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Learning to Land. Chapter Sixty Five ~Shishido~

Warnings: Yaoi, Love, Angst, Fluff, and Lots of Sex. Some kink. You've been warned ;)

Disclaimer: Nope not mine. Still in my dreams. ;)

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Atobe lying about what happened made Shishido furious. Coldly he said, "Yes. You did. Even if you want to argue about all the other times, at least agree with me how the first one was. I was there, remember? I was so drugged I couldn't move and you wouldn't stop and..."

Atobe suddenly embraced him hard. "Forgive me." It was an order, not a real apology, not that someone could apologize for what happened, but an order was the last thing Shishido wanted to hear. He realized he had relaxed into the familiar hug although he had not put his arms around Keigo in return. Shishido straightened and Atobe must have sensed he needed to try to manipulate him more.

"Ryoh?" Atobe pulled back though and there were tears in his eyes. Shishido couldn't have been more stunned. "Please forgive me. I never meant it to go that far. I had been drinking too, remember. I wanted you so much I couldn't stop. I still want you so much. I want you all the time. Don't you see that?" Shishido knew a large part of that was a lie, but he remembered the point of right now was to get him and Ohtori through this and away from Keigo, not to dig up old wounds and heal them. Atobe was Atobe. He would never change. He would never make the choices someone who was capable of love would make. He proved Shishido's thoughts right when he asked, "Is that what all this is about? Are you still angry at me from back then?" Atobe held him closer and sounded like he was begging, "Come back to me Ryoh. Let me make it all up to you. It will be so different this time, so much better, I swear it. You'll never regret being with me."

He went to kiss Shishido as if to seal it, but Shishido flicked his long hair over his shoulder in annoyance. "And how much will I actually be with you this time Keigo?" Atobe looked confused back at him. "What if what I wanted was for you to date me openly?"

Atobe looked confused and now a bit disgusted, "Why the hell would you want that? We'd be expelled--well, you probably would be." Atobe gave a little laugh as if picturing it was funny to him, "I'd be disinherited. I'd have nothing. I'd be as penniless as a pauper..."

Shishido said smiling slightly at the irony, "You mean, you'd be as broke as me. The same as me. You'd have to make your own way--your own mark on the world with nothing to catch you if you fall. But I'd be with you--would you do it?"

Atobe suddenly ran his hands along Shishido's chest and down his flat stomach. He lifted Shishido's shirt past his chest and started kissing and licking him. Atobe gave a little purring growl and murmured, "Hmm, let me think about it. I'd lose everything, but I'd have you..." Atobe kissed his nipple, stroking it to full hardness in his mouth with his tongue as if it was candy. One of his hands drifted down to feel the front of Shishido's shorts. His fingertips traced Shishido's erection, and after so many hours spent with Ohtori with no release, Shishido bit his bottom lip to hold back the sound that almost came out of his mouth at someone touching him there. Atobe started kissing down his body, and Shishido lost in the rush he was feeling, thought for an instant if he could just come, he could think clearly again. It wouldn't mean anything, right? He tried to justify letting whatever would happen just happen but couldn't. The fact was, he didn't want Atobe doing this to him, he wanted Ohtori and only Ohtori. At that realization though, Shishido's mind substituted Atobe's mouth for Ohtori's and he did moan out loud hearing the naked want in his own voice.

At his noise, not understanding it wasn't about the Vice-Captain at all, Atobe purred. His tongue flicked over Shishido's belly button before his lips kissed down further. In between licks and kisses, Atobe asked, "How much of you would I have? Would you finally be all mine? Do whatever I wanted?"

Shishido no longer wanted a moment of pleasure with the wrong person, he wanted as long as possible with the right one. "No," he said and pushed Atobe back, but gently to not infuriate the Vice-Captain or knock him down. Shishido did not want to hurt Choutarou any more than he already had today. He couldn't believe that a moment ago he was willing to let Atobe pleasure him. He mentally beat himself up and reminded himself he had to seriously get a grip on his emotions and his hormones immediately, if not sooner. "No Keigo. It doesn't work that way. We have to be equals, and you will never see me that way."

Atobe straightened and fresh hurt at this latest rejection after this attempt showed in his eyes. Annoyed he said, "It wasn't just me. You never saw yourself as my equal either."

Shishido was surprised and had to concede that in the past, he hadn't. He was a bit amazed what one person really liking you could do for your self-worth and self-esteem. Shishido shrugged and wondered how Ohtori was holding up after all this. "I do now, but it doesn't matter anymore Keigo. It's over. Whatever happened--whatever it was we had is all over. We're just friends now. You let me go."

"Ryoh..." Atobe again took his face in his hands, "I don't want you to go. Come back to me. Let's try again. We'll take it as slow as you want. We'll do it properly. We'll have a great time. You know you want to..."

Actually Shishido was surprised at how much he really didn't. There was no part of him that wanted back into that chaos. "I don't want that anymore, Keigo. I want more. I want someone who wants to be with me--just me. Someone who accepts me for how I am. Someone who can be faithful."

Shishido was about to go on, but Atobe stopped him with a derisive laugh, "Ha! Faithful? Ryoh, we're not even eighteen years old and you want someone to be faithful? That's absurd. You'll be cutting yourself off from a world of pleasure out there. You would want me to be faithful to you and you mean this as in forever?" Stung by the harsh words Shishido shrugged. "With just guys or with girls too?" Atobe laughed when Shishido shrugged again. He threw his head back and laughed as if this was hilarious. "Faithful! At our age! Do you think you'll beat the curse? With him? He's a year younger than us. That means a year of separation before he gets to high school, and another when you go to university. Are you insane?" Atobe was really laughing at him.

Shishido found he didn't even care. Atobe laughing at him and insulting him was better than Atobe enraged.

Amused Atobe asked, "So after all this time, all the two of you have done is kiss?" Shishido shrugged and felt a rush of blood turning his face red. "Did I just see your first kiss?" Atobe was laughing so hard he gasped for breath, "And you want him to be faithful and the kid couldn't stop kissing me! Oh this is priceless!"

Shishido felt his face flush harder. Atobe's words really stung, but more than that because Shishido had almost been unfaithful just a moment before. Not that they had promised each other anything, but emotionally Shishido realized if he had really fooled around with Atobe he would not have been able to forgive himself. It wasn't just emotions and hormones that he had to get a grip on, it was something else. Something more. All he wanted was to be in Ohtori's calm and loving presence. He wanted to hold him and be held. Even thinking this, Shishido felt his hurt and shame from a moment before slowly fade away to be replaced by a feeling that was warm and comforting and right and true.

Even without really ever knowing it before, he knew it was love. And not the kind of love crush someone gets in junior high or high school that doesn't last, but the kind of real, deep love his father had for his mother that meant more to him than anything else in the world. Shishido had watched it for all his years, he just had never felt anything like it himself. Certainly he had never felt someone truly love him before. Not like he suspected Ohtori felt for him, and he realized he would do anything he had to in order to keep it and the person he loved safe. Shishido was so rocked by this revelation he didn't even notice Atobe had him pinned against the wall and was kissing his throat again. Annoyed at how easily he was letting Atobe get away with this garbage, Shishido sighed. He was no longer turned on, no longer confused, no longer afraid, and all he wanted was to escape.

Atobe purred, "I kissed him last...don't you want to taste him...?" The Vice-Captain moved his mouth close to Shishido's to draw him into a kiss. Atobe had him so pinned up against the wall with his entire body that Shishido didn't know how the hell he was gonna escape this time. And he felt another surge of jealousy recalling Ohtori sighing as Atobe kissed him.

But then...Shishido smelled it.

He was so stressed over all this and confused he realized he had probably been smelling it for a long time, but never put the stench together with the source. The room they were in was one that held the whirlpools that people used when they were injured. Often healing mineral salts were added to relieve sore muscles and tendons. Shishido had probably figured it was that at first, but this stink he now knew was coming directly from Atobe's mouth.

It was an herbal bad medicine-y smell, like the kind of cough stuff his mother would force him to choke down when he was terribly ill with pneumonia. He would be racked with spasms that left him dizzy and gasping for air and need of more serious medical attention as a child. She would force him to swallow things like this and he would only because she promised it would make him better. It never did--all things like this did was make him vomit until he passed out, choking, and unable to breathe. He would wake up in the hospital and his mother would scowl at him as if it were all somehow his fault he was ill. The first thing she would tell him was how much all this was costing his father.

Amazing how a bad smell could so vividly bring up a memory but it did. Shishido involuntarily gagged on the stench--his stomach clearly recalled how ill things like this had always made him. Atobe moved to see why Shishido gagged and he took the opportunity to push the Vice-Captain quickly away in case he was sick. Shishido gasped for air and coughed fighting back his urge to gag. In between gasps Shishido choked out, "What...the hell...did...you...eat...your breath...stinks!"

Atobe had been patting him on the back and asking if he was all right, but at Shishido's coughed out question the Vice-Captain ceased. "I certainly do not stink! See how far out of the loop you are? You don't even know what these are do you?" Atobe held up a box of some kind of thing. Through tearing eyes they were labeled pheromone mints that promised incredible sexual prowess and attraction for the user. No doubt if Atobe was using them they were the latest fad. Now that he was into them they would be popular beyond reason. They would hit Hyoutei soon, sell out within days, and be used everywhere by everyone despite their probably incredible expense and uselessness. The Vice-Captain opened the top and placed another of the reeking confections into his mouth as if to show Shishido how very pitifully wrong he was. Shishido caught another whiff of the damn things as the box was opened and gagged again. He coughed and waved the offered open box away. Atobe laughed.

"Disgusting...!" Shishido coughed out. Then he had a thought. Ohtori had somehow kissed Atobe despite the stench. How the hell the freshman was able to do that Shishido had no idea. He was impressed though and hoped that Ohtori hadn't hated the smell and probably worse taste more than Shishido did. He also realized that these things were the reason Atobe kept insistently trying to kiss him. The Vice-Captain probably thought that as the box claimed that Shishido would be his "love-slave" instantly. Maybe that was the reason for Ohtori's sigh. Shishido considered trying one for a moment to make Choutarou sigh like that with him.

"It's an acquired taste." Atobe said haughtily. Shishido caught another sniff of his breath and decided against trying anything that smelled that bad. Who knows what the hell actually ingesting something like that could do to a guy. Hell, he realized that everywhere on his neck and chest Atobe had kissed was sort of tingling in an almost burn. He shuddered to think what would have happened had he let Atobe kiss him down further to some more sensitive skin. At it was his nipple, neck, chest, and belly button felt on fire.

Shishido rolled his eyes, "Well you can keep it."

"Your freshman seemed to like it." Atobe said pressing a sore spot.

"Well then he can keep it too--its completely disgusting." Shishido shot back.

Atobe arched one eyebrow. "How can you say that? You haven't even tried the taste..."

Shishido shuddered, "No thank you. It's gross Keigo."

"And after all the times I put up with your coffee-breath stench..." Atobe sighed but he smirked.

"What do you mean?" Shishido was alarmed. Even in Atobe's jabs there was always some bit of truth.

Atobe shrugged, "Oh yes. Exactly what I said. You drink a hundred cups of coffee a day. Your breath reeks of it."

Shishido's only thought was for Ohtori. The freshman was too polite to say anything to the Vice-Captain so he probably had suffered through Shishido's breath valiantly too. "You never said..." Shishido tried knowing it sounded lame.

"We didn't kiss often enough to complain, although if you'll recall, I kept buying you toothpastes." Atobe's smile widened. He enjoyed nothing better than exposing a major flaw in someone.

Damn it! Shishido cursed in his head. That part about all the new toothpastes really was true, but he had been too slow to pick up the hundred hints Atobe had probably left him. And yeah, no one else complained, but they were always all hung up on Shishido to say anything at that point. He knew he was quick to anger so they probably suffered in silence. Well hell with this. No more. First chance he got, he was going to buy some gum or mints that didn't stink. Maybe peppermint. Choutarou seemed to like peppermint. He didn't think he could cut out coffee all together, but maybe he could brush his teeth more, after every cup if he had to, and there were those internal breath tablets that Taki was always popping saying they worked on every taste and smell. Maybe he had been hinting too.

Just how bad was this? Shishido restrained from cupping his hands over his mouth and inhaling to try to smell himself but only barely. Atobe was smiling at his obvious distress. Shishido decided to change the subject. He said without any sarcasm, "Thanks for being a good friend and telling me."

Atobe looked at him though as if Shishido had spit on him. "So now I'm your friend?"

Shishido shrugged and said defensively without thinking it through, "I guess not. I thought we were. My mistake." Shishido went to stalk out of the room.

"Ryoh, wait." Atobe grabbed him by the wrist before he passed completely by him. Shishido stood there with his back to him, waiting for the inevitable. Atobe as usual slid his arms around him from behind. "That wasn't what I meant and you know it. What I mean is so now we're just friends? Nothing more? Not even the kind of good friends who make each other feel good now and again?" Atobe buried his nose in Shishido's hair as usual and his right hand started tracing the contours between Shishido's legs again while his left toyed with Shishido's stinging nipple.

Shishido forced himself to relax and as soon as Atobe loosened the grip of his arms around him, he quickly stepped forward and away out of the embrace. "No Keigo, we're just friends. Nothing more. You have plenty of other people to choose from so why do you keep doing this to me?"

"Because I want you." Atobe said with a shrug of his own as if Shishido should already know the reasons why, "And I always get what I want."

"You had me. It's over. You let me go." Shishido said heatedly back. He turned to face him and his back was to the room's door.

Atobe shrugged again, this graceful shoulder movement that he had copied from Shishido, "I changed my mind. I want you back. I won't settle for anything less than really and truly having you by my side." He took a step forward. "I want you with me. Really with me. What do you want? Want to be Vice-Captain next year? We could rule together side by side. Want to never have to worry about money or power again? I'll take care of you always. All you have to do in return is obey me and give me your heart. You can pay back anyone who snubbed you, all of them. Anyone who made you ever feel bad or not good enough, and not just now, but in high school and university too. I'll stay by your side if that is what you are looking for." Atobe had backed him up against the wall again. He smoothed back some of Shishido's hair behind his ear. "I'll give you whatever you want. Your fondest wish and your every desire. Just say you'll be mine again. Together we can rule this place by day and by night, I'll drown you in pleasure and every luxury. You'll never want for anything or anyone else ever again. I promise."

Shishido went to tell him no, that he had moved on and Atobe should let him go, but Atobe even had an answer for that too. "Ryoh? You want the boy? You can have him. I'll even protect him after you're done with him. I'll let you have whatever you want, whoever you want on the side, just don't let him come between us like this." Atobe looked as if he might cry and added, "Please?"

Shishido knew Atobe vulnerable like this was just as likely to snap when he didn't get what he asked for. Like a small child asking for a toy in a store his mood would darken in an instant when he heard no, but no was all Shishido could give him. The one thing Shishido wanted, Atobe couldn't give him. Shishido fought to find the words to placate and soothe the coming storm, but Atobe took his silence as hesitation and he grew impatient as always. "Do you know how much I've protected you? Do you have any idea of the lengths and sacrifices I've had to make just to keep you safe?" Atobe took a breath and pulled himself back, "But Ryoh, it will all be worth it if you only come back to me. I'd gladly do it all again for you."

It was a shadow in the window at the door that gave Shishido the out he needed. Somehow he was pushed up against the wall again with Atobe pressing their erections together again. Shishido had a clear view of the door and in it he saw Jiroh pressed against the glass looking upset and alarmed. "What about Jiroh? Will you just cast him aside after he's been so faithful to you? He really has feelings for you, Keigo."

Atobe must have mistakenly thought he had Shishido almost in his grasp. Just as Jiroh opened the door the Vice-Captain said, "Jiroh? Jiroh isn't you. He means nothing to me. He always has been nothing but a placeholder for you until you come back to me. Say the word and he is gone. Like that." Atobe snapped his fingers, "Is he why you're refusing to come back to me Ryoh?"

Jiroh gasped out loud and Atobe whirled at the sound. It would have been bad for anyone walking into the room and seeing Atobe that vulnerable and saying those things, but as Jiroh basically caught Atobe, the Vice-Captain was furious. "What do you want?" Atobe demanded coldly.

The door closed automatically as Jiroh stood there with his hands to his mouth in shock. The noise of the door made him react in a startled jump as if he heard a gunshot. "C...coach sent me to find you because he's ready to start. He...he's mad because he's been waiting. Everyone else is there."

"You've found me, only I'm busy Jiroh. Go tell him I will be along as soon as possible and to start without us...wait..." Atobe turned back to Shishido and smiled. "Jiroh? Come here." Instantly, the curly haired guy complied. Shishido cringed for what would happen. Whatever it was it would not be good. Atobe put his arm casually around Jiroh's shoulders. "Ryoh thinks that you have feelings for me. Do you have feelings for me?"

"Y...yes Keigo..." Jiroh whispered a heartbroken sound and for the first time ever, Shishido felt nothing but pity for him. Pity because he once had felt that way and been under Atobe's spell like this.

"Show me how you feel. Kiss me Jiroh." The guy hesitated only long enough to meet Shishido's eyes and then he fell into Keigo's arms and kiss as if he was drowning. Shishido saw him desperately trying to put his every emotion into this kiss. Atobe didn't even notice. He turned while they kissed and watched Shishido who found this time watching Atobe kiss someone, it was easy to fake feeling nothing because the only thing he felt was sorry for Jiroh. Atobe broke the kiss complete with a long line of spit between the two of them and Shishido saw Jiroh was trying to hold back from crying. He was shaking with the effort. Atobe was focused on Shishido alone not even noticing. "See how obedient he is?"

Shishido said in anger, "And where has that gotten him?" He meant he did nothing Atobe wanted anymore and he had Atobe begging while Jiroh ended up with his heart broken. It was a visible lesson of why going back to Atobe Keigo was the worst thing Shishido had ever considered.

Atobe smiled not understanding. "Its gotten him to a seat of power. His every need is taken care of and his every wish is granted. We have a wonderful time. And all he has to do is obey me without question. Shall I have him kiss you and say whose breath is worse or whose kiss is better once and for all? Or should I tell him that I won't be seeing him as anything but a friend anymore because you and I are back together again?"

Jiroh made a very tiny whimper. Atobe didn't even seem to notice.

"Don't bother yourself Keigo. It's time for practice anyway. Shouldn't we go, or do you want people to wonder what we have been up to?" Shishido smiled and tried to just get the hell out of there.

Atobe smiled wider, "I thought that was what you wanted Ryoh--to be open about us? No? Then consider my offer carefully. Do not even think about saying no right now because you need to sleep on this. You know what I've promised and how bad it is to fall out of my favor. Now as your friend, I'll counsel you to not kiss guys where you can get caught even if you were purportedly practicing. As you are going to the party, I'll send a car for you both at the usual time and see you there. As your Vice-Captain I will have to punish both of you. We'll have to see when practice begins. Nothing personal you understand, but I can't have my players so completely consumed with lust they forget they are even on the tennis team. Have a good practice Ryoh, please tell Coach we'll be along as soon as possible. I can see I have an emergency to handle first."

Shishido glanced at Jiroh and only then noticed the curly haired guy was silently crying. Big slow tears coursed down his cheeks as Jiroh stood there between the two of them hearing every word.

Disgusted, he retied his hair back in its customary practice ponytail as he turned his back on the two of them and walked out. Shishido did not linger at the door to listen but went straight to one of the sinks. Quickly, before anyone came looking for the three of them now, he washed his face and ran a wet towel over where Atobe had kissed him to try to take the sting off him. He saw Atobe had left him another love bite over his heart and Shishido cursed wondering how to hide this from Ohtori. Hell how to explain it all to him. He walked in and apologized because the Coach had started the meeting without them. In fact it was over. It was just the order for the match the next day. He was trying to casually glance around as the names of the two doubles teams were called to see where Ohtori was. If nothing else, he figured he could give him a reassuring smile. If they could get through this, everything would be all right.

Shishido turned when he heard his name called. He was singles three tomorrow and had to hold back a sigh. It really meant nothing. It was against an unseeded team. It was just probably because of how well he and Atobe had played this morning, but that wouldn't matter. He and Atobe were missing and by now the rumors would be flying that they were back together and that was why. No one would question why Atobe was singles one despite the rumors that their Vice-Captain was injured in light of this newest juicer gossip.

As the meeting broke up and regular practice started, Shishido found himself surrounded by well-wishers all probably wanting to bask in the glow of his returned to favorite status. Save one tall silver-haired freshman smiling broadly and staring at him in an oddly tantalizing mix of blushing embarrassment, adoration, and insecurity as if even Choutarou thought for a moment Shishido might go back to Atobe. One glance at him though and Shishido knew for certain his heart was not his to give away. Ohtori clearly already had it if what was left pounding in Shishido's chest at just the sight of him was any indication. Ignoring the hanger-ons, Shishido asked the freshman, "Still with me? To warm up?"

Ohtori beamed as if he had won some prize, "Yes Shishido-senpai."

They walked out together and Shishido smiled despite himself and the situation. It was crazy. Ridiculous. Terribly dangerous to do this, and yet he just didn't want to stop. He tried to keep his head together but everything about the freshman was now so attractive. His lips, his smile, the way his hair curled just behind his ear, his strong muscular back that the stupid red shirts just seemed to highlight, and his strong cut legs that Shishido had to stop staring at. Had to. Really. He was acting--well hell like a school kid in love which he knew was exactly what he was. They stretched together and Ohtori blushed adorably thinking probably the same things about him.

Quietly, very quietly because he was sure everyone around them was listening to everything they said, Shishido said, "I'll tell you everything later, all right? I promise I will, but I can't right now." Shishido had taken a piece of mint chewing gum off one of the hanger-ons earlier and was glad he did. He hid it on the roof of his mouth so he didn't get additionally punished for chewing gum during practice, but it made him feel better being this close to Ohtori and knowing he didn't have coffee-breath.

Ohtori nodded once to show he understood and went back to looking away while listening intensely. It made Shishido want to kiss his neck, by his ear, where he really liked when he was facing away like this. If they were alone and he did that, he knew Choutarou would give this sweet little giggle and then heatedly meet his mouth and eagerly kiss him back. Shishido shook his head to clear it and made it seem as if he was just moving his ponytail out of his way. "Ohtori? He's still angry and we're going to be punished so be ready. Whatever he says to do, we'll just do it and get through it together okay?"

The freshman agreed with another nod of his head and glanced worriedly over at Shishido. He knew what that look meant. Ohtori was worried Atobe would punish only him and not Shishido. Maybe make an example out of the freshman in front of everyone. Shishido thought about it and knew that might have been the way things played out if he agreed to return to Atobe, but as he hadn't he would be punished too. Harshly, to teach Shishido that if he had only complied he wouldn't have to go through any of it. "No." Shishido said softly, "It will be bad and it will be both of us, but we'll get through it together, I promise. I'm with you."

Ohtori turned to him and smiled while blushing deeply red. Shishido meant he was with him through the punishment, but he knew in his heart he also meant it the other way, the way the suddenly very happy freshman took it also. Shishido smiled back at him.

They were just finishing warming up when Atobe stalked out of the club room.

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