Darkness Within your Light

Oh my Kira…another update so darn soon (author checks to see if she’s been taken over by a pod person)…nope I don’t think so…wow just…WoW

Thank you everyone who was so nice to me in their reviews. So many of you out there thought my lemon was great (or at least good enough to read) I was shocked and very very touched…I will not cry…sniff…shit I’m really crying. T^T

I love you all…(stuffs head into a pillow and has a good cry)

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…Okay I’m alright now…I think I needed that in the worse and best way possible. Exhale and cry out those negative self criticism demons!

Alrighty then I know that these last few chapters have been very short, but I figured that everyone would rather have short but frequently updated chapters then long monthly updates.

If not then feel free to review or E-mail me to tell me otherwise.

I hope you enjoy this chapter filled with suspense and plot and all that good cliff-hanger goodness…hehe I was going to wait a week to post this but I couldn’t hold onto it once it finished…

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Raito felt his jaw crack as he let out a yawn, while last night had certainly been pleasurable it had definitely tired him out, as well as leave him sore and aching. It was very discomforting to sit straight in a chair but he wouldn’t have had it any other way. There was no way he was going to slouch in his work chair like L.
It was around ten in the morning of the next day. Both he and L were already back in their office working.

Having woken up first this morning Raito had just laid there staring at the man who was cradled in his arms. It seemed that sometime in the night they had traded places. L was now lying in his arms, cuddled with his head on Raito’s chest; his own arms huddled under his chin in adorable cute fashion. It was one of the most endearing sights Raito had ever seen. He hadn’t had the heart to wake the sleeping man. It had still been early so Raito just waited for L to wake naturally.

When he had finally begun to wake up Raito couldn’t help but lean forward and kiss the sleepy eyed man. But before it could progress into anything else Watari had chosen that moment to knock on the door and announce that breakfast was ready and he was coming in.

Both he and L must have broken some record in how fast they had gotten dressed so they wouldn’t be caught butt naked by the older man. After enjoying a lovely meal and thanking Watari they both decided they needed a shower, they were both still sticky from last night’s activity. After much deliberation they decided that they would take separate showers only because they both needed to get back to work and taking a shower together wouldn’t speed things up at all despite the pleasurable aspects of the idea.

Once they were both clean they walked to the office and got to work, L was contacting his agents and contacts in the hope that someone knew something about the strange collage or the new Kira and Raito…well he was trying to look like he was being productive. In reality he was trying to figure out the best way for him to tell L about his plan. Also he was feeling a bit out of sorts. It didn’t have anything to do with last night he was sure but he couldn’t help but feel a nagging sensation in his gut. Something was wrong but for the life of him he couldn’t figure it out.

‘Maybe it’s because I haven’t been in my shinigami form for a while? That could be it…hmm…well I might as well, and being in that form might also help my argument with L.’

Having decided that that was what he would do Raito turned to look at L who was still talking on the phone, Raito guessed that they were talking in some dialect of Spanish because he didn’t quite understand. Raito decided to just wait patiently for him to get off the phone before trying to get his attention. It would have been very rude otherwise.

Raito’s eyes began to roam over the stunning figure beside him. L’s hair was still wet from the shower so it looked much tamer with the usually wild locks framing his face instead of flaring outward. The shadows underneath his eyes seemed to have lessened a bit as well making his eyes seem less huge. His eyes themselves were glistening with feeling, no longer were they filled with apathy. It made L’s whole demeanor change, his skin glowed with aliveness.

It was a beautiful sight to behold and Raito couldn’t help but feel pride and happiness that it had been him that had caused L this change. L was happy that much was obvious. He was happy with him.

‘He’s just so…’

Raito sighed as even his brain couldn’t come up with a prefect word to express what L was. If Raito himself wasn’t so happy he would have been disgusted with himself over how much he sounded like a mooning love struck girl.

“Hello Raito-kun? Earth to Raito, wake up.”

Raito startled as a hand suddenly waved in front of his face. Turning red he pushed it away. It seemed he had spaced out longer then he had thought. Pushing the red from his face Raito raised an eyebrow at the bemused man sitting beside him.

“Yes L?”

“I was just asking Raito-kun if he had something he wanted to say. You’ve been staring at me for the past ten minutes.”

Raito flushed red again before he could stop it, ignoring L’s chuckling he told L what he was going to do and the reason for it.

L nodded as he listened to Raito’s explanation. When Raito was finished speaking L leaned back in thought.
“Well if you believe that this feeling that you have is because you haven’t taken your other form then you should of course change. But I would like to say that in no way am I going to knock you out again Raito. If you want to become conscious then you better find a different way.”

Raito nodded his head.

“I know L. I wouldn’t ask that of you. I’ve already got a better idea, if I meditate deep enough I should be able to access my shinigami form without having to become unconscious.”


“That sounds reasonable.”

“Yep, so don’t bother me for a while, I’ve never really done this before but I already looked up instructions, so I should be able to figure it out.”

L nodded before turning back around to his own computer. When Raito was sure that L’s concentration was fully on the computer he closed his eyes. Breathing deeply before letting out a deep breath, Raito started to disconnect himself from the outside world around him, sounds and the like soon began to fade away until it there was nothing but silence around him. After dealing with the outside he turned inward. He didn’t force himself to not think but relaxed himself enough that his thoughts started to slow down until almost no thought entered his head. Only a pleasant feeling of wooziness started to overtake him. A warm gray like his dream overtook his mind until he was floating in it.

Raito had no idea how long he took or how long he relaxed in the gray area, soon though he started to once again hear the world around him. The humming of the computers and modems and the soft clanking of fingers on keys, the ticking of a clock that was stationed on the wall, it was all coming back to his ears, abide slowly.

His mind also started to wake up from the hazy state, as soon as his mind started to register sound his mind connected back up. He didn’t know if it had worked or not. The only way to be sure of that would be to open up his eyes and see for himself.

Slowly opening his eyes so that the light wouldn’t sting them for being closed for a while he squinted in the sudden bright light that hit his vision.

Shifting his body a bit he looked around, a smile took over his face as everything had a reddish haze to it. It seemed that his little plan had worked. Now he wouldn’t have to go to sleep or be knocked out anymore. With more practice he was even sure he would be able to leave his body within seconds. Looking at the clock he was surprised to see that two hours had passed by. Longer then he would have hoped but not as bad as he had feared.

“How does Raito-kun feel now? Do you still feel out of sorts?”

Raito turned his head to look at L, it seemed that Watari must have been here because L now had a slice of triple layer chocolate cake in one hand and a fork in the other. It was already halfway eaten so Raito deducted Watari had only just left.

Taking L’s question in consideration Raito thought about it. How did he feel? Well one thing was for sure…the weird feeling he had before seemed to have amplified itself twice over. It was no longer a gut feeling of uneasiness but a burning buzzing in his head.

“I still feel odd and it’s much worse then it was before. It’s like I have a nest of angry bees in my head.”

Raito was confused, what was wrong? Maybe he should consult Zaki about it. He didn’t want anything really terrible to be wrong and if he left it as it was it might have the opportunity to get worse.

L’s whole demeanor showed concern. Work forgotten he got out of his chair and walked towards his shinigami lover.

Raito stood there in frustration, the buzzing was getting worse the longer he stood there. He stretched out his wings letting them touch the wall and ceiling beside him. He missed L’s gaze of admiration as he stared at Raito’s wings.

“I don’t know what’s wrong L, let me try something first.”

With that said Raito closed his eyes and mentally called out to his lifenote.

‘Zaki? Hey Zaki you awake? I need your help…Zaki?...hello?....ZAKI!!’

Raito wasn’t panicking, at least not yet, usually he would have been able to feel his friend even if he was asleep, and Zaki had always answered him when he called, especially if Raito was asking for help. But for some reason the place in his mind that Zaki had encompassed was…empty.

‘That doesn’t make any sense! Why the hell isn’t he answering?!’

Raito opened his eyes and reached to his belt, maybe if he was holding his lifenote in his hands Zaki would be able to answer him.

Raito froze.

‘Wait-what?!’

The book chain that had comfortably sat around his waist…the place where the lifenote resided in…was completely empty.

“No freaking way…”

Raito was beginning to feel very afraid at this point, and as if things couldn’t get any worse the buzzing intensified to the degree that he was starting to see swarming black spots in his vision, a loud ringing sound began to drill into his ears and his body suddenly began to get very heavy like gravity was pushing on him full force.

“Raito-kun you’ve suddenly become very pale, is everything alright? What’s wrong? Raito-kun? RAITO-KUN!!”

Sudden darkness overtook him completely and Raito knew no more.

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Short I know but I wanted to get this done quickly, besides the last chapter (cough-lemon-cough) was quite long. Besides it was just too great an ending to pass up.

Oh dear…it seems that Raito has become aware of the missing notebook, what will he do now and how will he find it?

Hehe you’ll just have to wait to find out. I’ve actually got that all planned out…and I’m positively giddy about it. ME GIDDY. That is so wrong on so many levels.

I’m suppose to hate this story but…I can feel my old love for this story coming back. It’s just too fun now (or that could be the energy drink I just had) I like making things difficult for the two lovebirds. It wouldn’t be a good fic without some ‘OhMyGodWhatsGoingToHappenNext!’ ness.

Ah…me happy. I finished this chapter in an HOUR! Yes…I’m getting Twilight Zone vibes too you’re not alone.

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