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i'm so glad people are reading, and i'll try to keep updating this! (it is finished, i just like to wait for a review, just to be sure someone's reading...sorry!) anyway, i think chapter 8 has my favorite-horrible-part in it. yeah. anyway, enjoy more sadness for poor eiri-kun!~

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The next morning, I woke up, completely oblivious to the fact that it was my birthday, but found myself face to face with Tohma sleeping on the floor. I watched him for a minute, seeing his eyes move slightly under their lids and hearing him snore gently. He breathed my sister�s name, and for an instant I wondered why he was out here. Then I remembered the argument with Mika, and that he had broken my trust.

Tears flooded to my eyes again, and I put my head back on my pillow, crying softly now, the water running carefully along my face. I felt a hand on my back and looked up at Tatsuha on the couch.

�Hey,� he whispered. �What kind of way is crying to start your birthday?� And then I remembered it was, in fact, my birthday.

I sniffed. �My way, I guess,� I muttered, the tears falling harder. Tatsuha wrapped his arms around me, letting me cry into his shoulder until we heard Mother and Father getting up. I jumped up and went to the bathroom to wash my face and the tear streaks from it before Mother saw me.

I came out just as Father reached the bathroom, and we said good morning to one another, and then I went back to the living room, where Tatsuha was staring down at Tohma. �Think we should wake him?� he asked.

�I don�t know. Mother and Father will want to know why he slept here, so I suppose so,� I answered, nudging Tohma slightly with my toe. �Tohma-san, wake up.�

He groaned and rolled over in response. Tatsuha got off the couch and helped me. We shook him gently at first, whispering his name, but I soon became annoyed, with my new, short temper for him. �Tohma-san,� I said, �wake up.� I shook him a little harder, and when nothing happened, I hit him lightly on the head. �Come on,� I whined. �Tohma-san, wake up.� All he did was snore a little louder. I finally went to my bedroom door and knocked.

�Yes?� Mika called, sounding a little flustered. I opened the door a crack. �Eiri. What is it?�

�Mother and Father are out of bed, and your loser boyfriend won�t wake up,� I answered truthfully.

�I�ll come get him,� she sighed. She walked out and grabbed Tohma by the hair.

�owowowowowowow!!!� he said, at last waking up.

�Come on, blabbermouth,� Mika muttered, dragging him back to their room. �My parents are up, and they don�t need to see you sleeping on the living room floor.�

�Owowowowowowow!!! Do you have to be so rough? Owowowowowowow!!!�

�Yes,� she said, throwing him in. �Now where�s my damn coffee?�

The morning went on as any other, truthfully, except Mika was speaking very little to Tohma. Mother picked up on it immediately, but didn�t say much.

I was practicing my deities with Tatsuha, and Tohma came over to try to talk to me. I stopped and looked at him. �What?� I asked, sounding as threateningly as I could, but was probably pretty timid.

�Um� I have to tell you something, before you find out through some bizarre grapevine. I told Mika about your-�

�I know,� I said, a little defensively. �I heard you fighting last night.� Suddenly, my eyes were full of tears again. I fought to keep them back and took several deep breaths, my lips trembling. �Why? I-I� I thought I could trust you. That you wouldn�t tell. You promised you wouldn�t. Why did you?�

�Eiri, I�m sorry. I just thought Mika should know the sorts of things you�re writing.�

�But, you told me you wouldn�t say anything,� I whispered, the hot tears winning, and slipping down my cheeks.

�I know, and I�m sorry. I shouldn�t have, but I� Well, I felt I had to. Do you understand?� I shook my head, choking the sobs in my throat. �I know I should never have shown her it, but I needed someone else in the secret. You know what that�s like, right? When you know something, and you need someone to talk to about it? Someone who can understand?� I nodded slowly, kind of understanding that. �That�s why I told Mika. She was the only one I wanted to tell, but she wants your parents to know too.� My eyes shot open, all crying stopped as I realized that.

�No, they� They can�t know!� I said desperately. �If Mother sees half the things in there and knew they were how I feel she�d, oh I don�t even want to think about it! She�d do something unimaginable! You can�t let Mika tell! You have to stop her, Tohma-san, please!�

�I tried to last night, until she kicked me out of the bedroom. Eiri, I don�t think I can stop her, but you could. Go talk to her.� Tohma gave me a small hug, trying to fix the loss of trust, but I�m not bought over that easily.

I ran to find Mika, to beg her not to tell. She and Mother were on the front porch, having tea, when I found her. I paused, knowing Mother hates having her teatime interrupted. I was about to go ahead and try to talk to Mika, when she held my notebook out to Mother. My eyes bulged, and I froze.

�It�s Eiri�s,� Mika said as Mother opened it. �It�s a little out of order, but if you can piece the story together it�s rather magnificent.�

�Eiri wrote it?� Mother asked skeptically. I considered letting her read it, to prove to her I wasn�t simple minded, but then she would just be mad at me for showing her she was wrong. Besides, that book had private stuff in it.

I stepped out and cleared my throat quietly. Mika looked at me with wide eyes. She could tell I was hurt by her giving Mother the book. Mother glanced up as well, and then turned back to the notebook. Disinterested, I saw her flip through, looking for something she would like. She stopped on a page with a daisy pressed in the pages. �Um, can I�h-have that back, Mother?� I whispered, hardly audible.

She held up a finger, indicating for me to wait, as she continued to read the poem there entitled �What�s in a Garden?� I watched in horror as she read it, emotion flying clearly across her face, all of it some form of anger. I swallowed. She looked at me when she finished, fury present in her eyes.

�Eiri, what is this?� she demanded. All I could do was stammer like an idiot. �Eiri, answer me.�

�J-just thoughts. Ideas. F-feelings,� I muttered at long last. �Mother, may I please have it back? It wasn�t meant for anyone but me to read.�

�Then why did you let Mika see it?� she asked, falsely sweet.

�I-I didn�t. Tohma-san showed her.�

�And how did he get it?�

�I left it out Friday night,� I whispered. �I really just want it back, please.�

�Oh Eiri, why don�t you let me read it?� she asked, pretending to care.

�Because you don�t want to see it. You hate it already, even though you�ve only read one thing. You hated it before you read that poem,� I said. �I just want it back before you see how bad it really is.�

�Eiri, it�s not bad at all!� Mika exclaimed.

�Eiri, dear, I want to see what you wrote. It seems fascinating,� Mother said.

�Then why did you jump to �What�s in a Garden?� instead of starting with �Careless�?� I asked, a feeling of ability moving into my chest. �The first poem in the book.�

She looked at me. �Well, if you know where everything is, why don�t you just recite �Careless� to me?�

I stared at her, knowing it was a challenge. I decided to take it. �Alright. ��Careless:

��A tear slips down my cheek, and a hand reaches out, slapping it away.

��Just me, being careless.

��A foot stuck out and I trip over it, scraping my face.

��Just me, being careless.

��A word slips my mind, and I slink away to hide from the pain.

��Just me, being careless.

��Detention for fighting on the playground, when I was being ambushed.

��Just me, being careless.

��A hand, crossing my face every single night, unfailing.

��Just me, being careless.

��Fists, meeting my stomach every time I turn around.

��Just me, being careless.

��Pain moving through my body, constantly making me fall.

��Just me, being careless.

��A knife, piercing my heart, ending it all forever.

��Just me, being careful.��

I looked at my mother, the sudden shadow of defiance wavering and my fear of her hand becoming more sturdy. My lip began to quiver, but I bit it, stopping the movement. She stared at me, taking deep breaths so she wouldn�t go off the end at me with Mika right there and Tohma in the house.

�Eiri,� she said at long last, �go back in the house and practice, okay?� I nodded, turning back to the door, but then stopped and glanced back to her.

�May I please have it, Mother?� I asked once more, quietly.

�No. Now go inside,� she instructed, and before I did I looked at Mika, resentment and fear prevalent on my face. Then I stumbled back into the house and to the living room, tears settling into my eyes again.~
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