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Gravitation › General
Rating:
Adult ++
Chapters:
14
Views:
4,966
Reviews:
35
Recommended:
0
Currently Reading:
0
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I do not own Gravitation, nor any of the characters from it. I do not make any money from the writing of this story.
Chapter Two
Italics will be singing, writing, and whatnot.
Chapter Two
~English/Japanese~
“Where have you been?”
Neo looked up at Rick and rolled his eyes. Totally ignoring the question, “What are you doing in my room?”
“Don’t ignore me Neo. Dick has been going nuts. Apparently the President has been called him and said that you walked out of the meeting hours ago. When you didn’t come back to the hotel they called your driver who said that he was still sitting at the restaurant waiting for you. We all thought that you had been abducted or something.”
“Oh please. I know Tokyo better than just about anybody. Not to mention that very few people know who the hell I am here. I went for a walk.” He pulled off his coat and shoes at the door before flopping down on the couch. “I am not a child, Rick. I know where the hell I am, I know how to get around, and I know the language. I needed to think for awhile.”
Rick sighed and sat down next to his friend. “We were worried. There is no telling how many fans are in town right now. The concert is only two days away. You didn’t even answer you cell.”
“It was off. I wanted to be left alone, so get off my back. This place is full of some really shitty memories and I had to have some time to myself.” Neo pulled the tie out of his hair in frustration. Everything he had believed for the past six years had just been turned on its ear. Tohma hadn’t even denied the fact that he had been manipulating Neo’s entire life almost from the moment he left Japan.
Neo turned his head when a warm hand rested on his shoulder. “Will you talk about it?”
“No.”
“Is there anything I can do to help?”
Neo tilted his head to the side. He knew what Rick was offering. He and Rick had been having casual sex off and on since the band got started. Neither one of them had time for a relationship and it was safer than hooking up with or buying strangers, but did he want to have sex tonight? Seeing Yuki had kind of stirred him up, but at the same time…
No, Yuki was in the past and he need to stay there. So with strength that should not have been possible with his small, lithe form he pulled the much larger man down on top of him. There lips crushed together in a harsh kiss. They didn’t break apart until it became necessary to breath again. Neo took a moment to catch his breath and then looked up into Rick’s pale blue eyes. “Fuck me until I forget.”
(I don’t like putting authors notes in the middle of the story, but you should know that I will not be writing any OC sex scenes. I will save that for… well you’ll see, but this story will earn its rating.)
*
~English/Japanese~
“You're so pathetic, you let it seep right into your brain
It's insane how much you feel the constant need to complain
You complain, you complain, you complain…
The eyes are the window to the soul, the ears are the doorway to the goal
The lips are the fruit that we behold, the throat is the vessel to be told
The heart is the handle of the old, the brain is the pathway of the bold
The skin is the jacket you were sold, the soul is the fire to the cold…”
“STOP!”
Neo groaned. If Craig stopped them one more time because he couldn’t remember the backup queues he was going to kick the man’s ass. “Enough already, take twenty. Craig you better get it right when we get back.”
The man saw the look of death in Neo’s eyes and nodded hastily. Craig could scream like nobodies business, but the man could have been the village idiot, even in Tokyo.
Neo cracked his neck and waked to the front of the stage to sit down. He pulled his cigarettes from his pocket, but when he reached for his lighter he remembered he didn’t have it anymore and he had used the last of the matches from the hotel. “Fuck.”
He dropped his head forward and sighed. They had been rehearsing all morning and he was exhausted. It was really his own fault for spending all night getting his brains fucked out, but he had needed that more than sleep at the time.
He felt the presence beside him as it sat down, more than he saw or heard it. He looked over expecting Rick, but was a little surprised to see Tohma. “Loose something?” The man handed him a lighter. It was a nice one, not as good as his, but it got the job done.
He handed it back, but Tohma shook his head. “I have more.”
Neo nodded and pocketed it. There was no way Tohma knew, was there?
“Enjoy your walk last night?”
Then again he should really learn not to underestimate this man. “You are unbelievable. Did you have me followed or did he call you.”
“Both.”
Neo snorted. “Figures.” He sighed and took a long drag on his cig.
“You know that those things are horrible for your voice.” Tohma said it so calmly that Neo wanted to laugh.
“Fuck off.” Neo rolled his shoulders. “What do you want?”
Tohma didn’t say anything for a long time so Neo chose to ignore presence or tired to. Honestly the man had always given him the creeps. They way he was always so clam was unnatural. Not to mention for the longest time Tohma hated his guts for being involved with Yuki.
“He told me he got the weirdest feeling when he met you last night. He asked me if you, Shuichi, were in town, if I knew anything about where you, Shuichi, were. Of course we have had that conversation many times in the last several years. I told him what I always tell him. ‘As far as I am aware Shindou Shuichi has not been in Japan since he left.’ I am sure he knows that I know something, he as all but said so in the past, but he never gives up.”
Neo crushed out the last of his cig on the sole of his shoe and tossed it out into the grass of the open-air auditorium. “You know I really can’t figure you out. For two years you tried everything in your power to get me to break up with him or vice versa. I know for a fact that you are in love with him. You should have been jumping for joy when I left.”
“Your not far off, but you do have one thing wrong. I was not and am not in love with him.” Neo gave him an incredulous look. “Oh don’t get me wrong, I love him dearly, but I was never really in love with him. I loved the idea of loving him. In truth over the last few years I have learned that it was never real love. Nothing like what I have for Mika. I also know that he could never love me the way that I thought I loved him. All I want now is for him to be happy.”
Neo sighed. “Well you better get him in counseling or start trying to find him a girlfriend, because I am never doing that again.”
Tohma took off his hat and rolled it between his gloved hands. It was as close to fidgeting as the man got. “You never answered my question last night.”
Neo didn’t even pretend to not know what Tohma was talking about. “It’s none of your business.”
“So you do still love him.”
Neo growled low in his throat. “Why can’t you except the fact that I am not going to come back to Japan and make a happy life with Eiri? Are you too stubborn or just to used to getting your way?”
He watched to bleach blond man for a moment and Tohma watched him back. “You know I do believe that it the first time I have ever heard you use his given name.”
Neo snorted. And they said that HE was impossible. “Get it through your thick head, it is not going to happen. I used his given name because the fantasy that was Yuki died a long time ago. I have a decent life now, I am asking you not to screw that up for me.”
Neo looked down at his watch. “Now if you will excuse me, I have a rehearsal to get back to if I am going to give you a concert tomorrow.”
He watched Tohma slip down off the stage and turn back towards him. “You can lie to yourself all you want to, but you are still Shindou Shuichi and you do still love him.”
“Whatever.” He turned he back on Tohma and walked back over to where the band was gathering back up. “Come on people! From the top.”
The music started play almost instantly and Neo started to count off. Craig came in on time for a change and Neo took a deep breath…
“Don't you overlook the quiet ones, the ones who won't say…”
*
~English/Japanese~
Neo collapsed back onto the bad and grunted when Rick came down on top of him. He pushed his friend off of him and Rick rolled away onto his back. “What has gotten into you Neo? You haven’t been this horny in ages.”
“Nnn.” Neo slid up on the bed and propped against the headboard to light a cig.
“That isn’t your lighter. What happened to the one I gave you?” Rick had rolled over so that his head was propped on Neo’s lap.
Neo looked down at his a little guiltily. He took a drag and held it for a moment before answering. “I let someone use it and didn’t get it back.” It wasn’t a lie, but it was misleading.
“That sucks. It took me ages to find one I thought you would like.” Rick started playing with Neo’s happy trail and Neo brushed his hand away.
“That tickles, quit.” Rick just smirked at him. “I did like it too, but such is life and all that.”
Rick snorted. They were both quiet for a few minutes as they enjoyed their afterglow. “So what did the prez want from you?”
Neo groaned and let his head thump back against the headboard. “So much for the afterglow.”
Rick gave a quiet chuckle. “I know you don’t listen to Everclear.”
Neo let a small smile slip onto his face. It was an open secret in the band that he hated rock music, including theirs. He wrote it and sang it because it was what he felt, but it was not what he listened to for pleasure. It was his ‘dirty little secret’ that he had a stash of j-pop with him at all times, including Bad Luck and Nittle Grasper.
When Neo stayed quiet after that Rick got a little frustrated. “Well?”
Neo looked down at him and sighed. “I know him.”
Rick eyed him a little strangely. “You know him?”
Neo sighed. “Yeah, I was in a band here before I went to the states. We were signed under NG.”
Rick sat up and gave his friend a hard look. “You have got to be kidding me.”
“Nope.” Neo reached over and tapped out the butt of his cig before he started smoking filter.
“You were in a band signed under NG, a very prestigious label I might add, and you left? Are you nuts?” Rick could not believe he was hearing.
“Yes, that is pretty much it. Oh, and we went platinum with our first album within a few months. Did I mention that? It really is to bad that I hightailed it out before we released the second one. I wonder how it did?” He said all of this in such a nonchalant way that Rick wondered about his friends sanity.
Neo on the other hand was doing his best to keep from laughing at the incredulous look on Rick’s face. He knew exactly how ell the album did. When word got out that Shindou Shuichi had vanished without a trace the day the album was released the CD had disappeared of store shelves faster than they could be put up. It had sold over million copies in that first day and gone diamond within the year.
“Are you stupid? Why the hell did you leave a carrier like that behind? Yeah, Seven Sins is doing great, but platinum within a few months on your first album? You are going to have to explain that one to me.”
“What? How to go platinum? Well you see to go plat…”
“Neoooooo!” Rick was whining now and he knew it, but the man was so frustrating.
“It all goes back to the same thing and I really don’t want to talk about that.” Neo pulled out another cig and lit it.
Rick flopped back on the bed, “I swear that you are going to be the death of me one of these days.”
*
“Every time we lie awake
After every hit we take
Every feeling that I get
But I haven’t missed you yet
Every roommate kept awake
By every sigh and scream we make
All the feelings that I get
But I still don’t miss you yet
Only when I stop to think about it
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you
Every time we lie awake
After every hit we take
Every feeling that I get
But I haven’t missed you yet
Only when I stop to think about it
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you
Only when I stop to think
About you, I know
Only when you stop to think
About me, do you know
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you
You hate everything about me
Why do you love me
I hate
You hate
I hate
You love me
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you…”
Neo let the music fade and then sighed in relief. They had made it through the whole play list without a problem. Finally.
“Alright everybody, clean it up and go take a nap. The show starts in nine hours and they are going to start letting them in here in about two so make sure you have your shit together before then. Meeting backstage half an hour before we go on while the warm up band is playing. Don’t leave the stadium unless it is a life or death emergency because security says it is already a madhouse out there!”
Neo gave the same speech before almost every concert so he didn’t wait around to make sure that everybody acknowledged him. He really didn’t give a shit. They all knew how this worked. The stadium sat twenty five thousand and there was standing room four another three thousand on the field. The concert was sold out, so anybody stupid enough to go out was just asking for it.
Neo ignored anyone who called to him and headed strait for his dressing room. He wanted a shower and a nap before he had to deal with several thousand screaming idiots.
*
The first song is Pathetic by Five Bolt Main and the second song is (I hate) Everything About You by Three Days Grace. In case you were wondering or don’t know the song Craig was doing the harsh parts of Pathetic and that is why Shu maid such a big deal over it.
So? Too much? Not enough? Well, there will be more to come.
Chapter Two
~English/Japanese~
“Where have you been?”
Neo looked up at Rick and rolled his eyes. Totally ignoring the question, “What are you doing in my room?”
“Don’t ignore me Neo. Dick has been going nuts. Apparently the President has been called him and said that you walked out of the meeting hours ago. When you didn’t come back to the hotel they called your driver who said that he was still sitting at the restaurant waiting for you. We all thought that you had been abducted or something.”
“Oh please. I know Tokyo better than just about anybody. Not to mention that very few people know who the hell I am here. I went for a walk.” He pulled off his coat and shoes at the door before flopping down on the couch. “I am not a child, Rick. I know where the hell I am, I know how to get around, and I know the language. I needed to think for awhile.”
Rick sighed and sat down next to his friend. “We were worried. There is no telling how many fans are in town right now. The concert is only two days away. You didn’t even answer you cell.”
“It was off. I wanted to be left alone, so get off my back. This place is full of some really shitty memories and I had to have some time to myself.” Neo pulled the tie out of his hair in frustration. Everything he had believed for the past six years had just been turned on its ear. Tohma hadn’t even denied the fact that he had been manipulating Neo’s entire life almost from the moment he left Japan.
Neo turned his head when a warm hand rested on his shoulder. “Will you talk about it?”
“No.”
“Is there anything I can do to help?”
Neo tilted his head to the side. He knew what Rick was offering. He and Rick had been having casual sex off and on since the band got started. Neither one of them had time for a relationship and it was safer than hooking up with or buying strangers, but did he want to have sex tonight? Seeing Yuki had kind of stirred him up, but at the same time…
No, Yuki was in the past and he need to stay there. So with strength that should not have been possible with his small, lithe form he pulled the much larger man down on top of him. There lips crushed together in a harsh kiss. They didn’t break apart until it became necessary to breath again. Neo took a moment to catch his breath and then looked up into Rick’s pale blue eyes. “Fuck me until I forget.”
(I don’t like putting authors notes in the middle of the story, but you should know that I will not be writing any OC sex scenes. I will save that for… well you’ll see, but this story will earn its rating.)
*
~English/Japanese~
“You're so pathetic, you let it seep right into your brain
It's insane how much you feel the constant need to complain
You complain, you complain, you complain…
The eyes are the window to the soul, the ears are the doorway to the goal
The lips are the fruit that we behold, the throat is the vessel to be told
The heart is the handle of the old, the brain is the pathway of the bold
The skin is the jacket you were sold, the soul is the fire to the cold…”
“STOP!”
Neo groaned. If Craig stopped them one more time because he couldn’t remember the backup queues he was going to kick the man’s ass. “Enough already, take twenty. Craig you better get it right when we get back.”
The man saw the look of death in Neo’s eyes and nodded hastily. Craig could scream like nobodies business, but the man could have been the village idiot, even in Tokyo.
Neo cracked his neck and waked to the front of the stage to sit down. He pulled his cigarettes from his pocket, but when he reached for his lighter he remembered he didn’t have it anymore and he had used the last of the matches from the hotel. “Fuck.”
He dropped his head forward and sighed. They had been rehearsing all morning and he was exhausted. It was really his own fault for spending all night getting his brains fucked out, but he had needed that more than sleep at the time.
He felt the presence beside him as it sat down, more than he saw or heard it. He looked over expecting Rick, but was a little surprised to see Tohma. “Loose something?” The man handed him a lighter. It was a nice one, not as good as his, but it got the job done.
He handed it back, but Tohma shook his head. “I have more.”
Neo nodded and pocketed it. There was no way Tohma knew, was there?
“Enjoy your walk last night?”
Then again he should really learn not to underestimate this man. “You are unbelievable. Did you have me followed or did he call you.”
“Both.”
Neo snorted. “Figures.” He sighed and took a long drag on his cig.
“You know that those things are horrible for your voice.” Tohma said it so calmly that Neo wanted to laugh.
“Fuck off.” Neo rolled his shoulders. “What do you want?”
Tohma didn’t say anything for a long time so Neo chose to ignore presence or tired to. Honestly the man had always given him the creeps. They way he was always so clam was unnatural. Not to mention for the longest time Tohma hated his guts for being involved with Yuki.
“He told me he got the weirdest feeling when he met you last night. He asked me if you, Shuichi, were in town, if I knew anything about where you, Shuichi, were. Of course we have had that conversation many times in the last several years. I told him what I always tell him. ‘As far as I am aware Shindou Shuichi has not been in Japan since he left.’ I am sure he knows that I know something, he as all but said so in the past, but he never gives up.”
Neo crushed out the last of his cig on the sole of his shoe and tossed it out into the grass of the open-air auditorium. “You know I really can’t figure you out. For two years you tried everything in your power to get me to break up with him or vice versa. I know for a fact that you are in love with him. You should have been jumping for joy when I left.”
“Your not far off, but you do have one thing wrong. I was not and am not in love with him.” Neo gave him an incredulous look. “Oh don’t get me wrong, I love him dearly, but I was never really in love with him. I loved the idea of loving him. In truth over the last few years I have learned that it was never real love. Nothing like what I have for Mika. I also know that he could never love me the way that I thought I loved him. All I want now is for him to be happy.”
Neo sighed. “Well you better get him in counseling or start trying to find him a girlfriend, because I am never doing that again.”
Tohma took off his hat and rolled it between his gloved hands. It was as close to fidgeting as the man got. “You never answered my question last night.”
Neo didn’t even pretend to not know what Tohma was talking about. “It’s none of your business.”
“So you do still love him.”
Neo growled low in his throat. “Why can’t you except the fact that I am not going to come back to Japan and make a happy life with Eiri? Are you too stubborn or just to used to getting your way?”
He watched to bleach blond man for a moment and Tohma watched him back. “You know I do believe that it the first time I have ever heard you use his given name.”
Neo snorted. And they said that HE was impossible. “Get it through your thick head, it is not going to happen. I used his given name because the fantasy that was Yuki died a long time ago. I have a decent life now, I am asking you not to screw that up for me.”
Neo looked down at his watch. “Now if you will excuse me, I have a rehearsal to get back to if I am going to give you a concert tomorrow.”
He watched Tohma slip down off the stage and turn back towards him. “You can lie to yourself all you want to, but you are still Shindou Shuichi and you do still love him.”
“Whatever.” He turned he back on Tohma and walked back over to where the band was gathering back up. “Come on people! From the top.”
The music started play almost instantly and Neo started to count off. Craig came in on time for a change and Neo took a deep breath…
“Don't you overlook the quiet ones, the ones who won't say…”
*
~English/Japanese~
Neo collapsed back onto the bad and grunted when Rick came down on top of him. He pushed his friend off of him and Rick rolled away onto his back. “What has gotten into you Neo? You haven’t been this horny in ages.”
“Nnn.” Neo slid up on the bed and propped against the headboard to light a cig.
“That isn’t your lighter. What happened to the one I gave you?” Rick had rolled over so that his head was propped on Neo’s lap.
Neo looked down at his a little guiltily. He took a drag and held it for a moment before answering. “I let someone use it and didn’t get it back.” It wasn’t a lie, but it was misleading.
“That sucks. It took me ages to find one I thought you would like.” Rick started playing with Neo’s happy trail and Neo brushed his hand away.
“That tickles, quit.” Rick just smirked at him. “I did like it too, but such is life and all that.”
Rick snorted. They were both quiet for a few minutes as they enjoyed their afterglow. “So what did the prez want from you?”
Neo groaned and let his head thump back against the headboard. “So much for the afterglow.”
Rick gave a quiet chuckle. “I know you don’t listen to Everclear.”
Neo let a small smile slip onto his face. It was an open secret in the band that he hated rock music, including theirs. He wrote it and sang it because it was what he felt, but it was not what he listened to for pleasure. It was his ‘dirty little secret’ that he had a stash of j-pop with him at all times, including Bad Luck and Nittle Grasper.
When Neo stayed quiet after that Rick got a little frustrated. “Well?”
Neo looked down at him and sighed. “I know him.”
Rick eyed him a little strangely. “You know him?”
Neo sighed. “Yeah, I was in a band here before I went to the states. We were signed under NG.”
Rick sat up and gave his friend a hard look. “You have got to be kidding me.”
“Nope.” Neo reached over and tapped out the butt of his cig before he started smoking filter.
“You were in a band signed under NG, a very prestigious label I might add, and you left? Are you nuts?” Rick could not believe he was hearing.
“Yes, that is pretty much it. Oh, and we went platinum with our first album within a few months. Did I mention that? It really is to bad that I hightailed it out before we released the second one. I wonder how it did?” He said all of this in such a nonchalant way that Rick wondered about his friends sanity.
Neo on the other hand was doing his best to keep from laughing at the incredulous look on Rick’s face. He knew exactly how ell the album did. When word got out that Shindou Shuichi had vanished without a trace the day the album was released the CD had disappeared of store shelves faster than they could be put up. It had sold over million copies in that first day and gone diamond within the year.
“Are you stupid? Why the hell did you leave a carrier like that behind? Yeah, Seven Sins is doing great, but platinum within a few months on your first album? You are going to have to explain that one to me.”
“What? How to go platinum? Well you see to go plat…”
“Neoooooo!” Rick was whining now and he knew it, but the man was so frustrating.
“It all goes back to the same thing and I really don’t want to talk about that.” Neo pulled out another cig and lit it.
Rick flopped back on the bed, “I swear that you are going to be the death of me one of these days.”
*
“Every time we lie awake
After every hit we take
Every feeling that I get
But I haven’t missed you yet
Every roommate kept awake
By every sigh and scream we make
All the feelings that I get
But I still don’t miss you yet
Only when I stop to think about it
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you
Every time we lie awake
After every hit we take
Every feeling that I get
But I haven’t missed you yet
Only when I stop to think about it
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you
Only when I stop to think
About you, I know
Only when you stop to think
About me, do you know
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you
You hate everything about me
Why do you love me
I hate
You hate
I hate
You love me
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you…”
Neo let the music fade and then sighed in relief. They had made it through the whole play list without a problem. Finally.
“Alright everybody, clean it up and go take a nap. The show starts in nine hours and they are going to start letting them in here in about two so make sure you have your shit together before then. Meeting backstage half an hour before we go on while the warm up band is playing. Don’t leave the stadium unless it is a life or death emergency because security says it is already a madhouse out there!”
Neo gave the same speech before almost every concert so he didn’t wait around to make sure that everybody acknowledged him. He really didn’t give a shit. They all knew how this worked. The stadium sat twenty five thousand and there was standing room four another three thousand on the field. The concert was sold out, so anybody stupid enough to go out was just asking for it.
Neo ignored anyone who called to him and headed strait for his dressing room. He wanted a shower and a nap before he had to deal with several thousand screaming idiots.
*
The first song is Pathetic by Five Bolt Main and the second song is (I hate) Everything About You by Three Days Grace. In case you were wondering or don’t know the song Craig was doing the harsh parts of Pathetic and that is why Shu maid such a big deal over it.
So? Too much? Not enough? Well, there will be more to come.