Crazy

Chapter 3

I woke with a moan and sat up quickly only to see that I was not someplace I knew. It was the hospital; why did he bring me here when I told him not to!? Where was Yuki? That fucker… I was angry now; there I was at the hospital and he’s nowhere to be found! A nurse came in with the doctor. “Well Mr. Shindou, I will say your rectum healed up but your foot still needs to heal,” he said standing in front of the bed. Oh, even better, more strange men looking at my ass!

Hiro came into the room, “Well come on baby,” he said handing me my clothes. I take them without saying a word to him.

“Next time be more careful,” the doctor scolded us as Hiro lead me out of the room.

Hiro nodded and walked me out of the hospital. “Hiro, why the hell did you take me there!? That was so pointless,” I said, very angry at him.

“I had to make sure you didn’t die Shuichi. You were bleeding very badly. I told him you slipped while walking on a fence and landed right square on the post. I don’t know if he believed me or not but he didn’t question it.” He helped me into the car again only this time I could sit on the passenger side.

“Well I bet with my luck that would happen anyway. Where the hell is Yuki!?” I demanded to know, like Hiro’s the one who keeps tabs on my boyfriend.

“I don’t know. I tried to call him but he never answered the phone. I even went to the apartment, he wasn’t there either.” He drove back to my place anyway; I thought it was all very weird.

“I wonder where he could be,” I say with tears in my eyes as we walk into the empty apartment. I guess back when he slapped me and took my hair ribbon should have told me that I should have left him well enough alone. I was fooled by his pretty face.

Then there was a knock on the door. I rushed to answer it as fast as I could but when I opened it no one was there, just a box. I hoped it wasn’t a bomb, Hiro said, “If it is we might as well open it and get it over with…” so I opened it. I’d rather it had been a bomb. It was a video tape and pictures. The video tape had me on the front cover naked with my face to the wall but there were no hands, they must have been edited out. I stood spread eagle on the wall, you could only see part of my face and my mouth was open as if I was crying in pleasure and not pain. My ass was spread open but the hole was covered with a pink star…

The title read: Pretty Pink Boy Barely Over the Age of 18! (which was a lie, I was 19!) The cover said: “Cum! Let him get you off with his cries! Watch him wriggle and squirm as huge cocks are shoved into his virgin hole! This slut is crying for more…”

“What!?!” I screamed. Hiro put the video in the VCR, why he wanted to watch I don’t know.

He watched me as I was raped. My voice was covered by a narrator’s voice, they made it seem like I liked it! “Listen to him scream in pleasure,” then you would hear my scream, but it would stop there. “Just look at this little boy take three huge cocks up his ass,” we watched it. “This boy is very kinky and loves bondage,” that was the part I had the on gag and they shoved the metal pole up my ass. “Who is our pretty pink boy? That’s right folks! It’s your favorite singer from the group Bad Luck! As you can tell he loves the cock,” they showed me as I was coming into the room, got a good close up of my face.

“I can’t believe they made a porn out of this!” I said as I crinkled a picture of me with my legs in the air. How did they get all of these I wondered? Then Hiro and I watched as the screen changed and I was bent over in the bath tub with hot water spraying over me and YUKI! He’s riding me and now it really is my voice.

“Oh yes baby! Mmmmm! Feels so good! Harder!” I watched, frozen in disbelief that Yuki was fucking me and we were both on camera. I fast forward, there we were again! I was on my hands and knees on the bed while Yuki did me again. Then they had a hidden camera view of me sucking Yuki off while he was typing his stories! They got us in the kitchen, in the living room and in the hallway. Ok so maybe we had sex more than I thought... These were times dating back to when I was eighteen; back when I moved in with him.

“How on earth… What’s going on?” I wanted to know why we were being filmed.

“Is it not clear Shuichi? You’ve been played, hung out to dry then beat.” I could tell he was pissed as well, Hiro turned off the TV.

“No! Yuki doesn’t know about this either. I’m sure someone must have just bugged our apartment since we’re both famous, him mostly.” I didn’t want to believe that. I didn’t want to believe I had been played for a fool.

“Well how do you explain the pictures of Yuki doing you here in the living room and why is he gone now? Obviously he knows Shu! Come on! Stop being blind!” He took out the video tape and broke it into pieces and ripped up the cover.

“I don’t know Hiro. Maybe this is all just a terrible dream and I’ll wake up from it very soon.” I nodded, but no matter how much I pinched myself, I couldn’t wake up.

“Darling I hate to tell you this but it’s real,” he said putting a hand to my face then pulling me to him for a hug.

“Well if it is real then why are you here to save me? If this was real you wouldn’t be here and I would be sitting here facing all of this alone,” I said pulling away from him. “That’s my luck Hiro. I won’t believe it until I hear it straight from Yuki’s mouth that he used me as a whore!” My lip trembled as I spoke and I burst into tears. I was such a fool.

“What are you talking about Shuichi? I’ve always been here for your toughest times it seems,” he said gently, brushing my tears away. He kissed my lips lightly; it had been awhile since he kissed me.

“Hiro don’t,” I said pulling away from him. “I’m still with Yuki. Don’t kiss me.” I stood up from the sofa. “I’m going to bed Hiro. I just want to be left alone.” I was feeling pretty pathetic. I never wanted to be alone. When I’m alone I think things I shouldn’t think.

“No, I won’t leave you alone. I know you too well. If you like you can go into your room but I’m not leaving,” he said crossing his arms over his chest. I nodded and hobbled off into the bedroom. It was pretty sad that I shared the same room with Yuki. I didn’t sleep but I decided to write a song instead or at least words to one. I got out a notebook and pen and sat down at Yuki’s desk.

“I’ve never felt this alone, I’ve never felt this betrayed. I can’t believe I let you play with me. I can’t believe you messed with my head. My heart is broken now, I hope you’re glad. I hope you had fun playing me but now I want you to know that the game is over.

I won’t be your fool any longer. It’s time that I hit the road. Goodbye you bastard, thanks for wasting my life. Thanks for breaking my heart. Thanks for breaking my trust. Goodbye now your toy is broken, all that’s left for you to do is throw it aside.

I’ve been had, I feel so bad. Do you feel my pain? The pain you caused me? I don’t think you could ever feel the way I do, I’m sure you’ve never been hurt like this before.”

I stopped and looked at what I wrote. Ok, so it was more of me writing my feelings down than a song, but feelings go into songs all the time. I’m going to make it a song someday. I began to feel very tired and I laid down on our bed. I fell asleep, in a deep sleep, with no dreams and I was glad for that.

I awoke to shouting. Someone was shouting, no, two people where shouting. I sat up and went out into the living room hobbling on my crutches. Hiro was giving Yuki the what for, “How the bloody hell could you do this to Shuichi!?! Tell me Yuki or I’ll kill you!” he yelled, waving the broken tape in front of Yuki’s face.

“It was easy Hiro. I didn’t have to really do anything except push him over something and he’d let me fuck him. Which by the way I enjoyed myself with him and I’ll keep enjoying myself. He is an easy slut.” Hiro attempted to tackle Yuki but Yuki grabbed his arm and punched him in the stomach. “You know I can kill you. You’re in my house and I could just say it was self defense. You already threatened my life so I would be careful if I were you.”

I was just standing there watching in disbelief. I was shaking, but not from cold. “Yuki. You mean to tell me that you really did use me?” I don’t know how the words came out of my mouth, my throat was so dry.

Yuki looked over to see me standing there, still dressed in what I had been raped in since those were the clothes I had at the hospital. They were dirty and ripped. I leaned on my crutches; I was a very pathetic sight.

He sighed, “Now Shuichi how long have you been standing there?”

“I don’t know,” I squeaked out.

“Well if you just heard what I said then you would know that I did use you and I’m not done with you either. You’re a very fascinating person Shuichi. Not to mention a good porn star,” he said with a smirk. I came over to him with fire in my eyes and reached back and slapped him hard across the face.

“No, you ARE done with me you fucker! I don’t want anything more to do with you!” I started pounding on his chest. I was in so much pain; I was upset; I had no heart. It had been shattered and blown away by the wind.

“Shuichi clam down,” my hitting didn’t seem to faze the beast.

“Don’t tell me to clam down Yuki! After what you’ve done to me how can you tell me to clam down?!” I demanded of him. He grabbed me by the hair and threw me on the sofa.

“I said clam down Shuichi Shindou!” Yuki growled as he walked over to me, he sounded like a monster. I sat on the sofa quivering; he was going to hit me! Hiro grabbed him and pushed him down over the coffee table.

“Stay away from him you fucker,” Hiro growled and helped me stand. “Get on my back,” he ordered me, he did have to help though. We went out the door as Yuki called after us.

“It doesn’t matter Shuichi! You’re a slut and whore! Now you’re ruined!” Hiro slammed the door on him.

I was crying into Hiro’s neck as he carried me down to the car. I didn’t stop crying. I cried and cried; I never knew I had so many tears. This must be what it felt like to have a broken heart and feel that you could die from it.

“Now listen Shuichi, don’t you listen to him for one minute,” Hiro said as I continued crying in his chair. “You’re not a slut and you’re not a whore. You were only a victim in a sick twisted game.” I don’t know how long he let me cry but it must have been a long time.

“That’s just it! My body it… it’s exposed everywhere! My sex, my love, my ass, my dick… everything! All caught on camera for any one to gawk at!” I say looking up at him from where I had been curled up.

Just then my cell phone began to ring. I wondered who it could be as I looked at the caller id; it was my father. “Shuichi Shindou. I am very ashamed of you. How could you exploit your body like that? If this is the kind of thing you’re into then you are no longer my son!”

“Father! Wait! You don’t understand…” with that he hung up the phone, not even giving me a chance to explain.

“How could he know unless he went to a porn shop?” I asked aloud, throwing my phone across the room. It fell short before it hit the wall so it didn’t break.

“I don’t know,” Hiro said as he turned on the TV to the channel about entertainment and celebrities. And there on the TV was a picture of me in the same pose as the one on the video with my ass covered.

“This is most shocking! Never would I have thought the lead singer from Bad Luck would have gone naughty. We’ll talk more on that after the break.” Hiro turned off the TV I shook my head in shame.

“Told you. Everywhere. I didn’t think I was even that popular.” I laid down on the sofa and curled up. “I just want the earth to swallow me whole. Maybe if I disappear everything will be ok.”

“No, if you’re gone then who’ll be my best friend?” Hiro tried to comfort me, petting my head and kissing my ear.

“You’re the best friend I’ve ever had,” I smiled; Hiro’s door bell rang startling me.

Hiro got up and let in Ryu and Suguru. They all came into the room; I didn’t look at them. I was too ashamed. I took the blanket from the back of the sofa and covered myself with it.

“Ok Shu talk. We have to know the truth,” I heard Ryu speak to my blanket covered body. I just looked like a bundle on the sofa.

“Go away, I just want the sofa to eat me,” I say muffled under the blankets.

“Shu, Shu, we just want to know. We’re not blaming you. Please?” Ryu’s soft voice filled my ears. I felt a hand on my shoulder so I emerged from my cocoon.

“No, I didn’t do any of those things voluntarily. I was tricked and Yuki was in on it the whole time,” I said, shivering under the blanket, even if I was wearing jeans and a t-shirt. “Now I’m going to die here on Hiro’s sofa. I’m sorry. I’m so ashamed.” I pulled the blanket over my head again.

The blanket was pulled off of me. “I don’t think so. I’m not going to have your dead body on my sofa!” Hiro said and pushed me to sit up; I lay back on his shoulder. Ryu sat on my other side and took my hand.

“Yeah Shu, you have to go on. I know it’s really hard to think of anything else right now but, we still love you,” Ryu said looking at me with those sparkly blue green eyes. I look at my other band mates who nod as well. “We’re not looking down on you. If this was something you couldn’t help and were a victim in, the next thing we need to do is gather together and go kick Yuki’s ass,” Ryu added punching his fist in his hand. He kneeled at my knees and hugged me, Suguru sat on my other side; wow, that was a lot of boys hugging me at one time. I did feel a lot better though, having a group hug like this was nice.

“Thanks you guys, this is helping,” I said as Hiro pet my head. Who would feel down with friends like this? Well, Yuki broke my heart and he still had my heart. I was caught in his web and he was devouring me completely.