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Learning to Land. Chapter Forty Eight ~Shishido~

Warnings: Yaoi, Love, Angst, Fluff, and Lots of Sex. Some kink. You've been warned ;)

Disclaimer: Nope not mine. Still in my dreams. ;)

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Shishido covered Ohtori's mouth with his own to silence him and again slid their tongues together in a much harder kiss than they had done before. "You want to, right? You want to kiss me?" Ohtori nodded quickly as if worried Shishido would stop. 'Then Choutarou, kiss me. Don't hold back. Not with me. I want you t..." He was going to say he wanted Ohtori to kiss him and not stop but before he could finish, Ohtori moved.

Ohtori's arms that were around Shishido tightened and he pulled them closer together. He kissed Shishido at first with his mouth closed, softly but insistently, then pulled back with a little smile as if Ohtori could not believe he was doing this. He looked completely devious and turned on just as he had on the couch that night. Ohtori moved his fingers through Shishido's soft hair and moved in to kiss him deeper. He licked his tongue along Shishido's lips and then slipped it inside Shishido's mouth hot and willing and wanting more. Ohtori slid their tongues together and made that little tiny moan noise at the contact. This was the kiss Shishido had been waiting for and wanting.

Ohtori pressed his lips softly against Shishido's, and licked further into his mouth. He didn't force or fight to wrest control away from Shishido, instead he teased, and tempted by taking his time and being so gentle and patient, Shishido found himself kissing Ohtori harder back and wanting more.

Shishido really loved to kiss. Especially long, hot, deep kisses where you played and explored with the other person's mouth. Unfortunately, most "nice" girls he dated did not enjoy kissing hot like this, where your lips the next day felt numb and swollen after an hours-long, thrilling kissing session. Even Atobe, when Shishido had kissed him in the shower was polite and controlled when he kissed back. Most people Shishido had kissed went in a polite, refined small circles in first one direction and then the other. The tips of their tongues touched and the kiss ended within a few moments of starting. Shishido hated it because to him, it seemed like a waste. There were better, dirtier ways to really kiss someone.

To his pleasure, Shishido discovered Ohtori wasn't polite or refined. In fact, he seemed to enjoy kissing the exact same way Shishido loved, completely free, having fun, and wanting more. Ohtori had his hand through the back of Shishido's hair cradling his head, and pulling his mouth closer. Shishido had his hand on Ohtori's face and neck. His fingers held Ohtori closer to him while his thumb lightly caressed his soft cheek. Ohtori pulled slightly away as if to change the angle, but as he did, he grazed Shishido's lower lip with his teeth. Shishido found himself giving a small moan that sounded much like a growl before again kissing Ohtori back more.

He was surprised at his own sound and wondered as they kissed if he had made noises like that before. He figured he probably had. Then to his further surprise, he wondered if Atobe's growls were merely a copy of his own. Maybe Shishido had done that the first time they were together, and Atobe had liked it, but never heard it again.

Ohtori smiled at his noise and Shishido felt a little embarrassed. After all, he had thought at the end Atobe's growls sounded stupid and completely uncool. Shishido resolved to not make that noise ever again.

Ohtori ran his teeth over Shishido's tongue, and suddenly his resolve faded as he heard himself give another small growl of pure lust. Shishido figured Ohtori would laugh at him or smile more, instead he again surprised Shishido by making his own small noise. As if just coaxing Shishido into making sounds turned Ohtori on even more. Shishido teased Ohtori's tongue to get him to put it deeper into his mouth by lightly touching his and then moving away. When Ohtori put his tongue more into his mouth to keep their tongues touching, Shishido lightly sucked on his tongue. A girl showed him this, he couldn't remember who, but he loved to do it. Ohtori inhaled in surprise and Shishido felt a shudder go through his entire body. He made that tiny moaning sound and whispered the sexiest, "Shishido-san..." that Shishido had ever heard anyone ever say.

Shishido pulled back and was barely aware that he was half smiling. Ohtori smiled back at him and smiled more as Shishido with his hand gently wiped Ohtori's chin first and then his own before bending to kiss him more. Shishido kissed him deeply again and then changed angles. As he did he said softly, "It's only fair, since you like to make me make noise." Shishido kissed him again and said in a bit of a challenge, "Kiss me more, Choutarou. Make me make more noises."

Ohtori pulled Shishido closer and made that little noise as he kissed him again. Shishido wondered why he made such small quiet sounds, and then Ohtori grazed his teeth across Shishido's lower lip again before kissing him again. He gently sucked back on Shishido's tongue once he had it which made Shishido give another turned on growl. Ohtori gave an answering small sound and kissed Shishido even deeper. Shishido didn't think anything more for the next ten or so really nice, really hot minutes.

Ohtori kissed him strong and passionately but Shishido realized, it was still loving at the same time. Almost a sexy promise of things to come, and became even hotter as they matched each other perfectly. It was almost as if they each knew exactly how the other would move, and could mirror each other in perfect complement. Shishido tightened his arms around Ohtori and felt with his hands Ohtori's naked soft skin and the strong muscles along his back. He felt a strange sense of deja vu as if he and Ohtori had done this a hundred times before. Shishido tried to keep his brain on this time to keep in control while he kissed Ohtori back. He lightly kissed him back and wondered what Ohtori would do when he deepened their next kiss. He also wondered if maybe he had just wanted this for so long and imagined doing this so many times that his body already knew how to respond to Ohtori's touch.

Ohtori slipped one hand up the back of his shirt as if he couldn't resist feeling Shishido's skin, and ran the other again through Shishido's hair, sending little tingles down his spine. Shishido wanted to take off his shirt and feel their naked muscular chests together, skin on skin, but that damn hickey from Atobe was still slowly fading away. He couldn't risk Ohtori seeing it because he wouldn't risk hurting him. So, Shishido just let Ohtori kiss him, taste him, and touch him.

They kissed for a long time, explored each other's mouths, and touched each other everywhere they could with their hands--from the waist up. The long kissing session finally broke with a slow series of kisses that were soft lips against soft lips as if neither of them wanted to stop. When they finally did come up for air, they were both nearly panting for breath they were so turned on. Shishido kissed Ohtori softly again and tried to will his body to calm down and his heart to stop racing. He half-smiled and asked in a huskier voice than he normally had, "Where in the hell did you learn to kiss like that, Choutarou?" Shishido was sort of joking although he felt jealous as hell suddenly thinking of Ohtori kissing anyone else this way.

Ohtori smiled and Shishido couldn't tell if he blushed or was flushed from the heat that had built up between them, "I'm really nervous Shishido-san. I haven't kissed anyone...in a long time." Ohtori looked away and Shishido did not want him thinking about or missing his friend. This time though, Shishido realized that wasn't the problem because Ohtori said, "I wanted you to be the person I kissed Shishido-san, not Taki." Ohtori looked upset and angry. It was a strange look for him and Shishido wanted to reassure him and make him feel good.

So Shishido shrugged and said, "I think you did just kiss me." Shishido smiled at him and Ohtori, now definitely blushing, smiled back. Shishido kissed him once lightly and said, "Anyway, it doesn't count if someone kisses you when you're asleep. It's not like you meant to kiss him or anything. You didn't do anything wrong. Did you kiss him back or anything?" Shishido felt jealous again.

Ohtori seemed to consider it, and shook his head. "No. I don't think so." Shishido kissed him to clear the thoughts from his head, and maybe just because he could. Ohtori responded with his entire body. A simple kiss turned into something so hot neither one of them could stop for several minutes. Shishido was curling his toes and when Ohtori grazed his teeth across his lower lip, Shishido softly moaned.

Ohtori this time pulled back. He was breathing hard, looked at Shishido, and smiled, "You're kissing it better, Shishido-san?"

Shishido smiled, he was a little embarrassed at having done it in the first place, and then a little annoyed at Ohtori realizing what he had done by instinct. He figured Ohtori would tease him because Shishido was sure a small blush was creeping across his cheeks. He rarely blushed. He couldn't remember the last time he had, damn it. Quickly Shishido planned when Ohtori made fun of him to joke and blame that Ohtori's blushing was contagious and that was why.

Surprisingly, Ohtori didn't say anything or make fun of him at all. He just looked at Shishido as if he adored him and said, "If it only counts when I mean to do it Shishido-san, then I mean to do this..." Ohtori pressed his lips to Shishido's again.

Shishido could tell that Ohtori was trying to be soft and almost say how he felt in the kiss, but they were both so turned on it ran away with both of them again. Shishido this time softly bit Ohtori's lower lip and then opened his eyes for a moment before he pulled back. They were both breathing hard and Shishido was so hard he was throbbing. He could feel that the front of his sleep pants were embarrassingly wet, probably right through and he cursed himself for not wearing underwear but who the hell knew this was going to happen? He was surprised though because he thought that had stopped happening. He was wrong.

Every time Shishido had been extremely turned on, as Atobe had teased him that first time they were together also, Shishido got wet. Atobe, making fun of him, said he was wet and he leaked. It was one of the reasons why when Shishido was younger and first started getting hard, he started sleeping naked. If he had a hot dream or was turned on before bed and didn't touch himself before, he could soak through his clothes. He would rather sleep naked than have to strip cold, wet pants off in the middle of the night if he did fall asleep turned on. He used to think it happened to all guys, but it had happened enough with girls who told him that most guys make just a few drops of pre-come when they were turned on.

Shishido made a lot more apparently.

He knew he shouldn't worry about it, but he did. One girl he dated refused to touch or taste him because of it, and she had made him feel weird enough about it to break up with her. Atobe also made fun of him for it that first night they were together as if it was something Shishido could control. The Vice Captain had laughed at him and said Shishido was like a girl getting all wet when he got turned on. Atobe wrongly took it as a sign of his sexual prowess and Shishido realized that was probably the last time not only that getting wet like this happened, but that he had really blushed.

It wasn't a big deal he figured, and they were both guys, but at the same time he didn't want Ohtori to think he was weird or make fun of him. It was another reason he was trying to keep the front of his pants and his erection from touching Ohtori. That and he was trying to keep in some semblance of control because just kissing Ohtori had him throbbing with want. Shishido found it ironic that the entire time he was with Atobe, hell, the entire time he was with anyone else before control was easy, and now it seemed nearly impossible. He felt he needed to cool them both down. Hell to slow them both down, or Shishido wouldn't be able to stop. He didn't want to stop, but knew they should. "You always look?" Shishido teased with a gentle smile to let Ohtori know it was all right.

"I..." Ohtori blushed adorably, "I'm sorry. I don't think I did ever before, its just...I like to look at you Shishido-san. I'm sor..."

Shishido kissed him and felt bad for making him blush. He said in between kissing him, "I like you watching me, Choutarou. If you ever stop, then I'll worry."

"Shishido-san..." Ohtori whispered as if Shishido had just given him a present. Ohtori smiled and kissed Shishido back enthusiastically, as if very happy. Shishido smiled and thought to himself that it was pretty easy to please Ohtori if that was all it took.

He still needed to cool them down though. "Did you want to go watch the show?" Shishido asked and both hoped Ohtori said yes and no at the same time. Mostly no he realized after thinking about it.

Ohtori looked surprised and then answered quietly, "We can if you'd like to Shishido-san...but..." Ohtori seemed to hesitate as if searching for a reason, "Taki knows the show we left off on, so we'd have to watch them again if he's home next time, so we really can't." Ohtori paused another moment and said softly, "Unless you really want to..."

Shishido shrugged, "No, I just thought you might want to is all." Shishido kissed him again lightly and asked before it got heavier, "Did you want to go watch TV then?"

Ohtori shook his head no, "There's nothing really on, Shishido-san."

It was early and there was probably nothing on. Shishido nodded and then thought another moment, "What if Taki wakes up and you're not there?"

Now Ohtori looked confused, "He won't wake up after taking one of those pills, and I put pillows under my blanket to make it look like I'm there just in case he looks over." Ohtori looked at Shishido and it was as if he was trying to convince him, "Taki won't wake up, Shishido-san. I even tried to wake him before coming to your room, and he's out for the night." He paused a full minute as if thinking before asking, "So, may I stay here, with you, Shishido-san? May I sleep with you tonight?"

Oh damn. Shishido tried again to stay in control. It was so difficult when Ohtori was looking at him with a beguiling mix of false innocence, true infatuation, mischievous teasing, and pure chastity.The guy knew asking that, saying those words would have an effect on Shishido, and Shishido suddenly realized that Ohtori would let Shishido do whatever he wanted with him. It made Shishido want to hold him and protect him again because something about Ohtori was so innocent and naive it almost made you want to take advantage of him. Shishido never would, but also wanted to shelter him from anyone that might break his simple and guileless heart.

Shishido took on the familiar role of big brother with him, "If I let you stay here, do you promise to sleep? You can't be tired tomorrow." Shishido knew he wouldn't sleep, but that was nothing new and nothing he couldn't handle. He didn't sleep well to begin with, let alone with someone next to him. Certainly not someone so tempting who would be only centimeters away. As angry as he was at Taki, Shishido considered for a moment that he was damn glad Atobe hadn't assigned him to be Ohtori's roommate. He wondered for an instant if with all Ohtori's first moves, if they had been roommates if maybe Ohtori wouldn't have tried to touch him sooner, and if so, how long Shishido could have resisted him. Hell, he could barely resist him now.

Ohtori graced him with another thrilled smile before answering back, "I swear, Shishido-san. You won't be sorry." Shishido smiled as Ohtori kissed him again and pulled them closer together once more. He pressed his lips to Shishido's and again slid his tongue into Shishido's mouth. Ohtori made another little sound at the contact when their tongues touched and glided his hands more along the naked skin of Shishido's back. At the same time, Ohtori tightened his legs and tried to move them closer almost as if he was trying to get them to touch all the way down. Shishido resisted by kissing him back a little more and taking control of the kiss.

A few moments later, as they were still kissing though, Shishido could have kicked himself. He should have known that Ohtori was always making small first moves. He should have anticipated that Ohtori would try to do more than just kiss. Ohtori was not as naive or shy as he often appeared because when he wanted something as Shishido was learning, Ohtori boldly went after it in his own way. He removed a hand that had been up Shishido's shirt, and mumbled an embarrassed excuse me. He moved his hand down himself as if he had to adjust himself from being hard. Shishido was trying to be polite, and did not watch Ohtori's hand moving down.

Ohtori kissed Shishido more and moved his hand back up as if innocently going to slide it again up Shishido's back, but as he moved it, he grazed his hand along the front of Shishido's pants.

Right over his erection.

It seemed almost innocent but Shishido knew Ohtori well enough by now to know it wasn't. Shishido automatically sucked in his breath at the sudden contact there where he had been hard to the point of throbbing for well over an hour now and he worried that Ohtori had also felt how wet Shishido guessed the front of his pants probably were.

Shishido was shocked and embarrassed. He didn't know what to say or do, and just for an instant he froze. He hadn't expected Ohtori to touch him, and he found they were just looking at each other for a long moment in the dim light of his room.

Ohtori looked strange.

It was a look Shishido didn't know from him and he had no idea what it meant or what he was thinking. Before Shishido could think of something to say or react by pushing him away first, Ohtori kissed him hard and made one of those little moaning sounds in Shishido's mouth while kissing him. He pressed their erections together through their clothes and made another noise as he held Shishido closer. Shishido wasn't sure what to do so he just let Ohtori kiss him and worried. Ohtori must have noticed Shishido wasn't responding like he did earlier. He broke the kiss and whispered, "Please don't be mad at me, Shishido-san." Ohtori kissed him. "Please forgive me."

Another kiss and then Ohtori pulled back to look at Shishido, "Please...it's just...I...I was worried Shishido-san." Shishido must have looked confused because Ohtori went on, "I've seen the people you've dated in the past and they're all so...beautiful. All the girls and even he is beautiful. Like you Shishido-san. You are so beautiful Shishido-san. You're the most beautiful person I've ever seen and I..."

They were laying on their sides and Ohtori looked down and Shishido felt him slowly taking his arms away. Shishido held him though a bit tighter so that Ohtori would finish whatever he was trying to say and not pull away. "Hey...hey, no. Choutarou, come on. Talk to me."

"I'm so sorry, Shishido-san. I know you said you wanted me and that you wanted to kiss me, but..." Ohtori looked at him and then away again. "I know I'm not beautiful Shishido-san. You told me not to hold back, but I can tell you've been holding back. I can feel that you've been holding back all this time. I know I don't look like they do, perfect and beautiful and...shiny, and I'm okay with that, but then when you wanted to stop and go out in the other room, I thought maybe you aren't attracted to me, and you didn't know how to say it, and didn't want to hurt my feelings, and I'm sorry I touched you, but I had to know because I figured your body wouldn't lie, and..."

"Hey," Shishido interrupted surprised at the sudden confession, "When have I ever lied to you? When the hell do I ever do something I don't want to do or don't like?" Shishido smiled a little at the absurd thoughts and felt annoyed by Ohtori thinking he would lie to him.

Ohtori said softly, "You might, if you wanted to be nice to me, and didn't know how to say it." He looked at Shishido as if daring him to break his heart. Any feelings of annoyance melted away.

"My body won't lie?" Shishido said and smiled his half grin without realizing it. "Then I mean to do this..."

Shishido took Ohtori's face in his hands, pressed his body against Ohtori's all the way down, and kissed him. Ohtori made his little noise softly as he felt their erections touching the same time Shishido moaned much louder in almost a growl as he felt a wave of heat wash through him. Ohtori was hard up against him and their bodies moved together in a slide,already knowing how each of them should move.Shishido let go of the control he tightly had been holding onto and moved perfectly with Ohtori.

Shishido forgot to be embarrassed, or worried about how wet he was getting the front of his pants,or if Ohtori could feel it or not. He rubbed their erections together making them both moan again as he kissed him harder, "Can you feel me Choutarou? I'm not holding anything back now. I want you." It came out in a growl.

Shishido kissed down Ohtori's neck and chest like he had been wanting to since Ohtori first took off his shirt. He teased and softly bit one of his nipples with his tongue and lips until Ohtori made one of those little noises again. Shishido worked his way with his lips and tongue up Ohtori's neck and noticed how good his skin tasted. He kissed around Ohtori's ear and heard another little noise come from Ohtori. Apparently Ohtori liked being kissed there. It bothered Shishido that he didn't know where each sensitive place on Ohtori's body was.

Shishido said in between hot, wet, shared kisses, "It's not that I don't want you, I was just trying to take things slow." Shishido rubbed their erections together and wondered for a moment exactly how big and how hard Ohtori was. He shrugged to himself and slid his hand down Ohtori's well muscled perfect flat stomach enjoying how his touch made Ohtori's muscles twitch. "Can I?" Shishido asked before touching him.

"Yes..." Ohtori said in a whisper that sounded like he was begging.

Shishido kissed him and Ohtori deeply kissed him back. He slowly moved his hand over Ohtori's erection through his pants and Ohtori made another little noise this time almost sounding like a whimper at being touched. Shishido noticed Ohtori's pants were wet where his tip was but of course, it was nothing like Shishido was sure his own pants were. Ohtori was hard and Shishido could feel Ohtori's erection hot and throbbing under his hand through the thin cloth.

Shishido wasn't small, in fact he had been pleased to note that he was a bit bigger and thicker than Atobe. Ohtori though was a big guy for his age and through the cloth, he seemed completely proportional to his large size. He was all guy and yet, even as he kissed and touched him, Shishido still saw Ohtori hesitating and worried about this. Terribly worried by the look on his face that Shishido would reject him.

He took Ohtori's hand in his own, "Choutarou, you're not pretty like a girl or..." Shishido tried to remember the word he used, "...shiny. But what you are is very handsome. Very handsome with a gorgeous body and most importantly to me is you're very real. You are beautiful but in a way that is a thousand times better than anyone else here no matter how pretty they look on the outside. Even me. If I hold back it's because the truth is, I think you're too good for me."

Ohtori's eyes opened wide, "No. No Shishido-san. That's not true. It isn't. I see you Shishido-san. You're the most beautiful person not just how you look on the outside, but I see how you are on the inside."

Shishido went to protest but Ohtori cut him off, "I see you, Shishido-san."

Shishido smiled ruefully and felt sorry for letting the kid down. "Choutarou, I'm not perfect or beautiful. I'm just a guy. A guy with flaws like everyone else. Maybe even bigger flaws than anyone really knows about, and..."

Ohtori smiled and interrupted him again which was starting to annoy Shishido, "Shishido-san, I know you're not perfect." He laughed a little as if it amused him to think about it, "But that's why you're so beautiful. You're just as real as you say I am."

Ohtori put his arms around Shishido's neck and kissed him pressing them against each other again. "I see you, Shishido-san. I know you." This seemed important to Ohtori although Shishido was not certain why. He kissed Ohtori back and suddenly had an idea how to further reassure him even if it embarrassed Shishido terribly.

Shishido removed one of Ohtori's arms from his neck and took his hand again in his own. He put it on his erection through his pants and hated how wet he could feel himself through Ohtori's fingers. "Then know that just kissing you has me hard and wanting you, all right? Choutarou, I want you."

Ohtori whimpered as he kissed him hard. He touched Shishido through his pants for a moment before taking his hand away. It was as if he agreed with Shishido to take this a little slower by his actions. Yet his words before Ohtori kissed him again were, "Shishido-san, I want you too."

Shishido wondered if he meant want or something stronger and much more emotional. He was startled out of the thought by Ohtori touching him again as if checking to make sure it was real and if he was still hard. While he touched him through his clothes, Ohtori teased Shishido's mouth with his tongue and lips in nibbling kisses and made that little noise again. "Shishido-san," he said softly and sounded completely turned on, "you're so hard and you're so wet..." Before Shishido could react, Ohtori made that tiny moaning noise again and whispered, "It makes me want to taste you, Shishido-san."

Shishido looked in surprise at Ohtori and saw he was completely serious.

Completely serious, totally turned on by this, and he kissed Shishido deeply. Ohtori teased Shishido's tongue with his own and played with it as if he was showing Shishido what he would do if it was his erection in Ohtori's mouth instead of his tongue.

Damn. That started Shishido's insides again on that hot tingling burn when something really turned him on and he moaned at the thoughts and the sensations as he kissed Ohtori back. Shishido was so tempted to let things go further, to just let this happen,but he knew it was best if they waited. He had learned over time that when you get involved with someone too fast it dies even faster.

Ohtori was worth the wait and any pain. And Shishido expected some pain.

He had been very hard a very long time and it wasn't like he could excuse himself for ten or, hell, five minutes without Ohtori knowing what he was going to do. But it wasn't like the pain would kill you or anything.

Shishido had dated a girl who was a huge tease and would send him home aching after making him promise not to touch himself until he saw her again. She would hotly kiss him and touch him right before he left every time they saw each other. It drove Shishido nearly crazy. After two weeks of this he finally wised up and dumped her. He finally accepted her rumor of being a tease to be true when he realized he had spent more time in pain and wanting her than actually with her. But that experience was nothing to how turned on he was now. He had no idea how the hell he was going to spend the next several hours right next to Ohtori like this, but was willing to try it.

However, he had to get them cooled down again first. Shishido waited this time until they naturally came up for air. They both panted a bit after the heavy kissing and petting and Shishido asked, "So you'll sleep here?"

Ohtori nodded and didn't look worried so Shishido figured he must have reassured him enough that he wasn't upset anymore. "Do you need to do anything before bed or can we get under the covers?" Ohtori cutely cocked his head a little bit as if not sure what doing anything entailed. It reminded Shishido of how his dog at home looked when he whistled softly and she couldn't figure out where the noise was coming from. He smiled, "I mean are you ready for bed?"

"Oh, yes...but..." Ohtori hesitated, "Can we still do this, Shishido-san?"

Shishido kissed him lightly and decided to tease him. "Do...this? What's this?" he asked and smiled before standing.

Shishido crossed his room and turned out his light. His cheap alarm clock light was bright and he usually put a book in front of it to block the light. He left it on glowing, cheerfully filling the room with bright blue beams. It was earlier than he had tried to go to bed in a long time. Shishido had a corner room now. He had tried to darken his room with sheets over the windows but on nights with full moons like tonight the moon went right through the sheet and shone through the corners. In the morning, the way his room faced received a full blast of sunshine the instant it hit the horizon. He found this out right after moving in and had wondered if Atobe knew he was moving him into hell for an insomniac. Shishido wouldn't put it past him. Still, he tried to darken the room though it all was pretty futile because no matter what he tried, other than serious drugs that left him feeling sick and groggy or unable to wake up, nothing helped him to sleep.

Ohtori must have felt a little bolder with the light out, "Kissing, talking...touching?" He said it quietly and as if worried Shishido would say no, "Its still early, isn't it Shishido-san? We'd be up for a couple more hours if we watched the show. Unless you're tired?"

Ohtori was talking to where Shishido had been, and Shishido realized his eyes hadn't adjusted to the dark yet. Shishido moved quietly by nature and said right next to him, making Ohtori jump, "I'm not tired."

Ohtori laughed from being scared, and Shishido laughed with him. Shishido took his hand, "This way, under the covers..." He guided Ohtori into bed and followed him. "Oh, wait, I should sleep on the inside."

Shishido moved over him until he was on the other side. He felt Ohtori's hands linger on him, feeling him, as Shishido crossed on top of him. He smiled because he was doing the same to Ohtori. He leaned in and kissed Ohtori as he settled down on Ohtori's left side.

"Better side for you to sleep on, Shishido-san?" Ohtori asked when Shishido let him up for air.

Shishido shrugged, "Doesn't matter. I just thought it would be better for your shoulder. Would you rather have this side?"

"Oh. No, Shishido-san. Thank you." Ohtori said and kissed him.

Shishido felt him smiling as if he was happy again for some reason. He really was easy to please Shishido figured. And very sweet. And damn good at kissing. Now they were just kissing as they had been before touching each other. It was nice. Shishido had forgotten how nice and how much he really loved this part of being with someone, the kissing, holding, and talking. It had been a long time, and he felt relaxed and safe.Feeling that way at Hyoutei was a strange and rare thing.

It made Shishido want to be even closer to Ohtori and it made him want to tell him everything. It was a small dream to have someone know everything about Shishido's past and accept him anyway, but Shishido's long learned habit of holding back and playing it safe stilled his voice. And maybe that was why it was on the tip of his tongue already when Ohtori said, "Tell me something about you Shishido-san, something no one else knows."

Shishido shrugged to buy himself a moment. He was surprised at Ohtori's question and then realized it was something girls had asked him in the past. Not that he ever really answered any of them. He shrugged again, "You probably know everything between all the rumors you've heard."

Then Shishido considered this from Ohtori's perspective. Maybe Ohtori actually felt the same and was trying to find a way to confide in Shishido about his past. No one was supposed to know and as far as Shishido knew, Ohtori hadn't told anyone about his dead best friend/boyfriend. So Shishido corrected himself, "Actually, you shouldn't believe everything you hear. Is there something specific you want to know? Ask me anything and I'll tell you the best that I can." Right then, Shishido would and his heart started pounding with a touch of fear at revealing everything. All Ohtori had to do was guess or make a vague enough question to leave the door open and Shishido might say it all for the first time to someone.

"Anything?" Ohtori moved to prop himself up on his side with his elbow and rest his face in his hand. "And you won't get mad?"

Shishido mirrored his pose. "Anything. And I won't get mad."

Ohtori paused as if gathering his thoughts or courage, "How many people have you kissed?"

Shishido inwardly cringed, "A lot. I don't think I can give you a number because it's too many to count." Damn, that sounded bad so Shishido explained, "There are parties here all the time where you play games and kiss a lot of people. You know, spin the bottle, truth or dare, ten minutes in the closet, kiss and miss, things like that. Sometimes you kiss ten girls or more at one party, and I've been to a lot of them, so I've kissed a lot of people."

"A lot of girls...but how many guys?" Ohtori looked down and then added, "Before tonight."

"Four." Shishido said. "Before tonight, four. One I sort of dated though we didn't kiss when we dated. Two others kissed me by surprise when they confessed their feelings to me. I didn't kiss either of them back. One kissed me before he confessed and the other one kissed me after he confessed. I wasn't interested in either of them. I told the first one who kissed me before he confessed no and the one who kissed me after, wouldn't take no so I had to hit him."

"You hit him?" Ohtori was in awe.

Shishido smiled remembering, "Hell yeah. I had to. He wouldn't stop. He was bigger than me and wouldn't let me go so I had to hit him. He was a huge senior last year when I was a freshman and he had me alone in the locker room. He played on the basketball team. He was bigger than you, hell, he was bigger than Sato and Kabaji and no matter which way I moved, it was like he was playing basketball and blocking me from getting away. I tried to be nice because he was a senpai and all that but it wasn't working. So finally I just punched him. He didn't bother me again after that." They both smiled about it.

"And the fourth?" Ohtori asked sounding as if he was still in awe of Shishido punching a senpai.

Shishido smiled. He meant Ohtori but was pretty sure Ohtori didn't remember kissing him. "He was special, a really great guy, but he was drunk and didn't remember kissing me the next day." Ohtori looked at him surprised so Shishido explained, "What? It's not like you can say to someone, 'Hey, remember kissing me last night? That was great. I really like you.' I mean, if they don't remember then they don't remember, you know?"

Ohtori's brow furrowed. "The one you sort of dated, you didn't kiss him when you were dating?" Ohtori must have figured out that was Atobe.

"No, not really. It wasn't a relationship like that." Shishido shrugged, "I kissed him sometimes at night when he was asleep. Damn, that makes me sound like Taki doesn't it? I'm not like that. I like to kiss but when he and I were together it was a mess. He wasn't good to me, I wasn't good to him, we weren't close, and it was nothing like...well..."

Shishido thought of a thing to compare it to or explain it and failed. "It wasn't like this." He indicated with his hand him and Ohtori laying next to each other. "We were never like this. Not even in the beginning. Hell the first time he touched me he got me completely drunk before. I was stupid and it was a bad time for me. My brother had just left Hyoutei, my parents were giving me a hard time, well my Mom was as usual,but my Dad usually goes along with everything she decides, and things just sucked. That thing with the senpai had just happened and I...look you know who I mean, right?"

Shishido felt terrible.

And guilty. And...dirty for all the stupid things he had ever done. He felt again like Ohtori was too good for him and he really expected Ohtori to get up and walk away from him. Maybe this was better though if Ohtori knew and left now instead of hearing it from someone else. Then Shishido realized he probably already had. "Look, I'm sorry. I'm sorry can't change things that I've done and I'm sorry I can't make people stop talking about them or about me. I'm sure you've heard tons of things about everything, most of which isn't even true. Half the stuff I was supposed to have done I never did and half the people I supposedly dated I never met. All I can say is I wasn't happy at all back then. I don't think anyone really knows what went on for real except the two people who were there, and look, if you ever want to know anything, just ask me. I"ll tell you whatever you want to know, but only you. I trust you and..."

Ohtori surprised him by kissing him. He slid his arms around Shishido and held him close while he kissed him as if they hadn't left off to talk. He kissed Shishido as if nothing had changed. Shishido felt himself relaxing and almost melting into his arms and his kiss but then he struggled against it.

Ohtori must still have questions. He must have heard terrible things. Shishido tried to pull away, but Ohtori was too damn strong, and wouldn't let him up for air. As he kissed him, Ohtori started laughing and grabbed a hold of Shishido's hands as if worried Shishido would punch him. Shishido after a moment started laughing with him.

Ohtori said in between laughing, "Shishido-san, the only thing you're supposed to say now is to ask me how many people I've kissed before tonight." Ohtori kissed him again, "Unless you don't want to know..."

"No, I want to know. I want to." Shishido was still laughing. He asked, "I'm supposed to ask you this now?" Ohtori laughed more and nodded. "Okay, how many people have you kissed before tonight?"

Shishido then had to fight to keep his smile on his face as he realized Ohtori was going to say something from his past. He never talked about it. He never admitted his best friend was dead. The few times Ohtori had ever mentioned the guy he had never done so by name and always referred to him in the present tense. Shishido had always had a hard time dealing with that and in a way was glad he knew the guy had died because otherwise he would have naturally asked Ohtori more questions. Questions that apparently, Ohtori wasn't ready to answer by the way he never said a word about what he had faced and lost.

Ohtori was still laughing and close to him. "You're going to think I'm so weird. It's only two people, Shishido-san." Ohtori was still smiling, "One was a girl I liked, she kissed me, I didn't kiss her."

"And the other...?" Shishido asked and could have kicked himself. He was hanging on to every word Ohtori said and it was such a natural question it just slipped out.

Ohtori took a deep breath, "This is weird. You'll tell me if this is too weird?"

Shishido nodded and tried to look sincere and just curious.

Ohtori took a breath and said, "Okay, my best friend, I think I mentioned him to you a few times?"

Shishido nodded again.

"We used to...touch each other. We started when we were young and just kept doing it." Ohtori must have realized how many ways that could be interpreted, "I mean, we never had sex or anything, but we used to kiss and...touch. Weird, right?"

"Not if you loved each other." Shishido said automatically. He still felt jealous, but Ohtori seemed to need to say this to him. Shishido really wanted to hear it.

Ohtori to his shock shook his head no. "I loved him. I mean we were closer than brothers, but I was never in love with him. It wasn't like he was my boyfriend or I was his. It wasn't like that. Does that make any sense? There's a big difference between loving someone and being in love with them."

Shishido nodded, "Makes perfect sense.With me and At...that other person, it was the opposite way. I don't think it works unless you have both. Unless you feel both."

Ohtori nodded with his eyes wide. "You were in love but you didn't love him? It's really hard when you have one but not the other. He had in love feelings for me, but I didn't for him. He would get jealous. Very jealous. There were parties like the ones here that where I lived but I only went to one. That was where that girl I liked kissed me. He saw and he ran home upset and we fought. It was terrible. I didn't go to another party again."

Shishido asked, "What happened..." He thought maybe it was too much so he added, "with you and the girl?"

"Oh, she moved on right away to someone else. It sucked." Ohtori gave a little laugh as if surprised, "Its funny. At the time it really upset me and I couldn't tell him anything about it or how upset I was which was even worse, but now it doesn't even really matter to me. It seems like a really long time ago and it was only almost two years ago. I don't even know where she is now or think about her." Ohtori paused as if trying to find the words, "It's one of the reasons why I came here. To Hyoutei. After...well, after things didn't work out, my family kind of made me. They thought I needed a fresh start."

"What did you want to do?" Shishido asked curious and hoping Ohtori would tell him the entire story. It hurt Shishido's feelings that Ohtori still wasn't honest about it and Shishido wondered not for the first time if it was because Ohtori was lying to himself. It seemed a little crazy to act as if the person was still alive but Shishido had carefully watched him and Ohtori was anything but crazy.Shishido wondered if it was so bad if it helped Ohtori get through the day,yet at the same time he was hurt that he trusted Ohtori completely and Ohtori didn't trust him.

Ohtori shook his head and then shrugged. "I don't know. You saw how I was when I came here, I was a mess. I had a really bad time, some really bad things happened just before the school year started and I was just really..." Ohtori seemed to look for the words, "... really lost. You really helped me, Shishido-san. Thank you." Ohtori surprisingly hugged him tight.

Very tight. Damn he was strong. "You're welcome, but Choutarou, I can't...breathe..." Shishido protested but was smiling. Sometimes and in some ways, Ohtori was like a little boy still.

Then Ohtori kissed and licked along Shishido's neck in a very sexy adult way, and his little boy ways suddenly evaporated into something much hotter. He kissed over to Shishido's ear and across his cheek to meet his mouth in a very hot kiss. He held Shishido close and made that little noise when Shishido again teased and then sucked on his tongue. Ohtori pressed himself up against Shishido as if checking to make sure he was hard again. Shishido was and he moaned a little growl as Ohtori brushed their erections up against each other. Shishido was now lost. Lost in the moment, lost to kissing him, and just trying to not grind himself up against Ohtori's very strong and very sexy body until he came.

Ohtori suddenly stopped and looked at him almost comically alarmed, "Shishido-san, do I kiss all right?"

Shishido wondered if Ohtori was joking or fishing for complements. "No, I hate it, now kiss me some more." Shishido said smiling and kissed him.

He thought that maybe Ohtori was wondering why Shishido wasn't being more aggressive so for a moment, he stopped holding back. Shishido completely let go again. He touched Ohtori everywhere he had been thinking about, even along his erection through his pants. He rubbed himself against him and kissed him hard and deep while wrapping his legs around Ohtori's. Shishido pulled him closer with his other hand wrapped around the back of Ohtori's head. Ohtori made another little moaning noise and Shishido thought he wanted to really hear him make more noise. He wondered what noises Ohtori made when he came. Now though wasn't the time. Not yet.

This all was too soon and everything felt too fast. Shishido pulled back a little to look at him.

They were both breathing hard. Shishido touched Ohtori's cheek and said, "I like how you kiss. You feel really good and I want you." Shishido kissed him again because he honestly couldn't resist him, "I really want you Choutarou. If you feel me holding back, it's only because I'm trying to take things slow. I'm trying to do this right." Shishido smiled that half smile he had, "But it doesn't mean I don't want to rip your clothes off right here and right now." He heard his voice come out on that last part in pretty much a growl.

He saw Ohtori's smile in the dim light before Ohtori kissed him, this time starting out gentle, almost sweet,but then within a few heartbeats it turned into something hot again. Shishido found his brain going over what he had said to keep himself in some sort of control. He meant what he had said. He wanted to do this right and it bothered him that Ohtori still had not confided in him completely. It was too much too soon and yet not enough. Shishido considered that maybe he needed to confide more in Ohtori to draw him out.

Plus if he kept kissing him, Shishido would not be able to hold back much longer. There are limits. He meant it when he said he wanted to rip their clothes off right here and now. Shishido was still thinking of Ohtori's original question. It had been in the back of his mind this entire time and he thought of a way to tell him some things without saying everything. Maybe if Ohtori knew the first part then he could later better understand the rest.

"Choutarou?" Shishido asked and smiled, "Would you still like me to answer your first question? Because I thought of something, something no one else knows, at least not anyone here. But if I tell you something no one else here knows, will you tell me something no one else knows?"

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