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Stellar Mistakes
By : Rhov
Category: +. to F > Fairy Tail
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Chapter 27
Rooftop Showdown
Later that day, when it was time to go home, Lucy did not head to the bottom floor. She went the other way.
"What am I doing?" she asked herself as she rode the elevator to the top floor.
She stepped out onto the rooftop and gazed out at the evening sky. It was tranquil, and although it was not fully dark yet, she could still look up and see some of the brightest stars. Out of habit, she found the constellations, as her mother had taught her. Aquarius, Virgo, Cancer…
Just then, the door opened and someone walked out onto the rooftop. She turned slowly, expecting to see Loke there, but instead she saw pink hair.
"God, it's suffocating down there right now."
"Natsu!"
He paused at realizing she was there, but he strode forward with a stern face. "What is up with that photo? Are you still hooking up with that guy?"
"Whoa, easy there," she said as he charged at her like a dragon. "Didn't you hear Mr. Leo? That was taken when we came in on Saturday—"
"I'm asking if you're still involved with him?" he shouted.
Such an aggressive attitude coming from him made all of Lucy's negative feelings explode, and she shouted back at him. "Why are you still on my case about this? You're my friend, but this has nothing to do with you."
"It does, precisely because I'm your oldest, closest friend."
"So what?" she yelled. "Besides, nothing happened that morning. The photo was just of him taking me home after I had stayed up working all night. Everyone on the team was working hard that Saturday. Everyone but you, I may add," she added, slamming her finger into his chest.
Natsu's mouth dropped. "My cat Happy was sick, I had to take him to the vet—"
"You could've showed up at any time, and you would have found all of us working our butts off. Even Gray showed up early, although he had a commitment that night. Poor Freed was so exhausted, he had to take a cab home; he couldn't keep his eyes open. I was there the whole day and night. When we finally finished, the trains weren't running yet, so Mr. Leo drove me home. There's all. There's seriously nothing else to it."
Natsu looked stunned and a little hurt that she was yelling at him, accusing him of not working as hard as the rest of the team, and brushing aside their years of friendship. "Lucy, this isn't like you. What do you even see in that guy? Power, money?"
"No!" she shouted.
"You knew he was engaged, didn't you? At the meeting this morning, when the king came in, you didn't look at all surprised by that part."
Lucy bit her lip, and she muttered weakly, "When we hooked up, he wasn't engaged yet. He was only thinking about it. And I didn't know that she was the king's daughter. I found that out this morning, like everyone else."
"Then you knew all along, the guy was never going to be serious about you."
"I … I knew that," she mumbled.
"Then why?" Natsu yelled in desperation. "Why would you get into a relationship that you know will never work out? I seriously don't get it." Natsu gnashed his teeth and looked pained. "Are you in love?"
Lucy felt her chest jolt with a sob she could not release. What sort of answer could she give? Just hours ago, she had told the King that she was not in love with Loke. She had come up to this roof for a reason, and now, being asked that…
"Lucy … goddammit," he said, shaking his head in grief. "It's just not like you, having a relationship that's purely physical. You can't do this to yourself! I can see how this is tearing apart, and as your friend, I can't simply keep quiet about it anymore."
She weakly muttered, "It has nothing to do with you—"
"It does!" he yelled. "Because you're my friend, and you deserve better than this. You can't be nothing more than his fucktoy."
"Hey now!" said a deep, cool voice. "That's no way to talk to a lady."
Lucy gasped as she spun around and saw Loke walking toward them. "What are you doing here?" she said breathlessly, although she had come up there to speak with him.
"I was looking for you. I wanted to talk. Looks like Natsu beat me to it."
"You!" Natsu growled. "What do you think you're doing to my friend? There are some things you just don't do, even a man in your position."
Loke shook his head. "Natsu, you have built up this wonderful fantasy about Lucy, this perfect and flawlessly angelic woman … the way you want her to be. You've known her all your life, and you still think she's the naïve child you knew in school. You're naïve yourself, to hold on to such a childhood crush."
"Hey!" Natsu yelled, blushing slightly as his hidden feelings were called out. "You have no right to say that to me."
"Then you don't have the right to say those things to her," Loke replied right back at him.
Natsu snarled at him, and Loke held his ground. Lucy watched as the two refused to break their stubborn gazes. Natsu normally avoided getting involved with her love life, but this time he looked so fierce, Lucy honestly thought he might throw a punch. However, Loke's body was loose, relaxed, yet his eyes held a strange sort of inner strength and determination to them. Lucy was breathless as she watched him. Obviously, Natsu was trying to provoke him, but Loke remained as calm as ever, truly as if he was above such petty behavior.
"Lucy is not some angelic child," Loke went on placidly. "She's an independent adult, a mature and strong woman, and she can be companions with whomever she wants."
"Even so, could you not use her for your bedroom games?"
At those words, for the first time Loke clearly showed anger. "I was never using her. I don't play around at work, I don't play with the hearts of women, and I sure as hell wasn't playing around with Lucy."
Her heart throbbed. "You mean, you were serious about me?"
Loke turned to her with a saddened look. "Did you think I wasn't?"
"I…" She had always hoped so, but she was never sure. She knew she never could have continued if she was just being used for fun, but … what about now?
Loke snapped away to turn back to Natsu. "All right, look, you're not part of this. I appreciate that you're concerned about her as a friend, but I don't want you butting in. This is between me and Lucy. If you respect her at all as a woman, you'll let us work this out. Whatever the outcome, it's just between her and me."
"Tch!" Natsu had no comeback. He knew Loke was right. He bit his lip and glared, but Loke maintained the same stern look on his face. Mr. Loke Leo, who was normally so calm and composed in the face of the worst news, was angry.
Lucy covered her mouth. 'Is it possible that he cares about me that much?'
Although she knew that they needed to break this off completely, still, while it lasted, she was happy that perhaps she had become an important part of his life. He had not simply been playing around. She was not sure what he actually felt, pursuing an engagement if he was actually serious about her, but at least in the complicated muddle, she could be happy that he had been serious all along.
The king's words came back to her. "Loke Leo is the son of the powerful Regulus Clan. Who are you? You are nothing. A refined gentleman like him would be wasted on you. Whose presentation will win, do you suppose, if Loke defies my wishes?"
Perhaps Loke was trapped, unable to escape the engagement. If he bailed on that commitment, then all of their work, Loke's dreams, his promise, all of that would become dust. That was not what Lucy wanted! She wanted Loke to follow his dreams.
Besides … the king had made a serious threat.
"You also should be worried about his future. He would be embarrassing me, the king, if he dared to turn down my daughter's hand. I doubt anyone would touch him after that. Him, Fairy Tail, all of you."
The higher-ups might be pressured by the government to fire Loke. All of Fairy Tail might sink if they refused. Lucy realized, if she really cared for Loke and for Fairy Tail, the best thing she could do now was…
While she was busy thinking, Natsu left. She heard his footsteps fade away, until it was just her and Loke again. He sank a bit and rubbed out his head.
"Your childhood friend is quite the hothead. I'm glad it didn't need to turn into a fight. I'm not usually one to fight over a girl."
"But you would for me?" she asked, her voice oddly hollow.
He turned to her with doleful eyes. "I think there's something worth fighting for in you." He tapped his hand against his thigh, seeming to be worried and nervous. "Did you need to talk?"
Lucy walked passed him, unable to meet his eyes. She went to the railing and looked out at the city, then up to the sky. She felt so tiny under the heavens. She really was insignificant in the grand scheme of things. What she wanted, how she felt, were all small, petty things when she realized the bigger world around her.
"We should stop."
Loke was quiet for a moment, but finally asked, "Stop?"
"This. Us. The texts, the calls, the flirting … sleeping together. We should stop. Not just putting distance between us, not leaving it with tell me if anything changes. We need to completely stop this for good."
His voice came out smaller than normal as he asked simply, "Why?"
"We can't lose this account. You said so yourself. We have to win it, no matter what … for the promise you made to the CEO. The only way to win…" Her voice died out, but she knew she did not need to say it.
He silently listened to her, but he flinched at the end. "You don't understand—"
"Also … I'm tired," she admitted. She knew she had to say this while she still had her resolve. "You are constantly on my mind. It's exhausting to always think about you, to always be jumping when I hear your voice, struggling constantly to not let it show at work, dodging questions and making up excuses about why I keep sighing and blushing and smiling to myself. I'm losing sleep, sitting up at night, wanting you, wishing you would call, fearing that you will, ready to race to you if you did but knowing I just can't because I can't have you in the sort of way that I want, and the truth is … I'm tired."
She could not meet his eyes. She knew if she did, she would start to cry. So she stared out at the stars beginning to twinkle through the dusky sky.
"I don't know why you slept with me. I never know what you're thinking or feeling. I don't know what you want to happen between us once you're engaged, and I'm afraid to know. You once said you slept with me because I'm cute, because you wanted to, but as it turns out, those answers just don't do it for me. It's not enough."
Her heart had been clouded all that time. She had been wanting to ask him how he felt about her, but she feared the truth. She clung to the complicated zone of not being a couple, but not being just a fucktoy, as Natsu put it. She allowed him to dodge the question their last night together, because she was scared of the answer.
That, too, needed to end.
"Natsu is right," she said, gazing up at the constellations. "I can't do this. It's not me. I mean, we didn't even have a start."
At that, Loke's eyes widened. "A start? Like dating?"
"Yes! We didn't have a starting point. We were drunk and slept together, and then we've been flying into things from there. We're supposed to date, ask about each other's lives and likes and dreams of the future, and then see if we're compatible, but that was never the sort of thing between us. You were dating Aries, seeing if she was compatible, but us … you don't really know me, and I don't even truly know you. It's just about sex, and I don't want that. I can't keep doing this as it is." Her head dropped. "It's exhausting, not knowing you but still wanting you."
Loke lowered his eyes sadly. "You're right. I was selfish, and I made you suffer. If ending this is what you want, that's what we should do."
She scowled. That wasn't fair! The way he was saying it was like it was all up to her, it was her fault, although part of her realized, it was. She was the one who refused to answer his calls, who kept pulling away, and who was now saying that they needed to end this. Plus, he never answered all those pieces that confused her. Even now, right at the end, she never got to hear what was in his heart. Tears beaded up on her eyelids, but she fought them back. Then she felt him step up behind her, yet not leaning against her. Just the radiating heat was a comfort. His voice was soft and warm.
"Can I ask one last thing of you?"
She finally turned around to look up at him. "One last thing?" Did he want sex one last time? Could she even do that now, with her heart so broken?
"It's … selfish," he admitted with a boyishly awkward shrug.
Lucy blinked, wondering what it was. As he explained it to her—half hopeful, half nervous—her eyes widened.
He wanted … to do … what?
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Stellar Mistakes	By : Rhov Category: +. to F > Fairy Tail Views: 14748 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
Disclaimer: I do not own Fairy Tail nor do I make money from this fanfic.

Stellar Mistakes