Darkness Within your Light

Oh you have to admit I’m on a roll right now! Two chapters in the span of the same week?! Heeh this is my apology for neglecting this story for months at a time. Sorry.

I’ll tell you one thing this is a dozy of a chapter. It had my head spinning…I can’t wait to see what it does to everyone else.

This chapter kind of shows that I’m back into deep thinking with this story unlike the last several chapters which was basically me pulling bullshit out of my ass and passing it off like I knew what the hell I was writing.

Not any longer! ^-^

Warning: Seriously plot-twisting, mind-numbing, eye-ball-popping…ok now I’m just messing with you. Let’s just say…this is a WTF! I didn’t see that coming chapter!

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Raito felt his breath catch. Even though he had suspected it, it was another thing to hear it out loud.
So she was back once again, not that Raito had seen her or anything but with L seeing her in that dream and now her meeting Ryuk. It was more than slightly discomforting or a consequence, what did she want from him now?

Wasn’t he doing what she had asked of him? Why was she interfering? What had changed again?

So many questions were swarming in Raito’s mind that he couldn’t begin to sort them out enough to get them answered, plus he was pretty sure that Ryuk wouldn’t have those answers anyway, not the ones he sought at least.

“So Ryuk what did she say or do after she popped out of the water.”

Ryuk shrugged.

“Nothing.”

Raito’s face showed his lack of belief at that statement.

“Wait a second, what do you mean by nothing?!”

“Just what I said nothing, she just looked at me and shook her head, and then she left by going back in the goopy stuff.”

“Wait if that’s true then it wouldn’t be difficult for you to explain how you know her name?”

“Oh the King came back after that, he lead me out of the cave and took me to his throne room, he then told me that what I had seen had been a Creator and her name was Little Mother, he didn’t tell me that much, apparently

I didn’t meet the criteria of theirs, which I just want to that is bullshit.”

“Anyway the King told me that you were no longer the Raito I knew from before I took your memories and that I shouldn’t mess with you, that you were the chosen one or some bullshit like that, he wouldn’t tell me much but what little he did tell me…well I have the feeling I should help you, for my own benefit of course, I don’t want to die and I’m guessing that weird feeling I was having earlier was my impending death. And I’m much too young and pretty to die.”

Raito frown but couldn’t stop his eyes from betraying his amusement.

“Right of course Ryuk, anyway so do you have any other information for me?”

Ryuk’s face suddenly morphed into a scarily serious expression, causing Raito to straighten up in alarm.

“Only this Raito…I don’t think that the King or that little girl told you everything, I’m not stupid Raito though I might act like it most of the time, those two…I’m not sure but those two are planning something. For the better or for the worse I don’t know and maybe it doesn’t matter which it is, only that whatever it is I would bet my soul that it would benefit only them. You really don’t know the King that well. He is very manipulative; he is after all the creator of us Shinigami, which shouldn’t be possible Raito.”

“I will tell you this, there are Creators and Destroyers in the world of the Gods Raito, Only Creators have the power to give life…and the Destroyers only can take life. It is a simple fact. For a Destroyer to give life to a creation…it destroys something Raito, and if somehow a Creator destroys a life. Well…whatever they told you

Raito, you can be sure that it’s not the total truth, if it is at all. Sometimes though the best lie is based on truth, twisted though it may be.”

“For us Shinigami to be born into the world of the Shinigami realm the King must have had help, I don’t know what the circumstance were or what had been promised between them but somehow the Little Mother must have given some of her power to the King to create us, I don’t know for what purpose but for her to give him some of her power he must have in return given some of his power to her in exchange. That is wrong Raito, not in the sense of morally wrong but in the sense of universally wrong.”

“I believe…well whatever they did was the beginning of what is happening now, oh sure you may have played a part of it Raito but don’t make the mistake that you are the only co-conspirer in this little event. You may be important Raito but don’t let ignorance and ego cloud your eyes. There is something bigger going on then you or I could even comprehend.”

Raito felt his eyes widen to uncharacteristic proportions.

The ideas and theories that suddenly overwhelmed his mind almost caused him to physically stumble, never mind that he was in the air at the moment.

To have this information told to him, he hadn’t even realized that a part of his brain had already been wondering and working on it, now hearing it for the first time out loud…it was enough for his manipulative brilliant mind to work into overdrive.

What the hell was happening? Suddenly Raito felt out of his depth, before he hadn’t really, truthfully felt that worried about stopping the Death Notes or the New Kira or any of the things that had brought him here back into the past. Maybe because, he had felt that he had some mythical gods’ guidance ridding on his shoulder. It was a pathetic realization that he had been small and weak enough to feel that. To feel like he was invincible and important enough that it would have been inconceivable that he would fail.

Gods…he really hadn’t changed. Not really, not deep down.

Didn’t he promise himself he had let go of his god complex? Now it was more of a Hercules’s complex.

Damn it.

What if what Ryuk was saying was true? Raito didn’t believe him completely, he was tired of believing everything that was said by strangers just because it made sense. Everything made sense…yet at the same time none of it made sense.

He wanted to believe in the Little Mother and the Shinigami King.

Raito paused, his brow started to crease in confusion and thought.

Why? Why did he want to believe in them? That didn’t make sense, for Raito he had a personal habit, a trait so to speak and that was don’t believe in others. Well maybe L was an exception but that was just because it was L.

L was his other half so it stood to reason that he would want to believe in him. But that still didn’t explain why he wanted to believe in the gods that brought him back.

Maybe that was it? Maybe it was because they had given him a second chance? But that still didn’t make sense.

Even then Raito should only feel gratitude to them…and suspicion.

That was it; he didn’t feel the suspicion that he was suppose to be feeling. Yagami Raito had made it a rule that you should at least be suspicious at least a little bit when someone goes out of their way to help someone.

Everyone wanted something and even though sending Raito back in time would save the universe and themselves it still didn’t sound quite right.

They could have sent themselves back somehow, before it got bad enough. Why him? Why spend all that time while the universe folded on itself just to gather his splintered soul?

Raito shook his head; he really didn’t have the time for those thoughts right now. He would analyze this at a later date, but still he couldn’t help but feel mentally disturbed. It was like someone had implanted feelings of comfort and safety in his mind so deep that he didn’t even question it. Which scared him shitless, because if they could do that what else did they do to him?

Raito took a deep breath and turned his mind back to the matter at hand, him questing Ryuk.

In fact there was one thing that was bugging him, something that Ryuk had said earlier.

“Wait didn’t you just say that the Shinigami King didn’t want you to drag this out? From what you’re saying it sounds like he doesn’t want you at all talking to me.”

“Oh that, I didn’t mean it like that. Your right he doesn’t want me talking to you. Me and him never really did see eye to eye. It might have something to do with my birth. I was…somewhat wrong. A cosmic mess or something. I splintered or something like that or that’s at least Roan said.”

“Roan? And what do you mean you splintered?”

“Huh oh Roan’s a shinigami, or at least he was once upon time, I was under his supervision. Umm the splintering, well that’s complicated. There was a mistake or an interference or some bullshit like that and so when I was born I wasn’t whole. I’m an anomaly in my own species Raito. Some part of my soul I guess broke off from me. I’m not sure where it went. Hell it could have gone to earth as far as I know. Hehe I feel kind of sorry for it. It would have grown up then as a human. Or at least it would have tried to pass itself off as a human but more than likely it went insane from being isolated from the main part of myself. It would have had shinigami qualities but more than likely would have looked human. For the most part.”

“Well as interesting as that sounds, won’t you be in trouble for this? Talking to me and telling me these things.”

“Oh probably, in fact I wouldn’t be surprised if the King had already signed my death warrant and is calling for my head.”

“Then I don’t get it, aren’t you most concerned about your continuing life? Why would you put it in jeopardy like that?”

Ryuk shrugged.

“I told you I had a bad feeling and while you may not be quite the Raito I knew if anyone could get out of this alive and well it would be you, and now that you’ve teamed up with the Panda Man down there, you might as well just wave the victory flag. Hehe That’s why I’m sticking with you guys like glue.”

“Well thanks for the vote of confidence I guess.”

“Also think of all the apples, I mean really…apples. I’ll be set for the rest of my existence if I stay with you two, imagine all those beautiful fields of trees filled with to the brim with ripe, juicy, red, delicious apples…and all for me! Bwhahahahaah!!”

“Riighht-one other thing Ryuk. That man you were talking about earlier, the one who gave you the creeps? Can you tell me more about him?”

“Sorry Raito-o all I can give you is his name, and I suspect even that won’t help you much. Though I will tell you this…he didn’t have a life-span.”

Raito felt his inside freeze up. It couldn’t be…Raito felt the words chock in his throat as he spoke.

“Ryuk are you sure about that?”

“Yea yea I’m sure, his life-span isn’t there. Kind of like yours.”

Yeesss just like his…things that had puzzled him before were now becoming a little clearer. In a horrifying way they were becoming much clearer.

“I think I know now…I’m still not sure exactly but I might know why you feel that way Ryuk. Why you think I shouldn’t trust them completely.”

“Care to share?”

“Not yet. Not until I’m completely sure of it myself, and have some concrete proof that what I suspect is true.”

“hmmm well fine I guess.”

Raito looked at Ryuk, it was strange. This new Ryuk that floated beside him. Raito guessed that he was finally seeing the true shinigami in front of him instead of the clown he had been shown before. Because as much as he wanted to think that he had been smarter and better then Ryuk there was still a large difference. Ryuk may not be as intelligent as him in some manner but Ryuk was old and nonhuman. He was calculating and shrewd and was able to put on a performance so profound and believable that even Raito had fallen for it. Because if there was one thing that Shinigami’s had that humans didn’t was time. Lots of time and with that time came patience.

It made Raito feel somewhat angry. At himself as well as Ryuk.

“So…what is his name at least?”

Ryuk flipped in the air and dropped down a few feet causing Raito to follow him.

“His name is… Lucian Nótt.”

Oh shit…

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Ok I know short chapter. But a lot of shit happened. Well ok nothing really happened pre say but you learn a hell of a lot. This is what happens when you pop open an energy drink after being off the juice for months.
Stranger things have happen I guess but man do I have a headache. Owe!

Well can anyone guess the significance of the name? Anyone? Heh If anyone can figure it out and tell me I will personally hunt you down and kiss you! Hahaha XP

Please review and tell me what you think even I’m not sure what the hell my fingers are trying to tell me. I mean I think I just made the Shinigami King and the Little Mother suspects in being villains. I mean WTF?! 0.o I imagine that’s what a lot of you are thinking right now.

Heeh but you have to admit things are certainty getting interesting and you have to admit…Ryuk is…certainly appealing when he is in smart mood. I didn’t plan that one at all. But…nice. XD

Anyway please feel free to comment in Reviews ^-^