker, the eyes like ice that could stab a person's heart.
"Gray!" she gasped. Just by his face, she knew he must have heard bad news.
"Look at you, Lucy," he smirked arrogantly. There was something strange about his voice. It did not sound like Gray at all. "Dressed up nice, aren't you? Ready to have fun on your birthday? Or maybe you already had your fun…" His lip curled up in a sneer. "…with Natsu."
Her eyes widened in shock, and then in horror. If Gray had heard a different version about what happened, of course he would be furious. "No, Gray, you see…"
"You toyed with me," he accused.
"Gray…"
"You only wanted to use me to get back at Natsu."
"You don't understand," she sobbed. "He…"
"You betrayed me," he accused coldly. "You went off and had an affair with that damn bastard."
"No!" she sobbed, but her throat choked up. An affair? What had Gray heard? Why would he think that? Why was this happening? The one man she thought would shield her was already accusing her of the worst thing possible. "If you'll just listen…"
He threw off his coat and shirt in one swift move. "You wanted to hurt him, right? You wanted him to ache and desire you. Tell me if I'm wrong."
"I…"
She could not deny that, even as tears of sadness fell down her cheeks. That was precisely what she had wanted, and she had felt so justified the whole time as she used Gray to seek revenge. Now, accused directly, she realized just how awful her plan was to anyone around her. Her personal justifications seemed so petty now.
She cried to him, "I didn't want it to go this far. Really, I didn't!"
He shook his head at her, feeling only betrayal and pain. "You should have thought about that before you fucked with me. I warned you…" He laughed in a strange way while tears dripped unnoticed from his eyes. "Goddammit, I warned you. The one thing I can't stand, the one thing that can really make me snap like a fucking lunatic," he shrieked, only to suddenly drop his voice, "is when someone fucks with my heart and cheats on me! Just like back then. It hurts, Lucy. It would have been better if you simply broke up with me and told me honestly that you loved him still…"
"But I—"
"…instead of lying, cheating, going behind my back, and playing with my emotions," he lashed out over her. "People who do that … are my enemies!"
He pounded his fist into his hand, and a pale blue magic circle lit up around him. Lucy stared in confusion at first. Slowly, the truth dawned on her like a hollow bell ringing in an abandoned church.
"Gray … you wouldn't," she whispered.
More tears fell down as his face lit up blue from increasing magic. "Dammit, I loved you. But you went too … damn … far."
"You don't understand…"
"You wanted Natsu to feel the pain you experienced, right?" he asked bitterly as the air around him frosted over. "Isn't it fair that I make you feel the same pain I feel now? I loved you, but this … it's like someone just tore my heart out. It hurts, Lucy." He gave her a sardonic, insane smile as tears rolled down. "It hurts bad. Knowing you were playing around with him, toying with him at the same time you were claiming you loved me … you can't begin to imagine how much that hurts. Then to find out you let him fuck you while my back was turned."
That infuriated her. How dare he accuse her of that. "I didn't!" she screamed.
"You should feel just how bad it hurts. You should feel just what kind of pain you're putting me through."
"But Gray…"
"Ice-Make…"
"Oh God." She realized the direness of the moment, the insanity in his eyes, and she yanked out the first key she touched. "Open the Gate of the—"
"…Spear."
A sharp lance of ice shot out. Blood splattered over his bare skin. Lucy made a hiccup noise as the spike pierced straight through her chest. She looked down, shocked and confused at the frosty ice that pierced her heart. She figured he might attack in anger, but this…
This…
She gazed up silently to Gray. Her hand dropped the golden key, and it fell useless to the grass.
He stared at Lucy's eyes as they widened in surprise and began to dim as her life faded. No words came to her mouth. Her lips moved, but he could not tell what she was trying to say. He retracted the spear, and it melted in the summer sun, leaving behind no evidence. Gray never blinked as Lucy fell to the grass, first to her knees, staring at the hole in her chest, then her body collapsed to the side, and her head hit the bloodied grass.
She stretched her hand out with a weak smile, as if asking to be forgiven at the very end. "Gray," she whispered. "I … I'm so … sor-…" Then her hand fell limp to the grass.
Gray closed his eyes and turned away. It was over so fast, yet he knew his revenge was only halfway finished. Still, he loved her once, and for the sake of those deep feelings that had been destroyed, he at least granted her a swift death.
"Goodbye, Lucy."
He walked away with a shadow to his face and eyes set to a dark purpose. Lucy hardly suffered at all, but Natsu … he would kill that fire-breathing bastard slowly, very slowly, and as painfully as he could. He would find the cathartic release from his bitter feelings in the tortured screams of the Dragon Slayer who destroyed every bit of happiness and sanity in Gray's heart.
He would have his revenge!

End of Chapter 12

A/N: I've told this to a few readers already. When I saw the AMV, I wanted to write it out as a full story because it reminded me of things that actually happened to me, one being a bit of a love triangle.
My first boyfriend dumped me for no good reason besides "it's not fun anymore." I decided to just move on; it was my first love, he was a bit abusive anyway, so I forced myself to keep smiling despite the feeling of betrayal. He didn't like that I looked so happy without him (not knowing I was sobbing inside) so he began dating my best friend purely to get me angry.
It worked! I was ready to just let the past go and remain as friends, but jealousy can drive even a quiet, shy girl like me into a psychotic desire for revenge.
I got even by dating other boys, then occasionally flirting with him as well, only to deny him as soon as he showed interest. I kept assuring my best friend (now his girlfriend) that I had no interest in dating him again … which was true. He was an asshole, I definitely did NOT want him back. I only wanted him to realize how much I hurt when he suddenly dumped me, and secretly I wanted him to break up with my friend before she also got abused by him. Of course, teasing a boy known for being destructive is plain stupid. I realize that now in hindsight.
After a few months of mentally tormenting him, he snapped. One day, he beat the crap out of me and tried to rape me. (I mentioned this in Chapter 10's notes.) Luckily, he's no dragon slayer! I wouldn't say I kicked his butt, but I put up enough of a fight to make him give up. Although I didn't tell anyone what happened, rumors spread, twisted in the way rumors tend to be. The new girlfriend believed the gossip that we had sex. She had been cheated on before, and she went totally psycho, threatening this asshole with a knife. Luckily, I disarmed her before she could stab anyone. No cool ice magic, just one crazy teen drama, with me as the bitchy ex-girlfriend, acting in a way that was totally out of character, yet in the heat of passion and the poisonous desire for revenge, people will act in really stupid, horrible, hurtful ways.
So, the AMV felt like an uncanny reminder of what was the darkest moment of my life. Some parts in this story, such as Lucy's "logic" for tormenting Natsu, are things I actually thought at the time. Even if it's OOC for the characters in the manga, it really is a situation that can happen to normal teens, even the shy bookworms like me.
On a happy note, although I wouldn't call her my "best friend" anymore, that girl and I calmed down, realized we both despised the boyfriend for how he treated us, and we still email one another even now, over a decade later. And the bastard? He's now balding and fat, and I killed him off in the fanfic "Beastly Possession." Karma is sweet!
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