I Believe in Happy Endings

Disclaimer: ~ I Don\'t Own Gravitation….. I wish though T__T *huddles in corner*~

I drifted back into reality, only to hear two voices speaking. I was too tired to open my eyes, so I was satisfied with just listening two the voices.

“I don\'t recall inviting you to my engagement party, Tohma,” one voiced snarled. I knew immediately the voice belonged to Yuki\'s, and I guess Tohma was the person that….that….Oh my god! Memories began to flood my mind, filling me in on what had happened. I can\'t believe I was raped. I squeezed my shut and let out a quiet whimper. I don\'t think anyone heard it since there were loud voices yelling at each other. It\'s funny how they are yelling at each other, but I couldn\'t hear a word that was coming from them. I slowly, and I mean slowly, opened my eyes. I blinked a few times, adjusting to the light. I gasped at what I saw; now I wish I didn\'t open my eyes at all.

The blonde-haired boy jumped to his feet and swirled to face Yuki. “What? Tossed aside so easily…Sukie, don\'t you care about me anymore?” his tone was mocking, but his arms were reaching for Yuki. “No more games, okay? Just tell me how you feel.” He grabbed onto my love, snuggling his face into his hair and reaching low with his hand. “Now tell me what you feel--!”

Yuki turned his head to the side, but stood his ground. “How about you tell me…just what the fuck did you to do my fiancé!!!”

Tohma flinched back like he\'d been hit. “If you\'d give up everything we had, then there must be a nice package on that bitch.”

Yuki flew into a mad rage. “You motherfucker!”

He slapped the boy across the face and, grabbed his collar, slammed him into the wall, arm raised, and fist clenched, ready to strike. At that moment, Mika left my side and stopped his brother. “No Yuki….Yuki, he\'s not worth it.”

Yuki\'s wraith calmed a little and he backed away. Mika kept her arms around his shoulders to keep him from reconsidering. But Yuki only used venomous words to fight with. “If I ever catch you near Shuichi again, I swear I\'ll fucken kill you! You understand!”

Tohma left after those foul words Yuki said to him. Yuki quickly went to my side, to see how I was doing. Honestly I don\'t think I was doing okay at all. My whole body was in pain, but the most part that hurt was my heart. Not physically but mentally, if you know what I mean.

“Shu-chan, baby, talk to me…please” he said gently as he picked me up into his arms, carrying me bridal style. I tried to answer him back, but I was too weak. Before I knew it, I blacked out again.

The next thing I knew, I saw a familiar cream colored tiled room. I found myself in the bathroom\'s bathtub. I was inside the bathtub filled with warm soothing water as Yuki was outside the tub, holding on to me while he lightly washed off the blood and semen. I tried to sit up on my own but found his other arm in front of my face, stopping me from doing so. So I did what I was told and let him wash me. He lifted me up from the bath, drying me off with a huge fluffy pink towel, then slipping me into silk pj\'s, and carrying me again back into his room. If someone had carried me the way Yuki did I think I would die of embarrassment, but with Yuki…I didn\'t feel that way, in fact, I felt very very happy.

Yuki placed me onto the water, then went to dim the lights. He climbed into the bed with me and pulled the blankets over our waists. He held me closely to hold, gripping me tightly as if I would disappear into thin air.

“Shuichi…I\'m so sorry.” He mumbled against my forehead.

“Yuki….it\'s ok. It doesn\'t hurt anymore.” I said, lifting my head up to greet his. I placed soft kisses under his chin, working my way up to his lips. We kissed each other tenderly; pouring our emotions into them, hoping the other knew how we felt. I received all of his emotions and understood just how sorry he was. We broke apart, both panting for air. There was a long silence between us, neither of us wanting to speak.

“Yuki…who was that guy?” I finally asked, breaking the tension between us.

Yuki sighed deeply. “We were…well, you know. And one day…”

“No, I don\'t know.” I interrupted rudely. “What were you two?”

“Don\'t be that way, Shuichi,” Yuki said. “I love you. Don\'t you know that?”

Of course I knew. I couldn\'t deny his feelings for me. But….there had been someone else. What if those feelings still lingered as well?

“We were lovers. You know what I mean?”

I swallowed hard, trying to contain my tears. “Paint me a picture.”

He didn\'t look at me. “We….we went to school together—a private school. We were young….just freshmen. I used to be…well, I didn\'t date girls or anything. I just…had no interest in…guys. Then, I met Tohma and--- everything changed. We started dating and……and Mom and Dad were fine with it because…Tatsuha\'s well you know…he\'s that way, too. (A/N: They found out Tatsuha was gay when he was young) Nothing new to the family.” He gave a little laugh, but I was in no mood for a joke. “Anyway…we, uh…”

I was tired and growing frustrated with his stuttering and skirting the issue. “Yuki, did you….sleep together?” the last part was barely a whisper, but I knew he heard.

He still didn\'t meet my eyes. “We…we meant a lot to each other at one time, and…”

“Did you guys make love?”

This time he stared me straight in the face. But he swallowed hard again before answering. I think my eyes frightened him; I was feeling betrayed and furious by this time… “We had sex.”

“Where?!” I practically screamed. “In our---in Your bed? This bed?”

“Answer me…please” the thought of anyone else touching Yuki, being touched by Yuki, for that matter….it was really painful. But if anyone else had lain with him in this bed…in our bed!

I felt a sweet relief flood over me when Yuki firmly answered, “No. Never here. Mika didn\'t want him to meet the family. You saw for yourself how…pushy, abrupt, sneaky Tohma is. Nobody would have liked him. My parents certainly never would have approved of our marriage.”

I gasped. “You were….engaged?!” I felt hurt. I made sure that I would not cry in front of Yuki right now, maybe later, but not now…not during this important talk.

Yuki went pale. I didn\'t think he\'d intended to tell me everything. Now; however, he had no choice. I had him cornered. “We tried to…I mean, we…ran away together, eloped.”

I was so dizzy I nearly fainted. I shook my head to keep myself conscious. Yuki saw this and hurried on.

“We had some apartment set up near a beach. I had sense to tell Tatsuha what I was up to, but Tatsuha never thought I\'d go through with it. We had been living together for a week before Dad found us--- not married, praise Kami. But I protested; I was refusing to come home. I took Dad to the apartment to meet Tohma to prove everything was fine, but…but found him there with--- with someone else.”

My heart ached for Yuki. I knew how I\'d feel in his place.

“I came home with Dad, of course, and I was depressed for a long time. The first time I went to the Seung Bon Nung, was only to hear the concert and get smashed, but nobody blamed me. Eventually I returned to my old self, but….I\'d been with Tohma for three and a half years. It was hard…” I silenced him with a kiss. I could only image the pain he went through.

“Stop Yuki, Don\'t talk anymore. I know how you must have felt.” I kissed him again, while my hands went down to his pants, slipping my hands below his boxers. I slowly stroked his member, making it erected it. He stopped kissing me, letting out a moan. He quickly grabbed my hand, and took it out of his boxers.
“Stop Shu-chan. Your still hurt, I don\'t want to take things any further.”

“But Yuki, you know tomorrow….I\'m going back.”

“I know. We can do it when you come back. I still don\'t see why you must go back tomorrow. Your hurt and it isn\'t safe letting you go on your own. Please stay for another week.” He pleaded to me.

“I\'m sorry Yuki, but you understand I have to go tomorrow. I have been out far to long, and they are probably worried.” I said to him softly as my hands ran up and down his back.

“I know, but it doesn\'t mean I have to like it.”

I never did go to sleep that night; I was afraid of the morning. We held each other tightly, nails digging into each other\'s flesh. I was on top of him, he was on top of me, and I was on top again. I held him in my arms, stroking his back, kissing his soft hair, memorizing every feature of his face and body. I didn\'t now how soon I\'d be returning; until then, I couldn\'t not let myself forget a single detail. I must have wept all night, because after that, I had no tears left. I rose with the dawn, eager to leave before I lost my dissolving nerve. I looked at my lover. Yuki was half-asleep, but he was looking at me. I felt a horrible pain in my chest and flew to hold him one last time.

“I\'ll be back soon…soon…soon….soon…” I repeated over and over, hoping that I could assure us both in some small way.

He smiled, closed his eyes. “I promised to let you borrow my CC player.” I saw it on the dresser, headphones already attached. He squeezed his eyes shut tighter. “Shuichi you have to come back to me as soon as you can”

“Yuki…” He was asleep again. I pressed my face to his and brushed his cheek with my lips softly before turning again to the door. This time I didn\'t look back.