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Learning to Land	By : Suteishichic Category: Prince of Tennis/Tennis no Ohjisama > General Views: 11419 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
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Learning to Land. Chapter Seventy ~Mukahi~

Warnings: Yaoi, Love, Angst, Fluff, and Lots of Sex. Some kink. You've been warned ;)

Disclaimer: Nope not mine. Still in my dreams. ;)

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Yuushi finally, painfully, slowly, all moony, drawled, "I love you. I want to be with you. Will you please be my first?"

"Your first?" Gakuto was completely confused. Yuushi's first what? Hell, he knew Yuushi had been with other people. A lot of other people. He had just seen up close and personal Yuushi being with another person! So what the hell did the stupid tensai...oh damn it...

Gakuto sighed.

Yuushi wanted that? Really?

oh...

damn...

Disappointment and apprehension sank through his belly like a stone and took his mood further down. Gakuto shrugged, and tried to remind himself that it felt good doing that with Yuushi in that damn dream he had so maybe it would be good in real life too.

And maybe this time would be different.

Yeah right. That would be about when pigs would fly, Kabaji would clean his room, Atobe would get the hell over Shishido, and Sato would turn out to be a nice guy in disguise. He sighed again. Gakuto felt totally defeated and wondered why the hell this kept happening to him whenever he really liked someone. Still he already knew he was gonna agree so he did glumly, "...okay."

Yuushi looked as deflated as Gakuto felt, "You...don't have to." He looked at Gakuto and must have seen that Gakuto was already annoyed because he just told stupid Yuushi he would. Gakuto agreed so what the hell was Yuushi looking upset about?

Yuushi explained before he could say anything, "You don't seem very enthusiastic so..."

Gakuto sighed and tried not to take it out on Yuushi, "It's not that...it's just..." Gakuto shook his head and tried to put it into words, "It's not you, Yuushi. It's just I've never had very good luck when I'm supposed to be the seme."

Yuushi's brow creased, and he explained as if to a child, "You told Ohtori you were a good seme, and I trust you. I want you."

The question Yuushi didn't ask that so obviously hung in the air was did Gakuto want him. Gakuto realized that was why it mattered so much to the stupid tensai. Okay it was all the other things from the tensai's past too, but more than anything Yuushi held this out like a gift and a test both in one. All the while the tensai was hoping that this was--actually that Yuushi was--something Gakuto really, really wanted too.

Ohtori? What the...? When? Oh. Right. But...? Gakuto paused trying to think of a way out of telling the tensai any of this but then decided it might be best if Yuushi knew some things. Even though no one else really knew this. Well maybe Atobe knew some of it because he sure as hell seemed to know everything else, but even Atobe didn't know everything. Gakuto first had to explain about Ohtori though, "That was just the kid, and it's not like I thought he would ever take me up on it or anything. It's not like he mattered to me."

Yuushi asked shyly, "The difference is I matter to you?"

Annoyed Gakuto barked, "Of course Yuushi! I didn't think of it that way before but yeah. Look, I guess I wanna, and I will like I said but..." But the truth was, Gakuto really, really wanted Yuushi to make love to...

Wait a minute! Where the hell did that come from?

Gakuto sighed annoyed at himself. And the stupid tensai for getting him all twisted around.

He tried again...

But the truth was he wanted Yuushi to have sex with him, with Yuushi as seme, but Gakuto didn't really wanna do it the other way around. Guys had said before they wanted Gakuto to top them, but every time it never worked out. It was like the kiss of death, even with Taki it never happened and things always went bad around then. Worse was it had happened or not happened in a big way two other times before when coincidentally Gakuto had really liked the guys and his heart had been broken.

He guessed when he thought about it since Yuushi had never done it that way before, eventually Gakuto woulda wanted to and probably woulda bullied and badgered Yuushi into letting him, but this was Yuushi wanting him to and asking. Yuushi was asking him to even with what he went through, and needing Gakuto to agree and want him back.

Gakuto sighed, "I'm getting cold. I'll tell you more after we're in bed, okay?"

He figured Yuushi would finally let him go and he would be cold while he dried off. There was that distance between them again and it was annoying. Gakuto sought to try to close it. He thought about maybe by asking Yuushi to dry his back or something, but before he could, the tensai to his surprise instructed, "Hold on to me tight..."

Confused why, Gakuto still wrapped his arms and legs around him. Yuushi stood the both of them up and got out of the bath as if Gakuto weighed nothing. The tensai walked them into the other part of the bathroom where the sinks and mirrors were, and Gakuto held himself close to Yuushi's warm chest and belly as he shivered at the change in temperature. Yuushi didn't say for him to let go so Gakuto didn't.

Yuushi stood by the sinks and reached over to turn something on. He explained, "Heat lamp. You'll be warmer in a moment." The light was warm and orange even with all the pink. Yuushi dried Gakuto's chilled back and legs with a thick, soft towel while he still held on to him. Gakuto felt his bottom being put on a towel and understood to let go to sit down on the counter. Gakuto did and Yuushi asked, "Your hair's gotten wet, may I dry it? Just so it's dry when you sleep?"

He nodded and let Yuushi take care of him. Yuushi dried Gakuto's hair with the hairdryer that was on the wall. Gakuto was normally very fussy with his hair because it was very important to always cover his scar so no one saw it, but it was just Yuushi so it was okay. Which was kinda nice.

Yuushi seemed to worry that if he went to bed with wet hair Gakuto would catch a cold--which he never did but Yuushi kept insisting this was true. The tensai, despite saying it was just for sleeping, was very gentle and took his time. As usual. Gakuto had to admit, even though Yuushi made him so angry so much of the time, he really liked when the tensai took care of him. In fact, Yuushi took better care of him than he did himself. The tensai was standing there drying Gakuto's hair naked and dripping wet in a puddle of water. If it had been Gakuto there drying it himself in a puddle, the tensai would have been horrified. He would have lectured and gone on and on about the horrible dangers and begged Gakuto to never do that again. Gakuto smiled and waited for Yuushi to turn the dryer finally off.

When he did, he noticed Gakuto smiling at him, Yuushi's brow creased in that way it did when he was confused.

To himself, Gakuto thought Yuushi probably figures he did something stupid and I'll make fun of him now. Instead Gakuto confessed, "Yuushi, I like when you take care of me, thanks."

Yuushi's eyebrows both shot up in surprise. For once he seemed to have nothing to say.

Gakuto felt resigned to add because he figured it out just a little bit ago, "Sorry I get mad sometimes so easy, you know I don't mean anything by it, right?"

Yuushi smiled at him, "I understand. I'm sorry I make you mad, and that I'm stupid about things. I love you." The tensai gave his hair one last brushing, covering Gakuto's scar for him and offered, "Would you like your robe now? And you can wait for me in the other room?"

"My robe?" Gakuto asked and Yuushi gestured to a big fluffy white robe that was hanging on a hook. "No, I'll wait. Hey Yuushi? When you dry your hair, don't stand in the water this time, okay?"

Yuushi looked down and then grinned. Apparently he had thought of just the perfect pun and was holding it in. In a way, Gakuto wanted to hear it, but then again he thought maybe he didn't. Gakuto sighed, "Am I gonna laugh at it?"

Yuushi shrugged as if to say he didn't know, but shook his head meaning probably not. He was still smiling in that goofy grin that only Gakuto ever saw him make.

Gakuto sighed, "Will I at least get the joke?"

Yuushi smiled, "Of course you will. Einstein, theory of relativity, two minutes versus two hours?" He stepped out of the puddle and on to a small carpet before he pointed the hair dryer at his own head. He looked like he was going to explain something but instead turned the dryer up to high and quickly dried his hair in no style at all leaving it all crazy. There was a brush on the counter and he quickly brushed it down into its now normal flatter style though it was poofier than Gakuto had seen it since the beginning of their freshman year. He saw Gakuto watching him and turned as pink as the lights in a blush, "Sorry if I look strange, I'd rather spend the time with you than on my hair." Yuushi grinned all goofy again, "That's relativity too."

Gakuto had no idea what the hell he was talking about, but Yuushi seemed so pleased with his jokes and was standing there naked and beet red from his poofy hair of all things, and it was so silly that Gakuto smiled too. Yuushi grinned wider as if very pleased that Gakuto understood and liked his jokes. He put the robe around Gakuto's shoulders and picked him back up, "Floor's wet." Yuushi explained before Gakuto could protest that he didn't need to be carried around like a damn doll.

The tensai brought Gakuto into the bedroom and set him gently down on the bed. Still naked, the tensai kissed his lips once, turned, streaked naked across the room, and ran out. Gakuto had no idea what the hell Yuushi was doing until he saw him run back towards him wearing another thick robe that he realized must have been in Gakuto's bathroom. Yuushi must have been chilled. Gakuto thought it was kinda sweet but he was such a geek sometimes it was funny. He laughed as Yuushi jumped on the big bed and tackled him, pulling him down into an embrace and kissing him until the laughter they were sharing at the tensai being a dork quickly turned into something much more passionate.

This time Yuushi didn't stop kissing him with some joke or thought or question. Instead in less than two minutes the tensai's lips and his tongue on Gakuto's mouth had him moaning with desire. Yuushi stopped a moment to open his own robe as he too must have felt how very warm the room suddenly was.

"Yuushi..." Gakuto murmured softly and pulled him back down to keep kissing him. He heard himself moan in Yuushi's mouth as he felt their naked chests rub against each other and Gakuto reached his bare legs to wrap around the tensai's naked hips. Gakuto moaned again at feeling Yuushi's hard muscles under soft skin now rubbing against his inner legs and thighs. He pulled himself tighter to the tensai, and felt along Yuushi's naked back with his hands. There were a few drops of water left between the ridge of hard muscle that trailed down either side of the tensai's back, and Gakuto ran his hands along and down to Yuushi's hips. He pulled them even closer together.

Gakuto felt Yuushi's erection hard and hot between his legs again and he moaned with how much he wanted him. He was lost to the heat and the swirling kisses and he tried to pull himself back so he didn't do something impulsive and stupid like impale himself on Yuushi in a reckless moment of pure lust. He shivered at the delicious and devious thought of doing it though. Gakuto tried to keep his mind working when his entire body was focused on other things because otherwise he was gonna go ahead and do it. He asked, "Hey Yuushi?"

"Hmm?" Yuushi hummed in that so hot good way, and Gakuto for a moment thought to himself that if he just let it happen, it wouldn't be so wrong. Yuushi would forgive him. He knew Yuushi would forgive both of them and in a way it would be a good thing to get this over with. His next thought Gakuto found to his surprise was that he didn't wanna get this over with. Waiting like this was painful but it was a sweet pain. The waiting felt like the same way that Yuushi gave him dry orgasms so that when he came for real it was the most intense he'd ever had. It was like that. Or it would be...if Gakuto could just wait.

Gakuto fought his urge to make this happen now before they were ready. He knew in his head and his heart that the waiting was good for both of them but damn why did it have to be so hard and so tempting and so right there? Yuushi's erection was right between his legs. It was hard and hot and centimeters from his entrance, and while it would take a long and sweetly slow while for Yuushi to work it in since Gakuto wasn't prepared at all, he knew they could do it. And he knew that if they did it right now, even with how long it too to work Yuushi all the way inside him, it would eventually be incredible.

Gakuto moaned thinking about it. It would be really good. It would feel really good. But it would be really, really wrong to take control and take the choice away. When Gakuto let Yuushi do things instead of always trying to control everything, it always kinda turned out better and hotter when he trusted Yuushi. It wasn't easy because even with Sato, Gakuto had to always keep control and fight for even that, but he didn't have to be like that at Yuushi. It was new not having to fight to control as much as you could, but Gakuto was trying.

So he tried again, "Yuushi, I was gonna tell you..."

Yuushi kissed him hot and swirly and wouldn't stop. He said breathing in pants with a small smile, "Later...I'll be more than happy to listen to...whatever it is you have to tell me..." Yuushi ran his hands along Gakuto's skin sending more of those electric jolts down his spine. "Right now...more than anything...I would like to make my prince come..." The tensai kissed him again and ran his hand over Gakuto's straining erection. Looking very hot and very turned on, it was the very sexy Yuushi who said, "And I want you to make me come...I want to come with you..."

Without realizing he did it, Gakuto cursed. Damn Yuushi was sexy wanting that. Wanting to do that, oh hell yeah, but hold on, "Yuushi, you don't have to. I can wait..."

Yuushi took Gakuto's face in his hands and kissed him soundly. He had Gakuto moaning again within a few seconds, and when the tensai suddenly pulled back from the sweet, deep, wet kiss, there was a line that connected their bottom lips. Yuushi smiled. Even with poofy hair, Gakuto had to admit he looked good, even better when he said all hot and bothered, "Glad you can wait lover, but I can't. Not anymore. I think I've waited long enough."

Gakuto was stunned, interested but stunned by this seemingly sudden change. Then he worried that maybe Yuushi wanted him to do it right now. To be seme right here and now, and no way was Gakuto ready for that. He sputtered, "But...we...because...you...I..."

Yuushi moved his hand down from Gakuto's face and trailed it along his body. He slid it over Gakuto's erection and then moved over to his own. He took himself in his hand and slowly began to stroke his own hard length.

Gakuto watched. His mouth was suddenly dry and his heart was pounding. He looked up at Yuushi to see what he was doing.

When Gakuto looked at him, Yuushi smiled at Gakuto in that slow, sexy way, "If you don't want to, then tell me what to do Gakuto, make me come."

Gakuto looked down to watch this. A bead of wetness pooled at Yuushi's tip and Gakuto was tempted to lick it away. His eyes were too glued on the amazing sight of Yuushi's warm, strong hand slowly sliding over his hot hard skin to move though. Yuushi drawled, "I've never really done this, to myself that is. Tell me what to do. Tell me where to touch myself. I'll do whatever you tell me to do Gakuto. Anything you say, anywhere you tell me to touch, I will. Do you want to just watch me come for the first time, Gakuto?"

"Is..." Gakuto's mouth was amazingly dry. He never really liked going down on a guy before, but that shiny wet pearl as it began to trickle down Yuushi's hard shaft, slowly gliding down to touch the tensai's fingers made Gakuto long to lick and taste it as if it were made of something sweet. His voice sounded a little husky to himself as he tried again, "Is...that what you want me to do Yuushi? Watch you?" Gakuto would. Hell yeah. He would watch the whole thing, but he would probably have to touch himself as he did. He had almost enough control to not take control, especially if Yuushi was gonna be all sexy like this, but no way did he have enough to just sit here watching.

Still lightly stroking himself, the tensai said, "Gakuto, I'd prefer it if you joined me, came with me. Perhaps how we tried earlier. This time, I assure you I will not hold back. I won't stop no matter what happens." Yuushi smiled and Gakuto wanted to kiss that sexy confident look off his face. "Please join me?"

Gakuto was curious, "Like we tried earlier how? When I went down on you? Like this...?" He licked his lips in anticipation and unable to hold back another moment softly licked the tensai's wet tip with a wide lap of his tongue.

Yuushi gasped and it sounded all shuddery and good. Gakuto didn't know which Yuushi was sexier, the one in control or the one on the verge of losing all control. The tensai's hand slowed it's stroke and moved over only his hard wide shaft now. Gakuto smiled at Yuushi leaving room in case Gakuto wanted to continue to lick him. He did. Gakuto licked around the ridge slowly with his tongue. He licked at the small dimpled slit that had another bead of moisture on it and loved the soft moan Yuushi made. He pulled the tensai's hand off himself and moved so he could see Yuushi while he did this.

While watching Yuushi, Gakuto took him more in his mouth. He played with the tensai's foreskin in a teasing way and noticed that strangely it probably wouldn't have covered Yuushi's tip even when he was soft. He pulled it completely back with his lips, ran his tongue around that sensitive, now exposed skin, and enjoyed the shudder and whimper the tensai made.

Gakuto didn't usually enjoy doing this, but that didn't mean he wasn't very good at it. He relaxed his throat and took Yuushi's erection even deeper. Gakuto thought doing this with Yuushi for his first time would be kinda hot. Yuushi was big so Gakuto took it slow so that he could enjoy this too. He hadn't yet shown Yuushi all of his tricks, and was kinda excited for Yuushi to see this one. He took him deeper in his mouth, so deep that his lips were around Yuushi's base, pressed into his hair and skin, and he knew whenever he made a small swallow that the tensai would feel it tight and wet and hot. Gakuto swallowed and Yuushi gave a long, low moan that made Gakuto have to fight to keep from smiling.

Gakuto knew how damn good he was and that no one else, not even some stupid girl, hell not even stupid Atobe could do this as well. At his moan, Gakuto looked up at the tensai and slowly, tightly pulled his mouth off. He licked around the ridge and the tip again. With a sly smile he asked, "You wanna come in my mouth Yuushi for your first time?"

Yuushi looked hot. And bothered. Which is exactly how Gakuto liked him. His eyes were closed and opened at the question. He was breathing hard like they were in a match and it was as if Yuushi was having trouble thinking clearly for once. Which was rather enjoyable to watch him stammer, "Ye...no Gakuto...I want you to...will you come with me? And...will you kiss me when we do?"

Now Yuushi looked still hot and bothered but also strange. Gakuto couldn't figure out what the look meant. It looked like a cross between moony and afraid. Gakuto had no idea so instead he tried to guess what it was the tensai wanted so badly. Unless he meant... "You want me here like that time...?" He moved to touch Yuushi softly between his legs by the tensai's entrance. Not even for sex--just asking him if that was what he wanted, when he saw and felt Yuushi completely tense up. The little redhead continued his hand in an upward sliding motion over Yuushi's erection to show him he would stop.

Gakuto had no reason why Yuushi tensed, because it wasn't like he was gonna hurt him or anything, but Yuushi was acting like he was worried. Or afraid. His erection had even started to soften and Gakuto had a feeling that if he had kept touching him there, whatever happened to make Yuushi worry would make it completely gone. Yuushi may have wanted Gakuto to be his first, but the little redhead only just realized it would be a while before he was ready to trust Gakuto enough to be just touched near there. Gakuto's heart went out to him.

In this he knew they were so much alike. Yuushi clearly was scared, but he gonna try and not gonna give up. He was not gonna let the bastard who hurt him win, and wanted to be normal, or as normal as people like them could be. Gakuto sensed a kindred spirit and knew that the last thing Yuushi would want was any kinda pity, and that even if he went to reassure him and be affectionate now, Yuushi might take that as Gakuto feeling sorry for him.

But out of everyone in the world, Gakuto was sure he knew what Yuushi needed. The tensai needed to conquer this--to win. And Yuushi needed to act. He would feel better and trust Gakuto in time. His first impulse had been to reach Yuushi and hold him, but Gakuto knew that woulda been wrong. Gakuto instead smiled and teased as if nothing was wrong, "I know what you want..."

Gakuto moved up to him and pushed Yuushi into a flat position on the bed. He threw the last sleeve of the heavy robe off him and put their waning erections on top of each other. "You mean like this...dontcha Yuushi? You liked doin this too, huh?"

Gakuto started to lay down on top of him, but then had an idea. He suddenly kissed Yuushi, hopped off the tensai, and moved quickly over to the bathroom, "Don't move, I'll be right back!"

Running once he was out of sight so Yuushi wouldn't panic or worry alone, he grabbed the oil he had seen and ran back. He was careful to not slip on the water on the floor or Yuushi would lecture him, but this was no time to be overly cautious. When he reached where Yuushi could see him, he sauntered back as if he had all the time in the world.

Opening up the new bottle, he generously applied and stroked himself with the oil--strawberry scented he noticed--and walked over to Yuushi. "I thought this might be nice." He went to pour a little on Yuushi and rub it into his skin too but the tensai made a small frown. Gakuto asked, "What? You don't wanna get oily? We can wash it off after." He saw that wasn't it. The tensai glanced over at the bed, and Gakuto understood--he just couldn't believe that was the objection the stupid tensai had at a time like this, "You don't wanna get the hotel sheets dirty? Yuushi! They'll clean 'em! You think we're the first people to get them dirty? It's a hotel. This is what it's for. Fine! If you don't wan..."

Quick as lightening, the tensai grabbed his wrist and in one graceful motion pulled Gakuto safely down to the bed and into Yuushi's arms. He met Gakuto's mouth in a kiss. Instantly the tensai started stroking Gakuto's now slick erection, apparently not bothered by getting himself or the sheets greasy. He moved his hand in that nice swirly way and gently rolled Gakuto's foreskin up and down, exposing and touching that so sensitive skin underneath. Gakuto shivered from the sudden sensation of being touched so nicely there. Gakuto sighed a moan that sounded like, "Ohhhh..."

Yuushi never stopped kissing him while he put Gakuto's oily hand on his own erection, and began stroking himself with Gakuto's hand. Completely forgetting the bottle of oil, Gakuto started moving his hand on his own and scrambled up on top of Yuushi again. It was only then that Gakuto figured out the objection. It wasn't the oil or the sheets, Yuushi felt that space when Gakuto moved to get the oil but didn't have the words to express how much he wanted to close it either. The stupid one Gakuto realized was not the tensai for once, it was himself for not understanding, and for forgetting that Yuushi wasn't always gonna have all the answers or know what to say all the time just because he was smart.

But he smiled while kissing him, delighted that Yuushi finally acted. He took it to be a good sign. Gakuto moved to be more on top of him and rub them together more while they kissed and stroked. It felt really good, even better than last time. Gakuto wondered if Yuushi would come. He hoped so, but he remembered how alarmed Yuushi looked at being suddenly touched there and knew the tensai might not be able to yet. That was okay because Gakuto figured that they had time. He felt bad about getting angry before when Yuushi didn't, but he suspected the tensai knew Gakuto wasn't really mad about that. More like Gakuto had felt disappointed and stupid that he made all the effort and didn't score a win, but unfortunately Gakuto usually responded in anger first and then thought his way out later. But really whatever Yuushi did or didn't do, Gakuto figured he would be okay with, and he set his mind that he would not get mad.

"Gakuto..." Yuushi said softly in between kissing him swirly and hot.

Gakuto smiled and kissed him back. He half-asked and half-stated, "Feels good..."

Yuushi took it as a question. He said in between kissing him, "Yes...Gakuto, I want you...I need you...Make me come."

That was pretty hot. Yuushi ordering him like that. He wondered if Yuushi made stupid faces when he came and hoped he found out, "Ohhh...Want you Yuushi... Come for me...Shoot for me...Come all over me." Gakuto's own words were turning him on more, and he saw they were having the same effect on Yuushi. The tensai moved his hand somehow over Gakuto's tip in a new way and Gakuto whimpered in his mouth. "Ohhh...yeah, Yuushi. Do more of that. Feels good when you do that." Yuushi did it again and asked with his eyes if that was what Gakuto meant. "Ohhh...uh huh. More like that...yeah...Ohhh...Yuushi...I'm close..." Gakuto looked at him. He looked very sexy and very close. "Ohhh...so are you...Yuushi...So hot when you're like this..." Gakuto kissed him roughly back and bit his bottom lip. "Yuushi...Ohhh...whatever happens, happens...Just let it go...I won't be mad if you don't...I promise...but I want you to...Want you to feel good too..." Gakuto kissed him again, "Ohhh...Come with me Yuushi, please..."

Gakuto was just about to come when he noticed Yuushi's other hand was moving slowly down to the tensai's own erection. He tried not to feel disappointed or take it personally, and resolved that he would still get this to happen some time soon. Yuushi's eyes were closed and he had that crease in his brow like when he was worried about something.

And then by some miracle the crease went away. Yuushi's eyes opened and he looked both sexy and moony at Gakuto an instant before Gakuto felt Yuushi's other hand run through Gakuto's hair and tightly hold on to him. He pulled Gakuto's head down to his a hard hot kiss and did that stroke over Gakuto's tip several time in a row sending Gakuto almost over.

Yuushi though suddenly gasped, "Ah!" he took a breath and said, "Gakuto...?" His face turned into a grimace as if something in him was ripped away or damaged or hurt. Gakuto was alarmed until he felt Yuushi's hips buck up into a thrust and their erections slide even more together as the tensai started to come.

Gakuto was shocked.

He looked at the tensai in disbelief.

He heard Yuushi say something that sounded a lot like, "UNGH! Ngh! Ng! Gh!"

Yuushi kept stroking Gakuto in that hot way with his hand even while he was crying out. That and Yuushi actually coming made Gakuto come along with him through the end. "Ohhh Yuushi...! Yeah...!" Gakuto didn't know if he was laughing or maybe crying as he came hard. He tried to aim so it was on one side of Yuushi's stomach because he was curious to see how many liters Yuushi would actually shoot. Gakuto figured they might drown and smiled at the thought as the little aftershocks still ripped through him.

Thrilled, Gakuto hugged him close and kissed him hard while he laughed in pure delight. He exclaimed as loudly and excitedly as if they had won the nationals for Hyoutei, "Yuushi! Yeah! You came! You did it!" Gakuto threw his head back and laughed in joy and relief. Then he noticed that Yuushi wasn't looking so happy. Gakuto remembered those strange noises and worried, "What's wrong? Are you hurt?"

Yuushi looked utterly mortified and as if he expected Gakuto to make fun of him. "N...no. But I...I'm sorry. I don't think I did it right."

Gakuto fought to keep the same expression on his face and not laugh. He fought and fought and fought and finally won but only because he thought of that lonely little boy he met that early day freshman year and breaking that boy's heart and spirit again. After a long pause while he fought his stupid urge to laugh, Gakuto said softly and concerned, "What do you mean, Yuushi? How was it not right?"

Yuushi blushed. Actually Gakuto saw he was blushing but his blush increased as he tried to explain it, "Well...I only came like this..." He gestured with an oily hand to the four fat globules on one side of his chest and stomach. One by his nipple and each one down a little further. "And you came like that..." He gestured to the small ocean pooling on the other side of his stomach under Gakuto.

Gakuto fought again not to laugh as soon as he saw Yuushi was actually serious. He also tried to come up with a reason, and hated all this because he knew he sucked with words and things like this. "Yuushi, you know everyone comes different. And we don't know how you normally come...yet. It might always be like this." Gakuto had another thought, "But you wanna know what I think? I think that your body is just in shock. No really. Think about it. The first time I came it wasn't a lot, and you haven't let your body ever so it's just kinda adjusting. I think the more you do it, the more it will be like mine. You did really good Yuushi. I'm really prouda you. I didn't think you were gonna, and then you held my hair and you did. Yuushi, you came! You really did!" Gakuto grinned and reached up to kiss him. He tried not to worry if there was oil in his hair from Yuushi's hand. He hoped if there was that it didn't make it greasy or flat the next day.

Yuushi smiled slightly still looking a bit awkward. "You really think it's okay?" Gakuto nodded solemnly and bit the inside of his cheek to keep from laughing. Yuushi looked at him all moony. He said softly while he looked at Gakuto as if he were something fascinating and special, "I love you."

Gakuto smiled and heard himself make that stupid noise he had been.

On impulse, mostly to cover the stupid noise, he licked up the biggest blob by Yuushi's nipple. It was where Yuushi's first shot landed, and Gakuto suddenly wanted it even though he knew it was kinda stupid. Then he had a thought so keeping it on his tongue he asked around it, "Orry, id you ant is?" Yuushi looked at him strangely as if it was a weird question. Gakuto tried to explain, "...well, you feem to ike it...and it's your fhirst..."

Yuushi said with a small smile, "I don't...like it actually." Gakuto was shocked. Yuushi always seemed to like his. A lot. Yuushi blushed and said, "Not with anyone else. Yours is different. Gakuto's is special because its from you. Your body made it."

Gakuto blinked several times at him in amazement.

Yuushi sighed as if dismayed, "Too weird. I know. Sorry."

Gakuto thought it was strange, but not too strange. In fact, it was kinda sweet although not the kinda thing you would say to someone else. "No, ifh's not oo eird Yuufhee... 'ere..." Gakuto ran two of his fingers through the lake he had made and held them out to the tensai's mouth. Without hesitation Yuushi licked and suckled them clean in a very sexy way as if it was something special.

Gakuto ordered on another impulse, "...ait, on't fhallow." Yuushi looked at him to ask why not. Gakuto grinned, "...e'll ix us in our oufhs...ike fhis..." Gakuto moved up to meet Yuushi's mouth in a kiss and "shared" with him. It was weird and stupid he knew, but it just felt somehow right. Gakuto thought it was kinda like a weird form of blood brothers or something. But it was nice and best of all, Yuushi seemed happy and made that good humming noise as they kissed.

The space was gone Gakuto noticed. In fact it felt kinda like they were closer than before. They turned while they kissed so the tensai was on top and Gakuto wrapped his legs around him. Somehow they were holding each other's hands with their fingers laced tightly together, and though he had never been a hand holding kinda guy before, even this felt nice. They just seemed to fit together, and when Gakuto considered that along with how good this felt, how right, he didn't feel as worried about things with them.

Even though he had no idea how long this would last.

And then Gakuto couldn't think because Yuushi was kissing him senseless. It was ridiculous. He had come around a thousand times today, hell he was all wet with it, they both were, so why the hell he was up again he had no idea. And as they turned so Gakuto was a bit more on his side, he felt Yuushi was hard too. Hard and again right between his legs. Near his entrance. And now they had oil. Oh gods this was tempting.

Yuushi kissed him again and made that humming noise. Gakuto felt the tensai's tennis calloused hands rubbing over his hot skin and he shuddered in pleasure and want that was quickly becoming need. Oh damn, if Yuushi just kept kissing him, Gakuto could really just let this happen, and it seemed as if Yuushi really wanted it to happen too.

Gakuto fought it again. Yuushi just came. That was huge. The tensai wasn't even ready to be touched there. One step at a time. What starts fast ends faster. He didn't want this to end. Gakuto pulled back from the kiss and tried not to moan as Yuushi stroked his erection and moved to kiss Gakuto's neck. Gasping for breath and decision made, Gakuto asked, "Yuushi? Ask me again?" Forcing himself Gakuto begged, "Yuushi, ask me your fantasy again. Ask me what you really wanna do again, please?"

Yuushi stopped kissing him when Gakuto asked please long enough to look at him. He must have seen how close to the edge Gakuto was because he kissed him once more, but broke the kiss breathing hard.

Gakuto only realized then that they both were panting and close to being lost in each other. Yuushi touched his face softly with his hand and for once Gakuto really didn't mind that the tensai looked at him all moony, just as long as it was only him that Yuushi looked at all goofy like this.

The tensai spoke softly, "Gakuto, I love you. I want you to be my first. I want..." Yuushi looked shy, and like how he looked when he wasn't sure how Gakuto would react to something he had to say. He smiled slightly, "I want to give you that. I guess in some way, I've always wanted it to be you. Do you want me? Will you be with me? Will you be my first?"

Gakuto felt shocked to his core, and then immediately bad about something he usually didn't feel too bad about probably because he had worked so hard to put it outta his head completely. He was so surprised that he forgot to even be angry. Without thinking of how much it might hurt Yuushi, he turned on his side and quickly faced away from him. Yuushi instantly reached for him. He held him close from behind, spoon-style which somehow helped the sudden ache Gakuto felt squeezing his chest. To distract himself from feeling this, Gakuto counted how many deep slow and even breaths he took as they lay there, and tried to get angry because it was the only thing that ever helped him before. He didn't feel angry though, just hurt and sad, and most of all he wasn't gonna cry.

On breath four, Yuushi whispered, "I'm sorry..." The tensai held him as if he was afraid Gakuto was gonna storm away angry when all the little redhead wanted to do was to be held even tighter. Even closer. Don't let go. Yuushi sounded upset when he asked, "What did I do?"

He heard what Yuushi asked him and was surprised because he kinda forgot that Yuushi would blame himself for Gakuto acting all upset and stupid like this. All Gakuto could think of though was that he wasn't gonna cry. Not over this. Not now. There was nothing he could do about it so he wasn't gonna cry.

Gakuto couldn't look at the tensai because if he looked at him, he would cry for certain. "It's really stupid." He drew a shuddery breath, "No...it's not you and you didn't do anything wrong Yuushi. It's just...sorry...gimme a minute..." Yuushi gave him time. Gakuto fought to not cry and to find the words to express himself at the same time, "I don't...I don't have anything like that to give someone...like a first...but it's nice that you want to give me that..." He was really, really close to crying and it was so damn stupid to cry over something as stupid as this that he wasn't gonna do it!

He took several deep breaths in and out and tried not to cry. It was a sore place that Gakuto didn't touch because it hurt and because it had been sitting there so long, he was kinda afraid to go there. Yuushi was good and quiet and let him which kinda sucked because what he needed to do was to get angry. All the tensai did was hold him closer and tighter. But what really hurt, was thinking that Yuushi might reject him now. That made him really afraid and when Gakuto feared something, he rushed ahead.

Like when a tooth hurts and you know if you touch it with your tongue its gonna hurt more, but you just can't stop pressing it, Gakuto pressed. "Look," he started but heard how tight his throat was with the tears he was holding back. He swallowed, pulled Yuushi's arms around him tighter and tried again, "It's cool. It's fine. You can't be my first," he took in a shaky breath and continued, "I can't give you that but maybe you can be my only? You know if you wanna...?"

Gakuto shrugged and waited for Yuushi to react.

The tensai didn't move.

Gakuto didn't even feel Yuushi breathing and for one moment he thought maybe he had shocked him so much he had killed him. He had pretty much put Yuushi through hell since the tensai confessed to him.

"Gakuto?" Yuushi asked in a strange voice. He sounded shocked, and Gakuto thought to himself that the tensai was gonna turn him down.

Hell the guy had been beaten, raped, and abused since he confessed, why the hell would anyone wanna stick around for more? Gakuto tried to reason this through with himself and steel himself, but his throat felt tight again. It was a really stupid thing to ask another guy. Really Gakuto was such an idiot. The only person he found he was really mad at was himself.

"Gakuto, please look at me?"

Gakuto shook his head no. He couldn't really face this right now and didn't wanna look at him. In fact he couldn't look at him because he had tears in his eyes that were making everything all blurry. He turned more away, and pressed his face was down in the bed so Yuushi couldn't see him cry over this like a girl. This was stupid. So stupid! They had both been with other people. Girls and guys so what the hell did this matter? Gakuto should have never asked. Gakuto felt naked and stupid now. He really shouldn't have pushed.

He shoulda just let this go, or earlier he shoulda just had sex and they woulda been past all this crap like Gakuto usually did. Then Gakuto was surprised because even though it was true, he didn't realize he did this every time until right then. With girls and guys he had dated before, Gakuto had pushed and rushed things to skip all this beginning crap. Whenever it felt awkward or he felt afraid he pushed or left for the high of someone new. It wasn't always being brave when Gakuto felt afraid, instead when it came to this, he ignored what made him feel afraid and covered it up with things that felt good at the moment.

Gakuto would really like someone, or think he did and he would race ahead to get close to them. He pushed and pressed until they said they loved him, usually if they hadn't said it before they first went out, then he would get them to say it within the first day or so that they dated. He spent every moment with them. He could think only about them and knew they were only able to think about him. Racing ahead the whole affair would be over in a week. Two at the most. It would flash by so fast and yet, it was so quick he wouldn't have gotten to know them at all. They wouldn't know him either, but he had pushed and pushed forward in this fake pseudo-way of feeling close and connected with no time to think or breathe so it seemed real. Gakuto would end it then for someone new, even though it was still kinda fun, he would be outta there long before the other person could decide they didn't like him or hurt him.

It was only different with Yuushi because Yuushi needed him to wait. Gakuto also suspected that Yuushi probably knew this about him, and that when the tensai said he liked him, hell loved him, how Gakuto was hadn't mattered to stupid Yuushi. It was probably part of the stupid tensai's plan all along. In fact, Yuushi had probably used all this to his advantage. No one had needed Gakuto before because Gakuto usually rejected anyone who seemed needy. Instead he chose people who seemed strong, strong enough to either protect him or to survive when he quickly dumped them. Yuushi though was an odd mix of someone who was very strong, and yet deep down, maybe even more than even stupid Yuushi knew, he needed Gakuto.

It felt good when Yuushi said he loved him, and it felt even better that the tensai needed him. Gakuto had liked it. He was gonna be really upset now that it was over. And it would be over, because he couldn't be with someone who wanted to be with other people.

It surprised Gakuto because he had cheated on several people he dated and thought he really liked, but it was true. When it really mattered, when it came down to it and Gakuto really liked someone--it turns out Gakuto wasn't such a slut after all. Stupid Yuushi was right again. Gakuto felt completely useless and stupid for not knowing this before about himself.

Yuushi somehow musta figured out Gakuto felt stupid or at least naked because he moved the robe to cover him up and then slid his warm, strong hand softly over under it, touching the skin on Gakuto's back. Gakuto had to fight his urge to press up against Yuushi's hand to make the soft caress more. Yuushi kept touching his back in nice slow circles. He even held Gakuto close after a while and kissed the back of his neck all swirly which sent more of those good shivers down Gakuto's spine and more regrets spinning up to his head.

"Gakuto?" Yuushi sounded soft and moony for some reason. Gakuto wondered if the reason the people Yuushi dumped before were so upset because the guy was so damn nice even when he was dumping them.

Yuushi kept moving his hand and spoke softly, "I love you. I love you more than anything or anyone else ever in my life. I am closer to you than anyone else I've ever known. I trust you and you can trust me to never hurt you or leave you. I want to be with you. I love being with you more than anyone else I've ever been with. I want nothing more than to be your only. It's the biggest gift you could ever give me." Yuushi whispered in his ear, "I love you Gakuto, and I'm going to tell you that I love you as many times as you need to hear it until you really get it..."

Gakuto stayed frozen for a moment. He turned his face to look up at the tensai. He was shocked at hearing his words said back to him, and tried to figure out what Yuushi meant by them.

Yuushi smiled, "Hello."

Gakuto rolled his eyes and stayed where he was.

Yuushi bent close to kiss him softly on his cheek, his forehead, and then his lips. The tensai said softly, "I love you. Gakuto, I want to be your only, and I want you to be my only. I don't want anyone in between us either. Not ever. Being your first isn't important to me. What is important to me is being your only. When we are together for the first time, when we make love, it will be us having our first time, and that will mean more than anything. You on top, me on top, the details don't matter to me. It can be whatever way you want. I want to be your only. And Gakuto, what I really want, isn't for you to be my first, it's for you to be my last. I intend to be your last, Gakuto."

Gakuto's jaw dropped open and without thinking he gasped, "Yuushi! Are you stupid? We're in junior high!"

Yuushi smiled as if his reaction was funny, "So? I know what I want. I know how I feel, and I love you."

Gakuto turned a bit and smiled at the big dummy, "Oh yeah? What about the curse? You really think we're gonna beat the curse?"

Yuushi smiled, "With all my heart, I do."

There was a Hyoutei legend that whoever you dated, kissed, fooled around with, or had sex with in junior high you would be broken up with by the time you got out of high school. It was simply referred to as 'the curse' and it was said that the more serious you were with someone and the more you two were in love in junior high, the more likely you would hate that person by the end of high school. In all the history of Hyoutei as far as anyone could remember no two people who dated in junior high ever ended up together.

Gakuto flipped over on his back not caring that he was now half undressed under the heavy robe. The bed seemed to hold in heat and he felt hot. Stupid Yuushi thinking they would beat the curse. Not that it really bothered Gakuto because, hell when he thought about it, he never thought that anyone would know all this stuff about him in the first place or he would feel this way about someone. And a guy no less. Gakuto kinda had to admit he preferred guys, but he also always had a little plan to marry some babe--an extremely wealthy babe. Not that he didn't wanna work, but life seemed easier when people were filthy rich like Atobe or Jiroh. He'd always had this little fantasy of taking exotic vacations with his sexy little wealthy wife, and showing her off. Everyone would be so impressed and want her, but she would only have eyes for Gakuto. He shook his head absently to dismiss the freakishly wrong vision he suddenly had of Yuushi's head on his hot little wealthy wife's body wearing a skimpy thong bikini.

Yuushi softly touched his skin. In his serious voice he started yakking as usual, "I don't believe in the curse. I think it's an urban legend told to the students to scare and discourage us from getting serious until we're older. In fact, I'm willing to bet that statistically it doesn't hold up at all. I'm quite certain plenty of people that meet and date while they're young actually do stay together or even get back together later in life and that many relationships, including homosexual relationships are never discussed or taken into account in this myth of the curse. I'm positive that if we took an honest and random sampling..."

Gakuto began to zone out as he usually did when Yuushi started to talk about statistics.

Yuushi brought him back by holding him closer and saying, "Gakuto, we've both survived some hard things in our lives. We've both had a lot to overcome. It's made each of us mature faster and have to be stronger than the average person our age. I can't imagine being with anyone else like this or wanting to. I can't imagine opening up and sharing what I've been through to anyone else, and if that is naive, then I don't care as long as being naive means being with you." Yuushi smiled, "I love you. Maybe someday I'll even be not jealous enough for us to try a threesome with you in the middle, but for now, I want to be with you only, and I'd love for you to only be with me."

Gakuto looked at him and considered everything the tensai said and wanted. He sighed and decided he had no choice. He had to tell him. Yuushi needed to know all this stuff first or it wasn't fair, even if it meant stupid Yuushi would leave him. Gakuto felt he owed him that, well, he didn't really owe him everything, but he wanted Yuushi to know. It went against everything his Mom had told him over and over again to never ever do. It was taking the biggest risk he had ever taken. It was really facing something he feared. Gakuto swallowed and said, "Okay but first, before you say all that Yuushi, I gotta tell you some stuff. Things that no one else knows."

A/N: Sorry this site has been down the last few days so I was only able to post this on my lj until now. Updates are often there first.

Anyway, more soon!

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