Darkness Within your Light

Warnings for the next couple of chapters: Fluffiness to the extreme, Lots of humor, Major Angst, MAJOR PLOT TWISTS!

THANK YOU TO ALL WHO HAVE REVIEWED...I LOVE YOU ALL! HEH, here are my responds:

Gryphonwills,- heh, glad you liked it! Enjoy the next episode of 'Darkness Within Your Light'...XD

Elle,- yes I try to incorprate as much feeling and emotions in my story as much as possible, I love it when my readers can feel the characters emotions as they exprience saddness, happiness, love and hate...its just so much more fun that way, don't you think? XD heh I just bought 5 pounds of hot coco...we're set for a while yet! X3

Draug,- Yea for fluff! XD I love writting fluff but...it is so much fun to also write some angst in a story to blance the fluff. Which is what I did in this chapter...XP Yagami's reaction is not as funny as you would think...I kind of took out the funnyness because I need plot-twists...sorry ;-; it is still a little funny though...so...don't worry the fluff will be back within the next few chapters...oh and I WILL NEVER SEPARATE L AND RAITO! THEY BELONG TO EACH OTHER! Its the red string of fate or something like that! XD

Aurora Moon,- Yep, L just really hasn't had the time to process everything, I keep throwing the boys in one situation after another! XD I can guarantee that you won't expect what Yagmai's reaction to be what it is...really be prepared to be shocked! XD

Stitches,- Yes the last chapter was fluffy and nice wasn't it?...you are going to be string on the tip of your toes with the plot-twists in this chapter! XD I can guarantee that the plot-twists in this chapter will keep you wanting to know more...well I hope at least XD

Mustang89,- Yes heh Raito telling L that he loved him in French was so cute and prefect...aww moment huh? XD you'll be shocked to see who really needed that vest in this chapter...hehe be prepared to be amazed, horrified and shocked! XD don't worry the fluff will be back soon enough...CX

Linkala,- HA! I just got you to liking Fuff and here I make a chapter that defines Angst...wow...that's some list...it makes me feel all warm and fuzzy feelings of happiness when I read it! XD I LUVS YOU Linkala!! XDDDD oh about the pics, take your time, I'm just really happy that your drawing something that has something to do with this fic...it makes me so happy! XD Oh and don't worry about sounding like a gushing fangirl, we are all fangirls at heart(I'm a squealing fangirl myself X3) so don't worry your not alone! I can't wait to see your pics and don't worry if you don't capture their features just right...that would be waaayyy to hard! your right that only the orginal artists can draw them percisily. but I don't think their going to be writing yaoi pics of their characters anytime soon nee? Hahahahaha, just do your best and I'm sure they will come out great! anyway hope you enjoy this chapter...the plot-twist are building up! XD as always I look forward to your thoughts and feelings about this story, thank you so much for reviewing!

I have posted up my AU one-shot ‘A Cemetery Romance’ it has a lemon in it! Please read and review it! If I get good enough reviews on my experimental lemon maybe I’ll feel confident to put one in this story as well later! Remember people it was only my first go! XD

Oh and just for everyone’s state of mind…I LOVE HAPPYISH ENDINGS!! I may make L and Raito suffer sometimes in this story, and might take them to the brink of total angst and emotional suffering but…they will pull through anything and everything I push at them. So don’t worry…this won’t have a sad depressing ending…well this chapter might but the story as a whole will have a satisfying ending. K?

Part 2 of 3 of the plot twists that should have all been in one chapter!

This picks up right after the last chapter, enjoy!

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It didn’t take long for them to reach the closed outer door of the Investigation room.

Raito turned to look at Ryuzaki and if he hadn’t been feeling nervous himself he would have laughed at the scared expression that Ryuzaki wore.

“It will be ok Ryuzaki, we’ll just let my father vent a bit and then we’ll start working on the Kira case…umm not to sound negative or anything like that but…you have the vest strapped on correctly right?”

Ryuzaki just shot him an annoyed look that caused Raito to lift his arms in mock surrender.

“Ok, ok sorry I asked, well let’s get this over with; I would like to start working on proving my innocence thank you very much.”

Ryuzaki just snorted, showing that he was not amused by Raito’s ill timed humor.

Raito just sighed in dissatisfaction and reached out to grab the door handle to open it and start what he suspected would make world war 3 look like a tea party. He was stopped though by a pale hand suddenly overlapping his own.

Raito was startled and looked at Ryuzaki in confusion, the confusion changed to astonishment when Ryuzaki suddenly moved closer to him until their noses practically touched.

“I just wanted to make sure that Raito-kun knows that I will not take back what I said…if Yagami-san has a problem with it then that’s his problem not ours.”

Raito was trying to figure out what Ryuzaki meant when he was startled out of his thoughts by a pair of soft dry lips covering his own.

Raito let out a little moan of confusion but didn’t fight the gentle kiss, it was different then the kisses they had shared before. While there definitely was passion in the kiss it was much more subtle, it was more of a chaste kiss, not meant to arouse but to show that Ryuzaki felt something more then lust for Raito.

Raito couldn’t have felt more contented then he was right now…and more then a little turned on as well.

The kiss ended a few seconds later when Ryuzaki pulled away, it had been just a soft press of lips, but it made both of them feel more at ease and harden their resolve to get through what ever was going to happen on the other side of the door.

It was only when after they had parted that Raito felt a chill suddenly lifted the back hairs on his neck; it felt like they were being watched…

Raito turned back towards the closed door…or what had once been a closed door.

Raito stared at the wide opened door of the investigation room where every single member of the team plus Watari was standing and staring wide eyed and in Matsuda’s case gapping mouth included at the now paralyzed chained pair.

‘Oh you have got to be fucking kidding me…’

Raito’s father was standing a few feet away from the door where he had stumped back, it didn’t take a genius to figure out that it was him that had opened the door, most likely he had gotten sick of waiting for them and had decided find them himself and drag their caresses back into the room…the stare on his face expressed clearly that he had not expecting to see his son in lip-locked with his employer…the expression that was on his face. Well, Raito was sure that face wouldn’t have stood out in an active war room…

“Shit.”

If Raito wasn’t so paralyzed in alarm and fright he would have found it funny that Ryuzaki just swore, but because he didn’t have that luxury he just stood there like a stone statue.

‘I wonder if I have time to just grab Ryuzaki and book a plane ticket to somewhere remote…the Sari Desert sounds about right…’

But before Raito could really give that idea more attention his father finally got over his own shock, his face became more thunderous then ever and when he spoke it was like listening to your own funeral being announced.

“Well? Are you both going to just stand there all day or are you going to come in? I have a few…concerns that I would like to address to the both of you so if you would…get the hell in here right now.”

Raito dimly heard Ryuzaki whimper in fear and Raito wasn’t far from doing the same thing himself. It didn’t matter that they both were technically adults, when Yagami demanded something in that voice it was best do as he said. Yagami hadn’t been called the Grim Dog in his younger years at the police academy for nothing.

Both Raito and Ryuzaki started forward into the room, shuffling their feet like they were chained there as well as their wrists.

Before they crossed the threshold Raito couldn’t help but wish that he also had worn a bullet proof vest as well.

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“Umm Dad, it’s not as bad as it seems, Ryuzaki was just-”

“Shut up Raito.”

Raito gulped and shut his mouth; it seemed that his father did not want to hear any of his excuses.

After Raito and Ryuzaki had entered the room his father had just silently pointed to two simple, hard plastic chairs that were position in the middle of the room, not saying anything at all.

It would seem that he wanted both Raito and Ryuzaki to feel ultimate humiliation by not letting them sit in the nice, plush computer chairs that surrounded them. No instead of sitting in comfort they had to sit in torture chairs like two grade school boys who are got in trouble.

‘He must have put them there himself, shit he even has the rest of the team standing by the wall so they won’t interfere, I just hope that Watari managed to strip him of anything dangerous before letting him in here…’

Both Raito and Ryuzaki sat in the chairs quickly, not daring to protest and make things worse then they already were. They both watched anxiously as Yagami paced back and forth in front of them, a look of pure doom on his face.

Finally after a minute or two of tense silence Yagami finally stopped pacing and turned his back to them, Raito could see his back muscles tense up, he looked like a volcano about to erupt.

After another few tense seconds pasted in which Raito was considering fainting and using his shinigami form to get the hell out of there, he figured L was a big boy and could take care of himself.

Just as Raito was thinking of the best way to knock himself out and escape his father finally made a move.

Whatever anyone expected him to do or say, what he did do was something no one would have predicted in a million years.

Yagami turned back around and Raito took in his purple furious face and braced himself; his plans of escape went out the window.

Yagami took a deep breath and then exploded.

“My son’s been living in sin!”

“…”

Huh?

“Father? Wha-”

Yagami sent his son a look that immediately stopped any other further sounds from coming out of Raito’s mouth.

“Be quite Raito, I’m-Not-Done-Speaking.”

The way Yagami empathized his point scared the hell out of everyone in the room. Even Watari had a slightly fearful expression in his eyes.

Yagami started pacing again, looking back and forth at his son’s face and L’s. He took slight sadistic pleasure at the fearful look on their faces, and let his expression show it.

There was no doubt from which parent Raito had got his slightly twisted sadistic side from.

“I’m not talking about homosexuality, so you can stop panicking about that. I’m not going to cut you out of the family son just because you’re gay. To be completely honest your mother and I had a running bet on how long it would take for you to come out of the closet…and we made this bet when you where only 6 years old…you dressing in your mother’s clothing and playing with dolls and playing house with your sister kind of tipped us off.”

Raito had never felt more horrified and embarrassed in his entire life then he did right now.

“DAD!”

Yagami just sent his son a smirk and continued talking as if his son hadn’t interrupted.

Raito just kept staring at his father, he didn’t want to know Ryuzaki’s reaction to finding out his number one suspect of being Kira had dressed up as a child as a girl and use to play with dolls, and played house with his younger sister.

No, he could do without seeing Ryuzaki fall to the floor laughing at him.

“So you see Raito it’s not that your gay that has…irate me, for lack of a better word, no what has me mad was that you failed to inform me and your mother about your relationship.”

Raito felt his face heat up and he couldn’t keep the growing horror from showing on his face.

‘No, no, this can not be happening…dad is not going to give me a relationship lecture with L not sitting two inches from me…no this is all some nightmare. Yes a really, terrible, horrifying, nightmare…’

Unfortunately for Raito, reality was just about to give him a kick to his face to show it was not some horrifying nightmare that he was experiencing.

“And not only did you fail to inform us about your…relationship, you’re having sex aren’t you?”

“…”

Silence…then…

“WHAT!!!!”

Raito didn’t care that he wasn’t supposed to get up from the chair; he jumped up and stared in shock and mortification as his father just stood there calmly as if he didn’t just kill his son by embarrassing him to death.

“H-how could y-you even ask me t-that!?!”

Raito felt irritated at himself for stuttering like that but…well his father had just asked him if he had sex with L in front of everyone! He had reason to stutter as he did!

His father had a strange expression on his face; it was an odd mixture of serenity and fierceness.

“I’m your father Raito; I have every right to ask you about your sexual habits. Especially if it involves sex before you get married.”

Raito wanted to die.

‘Oh please, please someone shoot me right now, forget redemption, this is not worth it!’

While Raito was staring in blank horror at his father, Yagami finally turned his attention to Ryuzaki. His smirk faded from his face, being replaced by fatherly rage.

Everyone could hear the swallow that emitted from Ryuzaki’s throat.

“L…I expected better of you. Not only are you older then my son, you are also a brilliant, smart young man, and I’m honored to be working for you…but you should have known better, I thought you’d be more responsible then this…you being L should of granted you more common sense, but I guess even if you are a genius and the world’s greatest detective you are still a young man with the raging hormones of a teenager. I’m deeply disappointed and ashamed of you both.”

L had started to sink low into his seat when Yagami first started talking, by the time Yagami had taken a breath from lecturing him, L was on the ground in his usual sitting position, the only difference was that he was hiding behind the chair as he crouched.

‘Ok that’s it!’

“Dad, we’ve only kissed! We have not had sex for the love of Mu, I’m still a freaking virgin so would you stop lecturing us and let us all get back to work now?!”

Raito stopped and panted for breath when he finished shouting. It was only then that what he just said processed into his brain. Raito felt his face start to burn as the entire investigation team turned wide eyes on him.

‘Oh me and my big mouth…’

Ryuzaki had a wide eye look too but it was filled not only with shock at Raito’s outburst but curiosity. Just as Raito wondered what Ryuzaki could be curious about Ryuzaki finally spoke.

“Raito-kun is a virgin? And what is this Mu that you speak of?”

Raito was speechless as he turned his eyes on Ryuzaki, who had gotten out of behind his small chair and was now also standing.

Ryuzaki crooked his head to the side, his curiosity shown on his face, it deepened as Ryuzaki pondered more.

Raito tried to derail Ryuzaki from pondering any further on the subject. It would just be his luck if Ryuzaki started to really think hard about the different aspects that Raito had seemed to gain overnight and about his…virginness.

“L is now the time to be asking me questions? Would you please tell my father the truth? That we have not had…you know.”

Ryuzaki’s face morphed into a leer when Raito was speaking. Raito started to sweat a bit.

‘The only thing worse then my father lecturing me about my…private matters is when L gets the idea to embarrass me.’

And what would you know; both of these things seem to coexist at the same time.

“I did not know that Raito-kun was so shy that he can’t even say the word sex. I’m sorry if I affect his innocent virginity. I’m make sure to be very careful with my inten-”

“Ryuzaki! Don’t you dare start that crap with me right now! Now you tell my father the truth right now or I swear that I will make your life a living hell for as long as this chain connects us!!”

Raito empathized his point by yanking on the silver chain that connected them together. Ryuzaki stumbled a bit as he was unused to the handcuffs and the small distance that it granted them. Raito, who had gone through all of this once already, remembered a few tricks that had served him the first time so that he wouldn’t be overthrown by any yanking or pulling of the cuffs.

“What could you do to me Raito-kun that can make my life hell? If you mean to ignore me or to fight me then by all means, please help yourself.”

Raito let out a sound that was oddly like the sound of a tea kettle whistling, when Ryuzaki pointed that out Raito snapped. He yanked the chain again, harder though, because he wanted Ryuzaki to be closer for him to land a good punch in the face.

Ryuzaki though seemed to expect it and instead of losing his balance which was Raito’s intention, stepped forward gracefully and kicked Raito in the stomach. Not really hard, but enough for Raito to lose his breath.

Raito realizing that he couldn’t win a physical fight right now decided to start a verbal one instead. He was confident that he could win that.

“How about I steal and destroy all of your cakes?! I’ll make sure that not a single grain of sugar reaches those pale lips of yours Ryuzaki!”

Ryuzaki gasped and recoiled like he had been hit. His eyes widen almost impossibly wide and seemed to almost gaze over with unshed tears. His bottom lip started to tremble a bit and form a pout and he hunched even more then normal. His face adopted a heartbreaking chibi like look.

“Raito-kun would do that to me? Why? I thought I meant something to Raito-kun, but if Raito-kun can be that heartless as to try to deny me sugar then that proves that Raito-kun has no heart.”

‘Oh you have got to be shitting me…’

Raito knew it was a trap, it smelled like a trap, looked like a trap, he could practically taste in the air that it was a trap. But those eyes…

Raito sighed and resigned himself. Damn L and his chibiness look of doom.

“Look L…I’m sorry ok? I didn’t mean it, I’m sure that Watari has some cake right now that you can have so…please stop looking at me like that.”

It was like watching someone flip a switch, the sad, chibi look vanished like magic and an almost smug, self-satisfied look replaced it.

“Why thank you Raito-kun I believe I will have some cake…if only in the celebration that I made you apologize to me for no reason whatsoever.”

Raito’s jaw dropped as he watched L wave at Watari to bring him some of his favorite strawberry cream cake.

Finally Raito woke up from his stupor and got angry.

“You…you little shit! You tricked me!”

Ryuzaki turned back to Raito and just gave him the ‘Duh’ look.

Both of them seemed to have forgotten that they had an audience, Yagami had been watching them sharply through the entire argument, and seemed to come to some conclusion because he nodded to himself and stepped forward. Bringing all the attention back to him, he watched amusingly as his son and L blushed a bit at forgetting that they had an audience and that they were suppose to be in trouble.

“Well I can at least see that you care about each other and that somewhat reassures me.”

Yagami sent a piercing look at Ryuzaki.

“To be truthful L, I had thought you were just playing around, using my son and toying with his heart. I know that with both of your intellect it is hard for you to speak and deal with people of lower I.Q., myself included. Wait Raito, I have something to say.”

Raito who had been about to interrupt, closed his mouth with an audible click.

“Now like I was saying, L I don’t know you all that well, for all I knew you could have been stringing my son along just to get laid. But the more I think about it now the less I believe that. I thought maybe you both had just become really good friends…but I guess I delusion myself to the truth. I do admit that I was angry last night when you and Sayu joked around about you joining the family, but you have to understand…I wasn’t mad about the idea of you becoming one with the family, nothing would make me happier then to see my son happy, and I know my daughter and wife already have taken a shine to you…no, what got me angry was the idea that you were only joking about it. That you didn’t take the idea of marrying into the family seriously, that you didn’t take my son seriously. That was what made me mad. In fact this morning my daughter had to hide all my shot gun bullets from me because I wanted to shoot you in the ass. So really…you have to call her and give her thanks, because if she hadn’t done that, I would be standing here with a shotgun loaded full of buckshot targeted for your ass.”

Everyone was speechless by the end of Yagami’s semi-rant.

Raito was especially speechless, he couldn’t stop himself from glowing a bit though, his father was showing how much his son’s feelings and actions mattered to him.

‘Wow…I didn’t know that dad really cared about me like that…so that’s why he set that guy on fire, the guy hadn’t been serious about me so dad got angry. Wow…I guess that means dad won’t let us have sex unless we get married…damnit.’

At the moment though Raito couldn’t really find it in himself to care much about that, while he didn’t like the idea of his father with a shotgun aiming for L he appreciated the thought of it. Somewhat.

Ryuzaki’s face had once again become his usual blank stare. Both Raito’s father and L had a small stare down. It was like they where having a private discussion that no one else was aloud in on.

It kind of pissed Raito off.

‘Heellloooo? Don’t I get a say in this? Why don’t I get the stare down to? Is it just because L’s older? Or is it because he’s father’s employer? It can’t be that dad…recognizes L as seme…no freaking way…oh god the images are coming back, fucking hell.’

Finally after a few minutes L nodded his head at his father, who just nodded back.

The tension that had been building up suddenly dissipated. Raito’s father turned to look at his son’s confused and lost face and gave him a small proud smile which Raito hesitantly returned.

Like an unspoken signal had been announced the rest of the team left the wall that they had been pressed back into and moved back to their own workstations.

‘I’m so freaking confused right now it isn’t even funny.’

L started to move over to his own workstation, causing Raito to stumble a bit as he had been lost in thought and hadn’t seen L start to move. L half turned and waited a moment for Raito to regain his balance before he started moving again.

‘What’s with him? He has such a serious expression on his face…why?’

Raito didn’t deny to himself that he was nervous and a bit paranoid about what L must be thinking about.

‘Why wouldn’t I be nervous, dad had basically told L that he could only start a relationship with me if he was serious…oh god, what if he isn’t? Could he really be just screwing around with me…arg him screwing me...ahh, goddamnit Raito! Get your mind out of the gutter! This is important…Ryuzaki wouldn’t play me like that would he? I mean…we’ve been through a lot together, well ok, I’ve been through a lot together with him in the past-future time continuum thingy…wow isn’t my I.Q. dropping by the second. But even if I spent almost half a year chained to him in my last life…I know more about him now in only a few days then I knew then. Damn that’s kind of sad and for some strange reason pisses me off as well.”

Raito absentmindly felt himself sit into the computer chair right next to L. Who had already started analyzing data and picking through folders. It seemed that L was back into the full swing of being a detective. The detective that wanted Kira’s head on a plate, served as bloody rare as it could be.

“No, I’m sure that Ryuzaki wouldn’t play with me like that…but would L? I keep on forgetting that L thinks I’m Kira…and in a way he’s right. Even if I got rid of the negative emotions of Kira, even when I died and been reborn, even if I vow never to get near a fucking Deathnote again…it doesn’t change anything. I still have the blood of innocents on my hands. It doesn’t matter, none of that matters…because it was me that had done those inexcusable things. I’m no innocent, hell I’m not even fully human anymore. Why would L care about me? Is he just using me, leading me on so that on a chance I might confess everything to him? That I’m Kira…”

Raito felt his eyes start to sting and tingle a bit, he realized almost too late that he was about to cry.

‘Shit no, come on, I’ve got to pull myself together… I should have known though, I mean I told him I get visions of the future and he saw that I had abnormal healed myself and he didn’t freak out? Any sane person would have suspected something…I bet those things just added to my percentage of being Kira…god why didn’t I see it? Because I was in love? Because I’m still in fucking love? Shit, shit, shit, shit!’

Raito made sure to turn around to stare at his own computer, so Ryuzaki wouldn’t become suspicious of the silent tears that flowed down Raito’s face.

“Yagami-kun?”

Raito turned his head a bit to the side, Watari was standing on the opposite side of where L was sitting. So Raito didn’t feel the need to hide his tears from Watari. For some reason he always felt safe around Watari. It might have been because Watari had such a grandfather air to him and even though Raito knew that Watari was an exceptional sniper and hit-man, it didn’t diminish the comfort Raito felt.

‘And I caused this kind man his life too…’

Raito didn’t wipe his tears away, because he was sure that Ryuzaki would have felt the hand movement, so he looked at Watari with clear tear tracks lining his face.

“Yes, Watari-san? Is there something that you need of me?”

Watari had a concerned and worried look on his face, but it changed back into his polite normal mask. Raito nodded to himself, it seemed that Watari realized that he didn’t want Ryuzaki to notice anything amiss.

“Nothing really Yagami-kun, I was just wondering if you were hungry, I noticed that you hadn’t eaten much of the food I left you last night, if you want I can bring you some breakfast.”

Raito sent Watari a semi-hidden look of gratefulness, and nodded his head.

“Yes I am quite hungry; I would appreciate it if you could bring me something to eat.”

“What would you like? Something light I suspect.”

“Yes please, if you can bring me some toast and some coffee that would be wonderful.”

Watari nodded back, showing that he understood Raito’s silent plead to not let anyone knew that he had caught Raito crying. Though before he turned around he sent Raito a piercingly look, singling that he would talk to him later about Raito’s unusual show of emotions.

Raito just stopped himself from cringing and just gave Watari a quick nod to show he understood.

Satisfied Watari turned around and left the room quickly so he could bring the poor boy something to eat.

Raito sighed as he saw Watari leave the room; he pretended to yawn and subtly wiped the now drying tear tracks from his cheeks. He was mad at himself for showing so much emotion in a room filled with people. It didn’t matter that no one other then Watari had saw, it was still a big whole in his mask and he was quite upset about it. He knew that he was no longer a sociopath and that he would start to feel more emotions, but he thought he would have had the strength to hide them.

It seemed to Raito that he was a lot weaker then he had thought.

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Only about 10 minutes had passed before Raito noticed that Ryuzaki was squirming around. After Watari had left Raito decided to lock all of his emotions and thoughts about Ryuzaki deep in his mind and concentrate on the Kira case. It was important and he had to find the current Kira as soon as he could and tell Rem the plan was off…as well as burn all the Deathnotes that where on earth to ashes.

Raito tried to ignore Ryuzaki’s fidgeting but as another 5 minutes passed and he still hadn’t stopped Raito snapped.

“What the hell’s wrong with you?! Do you have hives or something!?”

Ryuzaki just shot him a dirty look and spoke in that vacant tone that Raito hated with a passion.

“No Raito-san I do not have hives. But my gun is driving into my side because of that damn vest you and Watari made me wear.”

Ryuzaki shot Raito a look that clearly stated that he believed it was Raito’s fault that he was in such discomfort.

Raito stared in shock and disbelief before the anger set in.

“Don’t you dare blame me! It’s because you’re emaciated that the gun is digging into you, maybe if you ate something other then sweets and sugar you’d actually have some healthy muscle so that wouldn’t happen, and anyway that vest was for your own protection! We had no clue how my dad would react to your stupid comment! You heard him earlier; he would have brought a fucking shot gun and shot your scrawny ass to hell and back if my sister hadn’t acted in your best interest.”

Raito took a deep breath and turned his burning eyes to Ryuzaki’s own stunned ones.

“So don’t you dare go blaming me for your own stupid actions.”

Raito turned back around and started to type on the computer harshly.

‘Shit, Fucking hell! Way to go smartass, now everyone in here will know that something’s wrong with you! Great, just fucking terrific. I thought I had put a lid on my anger and pain…god I can’t be around anyone; my emotions right now are so screwed up. I feel like I’ve been put in a blender and someone puréed my control and mind.’

Raito noticed that the room was silent and the typing of computer keys and rustling paper had stopped. He ducked his head a little more and didn’t move his face from the computer screen in front of him. He knew they were all looking at him, wondering what the hell was wrong with him. He didn’t want to talk to anyone though, especially about what was bothering him.

No the only one at this point that he would even consider talking to would have been Watari, and that was only just, he didn’t know if Watari wouldn’t take what he confessed and take it back to L. He knew that Watari’s loyalty went to L first and foremost.

And the strange thing was that Raito wouldn’t blame him. He understood after all, he also was loyal to L…even if L really was just tricking him into confession by pretending to care for him…it sadly didn’t stop Raito from loving him despite that awful thought.

Raito heard a noise from the direction of where L sat; he turned his head ever so slightly and saw from under his bangs that L was removing the small handgun that he had slipped under his shirt. He looked at it for a moment and then called over Matsuda to take it.

Raito was kind of unsure about that…Matsuda was known for being inherently clumsily, but Raito didn’t say anything about Ryuzaki’s odd choice, the gun wasn’t loaded after all.

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Another 10 minutes passed in complete silence, it seemed after Raito’s uncharacteristic show of anger had subdue the team into stillness. They all had started working again after about 2 or so minutes of staring at Raito’s ridged back.

Raito turned slightly to look at the door when he heard it open. Watari walked in pushing a small cart filled with the promised toast and coffee, and in addition to that a small red apple was also sitting next to them.

Truthfully Raito had lost his appetite again after his outburst earlier, but since he didn’t want to worry Watari nor his father he just silently gave a nod of thanks to Watari as he as handed the plate. His stomach turned slightly at the sight of the shiny apple. It brought to many bad memories to the surface, memories which where better left buried deep in his mind.

He ignored the apple and went straight for the coffee, not caring that it was boiling hot nor that it scolded his tongue…or at least it would have if Raito didn’t have his shinigami healing.

Watari admonish him gently to be more careful, Raito just nodded absentmindly as he continued to drink the nectar of life.

Raito snickered to himself. Nectar of life, ha! His blood was the real Nectar of Life…

Raito stopped snickering as something nagged at him from the back of his mind…what was it?

Raito let his gaze wander around the room, his father and Aizawa and Mogi where on the far side of the room, discussion something about the case and a couple of files that were scattered around them. He turned his head and looked at where Matsuda was talking to Watari, Raito frowned when he saw that Matsuda still had Ryuzaki’s gun in hand and was waving it slightly around.

‘Do you know now that I think about it…even though both me and Watari told L to make sure that there was no ammunition in that gun…I don’t remember him unloading it. I know that he had unloaded it last night, but I also remember him reloading it this morning before Watari and I told him to empty it…shit why can’t I remember if L had emptied it or not?!’

Raito was starting to get more then a bit worried as he saw Matsuda wave the gun around a little harder this time. It seemed that Watari was unafraid of the gun being loaded, but Watari trusted L, more then he should really.

It suddenly hit Raito; he never did see Watari’s life-span or his real name. Raito started to have a really bad feeling. It was just like before when he knew that something had been wrong when he had entered his parent’s home as a shinigami and had felt like something was wrong…disturbed.

‘It’s almost like I can feel when someone’s about…to…die…oh fuck no!!’

Raito was starting to feel himself panic, nothing showed on neither his face nor his posture but his mind was like being inside the middle of a hurricane…and there was no fucking eye of the storm to hide in.

‘Fuck, I need to see Watari’s life-span now! God damn it I need to be in my shinigami form…but I have to unconscious for that! Shit, shit I wish I had the eyes right now!’

Suddenly Raito’s eyesight went black, but before he could process that he had been blinded and have time to panic he sight returned a second later…only now everything was in a haze of red.

‘The Eyes…I have the eyes in my human body…what the fuck?! Shit I don’t have time to panic and question the whys right now; I have to see Watari’s life-span.’

Raito raised his head from the bowed position it had been in, when he had gone temporarily blind he had automatically lowered his head.

He looked up and took a glance at the numbers above Watari’s head…and panicked.


4 minute, 59 seconds


‘NO!’

Raito felt himself freeze up, he now knew that L had forgotten to unload the gun, and he knew that in a few minutes Watari would be dead from a gunshot wound.

‘No I have to stop it! I have to write his name in the LifeNote!!’

Raito then remembered that he was in his human form and that his lifenote was with his shinigami form.

‘SHIT! What the fuck am I going to do now-wait, I had wished to have the eyes and I got it right? So maybe if I wish to have the lifenote with me right now I can-”

Raito didn’t even get to finish that thought as he felt something fall onto his head. His hands automatically went to catch whatever had fallen on top of him and when he brought his hands back down to eye level, the white prim lettering of his Lifenote looked back at him.

‘Ok that’s fucking cool.’

Raito didn’t let anything else derail him other then that thought though. He didn’t care what everyone saw anymore. He knew that Ryuzaki had seen the lifenote fall from seemingly empty air. But Raito couldn’t let that faze him, his secret was about to be discovered but…he didn’t fucking care.

Raito turned his red shinigami eyes back to Watari and cursed. Out loud.

“God damn it all to fucking hell!”


Quillsh Wammy

3 minutes 23 seconds


“Shit!”

“Raito-kun what’s the matter-”

Raito quickly turned to look at L who gasped in shock; Raito didn’t have time to wonder why because he had already turned back to his lifenote and opened it up.

It automatically opened up to his previously written in page.

The glaring names and numbers of his love and family stood out in bright red. It seemed that his blood didn’t dry out and turn the color of dried blood. No the blood was still as fresh looking as when he had written in the notebook with his life spilled blood.

Raito ignored the previously written words and picked up his shard of a pen. Ignoring Ryuzaki’s demanding questions Raito quickly took a deep breath and posed the shard over his wrist. It seemed that Ryuzaki had finally figured out at least what he was about to do.

“No! Raito-kun stop right now-”

Raito dodged Ryuzaki’s lunged by springing out of his own chair, not wasting anymore time Raito stabbed his wrist harshly with the sharp utensil. Ignoring the teams cries of surprise and dismay Raito quickly put the crimson drenched utensil to the white paper and quickly wrote Watari’s real name down, he also wrote a number down as well.


Quillsh Wammy- 10 years-peaceful


Coming down from his panic induced attack Raito finally was able to comprehend the chaos that was going on around him. Without him realizing it he had been dodging and evading Ryuzaki’s advances. His father and the others had also been trying to catch him but they hadn’t been able to succeed. Raito it seemed had unconsciously applied some of his shinigami reflexes while he had been busy saving Watari.

Finally Raito stopped dodging the team’s frantic hands and stood still. His father was holding onto his wrist and trying to apply pressure to it, he was screaming something but Raito couldn’t comprehend what was being said. He was staring at the numbers above Watari’s head. What he saw was something he couldn’t grasp, couldn’t comprehend at all.


Watari’s life numbers where still falling.


Abide slower then they had before. It was like the numbers where unsure of themselves. Like they didn’t know if they should have Watari die or not.

‘Why? I wrote his name down…why would he still die?!’

Then Raito understood.

Raito ripped out of his father’s and L’s grasp, he had only just realize that he had been wrapped in L’s embrace. L had had his arms wrapped tightly to Raito, and what startled and yet thrilled Raito was that he had been trembling. With what Raito recognized was fear and distress.

Raito again ignored his father’s and L’s yells and ran towards Watari and Matsuda both who were still on the other side of the room, Matsuda who was still holding onto L’s gun and was unknowingly pointing it loosely towards Watari’s chest. Raito understood now. Even if he had extended Watari’s life, the gun was still destined to go off, and Watari was still in its path. It may not kill him right now, but it will injury him majorly and kill him in the future.

Raito took one last looked at Watari’s numbers; he then narrowed his eyes determinedly and quickly got into between Watari and the loose gun. Matsuda had unknowingly put his finger on the trigger while all the commotion had been happening. Both Watari and Matsuda where startled when Raito ran towards them and stood in front of Watari facing Matsuda with a look of grim determination on his face.

Not a second latter Matsuda felt his finger spasm and incidentally pull on the trigger of the 9mm gun that L had entrusted to him.

A lone, loud gunshot sounded out. Ripping through the air and impacting straight into Raito’s chest.

Hitting him straight through the heart.

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Ok…do you all hate me now? X.x Heh I have to say that is one freaking mother of a cliffhanger. I’m so going to get reviews that either tell me to update immediately or tell me to roll over and die XP. Please don’t stop reading or anything stupid like that. I warned you all that I would have major angst happening soon…well BAM AND WHAM BITCHES!!

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I apologize if I offend any of you just now…I just had 2 AMP energy drinks one right after another and I just ate out with my bestest friends and had a really good day…I LUVS YOU ALL MY FLUFFY PLOT BUNNIES! (Sprinkles Tinker Bell fairy dust all over writers self) wwwwwwwhhhhhhhheeeeeeeeeeeeee!!! I CAN FLY!!

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…cough…ahem…

…anyway back to my story.

I have rewritten this motherfucker of a chapter at least 3 fucking times!! Argh!!! First it was almost all comedy and fluff, but then I realized that it was just a crappy crack chapter and it didn’t advance the plot at all! It was just pure funny and while that’s all good and dandy…I want this story to stay in a goddamn plot-line!

In the second version Raito’s father had did indeed brought his shotgun and tried to shoot L…and succeeded X3 but then I realized that it wasn’t really fair for L to get shot like that…so I once again erased every fucking word I had spent hours working on and restarted…again!

This is the final version of this chapter, and it is a lot more serious then its previous two brothers, who where stupid and funny but not good at all! I killed them with pleasure…Muhahahahaha! XvX (don’t even think about trying to find me to either kick my ass or shoot my own ass full of buckshot.) I have Writer Witness Protection…wow that’s actually a good idea…:p

It was only as I was writing this chapter for the third and FINAL time that I realized that I didn’t want Yagami to be a mean old man who hates his son’s choice of lovers…I mean that is so overdone isn’t it? Also in my one-shot fic I made Raito’s parents really bitches so I decided I wanted to try something different…and I think I did! I have never read a fanfic which has protective BUT understanding Yagami-san…what do you think? Is it good? Did you like Yagami’s reaction? Please tell me what you think!!!

Anyway…ummm, don’t worry I’ll try to have the next chapter up sometime soon…hopefully, and then we will get to the pissed and freaked out L…heh be prepared for scary L again…sadly for Raito that black wrath of L’s will be directed at him this time.

And L should be learning some of the TRUTH about Raito’s secret. YEA!!!

Sooo…if any of you obsessive readers want the next chapter out as soon as possible, you better motivate me with a bunch of reviews! NICE, LOVING REVIEWS DAMNIT!

That means…REVIEW PEOPLE! REVIEW LIKE RAITO’S SEX LIFE WITH L DEPENDS ON IT!!!